The Cannibal's Prayer
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-I know Joanna I know it's a hell of a thing to ask.
-It isn't that Bradley / I just don't know.
-This is too fucking cruel of me / I feel like shit Joanna I want you to know that I really do feel like shit about it.
-We haven't even read the will yet is all I don't know if he wanted / I don't even know if he knew / it wasn't like he was expecting to die after all.
-None of us are / none of us are.
-He never talked to you about it?
-Not about this but he did sound pretty damn excited about this new thing he was working on and personally personally I don't think he would have wanted it to go to waste I mean you know how he was the man lived for his work.
-Brad
-Fuck Joanna sweetie I'm so fucking sorry that came out all wrong / look I haven't slept for days not since I heard / the man was my friend you know how it was he was family to me you're family to me / is there anything I can do for you?
-I just want all of this to be over it seems like it never stops.
-I know I know when my mom died
-It's not the funeral it's all of this / I never wanted it / I never wanted the fame I guess you'd call it fame.
-I know what you mean it's a fucked up thing / the thing is Joanna the thing is this / there are people out there people who neither of us have ever met probably never will met and they are tearing their hearts out like they just lost their only child there are people who DC touched you know really touched in a fucking spiritual way / I know it's hard to think about them right now I mean fuck em right?
-Brad I
-Maybe this is insensitive of me and god fucking knows I don't wanna be insensitive to you right now you're like family to me but those people were his family too I know it's fucked up but that's how it is / and if if there's something left / something he made / well we owe it to those people to find it / you know what I mean?
-I know what you mean Bradley.
-You understand where I'm coming from?
-I understand.
-You're an angel Joanna / say when are you ever going to send me that novel you keep talking about?
-I can't
-I know I know bad timing / just don't forget me / you know that you're like family to me.
-I know / you too.
-This is such a fucked up thing Joanna / I am so fucking sorry about this I mean who could have / that man was an ox I never thought I'd outlive him to be honest.
-I know.
-A fucking heart attack.
-It's / well it is what it is isn't it?
-Yeah / oh hey I'm sending Vanessa down there she'll be there for the funeral.
-Who's Vanessa?
-Vanessa.
-I don't know who that is Bradley I don't know any Vanessa.
-Of course you know Vanessa / DC's assistant.
-My husband had an assistant?
-I / uh / you don't know Vanessa?
-I have never met a Vanessa no.
-Huh / well I guess you're gonna meet her then / she'll help with the heavy lifting clearing out the junk you know / if there's anything there worth pulling out she'll know it / you really never met Vanessa?
-I never did Bradley.
-Huh / look sorry I can't make it to the funeral / sorry about all of this / what can you do / fucking life isn't it?
-Fucking life Bradley.