by Mira Maxwell
She spreads her legs before me and the scent of her arousal encompasses me, making me wild with the need to mate her. Her pussy lips are swollen and wet, shining with her desire for me. It makes me want to puff out my chest with pride. Such a beautiful female and she wants me.
“You want me, don’t you?” I ask. Before she can answer I slowly slide my finger over her swollen folds, making her gasp and tense her fists into the blanket.
“Yes,” she says, her voice a mere breathy whisper. “I want you.”
I don’t make my mate beg. She will never beg for what she needs. I will give it freely and with pleasure.
Using my tongue, I flatten it and lick her from her core to her clit, savoring the taste of her arousal in my mouth. Her hips buck against my mouth and she moans again, searching for more friction where she needs it most.
“Don’t worry, my beauty. I will give you whatever you want.” I lick her slowly along her sensitive nub just how she likes it. “What else do you want?”
Her hands caress the back of my head while she holds me to her. “Take off your pants. Let me see all of you.”
It’s hard to pull myself away from her inviting cunt, but I want to do everything that will make her happy. I stand before her, looking down at her while I grab the waist of my pants and pull them down. My cock bobs freely before her.
She reaches down with the fingers on her hand and slowly rubs her pussy while she stares at my body with desire creating a haze in her eyes.
“Do you touch yourself, Lodyn? Show me how you like to be touched.”
She has no idea how close I am to spilling my seed all over her. She doesn’t know that I haven’t been with a woman for over a year and that there’s nothing I want more right now than to push my cock inside of her and form our mating bond.
I reach down and take my cock in my hands, squeezing it from the base to the tip. My eyes hold hers as she watches me touch myself. Her legs are spread wide below me with her fingers rubbing relentlessly on her clit. I take the pre-cum off of my tip and use it to lubricate my shaft, savoring the exiled pleasure so long forgotten by my body.
“Don’t make yourself come,” I tell her. “I want to be the one to make you come.” Her fingers slow and she nods her head subtly. I pump my cock a few more times with my fist before I release myself and crawl back on the ground next to Margo.
Her arms go around my neck and she pulls me close, crushing her lips to mine again and pressing her naked body against me. One arm wraps around her while the other hand explores every inch of her body. I cup her heavy breast in my hand, massaging the erect nipple with my fingers. I savor the smoothness of her skin, especially the skin on her inner thighs. She’s wet with her arousal and she’s soft and warm. I can’t stop myself from pushing my finger inside of her.
“Oh God, Lodyn. You feel so good. I need to feel all of you inside of me.”
Those words are the sweetest to my ears but I’m still conflicted and want to show constraint. “We should not. I will make you feel good in other ways.”
“It’s just us Lodyn. No one else ever needs to know.” She runs her hands over my body and takes my cock in her hand, squeezing its girth, reminding me of the pleasures that are within my grasp. “Please, Lodyn.” She sounds as if she’s begging me now and above wanting to stay true to my oath, I want to take care of my mate and give her what she needs.
I’ll never make her beg.
Seventeen
MARGO
I hear how I sound, begging Lodyn for his cock, but I can’t help myself. I’ve never wanted anything like I want him right now. My body is on fire for him.
His cock is in my hand and I’m squeezing him, feeling how hard he is for me. His size makes me think that he’ll split me in half but I’m not afraid. He makes me feel so safe, it’s scary.
“Okay, my mate. Whatever you desire.” Lodyn takes my hands and pushes them above my head, holding my wrists with one hand while he explores my body with the other. He uses one hand to massage one of my breasts while he uses his mouth to lick and suck on the other one.
“Lodyn!” I shout, unable to control myself with the bombardment of sensations he’s sending through my body.
“Scream as loud as you’d like, my beauty. It is only you and I and I want to hear how much I’m pleasing you.”
He slides his legs behind him and lets his hips rest on mine. His hard cock is resting between my swollen folds and it’s the most amazing thing I’ve ever felt. He moves very gently, sliding his cock up and down through my arousal, coating himself with my juices.
He releases my hands and I immediately run them over his broad chest and over his muscular arms. He supports his weight with his hands on the side of my body, bringing his mouth down to mine, capturing me with a sweet, slow kiss.
He keeps kissing me and the intensity of it starts to build until I’m moaning from the sensitivity that I’m feeling all over my body. I’m wound so tight and ready to come so badly that it’s almost painful. Our hips are still moving together, his cock sliding through my folds without going inside of me. It’s a wonderful feeling but I want more. I want the real deal.
“I’m ready,” I say. “I need you now, Lodyn.”
He pulls away from my cunt and the next thing I feel is the tip of his cock at my entrance. He pushes the head of his cock inside of me and stops. I’m already being stretched and I know that there’s a lot more that needs to fit. He pulls out and then pushes back in again, a little further this time. I’m gripping his biceps, feeling his body trembling to keep control while he tries to go slow.
“You’re so incredibly tight,” he says through a strained jaw. “I don’t want to hurt you.”
“You’re not hurting me. Keep going…please.”
His chest vibrates under my fingers as he pushes his cock inside me all of the way. He stills, looking intently into my eyes.
“How does that feel?” he asks.
“I feel…full.” It’s all I can think of to say.
Slowly, he slides out of me and pushes back in again, helping me get used to the sensation. After a few times of this slow in and out, the initial awkwardness that I was feeling melts away. I start to relax and let my hips move with him.
Now with every thrust he rubs against my pussy in a way that has me panting beneath him. Every inch of his cock pleasures me as he moves inside of me. I realize that I’m chasing something amazing with every rock of my hips.
“This feels so much better than I ever could have imagined,” I say, out of breath and overwhelmed with how I’m feeling.
“You have no idea,” he says. He’s thrusting harder now and all I can do is hold on for the ride and trust that he’s going to catch me when I fall. I’ve tuned out everything so I can concentrate on the orgasm that seems to be so close yet just out of reach. “Look at me,” Lodyn says, pulling me back to him. “Relax, and move with me.”
I do what he says.
I release the tension I’m inadvertently holding and let my body naturally move with him. His hand moves behind me and grips my ass, holding me to him so tightly. The friction is perfect and I start to moan as the orgasm that I’ve been seeking builds in my core.
My fingers grip his arms tightly as I continue to move my hips against his cock, savoring every intense sensation that’s pulsing through my body. His muscles tense under my hands and a masculine growl escapes his lips while I feel his cock pulse inside of me.
We’re both breathing heavily, our hearts pounding in our chests. Eventually he pulls out and I instantly miss feeling him inside of me. He lies next to me on the blanket, tucking me close to his body. The fire is softly crackling at my back and I’m finally warm in a way that I never thought possible while being on this planet. Lodyn’s hands gently caress my skin and I’m so relaxed I’m having a hard time staying awake. After the constant stress from the last few days, my mind is clear of worries, my body gently strumming from an amazing sexual encounter.
“How do you fe
el?” Lodyn’s words pull me back to consciousness. I was already floating off, ready to give in to the sleep on which I so desperately need to catch up.
“Amazing.” I tuck myself closer into Lodyn’s body and let his warmth wash over me. “I want to do that again…as soon as I close my eyes for just a little bit.”
There’s a rumble in his chest again, his slow laughter bubbling up from deep inside of him. I’m pretty sure I hear him say, “Okay.”
And I think I reply but I can’t be certain.
When I wake up I can instantly tell that I slept well. My mind is clearer, my body rejuvenated. Lodyn isn’t holding me anymore, but he wrapped me in the blanket and the fire is still blazing in front of me. It smells delicious in the cave and as if on cue, my stomach growls loudly.
“I knew you’d be awake soon with your stomach so angry,” Lodyn says, walking toward the fire from the back of the cave. “The meat is ready to eat and I have more water for you.” He hands me the water before walking over to the fire to get the meat that is warming next to it. My mouth starts watering. I’m completely ravenous. “Are you well-rested today?”
“Yes,” I say enthusiastically through a bite of the meat. “I can’t remember the last time I slept so well, actually.” I look at Lodyn. He’s sitting by the fire watching me. “Why don’t you come and sit closer to me? Give me more of your enticing body heat.” I pat the ground next to me and smile.
“If I come too close I’ll have you on your back with my cock deep in your cunt again.” His look is smoldering and somehow his words make me tingle between my legs. “It has been a lifetime since I’ve felt such pleasures. Though I can’t say I’m not conflicted about it.”
Oh God. Suddenly there’s a wave of guilt that washes over me for not being conflicted about it at all. I can’t help myself. It was hands down the most amazing experience that I’ve had so far in my life. The sex was amazing, but it’s Lodyn that made it so much more. I am happy to admit to myself that I have fallen for him—hook, line and sinker.
The lines have been blurred for me. I understand what my mission is and I still have every intention of completing it. I just don’t understand why it has to be one or the other. Why I can’t do my job and find an amazing life mate in the process. For that’s what I am. That’s what he calls me. His mate. And now that we’ve consummated our relationship, there’s a connection that we’ve established that won’t be so easily broken.
But now I look at Lodyn and I can see the conflict on his face. He took an oath to abstain from sex and I encouraged him to break it. I guess I was selfish in thinking he’d feel the same way as I did afterward.
“Like I said, Lodyn, no one else needs to know what happened.”
“I’ll know.” His smile is sad and the meat that I’ve been devouring in my happiness turns dry in my mouth. I take a drink of water to try to wash it down, pushing the rest of it away. My heart suddenly feels heavy as the realization of what’s happening hits me. Giving myself to him has made me want him more than I ever thought possible. But it seems to have had the opposite affect on him. He’s awash with guilt for breaking his oath, for letting his brothers down, even if they never know what happened between us in this cave. “I was weak,” he continues, “I gave in to my feelings but our situation is impossible. You can’t stay and I can’t go with you.”
“Why can’t you go with me?” He looks up and finally meets my eyes for the first time since he started spiraling down his path of guilt.
“I can go with you. I’ll help you find your team. Help you complete your mission. But then you’ll leave for Earth and I can’t follow you.”
“Why can’t you?” There’s a bit of desperation behind my words as he continues to shove the bleakness of our situation in my face. I sit up on my knees, pulling the blanket tightly around me and leaning forward, making Lodyn look at my face. “You can help me finish my mission. You can come with us when we return to deliver it. We can be together Lodyn. We are mates, like you said.”
“I can’t just leave my planet, Margo,” he says, dismissing my thought with a wave of his hand.
“But if you stay, you’ll die if someone finds out about what happened between us.”
“No one will find out. It’s better for both of us if we can keep things professional while we finish our mission.”
“Now you think we should keep things professional? Once you’ve fucked me? You got what you wanted and now I should go on about my business?”
“That isn’t what this is, Margo. You know this is an impossible situation for us. What choices do we really have?”
Now I know that Lodyn has made me feel something that I’ve never felt with a man before. A broken heart. The thought of having to leave him now? Now that I’m closer to him than anyone else in my life? We shared a connection through this crazy experience and now I don’t want to have to leave him behind. There’s a pain in my chest and I have an uncontrollable desire to lie down on the blanket and cry.
“Margo,” Lodyn says, repeating my name, trying to get my attention. He stands up like he’s going to come to me but I put up my hand to stop him.
“No, you’re right.” He stops and sits back down by the fire. I can’t look at him without fear that I’ll crawl in his lap and beg him to change his mind. But then the other part of me wants to memorize every feature about his face so I can remember exactly what he looks like when I dream about him at night. “You’re right,” I repeat, “We don’t have a choice. Through everything that has happened, we both still have jobs to do.”
I’m staring into the fire, trying to accept the decisions we’ve made and own the way I feel about it. I’m trying to figure out how to numb myself to keep me from feeling like I’m dying inside.
“Can I get you anything?” he asks.
“No. But I should get dressed, I’m sure we need to leave soon and make our way back.”
This time he doesn’t say anything but I can feel the storm of emotions taking hold inside of him. I still can’t look at him, even when he gets up and walks off into the back of the cave. The thing that sucks about having sex with your fated mate? Even when he’s not physically here next to me, I’ve never felt his presence more. I was a fool to think I could play this game and not get burned.
Eighteen
LODYN
The journey back is long and arduous. In order to get away from the Salthu, I took us high into the hills and ice ridges through various winding paths, much further out of the way than was probably necessary.
But I didn’t want to take any chances.
Now I’m carrying a much heavier burden than I ever have before. Knowing that I hurt Margo, hurt my mate, it’s more than I can bear. But above what I want, I need to think about what’s best for Margo. All I have to offer her is a life of exile. A life on the run, if I asked her to stay by my side. And that’s no life at all.
“Do you need to rest?” I say behind me. Margo has fallen behind and I know she’s doing it on purpose. She wants space between us.
“I’m fine,” she says, breathing heavily. “How much further do you think?”
It’s the first thing she’s said to me since we left the cave over three hours ago. I can’t help but smile. I crave interaction between us now like I need food or water. “There’s a guard post not too far from here. We can rest for a while, I’ll replenish our supplies and if none of the guards are out on patrol runs, we will be able to borrow a vehicle to get us back faster.”
“We’ll be able to get a ride back? That sounds amazing.” She’s leaning forward, resting her hand on her knee with her other hand on her waist. I know she’s tired but I also know how strong she is. She’s a fighter. She’ll make it to the outpost and then we’ll make it back to the ship by nightfall.
“It looked like you were close to repairing the ship before all of this happened.” Now that I got her talking, I don’t want her to stop. The sound of her voice settles my nerves.
“I was.” This line of
conversation is safe for both of us. She indulges me while we continue on. “The power was on,” she says in between deep breaths, “I think it needed time,” she continues, “To recharge the batteries completely.”
“That’s good news,” I say.
“Fuck,” she says, starling me enough that I turn around. “When are we going to be out of these mountains? I can’t catch my damn breath.”
“This is a safer path, more coverage than being out in the open. I don’t want to be spotted by a pack of Salthu while we’re stuck in the middle of a snow field.”
“Ugh,” she grunts but continues walking. I try not to think about how appealing to me the fire inside of her is. It’s so cruel that I find my mate now when our situation is hopeless. “Yeah, so anyway, I’m hopeful that when we return to the ship, the battery will be sufficiently charged and she’ll get off the ground this time.”
“And then what will you do?” Before she answers my question it feels as if a knife is plunging into my chest. I want to prolong our time together as much as possible.
“I’ll find my team, meet up with them, help them finish the mission.” She’s suddenly quiet again, as if talking about the future pains her as much as it does me.
I stop in the snow but I don’t turn around. She has stopped behind me and all we hear is the sound of our breathing. Uncertainty is wafting off of her, it’s so strong it makes me falter. I’m uncertain too, mostly because I don’t know that I’ll really be able to leave her when it comes time to do so.
If I turned around and saw her face right now, I’d throw her down and take her in the snow. There are too many moments where I want to say, “Fuck it,” and abandon all of the responsibility I’ve taken on and make a go of it with Margo. I can’t stop questioning why she would come into my life at this time if there wasn’t supposed to be more to come of it.