Still silence. I wanted her to say something—anything—to let me know she didn’t want me to go, or that she’d miss me, but there was nothing.
I stood up, finally tired of this back-and-forth shit with her. If she didn’t know what she wanted to do or how she felt, I’d just make that decision easier for her. “Well, since you don’t have any questions or anything to say, I’ll just be on my way. I just wanted to come by and say . . . I’ll . . . good . . .” I put my head down and just shook it. “I just wanted to say see ya around.”
I couldn’t bring myself to say good-bye or see you later like my aunt told me. The thing was, I didn’t know what I wanted to do when it came to JaNair.
I was halfway out of the door when I heard what sounded like sniffles. I froze my stride and just stood there. Was she crying?
When I heard the sound again, I turned around and found JaNair with her shoulders hunched over, head down, and hands covering her face.
“Jay, what’s wrong? What’s the matter?”
Again silence.
“Jay . . .”
“You know, I never answered your question that day I came to your room,” I heard her say just above a whisper.
I stood there not knowing what to do or what to say. It was now my turn to be mute and give her the silent treatment. That, and I hadn’t the slightest idea of what she was talking about.
She finally looked up at me with a tear-streaked face, and although her eyes were puffy and red, those cocoa-brown irises did it to me every time. I wanted to just grab her and hold her in my arms while wiping her tears away, but before I did that, I needed to hear what she had to say. She licked her pouty lips and tucked the bottom one into her mouth. God, she was trying to kill me right now. The simplest things JaNair did turned me on like crazy. However, my patience was starting to wear thin, and I think she realized that, because a few seconds later, she started to speak again.
“I’m talking about the last time I was in your room, Semaj. You asked me if I was really sorry for kissing you, knowing that I was still in a relationship with Jerome.”
I nodded my head. I remember what she was talking about now. She had my dick hard as hell that day too. I didn’t know where this trip down memory lane was going, but she had my attention.
“OK! Sooo . . . some weeks later, you’re ready to give me an answer?”
Ignoring my sarcastic response, she walked up to me, stood on her tippy toes, and pulled my head down to hers.
“Yes, I do have an answer.” She looked me in the eyes. “I wasn’t sorry then, and I’m damn sure not sorry now,” she said as she placed her soft lips to mine.
JaNair
“Please don’t reject me. Please don’t reject me” was all I kept saying as I slipped my tongue into Semaj’s mouth. I don’t know what came over me, but the need to feel his lips against mine took over. Maybe it was what he just said about leaving for Texas, or maybe it was the conversation LaLa, Tangie, and I had last night. It was so funny how one was all for Team Jerome, and the other was all about Team Semaj. Listening to their pros and cons on both men was kind of weird, especially with Tangie rooting for her baby daddy. However, at this moment, LaLa’s favorite was winning. Whatever it was that we were doing felt so right.
I deepened the kiss, and he didn’t resist. When he pulled my bottom lip in between his and started to suck on it the same way I remember him sucking on my clit, I totally lost my mind. Any thoughts of rejection that were floating through my head were easily pushed to the side.
I wrapped my arms around his neck, and he pulled me closer into his body. The sexiest moan escaped from his throat, and I could feel the wetness that soaked my panties starting to slide down my thigh.
“Are you sure you’re ready to go there with me, Jay?” he asked between kisses. “Because once we get started, I’m not going to want to stop.”
Not even entertaining the thought of stopping, I took his hand, laced it with mine, and walked him to my bedroom. As soon as I closed the door, he turned me around and gently pushed me up against the wall. I stared into his cocoa-colored eyes for a few seconds before I started to trace the outline of his facial features with my fingers. When I rested my open palm on the side of his face, he closed his eyes.
Semaj was indeed one of the most gorgeous men I’ve ever seen. His full lips were soft and inviting. His brown skin was smooth to the touch. The way he flexed that strong jawline whenever I touched him was sexy as fuck. My eyes traveled to his freshly twisted dreads which were pulled to the back of his head in a low ponytail. Not liking the fact that he had his locks tied down, I snatched the thin band off.
He opened his eyes and spoke in a low, husky voice. “What I tell you about pulling on my shit like that, JaNair?”
Looking into his hooded eyes, I didn’t even answer. I just took another two handfuls of dreads and yanked those muthafuckas hard as hell.
I don’t remember how or when it happened, but the white gown I had on was on the floor, my purple silk panties were ripped off, and my body was being turned upside down and hoisted into the air. We were now in the sixty-nine position but standing up. I could feel all the blood from my body rushing to my head. I started to tell Semaj to put me down, but when he blew on my pussy, then used his cool tongue to part my slick folds, I damn near fainted.
I could feel his legs start to move as he kept devouring my shit. Wherever he was taking me, he needed to hurry up and get there because I didn’t know how much longer I could take being in this position and coming back-to-back. The first time I came, my head started to spin, so I knew that if I came again, I’d more than likely pass out.
When we got to what I guess was my bed, he stopped his deadly assault on my clit and laid me down. I watched as he undressed down to his boxer briefs and lay down in the bed next to me. He pressed his fingertip to my lip, and I opened my mouth and took it in. I sucked and twirled my tongue around his thick digit for a minute before he took it out and trailed a path down my body. Starting at my neck, he passed between my titties, circled my stomach, and stopped at the top of my pussy. He slid a finger inside of me and let my juices coat it real good before he took it out and put it in his mouth.
“Do you know that you taste and smell like peaches?” I shook my head. “Well, you do, and for the life of me, I can’t get enough of it.”
I didn’t know what to say, so I just bit my bottom lip and nodded my head. I also made a mental note to visit Bath & Body Works to stock up on my Peach Bellini smell good since he liked the scent so much.
My phone which was on the nightstand started to go off. I knew by the ringtone who was calling, and for a small second, I started to feel bad about what I was doing. But then again, if memory serves me right, we weren’t together right now anyway.
“Do you need to get that?” Semaj asked as he sat up on the bed.
I contemplated on that question for a minute, then shook my head. I reached out my hand for him to pass my phone to me. Just as he placed it into my palm, it started to go off again with the same ringtone. I quickly declined the call and turned my phone completely off.
“I don’t think you’re ready for this to happen, JaNair,” Semaj said, blowing out a breath and wiping his hand down his face.
“I . . . I . . . I am ready.” What the hell? Why was I stammering over my words?
He shook his head. “The way that you just said that lets me know that you’re not.”
“But I am, Semaj.” I think.
“Then prove it and come with me.”
Did he just ask me to—?
“Come with me to Texas and stay out there with me for the three months.”
Wow! I was really speechless now. If he would’ve said a week or two, I would’ve been all for it. But three months? That would be a long-ass time for me to be away from my home and in a state that I didn’t know anyone or anything about. Plus, I still had some unresolved issues with Jerome.
Yeah, I was really acting out of character with
almost taking it there with Semaj, but that didn’t mean that my feelings for Jerome weren’t still there. And I would hate to lead Semaj on when I know I wouldn’t be able to give him all of me right now.
I didn’t want to say no, and I didn’t want to say yes, so I did the next best thing, which was come up with excuses.
“I . . . I . . . I don’t know, Semaj, what about school?”
“You can do some online courses, and there’s always Texas A&M.”
“What about a place to live? I don’t want to invade your space.”
“I’ma have more than enough room for both of us in the three-bedroom condo the label is providing for me.”
Shit. He had an answer for everything. I was still on the fence on what I wanted to do, so I kept on going.
“Well, you know I’m on a budget since Mya doesn’t live here anymore and I don’t have any extra money to just be spending all willy-nilly. Plus I wouldn’t feel right if you would have to pay for everything.”
He stood up and started to put his clothes back on. “Why not, JaNair? I won’t have a problem with taking care of you mentally, physically, or financially. And if you’re really worried about money, I’m pretty sure I could pull a few strings with the label to put you somewhere. I mean, you already have a degree in business management, and you’re going for your MBA, so it shouldn’t be hard.”
I smiled at him. He really had this all figured out. Yet and still, I wasn’t sure whether I wanted to go. I was so caught up in the war that I had going on in my head that I never noticed that Semaj was now fully dressed. “You got the answer to everything, huh?” I teased.
“Only when it comes to something I want.” He reached out his hand and pulled me up out of the bed. My naked body was still going through withdrawal of not having his tongue or touch on me. “So are you going to come with me and see how these country folks get down?” he asked as he pulled me into his embrace.
I know that this was probably the wrong answer and would probably be the worst choice I’ve ever made in my life, but right now, my mind was clouded with who and what I really wanted. Jerome was wrong for not telling me about his son, but was that little lie so unforgivable? God, I didn’t know what I wanted to do. And the fact that I was so undecided helped me to make up my mind.
“Semaj, I would love to come out to Texas and kick it with you, but three months is too long for me. Maybe when you come back we can go out and celebrate all that new money you’re going to be making once the world hears your music.”
He let his arms fall from my waist and stepped back from out of my space. With me being naked, I felt as if he was staring through my soul with the way he was looking at me, so I grabbed the sheet from off of my bed and wrapped it around my body. We stood there and stared at each other for a moment before he turned around and headed for the door.
“Semaj, wait!” I screamed running behind him. He was walking so fast I didn’t think I’d catch him before he reached the door. The sheet I was trying to hold up was so big around my body that I kept tripping with every step I took.
Before he left my house, he stopped and turned around to face me.
“We’re good, JaNair, so don’t trip about anything. I thought you wanted the same thing I did, and that’s why I invited you to come out there with me, but obviously, I was wrong. I guess I’ll see you when I get back. And if I don’t get the chance to call you on your birthday, Happy Birthday! Good-bye.”
And with that, he left my home and possibly left my life for good.
Jerome
So much stuff has happened in the last week that I didn’t know whether I was coming or going. First things first, JaNair finally started to accept my calls. We even went out to lunch and dinner a couple of times. I explained to her why I didn’t tell her about JJ and apologized for not keep it real from the jump. I even answered any questions she had regarding Tangie’s and my relationship. Although it was strictly coparenting now, I told her about the couple of times she and I did have sex in the beginning stages of our relationship. I thought that when I told her that, she’d jump up and walk out of the restaurant, but to my surprise, she stayed.
I did feel kind of bad when she asked me if I had sex with anyone else, and I said no. That would’ve been the perfect time to be honest, especially since we were starting over in a way. I knew that thing with LaLa wouldn’t be a problem, only because I knew and felt in my heart that the baby wasn’t going to be mine. Plus, LaLa was in the same boat as me. She didn’t want to lose JaNair, so she’d be taking that secret about us to the grave. On the other hand, that bitch Mya was going to be a problem, and I needed to do something about her ass as soon as possible. I thought about calling in a favor and having her disappear, but I didn’t want to spend the rest of my life in jail if it ever came to the light that I was behind it. I even thought about calling a couple of my ratchet female cousins who lived in South Central. I knew for a few dollars, they’d beat the hell out of her ass. But again, if the police ever caught up with them, I knew they’d dime me out for real.
Since I couldn’t come up with any other alternatives on my own, I guess the one Mya presented to me would have to work for right now. When I walked into my room that night after Tangie dropped my son off, it was Mya’s crazy ass that was in my bed. I’m not gonna lie, her lying there naked had my dick hard as fuck, but I couldn’t take it there with her loony ass anymore. If she got into my house undetected, ain’t no telling what else she could—and would—do. That conversation we had started to play in my head as I sat at my desk ignoring whatever my head of security for the club was saying.
“What the fuck are you doing here?”
“Now, Jerome, you know you miss me just as much as I miss you. C’mon over here and let me take care of you real quick.” She licked her lips, then started to play with her titties.
“Mya . . .” I had a hard time concentrating. My dick head was telling me to get on the bed and put him in her mouth while the head on my shoulders was telling me to get her the fuck out of my house. Thankfully, the right head prevailed. “Look, Mya, you gotta go. I told you already that what we did was a mistake, and it will never happen again. I love and want to be with your cousin, so whatever this little infatuation is that you have with me, you need to get over it.”
She stopped pleasing herself and looked up at me. “Whatever this is that we have between us will never stop, Jerome. Not unless you want JaNair to know all of your little secrets. And I’m pretty sure once she finds out you and her little nurse friend got something going on too, she’s really not going to want your ass. But I will.”
I shook my head. This bitch was crazier and loonier than I thought. “First off, JaNair already knows what’s going on between Tangie and me. She’s the mother of my son, even though that’s none of your business. Second, I ain’t got shit to worry about with LaLa, because you and I both know she’ll never tell her what happened, even if her baby turns out to be mine.”
“So that only leaves me, right?” she asked as she got up on her knees and started crawling toward me.
“Yes, that only leaves you. But if you know what’s best for you, you’ll keep your mouth shut too.”
She looked at me and smirked. “Is that a threat, Jerome? If it is, there’s no need for any of that. And to keep it real, I was hoping that we could come to a little agreement.”
Against my better judgment, I asked, “What type of agreement?”
She licked her lips again as she got up from my bed and pushed me against the wall. “I was thinking that I’d happily keep my mouth shut if you let me have some of this bomb-ass dick whenever I called for some.”
As tempting as her offer was, I couldn’t do it. Knowing Mya, she’d call every hour on the hour trying to get fucked, and I couldn’t risk it. I told her my thoughts, and she backed up and sat back on the bed. She started to pick up the clothes she’d taken off and put them back on.
A sudden gush of relief flowed through my body. Was she actual
ly going to just keep her mouth shut and leave JaNair and me alone? All the great thoughts swarming around in my head came crashing down when she said what I had to have her repeat. My ears must’ve been deceiving me right now. I know she didn’t just say what I thought she said.
“What did you just say?”
“I said since you’re not willing to fuck me for my silence, you will have to pay me instead.”
Yep, that’s what I thought she said.
“I don’t have the money to pay you to keep your mouth shut. Are you crazy?”
She picked up her jacket and put it on, then grabbed her purse. Before she left my bedroom, she turned around.
“The fact that you would sit here and tell me that bold-faced lie just doubled the amount of what I want. Let me put you in on a little secret, my dear Jerome. The next time you have someone bent over your desk fucking the shit out of them, make sure you put up all of your business financial papers. You tend to learn just what kind of money people’s business make when you don’t.” She turned around and started walking out. “I’ll be in touch about that first payment” was all I heard as she closed my front door.
“Mr. Hayes! Mr. Hayes! Are you all right?” I heard Roc ask, bringing me back from my thoughts.
“Ah, yeah. I’m good. I’m good.” I shook my head and got back to boss mode. “So, you said that everything for the party is set up? Everything is delivered, and the decorator and her crew will be here a few hours before to set up, right?”
He nodded his head, then went over what bouncers and security guards were going to be working that night. After going over instructions for VIP and entrance fees, Roc finally got up and left.
I took my phone out of my pocket and sent JaNair a few text messages, letting her know that I was thinking about her and that I had a few surprises set up for her when I got to her house tonight. She responded and also asked me to pick up some food from her favorite Chinese spot before I got there.
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