After a moment, looking down at her idly clasped hands lying on her knees: “I hoped you would come,” she said gravely.
“I wanted to. I don’t suppose you’ll believe that; but I did.... I don’t know how it happened that I didn’t make good. There were so many things to do, all sorts of engagements, — and the summer vacation seemed ended before I could understand that it had begun.” — He scowled in retrospection, and she watched his expression out of her dark blue eyes — clear, engaging eyes, sweet as a child’s.
“That’s no excuse,” he concluded. “I should have kept my word to you — and I really wanted to.... And I was not quite such a piker as you thought me.”
“I didn’t think that of you, C. Bailey, Junior.”
“You must have!”
“I didn’t.”
“That’s because you’re so decent, but it makes my infamy the blacker.... Anyway I did write you and did send you the strap-watch. I sent both to Fifty-fourth Street. The Dead Letter Office returned them to me.”... He drew from his inner pocket a letter and a packet. “Here they are.”
She sat up slowly and very slowly took the letter from his hand.
“Four years old,” he commented. “Isn’t that the limit?” And he began to tear the sealed paper from the packet.
“What a shame,” he went on contritely, “that you wore that old gun-metal watch of mine so long. I was mortified when I saw it on your wrist that day—”
“I wear it still,” she said with a smile.
“Nonsense!” he glanced at her bare wrist and laughed.
“I do,” she insisted. “It is only because I have just bathed and am prepared for the night that I am not wearing it now.”
He looked up, incredulous, then his expression changed subtly.
“Is that so?” he asked.
But the hint of seriousness confused her and she merely nodded.
He had freed the case from the sealed paper and now he laid it on her knees, saying: “Thank the Lord I’m not such a piker now as I was, anyway. I hope you’ll wear it, Athalie, and fire that other affair out of your back window.”
“There is no back window,” she said, raising her charming eyes to his,— “there’s only an air-shaft.... Am I to open it? — I mean this case?”
“It is yours.”
She opened it daintily.
“Oh, C. Bailey, Junior!” she said very gently. “You mustn’t do this!”
“Why?”
“It’s too beautiful. Isn’t it?”
“Nonsense, Athalie. Here, I’ll wind it and set it for you. This is how it works—” pulling out the jewelled lever and setting it by the tin alarm-clock on the mantel. Then he wound it, unclasped the woven gold wrist-band, took her reluctant hand, and, clasping the jewel over her wrist, snapped the catch.
For a few moments her fair head remained bent as she gazed in silence at the tiny moving hands. Then, looking up:
“Thank you, C. Bailey, Junior,” she said, a little solemnly perhaps.
He laughed, somewhat conscious of the slight constraint: “You’re welcome, Athalie. Do you really like it?”
“It is wonderfully beautiful.”
“Then I’m perfectly happy and contented — or I will be when you read that letter and admit I’m not as much of a piker as I seemed.”
She laughed and coloured: “I never thought that of you. I only — missed you.”
“Really?”
“Yes,” she said innocently.
For a second he looked rather grave, then again, conscious of his own constraint, spoke gaily, lightly:
“You certainly are the real thing in friendship. You are far too generous to me.”
She said: “Incidents are not frequent enough in my life to leave me unimpressed. I never knew any other boy of your sort. I suppose that is why I never forgot you.”
Her simplicity pricked the iridescent and growing bubble of his vanity, and he laughed, discountenanced by her direct explanation of how memory chanced to retain him. But it did not occur to him to ask himself how it happened that, in all these years, and in a life so happily varied, so delightfully crowded as his own had always been, he had never entirely forgotten her.
“I wish you’d open that letter and read it,” he said. “It’s my credential. Date and postmark plead for me.”
But she had other plans for its unsealing and its perusal, and said so.
“Aren’t you going to read it, Athalie?”
“Yes — when you go.”
“Why?”
“Because — it will make your visit seem a little longer,” she said frankly.
“Athalie, are you really glad to see me?”
She looked up as though he were jesting, and caught in his eye another gleam of that sudden seriousness which had already slightly confused her. For a moment only, both felt the least sense of constraint, then the instinct that had forbidden her to admit any significance in his seriousness, parted her lips with that engaging smile which he had begun to know so well, and to await with an expectancy that approached fascination.
“Peach turnovers,” she said. “Do you remember? If I had not been glad to see you in those days I would not have gone into the kitchen to bring you one.... And I have already told you that I am unchanged.... Wait! I am changed.... I am very much wealthier.” And she laughed her delicious, unembarrassed laugh of a child.
He laughed, too, then shot a glance around the shabby room.
“What are you doing, Athalie?” he asked lightly.
“The same.”
“I remember you told me. You are stenographer and typist.”
“Yes.”
“Where?”
“I am with Wahlbaum, Grossman & Co.”
“Are they decent to you?”
“Very.”
He thought a moment, hesitated, appeared as though about to speak, then seemed to reject the idea whatever it might have been.
“You live with your sisters, don’t you?” he asked.
“Yes.”
He planted his elbows on his knees and leaned forward, his head on his hands, apparently buried in thought.
After a little while: “C. Bailey, Junior,” she ventured, “you must not let me keep you too long.”
“What?” He lifted his head.
“You are on your way to the opera, aren’t you?”
“Am I? That’s so.... I’d rather stay here if you’ll let me.”
“But the opera!” she protested with emphasis.
“What do I care for the opera?”
“Don’t you?”
He laughed: “No; do you?”
“I’m mad about it.”
Still laughing he said: “Then, in my place, you wouldn’t give up the opera for me, would you, Athalie?”
She started to say “No!” very decidedly; but checked herself. Then, deliberately honest:
“If,” she began, “I were going to the opera, and you came in here — after four years of not seeing you — and if I had to choose — I don’t believe I’d go to the opera. But it would be a dreadful wrench, C. Bailey, Junior!”
“It’s no wrench to me.”
“Because you often go.”
“Because, even if I seldom went there could be no question of choice between the opera and Athalie Greensleeve.”
“C. Bailey, Junior, you are not honest.”
“Yes, I am. Why do you say so?”
“I judge by past performances,” she said, her humorous eyes on him.
“Are you going to throw past performances in my face every time I come to see you?”
“Are you coming again?”
“That isn’t generous of you, Athalie—”
“I really mean it,” said the girl. “Are you?”
“Coming here? Of course I am if you’ll let me!”
The last time he had said, “If you want me.” Now it was modified to “If you’ll let me,” — a development and a new footing to which neither were yet accustomed, perhaps not e
ven conscious of.
“C. Bailey, Junior, do you want to come?”
“I do indeed. It is so bully of you to be nice to me after — everything. And it’s so jolly to talk over — things — with you.”
She leaned forward in her chair, her pretty hands joined between her knees.
“Please,” she said, “don’t say you’ll come if you are not coming.”
“But I am—”
“I know you said so twice before.... I don’t mean to be horrid or to reproach you, but — I am going to tell you — I was disappointed — even a — a little — unhappy. And it — lasted — some time.... So, if you are not coming, tell me so now.... It is hard to wait — too long.”
“Athalie,” he said, completely surprised by the girl’s frank avowal and by the unsuspected emotion in himself which was responding, “I am — I had no idea — I don’t deserve your kindness to me — your loyalty — I’m a — I’m a — a pup! That’s what I am — an undeserving, ungrateful, irresponsible, and asinine pup! That’s what all boys in college are — but it’s no excuse for not keeping my word — for making you unhappy—”
“C. Bailey, Junior, you were just a boy. And I was a child.... I am still, in spite of my nineteen years — nearly twenty at that — not much different, not enough changed to know that I’m a woman. I feel exactly as I did toward you — not grown up, — or that you have grown up.... Only I know, somehow, I’d have a harder time of it now, if you tell me you’ll come, and then—”
“I will come, Athalie! I want to,” he said impetuously. “You’re more interesting, — a lot jollier, — than any girl I know. I always suspected it, too — the bigger fool I to lose all that time we might have had together—”
She, surprised for a moment, lifted her pretty head and laughed outright, checking his somewhat impulsive monologue. And he looked at her, disturbed.
“I’m only laughing because you speak of all those years we might have had together, as though—” And suddenly she checked herself in her turn, on the brink of saying something that was not so funny after all.
Probably he understood what impulse had prompted her to terminate abruptly both laughter and discourse, for he reddened and gazed rather fixedly at the radiator which was now clanking and clinking in a very noisy manner.
“You ought to have a fireplace and an open fire,” he said. “It’s the cosiest thing on earth — with a cat on the hearth and a big chair and a good book.... Athalie, do you remember that stove? And how I sat there in wet shooting clothes and stockinged feet?”
“Yes,” she said, drawing her own bare ones further under her chair.
“Do you know what you looked like to me when you came in so silently, dressed in your red hood and cloak?”
“What did I look like?”
“A little fairy princess.”
“I? In that ragged cloak?”
“I didn’t see the rags. All I saw was your lithe little fairy figure and your yellow hair and your wonderful dark eyes in the ruddy light from the stove. I tell you, Athalie, I was enchanted.”
“How odd! I never dreamed you thought that of me when I stood there looking at you, utterly lost in admiration—”
“Oh, come, Athalie!” he laughed; “you are getting back at me!”
“It’s true. I thought you the most wonderful boy I had ever seen.”
“Until I disillusioned you,” he said.
“You never did, C. Bailey, Junior.”
“What! Not when I proved a piker?”
But she only smiled into his amused and challenging eyes and slowly shook her head.
Once or twice, mechanically, he had slipped a flat gold cigarette case from his pocket, and then, mechanically still, had put it back. Not accustomed to modern men of his caste she had not paid much attention to the unconscious hint of habit. Now as he did it again it occurred to her to ask him why he did not smoke.
“May I?”
“Yes. I like it.”
“Do you smoke?”
“No — now and then when I’m troubled.”
“Is that often?” he asked lightly.
“Very seldom,” she replied, amused; “and the proof is that I never smoked more than half a dozen cigarettes in all my life.”
“Will you try one now?” he asked mischievously.
“I’m not in trouble, am I?”
“I don’t know. I am.”
“What troubles you, C. Bailey, Junior?” she asked, humorously.
“My disinclination to leave. And it’s after eleven.”
“If you never get into any more serious trouble than that,” she said, “I shall not worry about you.”
“Would you worry if I were in trouble?”
“Naturally.”
“Why?”
“Why? Because you are my friend. Why shouldn’t I worry?”
“Do you really take our friendship as seriously as that?”
“Don’t you?”
He changed countenance, hesitated, flicked the ashes from his cigarette. Suddenly he looked her straight in the face:
“Yes. I do take it seriously,” he said in a voice so quietly and perhaps unnecessarily emphatic that, for a few moments, she found nothing to say in response.
Then, smilingly: “I am glad you look at it that way. It means that you will come back some day.”
“I will come to-morrow if you’ll let me.”
Which left her surprised and silent but not at all disquieted.
“Shall I, Athalie?”
“Yes — if you wish.”
“Why not?” he said with more unnecessary emphasis and as though addressing himself, and perhaps others not present. “I see no reason why I shouldn’t if you’ll let me. Do you?”
“No.”
“May I take you to dinner and to the theatre?”
A quick glow shot through her, leaving a sort of whispering confusion in her brain which seemed full of distant voices.
“Yes, I’d like to go with you.”
“That’s fine! And we’ll have supper afterward.”
She smiled at him through the ringing confusion in her brain.
“Do you mind taking supper with me after the play?”
“No.”
“Where then?”
“Anywhere — with you, C. Bailey, Junior.”
Things began to seem to her a trifle unreal; she saw him a little vaguely: vaguely, too, she was conscious that to whatever she said he was responding with something more subtly vital than mere words. Faintly within her the instinct stirred to ignore, to repress something in him — in herself — she was not clear about just what she ought to repress, or which of them harboured it.
One thing confused and disturbed her; his tongue was running loose, planning all sorts of future pleasures for them both together, confidently, with an enthusiasm which, somehow, seemed to leave her unresponsive.
“Please don’t,” she said.
“What, Athalie?”
“Make so many promises — plans. I — am afraid of promises.”
He turned very red: “What on earth have I done to you!”
“Nothing — yet.”
“Yes I have! I once made you unhappy; I made you distrust me—”
“No: — that is all over now. Only — if it happened again — I should really — miss you — very much — C. Bailey, Junior.... So don’t promise me too much — now.... Promise a little — each time you come — if you care to.”
In the silence that grew between them the alarm went off with a startling clangour that brought them both to their feet.
It was midnight.
“I set it to wake myself before my sisters came in,” she explained with a smile. “I usually have something prepared for them to eat when they’ve been out.”
“I suppose they do the same for you,” he said, looking at her rather steadily.
“I don’t go out in the evening.”
“You do sometimes.”
“Very seldom.
... Do you know, C. Bailey, Junior, I have never been out in the evening with a man?”
“What?”
“Never.”
“Why?”
“I suppose,” she admitted with habitual honesty, “it’s because I don’t know any men with whom I’d care to be seen in the evening. I don’t like ordinary people.”
“How about me?” he asked, laughing.
She merely smiled.
CHAPTER VII
DORIS came in about midnight, her coat and hat plastered with sleet, her shoes soaking. She looked rather forlornly at the bowl of hot milk and crackers which Athalie brought from the kitchenette.
“I’d give next week’s salary for a steak,” she said, taking the bowl and warming her chilled hands on it.
“You know what meat costs,” said Athalie. “I’d give it to you for supper if I could.”
Doris seated herself by the radiator; Athalie knelt and drew off the wet shoes, unbuttoned the garters and rolled the stockings from the icy feet.
“I had another chance to-night: they were college boys: some of the girls went—” remarked Doris disjointedly, forcing herself to eat the crackers and milk because it was hot, and snuggling into the knitted slippers which Athalie brought. After a moment or two she lifted her pretty, impudent face and sniffed inquiringly.
“Who’s been smoking? You?”
“No.”
“Who? Genevieve?”
“No. Who do you suppose called?”
“Search me.”
“C. Bailey, Junior!”
Doris looked blank, then: “Oh, that boy you had an affair with about a hundred years ago?”
“That same boy,” said Athalie, smiling.
“He’ll come again next century I suppose — like a comet,” shrugged Doris, nestling closer to the radiator.
Athalie said nothing; her sister slowly stirred the crackers in the milk and from time to time took a spoonful.
“Next time,” she said presently, “I shall go out to supper when an attractive man asks me. I know how to take care of myself — and the supper, too.”
Athalie started to say something, and stopped. Perhaps she remembered C. Bailey, Jr., and that she had promised to dine and sup with him, “anywhere.”
She said in a low voice: “It’s all right, I suppose, if you know the man.”
“I don’t care whether I know him or not as long as it’s a good restaurant.”
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