Balanced on the Blade's Edge (Dragon Blood, Book 1)

by Lindsay Buroker

  Chapter 4

  Sardelle dumped her load of laundry in the big steam-powered washing machine—yet another contraption that hadn’t existed in her time—and grabbed a pile of towels to fold. Dhasi, the woman in charge of the facility, had told Sardelle she had to stay late since she had started late. After seeing that poor woman strung up in the barracks, she was almost relieved. She would rather be working and have a distraction, rather than lying in her bunk and struggling to get the image out of her head.

  Are you upset by the loss of the prisoner or the realization that it could be you?

  Both, Jaxi. Sardelle resented the insinuation that she didn’t care.

  Sorry, I just wasn’t sure which tack I should take with my comforting condolences.

  I don’t need comforting. Didn’t she? She had been upset by the grisly death, but also by hearing the colonel say, “Maybe so” when his man had suggested that someone who killed a witch didn’t deserve punishment. It hadn’t exactly been a heartfelt judgment, but it was a reminder that she dare not let him or anyone else know about her power. And she feared this prison was a microcosm of the world as a whole these days. Would she find Jaxi and escape, only to learn that she would be hunted at every turn if she revealed her powers? Could she hide them forever? Her first training had been as a healer. How could she encounter sickness and injury and not step forward to help if she could? And if she did, would the one she saved then turn around and attack her for using magic? All right, maybe I need a little comforting.

  He’s coming.

  What?

  But Jaxi didn’t answer.

  A cold draft swept into the laundry facility. Sardelle peered past the vats of soapy water and drying racks toward the front door. Zirkander had walked in. Complete darkness had fallen beyond the windows, and there were only two other women left in the building, both staying warm over near the furnaces. Zirkander asked a question of one of them and was directed toward Sardelle’s corner.

  Uh oh. Jaxi, was I… being suspicious when he saw me? He wouldn’t think I had something to do with the death, would he? I hadn’t even seen that woman before.

  If anything, your mouth-hanging-open, caught-in-the-avalanche expression should suggest innocence.

  Thanks. I think.

  You’re welcome. Don’t forget to ask him to unbury me from this rubble.

  As soon as I figure out how to do that without incriminating myself, I will.

  Sardelle kept folding towels as Zirkander headed toward her, weaving past the vats and ducking rows of laundry drying before a fan. She didn’t know whether she should pretend she hadn’t noticed him or smile and invite him to take a seat on the wicker laundry hamper next to her. She ended up meeting his eyes and giving him a solemn nod.

  “Good evening.” He waved toward the towels. “Need a hand?”

  “I don’t know,” Sardelle said, surprised by the offer. “Are you experienced?”

  “Not at all. Back home, there’s a place where I can drop off my entire duffle full of dirty drawers, and they’ll have them ready the next day for a mere two nucros. By morning if I promise to bring Ms. Mortenstock mango turnovers from the Palm Flats run.” Nothing in Zirkander’s smile or tone said he found her suspicious, at least any more so than usual. That was one relief anyway. “I do think I could manage the geometric complexities of making those towel squares though.”

  Sardelle knew he had more important things to do—for that matter, she had more important things to do—but she stepped aside, so there would be room for him beside her at the table. “If you’re up to the challenge. Just know I’ll be judging you.”

  His eyebrows rose. “Really?”

  She blushed. She shouldn’t be so familiar with him. It was his fault, she decided, for setting that tone.

  “Not harshly. It’s my first day, too, after all.” Naturally she couldn’t mention the magical contraption she had once delivered her own dirty drawers to, one that had washed, dried, and folded, without requiring turnovers or any other kind of compensation.

  “You’re kind,” he murmured, then removed his cap and parka, draping them over a rack, and picked up a towel.

  Zirkander, with his friendly tone and smile, had to be there to comfort her, though she couldn’t guess why he would bother.

  He’s attracted to you, genius.

  I doubt that. If anything, I’m a puzzle he’s trying to solve, which is not a good thing for either of us. I shouldn’t be encouraging him.

  Right, and that’s why you just shifted over to stand closer to him.

  I was reaching for that towel, and have I mentioned how amazing it is that you can spy so effectively from under a mile of solid rock?

  No, you don’t mention how amazing I am nearly often enough. Listen, just because he’s couth enough to look into your eyes instead of at your boobs doesn’t mean he doesn’t find you attractive. I’d use that if I were you. Make him like you so that if he does discover your little secret…

  He’ll feel particularly bad about shooting me?

  “You seemed distraught about Bretta’s death,” Zirkander said. “Understandably so. I wanted to make sure you were all right.”

  “I was just surprised by the scene.” He knew the woman’s name? Sardelle hadn’t. She felt like a fraud. “And thought of the pain she must have suffered before that ignoble end. There was a time when I trained to be a healer—a doctor—” she glanced at him when she made the correction, not sure if the word “healer” would still have a magical association in this time.

  He gazed thoughtfully at her, but she didn’t read any suspicion. “I think that might be one of the first true things you’ve told me.”

  She blushed again and grew quite focused on the towels. “I’m certain your captain will find my report and verify that I… ”

  “Belong here?”

  Did she want to fight for that? To belong with all these cutthroats and rapists? “That there’s nothing unusual about me or the circumstances that led me to come here.”

  Well, that was vague. No wonder he finds you an enigma.

  Hush.

  His eyebrows twitched. “I… see.” After a moment of silent folding, he spoke again. “I was thinking… This stack is getting high. Where do these go next?”

  Sardelle pointed. “In that cart.”

  Huh. He was actually folding, not simply poking around while he spoke to her.

  “I was thinking that since you’re also concerned about the welfare of these people,” Zirkander said, “that maybe you could keep your ears open and help with the investigation of Bretta’s death. Nothing risky, but you could let me know if you hear anything that might not otherwise be said when I’m around. I’ve never considered myself overly gruff and intimidating, but soldiers tend to make like clams when officers wander past. I’m suspecting miners are the same way.”

  Sardelle watched him out of the corner of her eye. Was he trying to give her some small task so she wouldn’t dwell on the woman’s death? Or did he truly want this favor from her? Jaxi’s advice aside, she ought to stay away from him—he saw all too clearly through her fibs. Just because she found him handsome—especially with his cap off and his hair tousled in such a way that made her wonder what it, and the rest of him, might look like when he climbed out of bed in the morning…—didn’t mean he wasn’t the most dangerous person here.

  Despite that acknowledgment, she found herself asking, “So… you would want me to report in to you every morning with the latest gossip?”

  “Well, the gossip related to this investigation. Or if you were to see or hear something that suggested… someone or some persons within these walls were using witchcraft.”

  Sardelle’s heart forgot to beat. He wanted her to let him know if anyone was using magic? She coughed to cover the strangled sound her throat wanted to make.

  It must have sounded strangled—or distressed—anyway, for he put a gentle hand on her back and asked, “Are you all right?”

  S
he managed a nod, though his touch flustered her further.

  That’s what you get for imagining him in bed.

  “I’m fine,” she said. “I just—”

  Zirkander withdrew his hand and waved it dismissively. “Never mind on the witchcraft. I wouldn’t want you to get yourself in trouble on my account. They say that back in the old days, those people could read minds.”

  “Yeah,” Sardelle managed, her voice hoarse.

  “The last thing I would want is for you to be hurt because someone thought you were a spy.” He considered the towel he was folding. “Perhaps this was a bad idea. Even the average prisoner here might get suspicious if you’re always wandering up to my office.”

  “Given what I’ve seen, heard, and been propositioned with today, I’d guess they would think I was sleeping with you rather than spying for you.”

  This time, Zirkander made the strangled-distressed noise in his throat. She held back a smirk, though she was somewhat pleased to have broken his equanimity for once.

  “That would also be… less than ideal.” He glanced toward the furnaces, probably wondering if the other two women had heard, but they had disappeared into the building somewhere or perhaps left for the day. The lanterns in their work area were out now.

  “I’m not your type, eh?” Sardelle wasn’t sure why she asked it, or why she was making light when the notion had disturbed him.

  Jaxi smirked into her mind. Because you want to know.

  “Oh, you’re nice, but it wouldn’t be appropriate for an officer—or, as I am now, a glorified prison guard—to take advantage of a prisoner, and whether that was happening or not, the appearance… ” Ridge snorted. “You don’t know how ironic this is, coming from me, with my record full of demerits, but they were always honorable demerits. I mean, I could argue that way. Ignoring the rules for the greater good. Or to irk annoying senior officers who deserved irking. I—oh, hells. Never mind. I guess it doesn’t matter that much what these idiots think.”

  Well, you’ve succeeded in flustering him.

  So I see.

  Not quite sure whether “you’re nice” answers your question though.

  Sardelle sighed inwardly. Me either.

  “So, just to be clear, I am or am not having coffee with you in your office tomorrow morning?”

  Zirkander blinked and looked at her—he had been avoiding her eyes for most of the towel folding session. “Does that mean you’ll share what you hear?”

  “I will, but I feel it would be fair for me to receive a small favor from you as well. Since I will be making your job easier for you.” Sardelle smiled.

  He smiled too. It was warm and friendly as usual, but there was a keen intensity in his eyes, too, and she almost had the feeling that she had walked into a trap.

  He wants an opportunity to observe you and figure out who and what you are. You’ve just agreed to see him every day. And you’re also about to tell him something you want, something that might give him another puzzle piece.

  You sound like you don’t approve. I’m angling to get you out of here.

  I know, but be careful. He’s not dumb.

  No, I’ve figured that out.

  “Yes?” Zirkander prompted and went back to folding towels. Maybe he realized his eyes had given away too much.

  “I would like to see a map of your mines.”

  “Would you?” He said it more like a statement than a question.

  I’ve seen the map. If you’re thinking you could find a spot to dig me out on your own, I’m nowhere near any of their tunnels.

  I still want to see it for myself. I have an idea.

  Yeah? It better be good. He’s going to be suspicious of why you want to see the map.

  “Yes, I’ve studied the civilization that used to live here, inside this mountain. I might have some insight into where you should be digging to find… that which you seek.” She almost laughed. Beyond a vague notion of “crystals,” she had no idea what they were mining for—more than ore, she was certain of that now, because an enemy vessel wouldn’t need to spy on a silver mine. But she suspected it had something to do with what her people had left behind.

  Maybe he wants your magical laundry machine.

  Funny.

  Sardelle mentally pushed Jaxi away, wanting her full concentration, for he was studying her again.

  “A half truth this time, I think,” Zirkander said.

  She gave him her best I’m-too-mature-for-these-games single eyebrow raise, though she doubted he bought it. “I won’t answer that other than to say I’m beginning to think you’re the telepath around here.”

  Sardelle smiled, but his eyes widened in surprise—no, anger. He grabbed her arm and stepped close, his chest brushing hers as he leaned down and whispered harshly, “Do not say such things.”

  He glanced about the facility again.

  “I’m sorry,” she whispered, stung by his anger. Even more, she was irritated with herself for turning their playful chat—their cat-and-mouse game—into something darker. “I meant it as a joke. That’s all.”

  He stared down at her, and she could feel his deep breaths, the hardness of his chest beneath his shirt. She didn’t ready any defenses, didn’t think she would need to, but she was aware of the strength of his grip—of him. His dark eyes bored into hers, no longer playful or speculative, but intense, as if he were trying to read her every thought, as if by sheer will he could do so. She looked into his eyes, trying to show him that she hadn’t been lying, not this time.

  Zirkander glanced down, seemed to realize that he had a lock on her arm, and loosened his grip. He lifted his hand, fingers spread, and stepped back. “I overreacted.” He faced the towel table again, though he grasped the edge, his hands still tense and tight. “I apologize. It’s just that I’ve seen careers ruined because of such accusations.”

  Not his, or he wouldn’t be here, but some close friend perhaps.

  “Once they’ve been made, no matter how dubious the source… well, you can’t prove a negative, as they say.”

  Sardelle should have felt mad or at least disgruntled at being manhandled, but the haunted expression on his face made her want to give him a hug instead. “I understand.” Before she could think better of it, she laid a hand on his, wanting to ease the tension there. “I shouldn’t have said that.”

  Zirkander eyed her hand, his face inscrutable. Sardelle withdrew it, a little disappointed by his reaction, but she shouldn’t have been so presumptuous.

  He grabbed his parka and put it on. “I should go. I hope my small assistance with these towels has lightened your load somewhat.” He smiled, though it didn’t reach his eyes, and bowed slightly.

  When he turned away, Sardelle asked, “Are we still—uhm, am I reporting to you in the morning?”

  He hesitated for a long moment, and she expected a, “Never mind” out of his mouth. He glanced toward a dark window. “If you find something to report, I’ll be in the office until nine.”

  As he walked away, she was certain he presumed she wouldn’t find anything tonight, that he wouldn’t have to see her again soon. He didn’t want to see her. She didn’t need telepathy to sense that in the stiff way he took his departure. Her stupid comment had changed something.

  Too bad.

  She wanted to see that map. She would find something to report.