She gave us each a kiss on our foreheads before heading to her bedroom which was located on the first floor so that she didn’t have to go up the stairs. That left us the entire second floor to ourselves. I gulped as Mickey and I walked upstairs to her room. Her room was exactly the same as the last time I’d been here, except for the addition of a cool chest at the foot of the bed. Mickey took my hand and pulled me to her bed, a bed we’d shared countless times but now it was different; we were different and it wasn’t as innocent. We plopped down and bounced laughing, until we both looked at each other and the same thought crossed our minds. We were alone, no one was going to bother or disturb us, we could do anything we wanted. Mickey began to kiss my neck, finding a sensitive spot that she knew drove me nuts and nuzzled me there, making my blood run even hotter for her. I moved so that my lips were under hers instead and enjoyed the sweet taste of her mouth. It was addictive; everything about her was addictive and left me wanting more. Seductively, she ran her hands down my chest, until she reached the bottom of my shirt and pulled it off, straddling me through my pants. We hadn’t gone past second base yet, we’d come close but had been interrupted. I knew she could feel my erection through my pants, centered right under her and there was nothing I could do to stop it, as she ran her fingers lightly up and down my chest and gyrated her hips to the feeling of my hard-on. I was going to lose it soon if she didn’t stop. I tried to stop her from gyrating her hips but still she continued to against my hold.
“Babe, you’re going to kill me,” I said through gritted teeth, trying to hold off combusting right there. “We need to stop,” I said half-heartedly. She moaned sinfully as she rubbed her pelvis against mine, making it impossible to stop her and making me lose control that much more.
“Please,” she pled, slowing down her pace. When I didn’t object, she slowly peeled off her shirt, my eyes were glued to her perfect rack as her breasts bounced gently in her pink bra. She was so sexy and I was powerless to her every whim, entirely too captivated by her and her beauty. Mickey proceeded to unclasp her bra, flinging it on to the floor. I watched her gorgeous perky breasts in all their glory as she rubbed herself against me through our pants. My hands grabbed her ample handfuls, they were perfect; all soft and warm. I lightly pinched at her nipples, making her moan loudly. I was in heaven; she was the most gorgeous sight I’d ever seen. I brought my mouth to her breast and kissed it. Then I took her nipple in my mouth and sucked on it, swirling my tongue around the bud and sucking on it, giving it the smallest nip. She squealed from pleasure and my erection got even harder than I had ever thought it could. Mickey’s eyes lit up with lust and she began unbuttoning my jeans, pulling my hard cock out and free from my boxers. Her small, soft hand stroked me and I lost myself in her touch, it felt entirely too amazing.
“Babe, stop, I’m going to lose it,” I warned her through my teeth, squeezing her breasts. Mickey clearly enjoyed seeing me lose control and ignored my warnings, continuing to pump it faster and faster until I lost control and my seed shot out everywhere. “Whoa, that was amazing,” I breathed out deeply, through half opened eyes. “Thank you,” I said as she grabbed some tissues off the table and cleaned up my mess on her arm and bed cover.
“Anytime babe.” She grinned. I died a little inside from happiness.
Michaela
I was over the moon, as we lay together naked in bed, both of us exhausted and completely satisfied. After I’d pleased James, he repaid the favor in full and we spent the rest of the night getting to know each other’s bodies better. We didn’t go all the way, but I’d thoroughly enjoyed all that we had done and was excited to go farther. I couldn’t imagine it getting better than this but I knew making love would be a complete game changer and I couldn’t wait.
The weekend had been amazing and I didn’t want it to come to an end, I’d had such a great time with Gran and James and I couldn’t wait for next month when we’d do it all over again.
“I’ll see you for Christmas, loves.” Gran smiled, excited for our return.
“I’ll miss you, I wish we could stay here Gran,” I said as I hugged her goodbye.
“One day it will all be yours, my sweet,” she said, making my insides hurt, I didn’t want to think about that. “Drive safe, my loves.” She waved as we walked to dad’s car.
“What did she mean by that?” James asked as we drove home, our fingers interlaced.
“Gran left me everything in her will, as well as the money from mom and dad’s insurance, which is now mine since I turned eighteen,” I explained, my chest hurting at the thought of Gran not being here anymore, I couldn’t lose her too.
“Wow, that’s big,” he said, the gears spinning in his head as he processed all this information. It was big, it was huge, life changing but I didn’t want it.
“Yeah, I just don’t want it if it means Gran won’t be here,” I told him sadly.
“I understand.” He nodded and squeezed my hand comfortingly, “Don’t worry babe, she’s still got a lot of life left in her, she’s not going anywhere anytime soon.”
When we arrived home, James kissed me on the cheek, “Thanks for bringing me this weekend, I had a great time with you and Gran,” he said and carried my bag to the door for me. Gert was standing on the other side, her face as red as her hair with a huge scowl splayed across her face. I didn’t think much of it, until James started acting weird.
“I have to go,” he said, taking his hand out of mine, “See you later,” he finished and turned on his heel in a rush to his house.
“What’s up, Gert?” I asked, annoyed with the death glare she was shooting me.
“You’ll see soon enough!” she hissed and stormed off, up the stairs and to her evil lair. That was weird, I thought to myself, not too concerned with Gert and her threats, I’d grown used to them over the years. James called me later that night and everything seemed normal and he was acting like himself again, making me forget about that awkward moment with Gert.
The weeks passed by in a blur and already it was Friday. Our last day of classes before we were off for Christmas break. Dad would be coming back from his business trip on Monday and until then we decided to celebrate by going camping for the weekend.
“So, what time should we leave?” I asked James over lunch. He didn’t answer; this was the third time I’d asked him something in the past twenty minutes only to have no response from him. He stared at his phone and read a message and then quickly put it away, his foot tapping angrily at the floor. “Hey,” I said waving a hand in front of his face, getting his attention. He sat up in surprise and finally really looked at me. “You okay, babe?” I asked, taking his clenched fist and opening his hand so that I could hold it in mine.
“Yeah, sorry.” He grimaced.
“What’s going on up there?” I asked, stroking the side of his face.
“Nothing. Just thinking about some stuff,” he answered, leaning into my hand. “So, what were you saying?”
“What time should we leave for camping?” I repeated. Right at that moment Cody and his goons all came up to us, Gert standing in the front grinning excitedly.
“I think it’s time, bro.” Cody chuckled, everyone else was smirking and waiting. Whatever was going on, I knew it wasn’t good. I clenched my jaw, preparing myself for what was to come, this all felt too familiar.
“Shut up, Cody,” James barked out.
“James, this has gone on for long enough,” Gert declared, hand on her hips, smirking at me menacingly. “Tell her now or I’ll have to,” she threatened, her eyes narrowing on me as she spoke. I felt my lunch do flips in my stomach, it was just like that day two years ago. The flashbacks made me break into a sweat. I looked at James in fear, my bottom lip shaking so hard I had to bite it to stop it from trembling. James stared at me and I could see the sense of hopelessness on his face.
“There’s nothing to tell,” James told them, now taking my clenched fist and holding it.
“I guess I’ll have to te
ll her then.” Gert grinned, looking like she’d been hoping for this outcome. “Michaela, James has been using you and it has gone on for too long,” she stated, trying to look sad but failing, she couldn’t hide the smile in her eyes.
“It’s not true.” James told me, squeezing my hand tightly.
“It started as part of this list,” Gert continued, handing a piece of paper to me. I glanced at it but couldn’t read it, my mind was elsewhere, lost in the memories of that day two years ago. “He got close to you just so he could break your heart, again,” she added. My heart was racing as my lunch threatened to come up. I stood, knowing it wouldn’t stay down for long. James held my hand, not letting me go but I jerked free from him. I left the table and all the on-lookers, not able to meet anyone’s eyes.
“It’s not true, none of it!” James shouted. “I love you,” he said quieter. I fled to the bathroom as I heard all of the goons erupt in laughter.
“You finished the list bro!” Cody said slapping James on the back. The last thing I saw was James shoving Cody before I ran into the bathroom and emptied my stomach contents. I still felt nausea, even after my stomach was emptied. I couldn’t sit through the rest of class like this and hear the horrible things Gert and her friends would say. So instead, I went to the office and got a sick note and walked home. I was on auto-pilot the whole walk home, I’d been at school and the next thing I knew I was lying in my bed, curled up under the covers. I don’t know how long I lay there comatose until my door opened, breaking me out of my stupor.
“Go away,” I said uninterested, from under the covers, making no attempt to move. The door closed again, leading me to believe they’d left me alone, until I heard foot steps approach and felt my bed sink from someone else’s weight. “Please, I just want to be left alone.”
“Babe, I’m sorry. I am so, so sorry.” James said surprising me, I wasn’t expecting to see him again after lunch. “None of what they said was true,” he told me, caressing my back. I didn’t say anything, still too shocked he was here. “I love you Michaela,” he continued, “more than anything.”
“Why?” I whispered, my voice small and choked up.
“Why? Because you are everything that is good. You are smart, kind, loyal, funny, beautiful, the strongest person I know and you are always you, no matter what. Everyday I try to be better because I know you deserve better and I want to be that person for you. I want to be with you, always,” he answered, making my eyes tear. James wiped the tears from my face and continued caressing my back.
“No, why did you let them believe I was part of some list?” I asked, regaining control of my voice. He shuddered involuntarily.
“It was before we were together and on good terms. I was afraid you’d never forgive me but I wanted to try and make things work. I thought it would be easier to let them believe you were part of the list while I tried to get you back,” he explained and I knew he was telling me the truth but still it hurt.
“The whole time I kept reliving the fight we had, James. That was the worst day and it all felt so similar, it really hurt James,” I told him honestly.
“Babe, I never wanted to hurt you and I am so sorry about what happened. I should have told you about the list and why they’d been leaving us alone. I was a coward, things were going so well and I didn’t want to risk us or ruin it. I will never let this happen again,” he promised.
“It made me realize that you did this once before and it could happen again,” I stuttered.
“It will never happen again,” James declared urgently, “I promise, babe. It never should have happened the first time and I still regret every second of it.”
“But why did you even do it the first time? You’ve never told me why! What’s supposed to assure me it won’t happen again?” I demanded.
“I was stupid,” he said, closing his eyes.
“That’s not good enough,” I told him, I wouldn’t be able to go through this again.
“I let Gert manipulate me,” he whispered.
“Gert? What does this have to do with her?” I asked confused. Why would he ruin everything over her?
“I put my trust in her and not only did she betray me, but she cost me everything.” He groaned. “I was in love with you Mickey, and it was clear to everyone but you,” he continued, making my chest hurt all over again. “Gert told me that you’d never feel the same about me, that I was so far friend-zoned that I’d have to completely change myself to get you to even notice me like that. That I’d have to become popular and cool and then maybe you’d see me the way I saw you.” I couldn’t help but tear up at his words. “She told me you had a crush on Neil and were into guys like him and then she told me how to be more like him. Eventually, her advice started paying off and they accepted me into their group on the condition that I said all those things to you, it was Gert who pressured me into saying it all,” he explained, looking distraught.
“I’m sorry you ever felt that you had to change for me to feel the same about you. I’ve always loved you, I just never wanted to risk losing you.” We kissed hard, tangling ourselves under the blankets.
“I got drunk a lot after that fight, to try to stop the pain. I wanted to come back begging you to forgive me for all I had done, but then I thought you had called the cops and betrayed me and I was so angry. I know I was stupid!” he said and I could hear the self-resentment clear in his voice.
“It’s okay, James,” I told him, stroking his back, “I forgive you.” He opened his eyes slowly to look at me, I kissed his lips lightly. “It was always you.”
James
The next day I went over to Mickey’s, we were off for our camping trip. I still couldn’t get over how lucky I was to be with a girl like her. Not only had she forgiven me the first time but a second time after yesterday’s fiasco. I thought she’d be done with me for sure, but no, she managed to over look it. I did not deserve her. I was so thankful to have all Christmas break with her and to be going camping and get away from all the drama. Just my girl and I, alone in the woods, could it get any better? Mickey was already packed and waiting for me when I arrived, decked out in her hiking boots and a red plaid flannel and wearing a grey beanie on her head, she looked cute as ever. I kissed her full lips, addicted to them and her touch.
“Ready to go?” I asked, taking her bag, which was very light in my hand. She smiled brightly, her eyes lit up.
“Yes! I can’t wait!” she exclaimed giggling. I took her hand, intertwining our fingers as we walked to her dad’s car, both excited for our adventure. We used to go camping at least once every year and it was something we only did together. I had missed it but I knew it wouldn’t be the same without her.
“I haven’t gone camping since the last time we went out together,” I divulged. Mickey grinned at that.
“Same. It was our thing,” she told me, warming my heart with her words.
“It still is.” I smiled, giving her hand a squeeze.
The campground was beautiful; in the woods, surrounded by tree and nature and nothing else. A real getaway from everything.
“I love how quiet it is here,” Mickey said, as we made our way to our lot.
“Yeah, it’s so peaceful.” I agreed, in much need of it after the day before. We set up our small tent and put in our air mattress, taking turns inflating it. I started a fire in the pit, while Mickey dressed our bed. I watched as the embers came to life and the fire bloomed before my eyes. I sat and watched as the fire danced before me. Mickey came up and hugged me from behind, we watched the fire in silence for a few moments. It was another thing I loved about Mickey, we could enjoy the silence and it wasn’t awkward, but comforting. We decided to go for a hike while the sun still shone and then played cards into the night after our barbeque dinner.
“Can I ask you something?” I asked her as we lay in bed, entangled in the sheets.
“Of course, babe.” She smiled, kissing my neck.
“Remember that stupid project we did in English
?” I asked her as I caressed her stomach.
“Yeah, the one Mrs. B gave us to entertain herself with all of our personal lives.” She laughed, “What about it?” she asked, a small smile on her lips.
“You never told me what you were jealous of, all you had said was it was of someone and what they had. I’ve just been wondering what it was,” I explained. She giggled and hid her face in my neck.
“It’s so embarrassing,” she muttered, still hiding.
“Please tell me,” I asked, even more curious now.
“Fine, but don’t judge me or laugh at me.”
“I promise I won’t.”
“Well, it was of you and Ali, and all the girls like Ali that you were with. They drove me crazy because I wished I was the one with you,” she explained, finally lifting her head, her cheeks pink. I laughed against my will, earning myself a small shove in the arm.
“Sorry!” I laughed, “It’s just I was so jealous of you and Derek! I never thought you’d be jealous of any of those girls,” I told her honestly. We both chucked at how silly we’d been. I kissed her soft lips, so happy to be past everything and finally with her. Her lips were soft as she kissed me back, soon our gentle kiss morphed into hunger and lust filled as we lost ourselves to one another. Mickey took off my shirt and I did the same to her, taking off layer after layer, until there was nothing separating our bodies.
“Are you sure you’re ready?” I asked her nervously. My heart was about ready to jump out of my chest and I was losing all restraint, I wanted her so bad.
“Yes, James. I want you, I’ve never been more sure of anything,” she said, hungry for me as well. “It was always you,” she whispered into my ear, making me lose any control I’d once had. I lay her down and took my time kissing a path to her core before I paid some attention to her glistening sex, loving the taste of her and her moans of satisfaction. I pulled the condom out of my bag, that I’d packed just in case. I rolled it down my member with shaking hands, from both nerves and desire. I wanted this so much. I kissed her as I slowly lowered myself into her, wanting to take this slow and scared to hurt her. She was so tight and it was hard to fit myself in, there was resistance and she cried out but held me down, to keep me going deeper. I’d never imagined feeling anything so tight and warm wrapped around my dick, it was heaven. I moved in and out of her slowly at first, getting used to the feel of her tight sex. She moaned in pleasure, her fingers digging into my back and bringing me that much closer. I slowly picked up speed. I was so close already, she screamed out loud edging me on and I couldn’t hold back any longer. I came so hard, I felt slightly dizzy and lay on top of her panting as well. She looked up at me smiling widely, her eyes all dazed and her face glowing.
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