Afterwards, I fell asleep wrapped in his arms. I’d never felt so high on life, and I was hoping I’d never have to come back down.
“I HAVE TAN LINES,” I said, peeling off my bathing suit and getting ready to get in the shower.
“Tan lines are sexy.”
I turned to see Sebastian relaxing on the bed, his arms tucked behind his head.
“You think everything is sexy.”
“Everything that has to do with you.”
The past week had been heaven. Lying on the beach, drinking margaritas, and having sex in the Jacuzzi.
Sebastian made me feel like a queen—a worshipped sex goddess he couldn’t seem to get enough of. It was like he’d done a complete one-eighty.
He whispered words of love and affection, showing me how deeply he felt with everything he did. He touched me every chance he got and gave me kisses full of passion constantly. It was perfection, and I was starting to think that my life was finally falling into place.
After my shower, I dressed and Sebastian took me to dinner at a comfortable little restaurant on the beach. We ate seafood and drank too much.
Afterward, I kicked off my sandals and we walked on the beach holding hands. He looked incredible in a pair of rolled up khakis and a loose, white button down shirt. His hair was a wind-blown sexy mess and whenever he smiled, I knew his dimples were the cutest thing I’d ever see.
“Dance with me,” he said, pulling me into his arms and dipping me.
I laughed and let my sandals fall to the ground. “There’s no music.”
“We’ll make our own music.”
He held my hand and my waist, humming softly in my ear. We danced under the stars, the waves in the background keeping up with his melody.
“You’re such a romantic.”
“Am not,” he grinned.
“Then what would you call this?” I asked.
“I call this an excuse to feel your body against mine.”
I giggled. “Sure it is.”
And then he pushed his hardness against my thigh, and I couldn’t help but giggle more.
“Pipe down, Pepe Le Pew,” I joked.
This time he was the one laughing. He squeezed me tight. “I can’t help it. You are ze corned beef to me, and I am ze cabbage to you,” he said in his best French accent.
I didn’t want our stay to come to an end, but unfortunately, reality was an evil bitch and Sebastian had to get back to his club. After packing, I had two extra suitcases, filled with stuff Sebastian had bought for me in Barbados.
The plane ride back was a lot smoother than it was coming, but Sebastian made the ride easier by holding my hand and whispering soothing words into my hair.
It was a late flight. There were only a few of us on the plane, so when Sebastian covered us with a blanket and I felt his hand slip between my thighs, I only put up a small fight.
His fingers worked their magic and before I knew it I was quietly panting and moaning into his shoulder. When we stepped off the plane, I was already looking forward to our next trip.
“STAY. SLEEP. I’M GOING TO make an appearance downstairs and I’ll be right back.”
He pulled away from me, pulling back the sheet and kissing any piece of bare skin he could find.
“Hurry back.”
Thirty minutes passed and I figured I might as well get up and take a shower. Stepping into Sebastian’s massive shower, I stood under the multiple shower heads and let the steaming water pour over me.
When I got out, the luxurious towel I wrapped around my body had been warmed by a towel warmer.
Going back into Sebastian’s bedroom, I pulled off my robe and dressed in a pair of his boxers and one of his Tshirts. I had my own clothes, but I preferred wearing his.
I spent the next twenty minutes being nosey. There were pictures to look at and colognes on his dresser to smell. He was so organized, it was cute.
“Are you snooping?” I spun around to see Vick standing in the door way of Sebastian’s room.
I flushed, twisting my hands together in front of me and smiled at her. She didn’t smile back and there was something very odd about her behavior.
“Maybe just a little.” I tried another small smile, but she wasn’t having it.
“Sebastian doesn’t like his girls being nosey, Jessica.”
Her tone gave me pause. Not because it was angry, but because there was something else mixed in. She sounded… jealous.
“He doesn’t call me that anymore. He knows my name.”
She nodded condescendingly. “Oh, right. Do you think that makes you special, Rosslyn? Do you think Sebastian is going to marry you now and you’ll ride off into the sunset together?”
My shoulders stiffened. “I don’t know what to expect, but I know Sebastian is changing… and he likes it.”
She scoffed, her face twisting angrily. “Are you shitting me with this? Men don’t change, especially men like Sebastian.”
I felt bad for Vick. She was in love with Sebastian and he was in love with someone else. I didn’t know what that felt like, but it was easy to try and understand when I thought of Sebastian being with someone else.
“I’m sorry if this hurts you, Vick. I know it can’t be easy to see Sebastian with me, but…”
She barked a laugh so loud it made me jump. “Wow, you really are fucking nuts.” Her eyes narrowed and she glared at me like she was waiting for me to catch fire under her stare. “You have no idea what you’re talking about and you have no idea who Sebastian really is, or what he’s done in the past.”
I shook my head. “I don’t care what he’s done in the past. What’s done is done, and I’m sure there are things he regrets. But it doesn’t change the way I feel about him now. I love him and I would do anything for him.”
She stared at me long and hard. “So you’re in love with him. You would do anything for him. Does that include keeping his secrets?”
“Yes.”
“I bet if you knew, if you only knew, you’d hate him. You’d wish you never met him. You may even wish him dead.”
I frowned, not understanding what she was trying to tell me. “What are you talking about?”
“Everyone has skeletons, Rosslyn. Some worse than others. You just have to know where to look.”
She came toward me and I felt a rush of fear. But she walked past me and I turned, not trusting my back to her. Pulling on the corner of a picture of the Brooklyn Bridge, she revealed a safe tucked secretly behind it.
She didn’t make a move to open it as she turned and walked back toward the door to leave the room. I didn’t know what she expected me to do without the combination.
And then she began calling out numbers. “021201. If you want to know more about Sebastian, the things you have the right to know, then open the safe.”
She didn’t wait for me to respond as she walked from the room. I turned back to look at the safe and I felt nervous. My hands began to sweat and my heart was racing.
I rubbed my palms on my pants as I tried to tell myself there was nothing in that safe I needed to know about. But even as I told myself that, I was repeating the number Vick said back in my head over and over again. 021201, 021201, 021201.
I could have left it alone and told Sebastian everything Vick said when he returned. I could have asked him what was in the safe, but I had the feeling he wouldn’t tell me. I also had a feeling that whatever was in the safe would be long gone if I ever asked about it.
Taking a deep breath, I took a slow step toward the wall, and then another until I was close enough to enter the code. When I reached toward the buttons, my fingers shook. I ignored the trembling and placed my finger over the first number.
The safe made a sound that sounded louder than it actually was, and popped open. My head whipped toward the door, but it remained empty. My racing heart pounded in my ears as I pulled open the heavy door.
There was nothing out of the ordinary at first sight and I breathed a sigh of relie
f. I didn’t know what I expected to find, but I was glad it wasn’t any body parts. I shifted through the papers, they looked like old newspaper clippings, and a few stacks of money.
Then, I felt a small hand gun. It scared me at first and I snatched my hand back like it was a venomous snake. I scolded myself for acting like a scared idiot, and moved my fingers over the gun. It didn’t look dangerous, but that didn’t matter. It was older—not at all like something I pictured Sebastian using, but I figured it had sentimental value.
Next to the gun was a medium-sized, black box. I pulled it from the safe, opening the lid. There were pictures of Sebastian and Vick when they were younger, an old match box, and tiny trinkets that I’m sure meant something to Sebastian, but didn’t stand out to me at all.
Shifting through the pictures, I smiled at each one. My eyes landed on the next item and all the happiness was sucked out of me. Lifting it, I looked down at the locket in the palm of my hand. It looked just like…but that was impossible. My mother’s locket was stolen that night.
The chain was broken and slipped through the tiny clasp of the locket, making a tiny clinking noise when it hit the floor. Pressing on the side of the locket, it popped open and my heart shattered into a million pieces. My eyes took in the tiny picture of the infant I knew was Kyle before landing on my picture. I was nine in the picture and I was the happiest person in the world.
My tears blurred the picture, making the locket look as if it was floating in my palm. I was having a nightmare. No way was this happening. I was still sleeping and I needed to wake up.
I closed my eyes and tried to envision the boy from that night—the way he stood, the way he held his shoulders straight, and his walk… it all felt so familiar to me now.
Closing the locket, I clutched it tightly in my fist, the latch on the side digging into my palm. And then I remembered the gun.
I felt like I couldn’t breathe as the realization of what that gun was, what it was used for, came to me. The truth of it was choking me and I couldn’t do anything to stop it.
The newspaper clippings covered the gun, and I reached for them. A tear fell down my cheeks as I shifted through them, reading story after story about the death of my parents. The date caught my attention, February 12, 2001… 021201. Sebastian’s safe code was the date my parents were killed.
“What are you doing?” Sebastian asked from behind me.
I turned on him with angry tear-filled eyes.
“What is this Sebastian?”
The color drained from his face. I watched as sadness and regret filled his features and I knew—I just knew.
Sebastian was a murderer.
“DID YOU HAVE A NICE little vacation?” Vick sneered from behind me.
I was looking down over my club. The place I once thought was the only thing I could love…until Rosslyn. I was in love with a women who trusted me when she had no right to.
I wasn’t in the mood to fight with Vick. “We did.”
Her stunned silence followed. She expected me to be harsh and rough with her, but I wasn’t playing any games with her tonight.
“We? Now you’re a couple?”
I sighed and dropped my head, pinching the bridge of my nose between two fingers. Obviously she was in the mood to push my buttons.
Turning around, I picked up my drink from corner of my desk and tossed back the remains. The glass made a deep sound when I set it back down. I’d lost count of how many drinks I’d had since I left Rosslyn sleeping, but the slight buzz was numbing the constant guilt I felt since I found out who she was.
“Yes, Vick, we’re a couple. I told you she was different. I’m in love with her. I’ve never been in love with anyone the way I love her.”
“You’re in love with her. Are you insane Sebastian? We killed…”
I cut her off. “We? We didn’t kill anyone. You did.”
It was something that haunted my mind for years.
“Come the fuck on, Sebastian,” Vick whispered as she disappeared over the side of the fence.
She was faster than me now that she was older, but still clumsy, which was why I never let her do jobs by herself. She wasn’t ready, even if she thought she was.
I lifted myself up over the fence and fell to my feet beside her.
“You’re getting slow,” she grinned over at me.
“Fuck you,” I said, standing up and dusting off the knees of my pants. “Let’s get this shit over with. I told Anthony we’d be back in two hours.
We moved across the perfectly manicured backyard toward the house Vick had her eyes on for the last year. She said it was the house of her dreams. She wanted a home and family like the one inside.
We all had our dreams and envisioned the kind of life we’d have if we hadn’t been given away, so I understood her obsession with the house. Even though I’d told her, over and over again, I picked the houses, I knew her birthday was coming. So like a dumbass, I promised her we’d do the house she wanted.
“Okay, are you sure the people are out of town? I asked.
“Yes. Now quit worrying. We’ll be in and out before you know it.”
I trusted Vick with my life. I had no reason to believe she would lie to me about anything.
“Fine, but still no lights. The neighbors around neighborhoods like this, watch each other’s backs. Let’s just get in, get the shit, and get the fuck out.”
“I’m not an idiot, Sebastian. I’ve done this more than you.”
The stolen credit card I used on the back door, bent as I pressed it into the lock. Pulling on the knob, the door popped open.
“Like a pro,” Vick whispered with a smile.
She bumped her shoulder into mine playfully. That was the problem. She played too much in serious situations like the one we were in.
I gave her the evil eye, telling her to shut the fuck up, and then moved stealthily through the house. Vick was on my heels as we moved through the place, looking for valuables. The bottom floor was spotless and we didn’t find much of anything.
“Come on,” Vick whispered, taking the stairs to the second floor.
I followed behind her and into the master bedroom.
“Jackpot,” Vick whispered, tugging on my arm. “Help me get the TV.”
Nodding my head, I moved toward the wall with the TV and we both lifted it from the stand and onto the floor. It was at that moment, the bathroom door flew open and a man in a pair of silk pajama pants stepped out. He was yawning with his eyes closed and scratching his head. Once his eyes opened, they landed on us. Vick and I both froze in the light coming from the bathroom.
“What are you doing in my house?”
He moved toward the side of the bed toward the phone. It was then I saw a lady sleeping on the other side.
I held up my hands. “No need for that. We’ll just leave.”
I moved toward the door hoping Vick would follow. Neither of us needed to be arrested.
I was standing in the doorway when I looked back. Vick wasn’t there. Instead, she was standing in front of the man and she was holding a gun up at him.
“What are you doing?” I said, making my way back toward her. “No. This is not how this is going down.”
I broke into houses to survive, but carrying a gun around and pulling it on people was not okay with me.
“He’s going to call the cops, Sebastian,” she said in a hushed tone. “Fuck, now he knows your name. I’m sorry. Shit, I’m so sorry.”
Her eyes were wild. She was freaking out.
“Vick, just give me the gun. We’ll get the hell out of here, and no one will know anything. Let’s just go.” I said calmly as I reached out for the gun.
Her hand was shaking, which meant her trigger finger was shaking, too.
And then everything moved in slow motion. The husband stood there with his hands up, fear in his eyes, while the wife started to stir. And then she sat straight up in bed and screamed.
The gunshots rang out, deafening me as I wa
tched the man fall to the floor. Blood oozed from his neck and he choked as he tried to breathe. I moved quickly toward Vick, but it was too late. The wife was running toward the door and Vick was shooting over and over again.
Everything went silent, except for the sounds of the husband taking his last breath, and the wife beginning to choke and gasp for life. And then, the screams of a baby in the room next door.
Vick dropped the gun, and took off running as if I wasn’t even in the room with her. Her loud footsteps on the wooden stairs echoed throughout the house. I stood there in shock, sure that I was dreaming, but the woman started moaning. I should have ran, but I didn’t. Instead, I dropped to my knees next to the woman dying on the floor and I grabbed her hand.
“I’m so sorry,” I whispered to her. “I’m so sorry.”
Her wide eyes were trained on me as her body started to shake. Blood splattered from her mouth and landed on her lips. She was trying to say something, but I couldn’t understand. Leaning down closer to her, I turned my head so that she could speak in my ear.
“Please,” she struggled to say.
And then I felt her shaking fingers on mine as she placed something hard and cold in my palm. She closed my hand around the object and pleaded to me with her eyes. I didn’t know what she was asking me for, but I couldn’t help her.
I should have called the police or the ambulance, but I wasn’t thinking straight and I was scared. I’d never seen anyone die before and my stomach was twisting with fear. All I did was lean over her and watch as a tiny tear fell from her eye and she took her last breath.
I opened my hand and looked down at the locket in my palm. What was she trying to tell me?
And then a sound at my left made me jump and I looked up to see a young girl standing in the doorway looking back at me. She was no more than ten. Her tiny feet peeked out from under her nightgown as her fear-filled eyes took in the scene around her.
The woman obviously wanted me to have the locket. I didn’t know what else to do, so I popped the chain from around her neck. I stood holding her locket in my hand. My eyes clashed with the little girl’s once more, and then I took off, running past her and down the stairs. Once I lifted myself over the fence, I puked all over the ground, before running off into the darkness.
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