Surrealist, Lover, Resistant

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by Robert Desnos


  Never the Don Juan of uncaring haughty mettle,

  Striding down the stairways where the hellfire splendours run,

  Not the one who used to spray the Bible with his spittle,

  Sneering as he quaffed with the Governor of stone.

  Hearts are all untouched, for they’ve misread his pretty eyes,

  Only in dreams has his mouth the taste of kisses,

  Dreams that are dreamed in her sombre fantasies

  By one, relentless, who ignores him and despises,

  Buffets him with jewels of ice, with lips cadaver-cold,

  Thrusting her unspeaking mouth against his mouth and eyes,

  Her deadly sphinx’s eyes, her two hands’ feral hold

  On his eyes and hands, on his star and on the skies.

  Though his heart is brutalised by dead and monstrous creatures,

  Though they pierce his passions with their rotting pointed snout,

  For just a single manly kiss, you perishable sweethearts,

  On the Last Day’s threshold he will save you, pluck you out.

  Laughter on his lips will conjure strawberry crushes;

  Purer is the destiny, the stamp his gaze proclaims.

  His hands full of embers and his teeth full of ashes,

  He’s the reborn Bacchus, who surges from the flames.

  Yet, for each one born again, how many who, undying,

  Round their hearts and ankles must wear a heavy chain.

  Rivers will be flowing and the dead will be decaying…

  Every year in springtime the oaks are green again.

  I live when I choose in a dark ravine above which the sky is a jagged diamond cut up by the shade of the fir-trees, larches and rocks that cover the steep slopes.

  In the grass of the ravine grow strange tuberous plants, columbine and meadow-saffron; above them circle praying mantises and dragonflies; insects give way to muskrats and melancholy crows. So unceasingly constant are sky, flora and fauna that some immutable season must have descended on this ever nocturnal ravine with its star-studded diamond-shaped canopy, not crossed by any cloud.

  On the trunks of the trees two initials, always the same, are engraved. What knife put them there, held by what hand and with whom in mind?

  The valley was deserted when I first came here. No-one had set foot in it before I did. No-one but myself has explored it.

  The pond where frogs swim rhythmically in the shade reflects stars that never move, and the marsh, alive with the sad sonorous cries of toads, has a will-o’-the-wisp that is always the same.

  The season of sad and stalled love hovers over this solitude.

  I will always be in love with it and will surely never manage to pass the fringe of larches and fir-trees, to climb the contorted rocks so as to reach the white road where at certain times she passes. The road where shadows do not always point the same way. Sometimes it seems to me that night has only just fallen. Hunters go by on the

  road, a thing I cannot see. The song of hunting horns echoes under the larches. It has been a long day in among the ploughed fields chasing foxes, badgers or roe-deer. The horses’ nostrils steam white in the night.

  The music of the hunt fades away. And I can just decipher the matching initials on the trunks of larches at the edge of the ravine.

  No star has plunged to send foam spurting from the ocean,

  Nothing disturbs the mountains, the heavens, fire and sea,

  Only these feathers flying in horizontal motion

  Revealing a bird’s fast fall, a small fatality.

  And nothing will stop this single flying feather,

  Not the glistening hair of a savage on his horse,

  Nor ink in an inkwell, hateful altogether,

  Nor the song of waves, nor the tempest’s angry curse,

  Nor the sweet necks of women, lovely losers,

  Nor the branches of trees and the sealed-up tombs,

  Nor the ships with creaking of their midnight hawsers,

  Nor the wall where hearts are crafted out of names,

  Nor the songs of lepers in the grim bog’s quaking,

  Nor the sleeping mirror down along the avenue

  Reflecting at all times a streetlamp shaking,

  With never, snowy beauty, a woman’s limbs to view;

  Nor the sea-monsters with their soot-blackened scales,

  Nor the northern hazes with their deep blue scars,

  Nor the twilit window where a woman recalls

  Dreamily the memory of future love-affairs,

  Nor the cries that echo from a wayfarer lost,

  Nor the scudding clouds nor horses at the trot,

  Nor on quays and arches the shadow someone cast,

  Plunging, with a paving-stone dangling at his throat,

  Nor you, Deadly Accuser, with hands of waxen lustre:

  The stars in heaven, hands and eyes and blood and love,

  Are so many rockets fired and bursting from a crater.

  Goodbye! Here’s morning, bone-white like a breaking wave.

  You hands that long for love on which to bruise yourselves,

  We’ll know how to give you the tint of blood’s baptism:

  Beside it the brightness of furnace-fires dissolves,

  The sun pales, moribund in sea-fog’s dismal bosom.

  They knew all our thinking, the world’s most lovely eyes,

  There was no famous vice we did not essay,

  But for all the kisses and insensate lecheries

  Hope within our grieving hearts was never snuffed away.

  Then I saw swing open two gates of crystal

  On the purer crystal of a phantom most adorable:

  “Fling it in the stream, fling down your heart of metal,

  Shatter the jugs on the table-tops of marble!

  “Burst your eyes and eardrums, and let your tongues

  Be spat out of your mouths for hungry dogs to eat;

  Desires are boats in heavy seas: give them your So Longs.

  Let cords tightly knotted bruise your hands and feet.

  “Be humbled! Lose in the flooding of your terror

  Your hope and your pride and your specious dignity.

  I shall increase your suffering and horror,

  I shall practise on you exquisite cruelty.”

  She it was who spoke: the woman, the amorous,

  Her heart and eyes of crystal, her pitiless nature.

  The loveliest eyes of all, o well-springs luminous!

  Beautiful mouth, teeth of a prowling creature.

  Thrust both your hands into my compliant brain!

  Bite my lip pretending to love me with a kiss.

  Strength and pride are virtues easy to attain:

  What’s hard when foisted on love is loneliness.

  I spoke of a falling bird and a spectral shadow

  My dream mislays the words of my mouth’s uttering

  Hollowed out with graves as I speak is the meadow

  Brightly rings an echo, sound of hammering.

  A gallows is erected in the prison next door.

  The condemned man sleeping in a too narrow bed

  Dreams of the giant crows that winged across the moor

  The day he encountered enchantment and dread.

  Side by side these two zealous phantasms walked,

  The brambles ripping at their coats and faces,

  False lovers mercilessly punished by their fault

  Following on pilgrimage to no end of places.

  Village thatches sizzled with conflagrations.

  Fish that were drawn to the dragnets far aloft

  Slowly ascended through ramifications.

  Woodcutters spra
ng from every humble croft.

  Sleeping the condemned man addressed one of the pair,

  Axe was laid to spectral oak, more spectral still was he:

  “Far away the cattle is lowing, can you hear,

  This wind breaks their tethers (he said) and sets them free.”

  Cruel woman! All through the night her voice is heard.

  Her lips are a fruit that is poison to the taste.

  Heaven and the mountains where herd calls out to herd

  All are one confusion we contemplate amazed.

  Whom the birds bewitched, the one who love has cheated,

  In black labyrinths under sombre portico,

  The lover will search for the brand-mark of the sword-blade

  Tempered in her very heart by Isis fire-hearted…

  Perfect steel, you sister of rivers’ mystic flow!

  Songbird in a birdcage once

  Sang for her, it sings no more

  And the queen of swallows turns

  Nevermore, turns nevermore.

  Once I encountered the vulture and the osprey.

  They cast shadows on the ground that failed to frighten me.

  Scrawled on chalk sea-ramparts I later on deciphered

  Charcoaled initials of a name well-known to me.

  A vampire with its wing brushed against my window-pane:

  It has a crown of lake-weed, welcome guest come hither,

  Round its neck live ladybirds make a pretty chain,

  Harbingers of love and of splendid summer weather.

  to take her to bed

  to sleep side by side

  for parallel dreaming

  breath doubled on breath

  to take her to bed

  for the one magic shadow

  the one single warmth

  the one isolation

  to take her to bed

  one daybreak two sharing

  one midnight the same

  identical phantoms

  to take her to take her to bed

  for absolute love

  for vice for vice

  for all kinds of kisses

  to take her to bed

  for awe-stricken shipwreck

  for mutual whoring

  for melding together

  to take her to bed

  to prove us and prove to us truly

  this thing never weighed on two lovers’ body and soul

  the lie of original blemish

  having always the greatest love for her

  is quite easy

  yet there is doubt for fiery hearts, faithful hearts

  having the greatest love always

  are there betrayals unwilled

  no the flesh never lies

  and no matter how vicious the body is pure

  pure as the greatest love for her

  in my heart uniquely it flourishes free

  no stain has touched the image of her

  the only-beloved in the heart of the lover

  no stain touched the greatest love for her

  for purity we admire the diamond

  no stain on the diamond nor on the heart of her

  the most-beloved in the heart of the lover

  the genuine lover adept of the greatest love

  is no abstainer ascetic or puritan

  if he tries the loveliest bodies of women

  it is knowing the loveliest is his beloved

  the genuine lover that rake

  his mouth has known and checked out all the kisses

  let him surrender to every vice

  he’d be all the better

  for the genuine lover unloved by her

  what does he care he will love her

  eternally he will long to be loved

  hopeless love will make him pure as a diamond

  his body will just be a scrap and a morsel

  for false loving women false loves

  having no pity

  the genuine lover will sacrifice all for the woman he loves

  why not if he still has the greatest love for her

  on the day of the longed-for encounter

  he will be beyond sunrise beyond fire

  ready for ecstasy

  always having the greatest love for her

  the body cannot betray

  may your heart always beat for her

  your eyes close on her image alone

  to be loved by her

  not happiness joy

  not even desire

  it’s will no it’s fate

  to be loved by her

  not for one night of many

  but endless the present for ever

  no landscape no light

  to be loved by her

  inscribed in the waymarks of time

  regardless of bygones and future

  no end

  and yet to be loved by her

  all must be lost even love

  no talk please of life

  nor of love nor of love

  to be loved by her

  it’s unavoidable

  no songs no shouts

  no emotion

  to be loved by her

  impassive marble frozen seas implacable skies

  to wait and to wait on and on to be waiting

  to wait denied by eternity

  to die after she does

  this role devolves on the lover

  his alone is the ultimate right

  to carve a name on a mouldering stone

  to carve a name on a mouldering tree

  to be snuffed out for ever

  snuffed out him after her

  but the love the greatest

  will burn an unquenchable flame.

  Darling these many months of love you’ve been

  Incurious that I am working hard

  My days are governed by a grim routine

  My nights escorted by an honour-guard.

  Must I still tend and stir a beacon-glow

  More fierce than any phoenix might endure,

  A castaway, my pages torn to show

  To every passing ship, a futile chore?

  To quench my faith, is life to be laid down?

  My dream-world holds your image high aloft

  I conjured for you countries of renown

  What may traverse them better than your ghost?

  If I must die at rival idols’ feet

  I’m ready. You excel in cruelty.

  The merest echo of a futile heat

  Abating in your annals I shall be.

  I give my heart and all, turn bloodless spook

  Submissive to delight of deadly pain

  Just for the briefest mention in a book

  Never on twilit lovers’ lips again.

  I’m tired of wrestling with fate’s waywardness,

  Tired of expunging and recalling too

  Each perfume-wisp emerging from your dress,

  Tired of detesting and of blessing you.

  I was not so little worth, but you were not aware.

  One sunny day of days on the rocky shore

  Remember your lover with his heart stripped bare

  Fearless and without reproach, your faithful servitor.

  Must I drop my anchor in some far distant place

  Before you notice no-one is fawning at your knee?

  You’ll say: ‘Who’s gone missing? I don’t recall his face:

  Why’s he made a lonely dash for liberty?

  “He must be recaptured, my disloyal slave,

  Chained in my penal camp, properly chastised.
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  With a model heart he must diligently serve,

  Meet with no compassion, condignly penalised.

  “For I am imperious, I must be obeyed.

  No-one may be absent unless I grant release.

  Once again subjected to service, woe betide

  One too proud and haughty to mumble penances.

  “Prisons for hearts, I know of some, fantastic!

  Better show up soon, that lover on the run.

  Tonight I have a number of vacancies domestic,

  Wipe and shine my shoes, get my overcoat on.”

  But what’s the good? The escaper knows his prison.

 

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