Works of Robert W Chambers

by Robert W. Chambers

  At the same moment the telephone rang downstairs in the library. Presently her maid knocked, announcing Mr. Quarren on the wire.

  “I’m not at home,” said Strelsa, surprised, or rather trying to feel a certain astonishment. What really surprised her was that she felt none.

  Her maid was already closing the door behind her when Strelsa said:

  “Wait a moment, Freda.” And, after thinking, she smiled to herself and added: “You may set my transmitter on the table beside me, and hang up the receiver in the library.... Be sure to hang it up at once.”

  Then, sitting up in bed, she unhooked the receiver and set it to her ear.

  “Mr. Quarren,” she began coldly, and without preliminary amenities, “have you any possible excuse for awaking me at such an unearthly hour as mid-day?”

  “Good Lord,” he exclaimed contritely, “did I do that?”

  She had no more passion for the exact truth than the average woman, and she quibbled:

  “Do you think I would say so if it were not true?” she demanded.

  “No, of course not — —”

  “Well, then!” An indignant pause. “But,” she added honestly, “I was not exactly what you might call asleep, although it practically amounts to the same thing. I was reposing.... Are you feeling quite fit this morning?” she added demurely.

  “I’d be all right if I could see you — —”

  “You can’t! What an idea!”

  “Why not? What are you going to do?”

  “There’s no particular reason why I should detail my daily duties, obligations, and engagements to you; is there? — But I’m an unusually kind-hearted person, and not easily offended by people’s inquisitiveness. So I’ll overlook your bad manners. First, then, I am lunching at the Province Club, then I am going to a matinée at the Casino, afterward dropping in for tea at the Sprowls, dining at the Calderas, going to the Opera with the Vernons, and afterward, with them, to a dance at the Van Dynes.... So, will you kindly inform me where you enter the scene?”

  She could hear him laugh over the telephone.

  “What are you doing just now?” he asked.

  “I am seated upon my innocent nocturnal couch, draped in exceedingly intimate attire, conversing over the telephone with the original Paul Pry.”

  “Could anything induce you to array yourself more conventionally, receive me, and let me take you to your luncheon at the Province Club?”

  “But I don’t wish to see you.”

  “Is that perfectly true?”

  “Perfectly. I’ve just thrown your gardenia into the fireplace. Doesn’t that prove it?”

  “Oh, no. Because it’s too early, yet, for either of us to treasure such things — —”

  “What horrid impertinence!”

  “Isn’t it! But your heavenly gift of humour will transform my impudence into a harmless and diverting sincerity. Please let me see you, Mrs. Leeds — just for a few moments.”

  “Why?”

  “Because you are going South and there are three restless weeks ahead of me — —”

  This time he could hear her clear, far laughter:

  “What has my going to Florida to do with your restlessness?”

  “Your very question irrevocably links cause and effect — —”

  “Don’t be absurd, Mr. Quarren!”

  “Absurdity is the badge of all our Guild — —”

  “What Guild do you belong to?”

  “The associated order of ardent suitors — —”

  “Mr. Quarren! You are becoming ridiculous; do you know it?”

  “No, I don’t realise it, but they say all the rest of the world considers suitors ridiculous — —”

  “Do you expect me to listen to such nonsense at such an hour in the morning?”

  “It’s half past twelve; and my weak solution of nonsense is suitable to the time of day — —”

  “Am I to understand that the solution becomes stronger as the day advances?”

  “Exactly; the solution becomes so concentrated and powerful that traces of common-sense begin to appear — —”

  “I didn’t notice any last night.”

  “Van Dyne interfered.”

  “Poor Mr. Van Dyne. If you’d been civil to him he might have asked you to the dance to-night — if I had suggested it. But you were horridly rude.”

  “I? Rude?”

  “You’re not going to be rude enough to say it was I who behaved badly to him, are you? Oh, the shocking vanity of man! No doubt you are thinking that it was I who, serpent-like, whispered temptation into your innocent ear, and drew you away into a corner, and shoved palms in front of us, and brought silver and fine linen, and rare fruits and sparkling wines; and paid shameless court with an intelligent weather-eye always on the watch for a flouted and justly indignant cavalier!”

  “Yes,” he said, “you did all those things. And now you’re trying to evade the results.”

  “What are the results?”

  “A partly demented young man clamouring to see you at high-noon while the cold cruel cause of his lunacy looks on and laughs.”

  “I’m afraid that young man must continue to clamour,” she said, immensely amused at the picture he drew. “How far away is he at this moment?”

  “In the Legation, a blithering wreck.”

  “Why not in his office frantically immersed in vast business enterprises and cataclysmic speculations?”

  “I’m rather afraid that if business immerses him too completely he will be found drowned some day.”

  “You promised — said that you were going to begin a vigorous campaign,” she reminded him reproachfully. “I asked it of you; and you agreed.”

  “I am beginning life anew — or trying to — by seeking the perennial source of daily spiritual and mundane inspiration — —”

  “Why won’t you be serious?”

  “I am. Were you not the source of my new inspiration? Last night did something or other to me — I am not yet perfectly sure what it was. I want to see you to be sure — if only for a — moment — merely to satisfy myself that you are real — —”

  “Will one moment be enough?”

  “Certainly.”

  “One second — or half a one?”

  “Plenty.”

  “Very well — if you promise not to expect or ask for more than that — —”

  “That is terribly nice of you!”

  “It is, overwhelmingly. But really I don’t know whether I am nice or merely weak-minded. Because I’ve lingered here gossiping so long with you that I’ve simply got to fly like a mad creature about my dressing. Good-bye — —”

  “Shall I come up immediately?”

  “Of course not! I expect to be dressing for hours and hours — figuratively speaking.... Perhaps you might start in ten minutes if you are coming in a taxi.”

  “You are an angel — —”

  “That is not telephone vernacular.... And perhaps you had better be prompt, because Mrs. Lannis is coming for me — that is, if you have anything to — to say — that — —”

  She flushed up, annoyed at her own stupidity, then felt grateful to him as he answered lightly:

  “Of course; she might misunderstand our informality. Shall I see you in half an hour?”

  “If I can manage it,” she said.

  She managed it, somehow. At first, really indifferent, and not very much amused, the talk with him had gradually aroused in her the same interest and pleasurable curiosity that she had experienced in exchanging badinage with him the night before. Now she really wanted to see him, and she took enough trouble about it to set her deft maid flying about her offices.

  First a fragrant precursor of his advent arrived in the shape of a great bunch of winter violets; and her maid fastened them to her black fox muff. Then the distant door-bell sounded; and in an extraordinarily short space of time, wearing her pretty fur hat, her boa, and carrying a muff that matched both, with his violets pinned to it,
she entered the dim drawing-room, halting just beyond the threshold.

  “Are you not ashamed,” she said, severely, “to come battering at my door at this hour of the day?”

  “Abjectly.”

  They exchanged a brief handshake; she seated herself on the arm of a sofa; he stood before the unlighted fireplace, looking at her with a half smiling half curious air which made her laugh outright.

  “Bien! C’est moi, monsieur,” she said. “Me voici! C’est moi-même!”

  “I believe you are real after all,” he admitted.

  “Do I seem different?”

  “Yes — and no.”

  “How am I different?”

  “Well, somehow, last night, I got the notion that you were younger, thinner — and not very real — —”

  “Are you presuming to criticise my appearance last night?” she asked with mock indignation. “Because if you are, I proudly refer you to the enlightened metropolitan morning press.”

  “I read all about you,” he said, smiling.

  “I am glad you did. You will doubtless now be inclined to treat me with the respect due to my years and experience.”

  “I believe,” he said, “that your gown and hat and furs make a charming difference — —”

  “How perfectly horrid of you! I thought you admired my costume last night!”

  “Oh, Lord,” he said— “you were sufficiently charming last night. But now, in your fluffy furs, you seem rather taller — less slender perhaps — and tremendously fetching — —”

  “Say that my clothes improve me, and that in reality I’m a horrid, thin little beast!” she exclaimed, laughing. “I know I am, but I haven’t finished growing yet. Really that’s the truth, Mr. Quarren. Would you believe that I have grown an inch since last spring?”

  “I believe it,” he said, “but would you mind stopping now? You are exactly right.”

  “You know I’m thin and flat as a board!”

  “You’re perfect!”

  “It’s too late to say that to me — —”

  “It is too early to say more.”

  “Let’s don’t talk about myself, please.”

  “It has become the only subject in the world that interests me — —”

  “Please, Mr. Quarren! Are you actually attempting to be silly at this hour of the day? The wise inanities of midnight sound perilously flat in the sunshine — flatter than the flattest champagne, which no bread-crumbs can galvanise into a single bubble. Tell me, why did you wish to see me this morning. I mean the real reason? Was it merely to find out whether I was weak-minded enough to receive you?”

  He looked at her, smiling:

  “I wanted to see whether you were as real and genuine and wholesome and unspoiled and — and friendly as I thought you were last night.”

  “Am I?”

  “More so.”

  “Are you so sure about my friendliness?”

  “I want to believe in it,” he said. “It means a lot to me already.”

  “Believe in it then, you very badly spoiled young man,” she said, stretching out her hand to him impulsively. “I do like you.... And now I think you had better go — unless you want to see Mrs. Lannis.”

  Retaining her hand for a second he said:

  “Before you leave town will you let me ask you a question?”

  “I am leaving to-morrow. You’ll have to ask it now.”

  Their hands fell apart; he seemed doubtful, and she awaited his question, smilingly. And as he made no sign of asking she said:

  “You have my permission to ask it. Is it a very impertinent question?”

  “Very.”

  “How impertinent is it?” she inquired curiously.

  “Unpardonably personal.”

  After a silence she laughed.

  “Last night,” she said, “you told me that I would probably forget you unless I had something unpardonable to forgive you. Isn’t this a good opportunity to leave your unpardonable imprint upon my insulted memory?”

  “Excellent,” he said. “This is my outrageous question: are you engaged to be married?”

  For a full minute she remained silent in her intense displeasure. After the first swift glance of surprise her gray eyes had dropped, and she sat on the gilded arm of the sofa, studying the floor covering — an ancient Saraband rug, with the inevitable and monotonous river-loop symbol covering its old-rose ground in uninteresting repetition. After a while she lifted her head and met his gaze, quietly.

  “I am trying to believe that you did not mean to be offensive,” she said. “And now that I have a shadow of a reason to pardon you, I shall probably do so, ultimately.”

  “But you won’t answer me?” he said, reddening.

  “Of course not. Are we on any such footing of intimacy — even of friendship, Mr. Quarren?”

  “No. But you are going away — and my reason for speaking—” He checked himself; his reasons were impossible; there was no extenuation to be found in them, no adequate explanation for them, or for his attitude toward this young girl which had crystallised over night — over a sleepless, thrilling night — dazzling him with its wonder and its truth and its purity in the clean rays of the morning sun.

  She watched his expression as it changed, troubled, uncertain how to regard him, now.

  “It isn’t very much like you, to ask me such a question,” she said.

  “Before I met you, you thought me one kind of a man; after I met you, you thought me another. Have I turned out to be a third kind?”

  “N-no.”

  “Would I turn into the first kind if I ask you again to answer my question?”

  She gave him a swift, expressionless glance:

  “I want to like you; I’m trying to, Mr. Quarren. Won’t you let me?”

  “I want to have the right to like you, too — perhaps more than you will care to have me — —”

  “Please don’t speak that way — I don’t know what you mean, anyway — —”

  “That is why I asked you the question — to find out whether I had a right to — —”

  “Right!” she repeated. “What right? What do you mean? What have you misinterpreted in me that has given you any rights as far as I am concerned? Did you misunderstand our few hours of masked acquaintance — a few moments of perfectly innocent imprudence? — my overlooking certain conventions and listening to you at the telephone this morning — my receiving you here at this silly hour? What has given you any right to say anything to me, Mr. Quarren — to hint of the possibility of anything serious — for the future — or at any time whatever?”

  “I have no right,” he said, wincing.

  “Indeed you have not!” she rejoined warmly, flushed and affronted. “I am glad that is perfectly clear to you.”

  “No right at all,” he repeated— “except the personal privilege of recognising what is cleanest and sweetest and most admirable and most unspoiled in life; the right to care for it without knowing exactly why — the desire to be part of it — as have all men who are awakened out of trivial dreams when such a woman as you crosses their limited and foolish horizon.”

  She sat staring at him, struggling to comprehend what he was saying, perfectly unable to believe, nor even wishing to, yet painfully attentive to his every word.

  “Mr. Quarren,” she said, “I was hurt. I imagined presumption where there was none. But I am afraid you are romantic and impulsive to an amazing degree. Yet, both romance and impulse have a place and a reason, not undignified, in human intercourse.” — She felt rather superior in turning this phrase, and looked on him a little more kindly ——

  “If the compliment which you have left me to infer is purely a romantic one, it is nevertheless unwarranted — and, forgive me, unacceptable. The trouble is — —”

  She paused to recover her wits and her breath; but he took the latter away again as he said:

  “I am in love with you; that is the trouble, Mrs. Leeds. And I really have no business to say s
o until I amount to something.”

  “You have no business to say so anyway after one single evening’s acquaintance!” she retorted hotly.

  “Oh, that! If love were a matter of time and convention — like five o’clock tea! — but it isn’t, you know. It isn’t the brevity of our acquaintance that worries me; it’s what I am — and what you are — and — and the long, long road I have to travel before I am worth your lightest consideration — I never was in love before. Forgive my crudeness. I’m only conscious of the — hopelessness of it all.”

  Breathless, confused, incredulous, she sat there staring at him — listening to and watching this tall, quiet, cool young fellow who was telling her such incomprehensible things in a manner that began to fascinate her. With an effort she collected herself, shook off the almost eerie interest that was already beginning to obsess her, and stood up, flushed but composed.

  “Shall we not say any more about it?” she said quietly. “Because there is nothing more to say, Mr. Quarren — except — thank you for — for feeling so amiably toward me — for believing me more than I really am.... And I would like to have your friendship still, if I may — —”

  “You have it.”

  “Even yet?”

  “Why not?... It’s selfish of me to say it — but I wish you — could have saved me,” he said almost carelessly.

  “From what, Mr. Quarren? I really do not understand you.”

  “From being what I am — the sort of man you first divined me to be.”

  “What do you mean by ‘saving’ you?” she asked, coldly.

  “I don’t know! — giving me a glimmer of hope I suppose — something to strive for.”

  “One saves one’s self,” she said.

  He turned an altered face toward her: and she looked at him intently.

  “I guess you are right,” he said with a short laugh. “If there is anything worth saving, one saves one’s self.”

  “I think that is true,” she said.... “And — if my friendship — if you really care for it — —”

  He met her gaze:

  “I honestly don’t know. I’ve been carried off my feet by you, completely. A man, under such conditions, doesn’t know anything — not even enough to hold his tongue — as you may have noticed. I am in love with you. As I am to-day, my love for you would do you no good — I don’t know whether yours would do me any good — or your friendship, either. It ought to if I amounted to anything; but I don’t — and I don’t know.”