Jim Butcher - Dresden Files Omnibus

by Jim Butcher

  Shiela blinked her eyes closed slowly and looked away.

  Butters peered and squinted, looking around him. “What?”

  I frowned at him and touched his arm. “Are you okay?”

  He flinched a little when I touched him, then clapped a hand down on my arm as if using it to orient on me. “Harry?” he asked. “Don’t you have a light?”

  I lifted my eyebrows at him and lifted my pentacle, willing it to light. “Here,” I said. “Shiela, I hope you don’t mind if they come in?”

  Butters peered up at me and then around him.

  “Harry?” he asked.

  “Yeah?”

  “Um, who are you talking to?”

  I stared at him for a silent second.

  And then a few details floated together in my mind, and the bottom dropped all the way out of my stomach.

  I closed my eyes for a moment, and opened my inner vision, my wizard’s Sight, and turned to face Shiela.

  The little apartment simply dissolved, sliding away like paint being washed away by a stream of falling water. In its place I could see a dimly lit, gutted building. Studs stood naked where the drywall had been removed. There were piles of scrap wiring, half-rotted-looking ducts, and similar refuse, which had been removed from the building and thrown aside into refuse piles. The place had been prepared for renovation—but it was empty. The only window I could see was broken. Thunder rumbled, the sound slightly different than it had been a moment before. The driving rain gained a couple of notches of volume, beating hollowly on the old apartment building.

  I stared at Shiela with my Sight, and she stood there unchanged—except that I could see a faint tint of light around her, subtle but definite. It meant that she was either a noncorporeal presence or an illusion of thought and energy rather than a reality. But if she’d been an illusion, she should have faded away entirely, as the apartment had done.

  I released my Sight again. My stomach twisted on itself, a burning, bitter feeling. “Shiela,” I said quietly. “Stars and stones, it’s all but your real name, isn’t it? Lasciel.”

  “It’s close,” Shiela agreed quietly.

  “Harry?” Butters whispered. His eyes were very wide. “Who are you talking to?”

  “Shut up a minute, Butters,” I said, staring at her. She regarded me quietly, her eyes now steady on mine. “That’s what Billy was talking about. Bock started looking awfully odd when I was speaking to you at the bookstore. And you never interacted with anyone else. Never opened any doors in the store. Didn’t pick up the book when I was looking for it.” I glanced down at my hand, where she’d written her number in permanent ink. It was now gone. “Illusions,” I said.

  “Yes,” she said calmly. “Some of appearance only. Some of seeming.”

  “Why?”

  “To help you,” she said. “I told you that I could not make open contact with your conscious mind. That is why I created Shiela.” She gestured down at herself. “I wanted to help you, but I couldn’t do it directly. So I tried to do it this way.”

  “So you lied to me,” I said.

  She arched a brow. “I had little choice in the matter.”

  “What about after you made contact with me?” I said, and my voice was bitter too. “I used the Hellfire and you came to me in a dream.”

  “That was after you met Shiela, if you will recall,” she said.

  “But you didn’t need Shiela anymore.”

  “No,” she said. “I didn’t. But I found that I…” She rolled her shoulders in a shrug. “That I enjoyed being Shiela. That I enjoyed interacting with you as one person to another. Without being regarded with fear and suspicion. I know that you understand what it is like. You’ve felt it often enough in your own life.”

  “But oddly enough,” I said, “I haven’t gone off and pretended to be someone else to gain another’s trust.”

  “You’ve felt that isolation for less than two score years, my host. I’ve lived with it for millennia.”

  “Yeah? How long were you planning on stringing me along?”

  Her soft mouth turned into a firm line. “I was going to tell you once the night’s business was done—assuming you lived through it.”

  “Sure you were,” I said.

  “I told you,” she said. “I didn’t want it to become a distraction for you.”

  I barked out a harsh little laugh. “And why should I believe that?”

  “Because your death would mean the death of this part of me,” she said, gesturing down at herself again. “The thought shadow of Lasciel would not survive your death—and the true Lasciel, my true self, would remain trapped for who knows how long. You have no idea of what it is to be trapped without sound, sight, or senses, waiting for someone to bring you forth from oblivion.”

  I stared hard at her. “I don’t believe you.”

  “You need not, my host,” she said, and gave me a little bow. “But that makes it no less true.”

  “You kissed me,” I said.

  Shiela-Lasciel’s eyebrows lifted and she gave me an almost whimsical smile. “When I said that it has been a long time since I was close to anyone, I meant it. I enjoyed that contact, my host. As, I think, did you.”

  “Oh, let me guess,” I said. “You did that for me, too. Because you wanted to help me.”

  “I kissed you because I desired it and because it was pleasurable. If you will recall, my host, I did help you. I gave you the summons to call the Erlking, did I not?”

  I opened my mouth and then closed it again, struggling to find something to say.

  “I have never wished you ill, my host,” she said. “In fact, I have done all that I can to assist you.”

  I suddenly felt very tired and rubbed at my forehead. I reminded myself that Lasciel was a fallen angel. That she was one of the thirty demons of the Order of the Blackened Denarius. That she was known as the Temptress and the Webweaver, and that she was ancient, powerful, and deadly dangerous at the art of manipulation. She could not be trusted; nor could her little carbon copy that had taken up residence in my head.

  But she had helped me. And she had kissed me. Sure, a kiss was just a kiss, but her desire for it, her hesitation, the sense of yearning to her had been genuine. She had wanted to do it. She had enjoyed it. She was one hell of a good kisser.

  Hell being the operative word, I reminded myself.

  “I can still help you, my host,” she said. “You are a powerful mortal, but your foes are more formidable still. They will kill you.” Her face took on an expression of frustrated protest. “Let me help you survive. Give me the chance to preserve myself. Please.”

  I stared at her for a moment. She looked lovely and sincere and afraid.

  She looked exactly like the kind of woman in trouble whom I could never turn away.

  “I have no intention of dying,” I said quietly. “But you aren’t going to be part of the equation.”

  “If you don’t—”

  “Save it,” I told her quietly. “I know how this works. First I allow you to help with this problem. Then with the next one. Then with the one after that. And at some point I’ll need more power for what will probably look like a very good reason and dig up the coin. And then you’ll be able to do pretty much anything you want with me.” I shook my head. “That’s one big, long, slippery slope. No.”

  She clenched her jaw, her expression frustrated. “But I do not wish you any harm.”

  “Maybe,” I said. “But there’s no way for me to know that.”

  She arched one dark eyebrow at me.

  Then, as quickly as blinking, the building was on fire. It rose up in a sudden explosion of heat and flame that engulfed the bare studs on the walls and chewed at the floor. Vicious heat assaulted my back, a searing pain that left me with no choice but to move forward. Behind me the fire roared up higher, and I looked around frantically, suddenly panicked. The only portion of the building that wasn’t being swallowed by rising, hungry flame led to the broken window. I sprinted
to it, spotted the old iron of a fire escape lattice beneath it, and ducked down to go through onto the fire escape before I was burned to charcoal.

  And then the flames vanished, the air became cool once more, and the beat of rain replaced the roar of flame. I stood at the window, one leg raised onto the sill, the rain soaking my chest and my jeans.

  And there was no fire escape outside the window.

  There was only a long, long drop to the sidewalk beneath.

  I swallowed and drew back from the window, shaking. The whole thing had happened so fast. My reaction to the fire had been sheer and naked terror, and even now my hand throbbed with the pain of illusory burns. Ever since that fire I’d had nightmares of more. The illusion of fire had cut straight through to my pain and terror and utterly bypassed my brain.

  Which was exactly what Lasciel meant it to do.

  “Harry?” Butters called, his voice high and thready. I couldn’t see him. He stood back in the darkness of the empty building, and in my mindless panic I had allowed the light of my mother’s pentacle to go out.

  “I’m okay,” I told him. “Just stay where you are. I’m coming.”

  I lit the pentacle again, and found Lasciel standing next to me, one eyebrow still raised. “That is how you know,” she said. “If I wished to kill you, my host, your blood would be seeping from your broken corpse and mixing with the rain on the sidewalk.”

  There wasn’t much I could say to that.

  “Let me help you,” she urged me. “I can help you defend yourself against the disciples of Kemmler. I can teach you magics you have never considered. I can show you how to make yourself stronger, swifter. I can show you how you might heal the damage to your hand, if you have enough discipline. There wouldn’t even be a scar.”

  I turned my back on her. My heart pounded against my chest as I walked back to Butters.

  She was lying to me. She had to be. That’s what the Denarians did. They lied and manipulated their way into a mortal’s good graces, gradually giving them more power while they fell more deeply under their demonic influence.

  But she was telling the truth about one thing, for sure: She could make me stronger. Even the weakest Denarian I had seen, Quintus “Snakeboy” Cassius, had been a certifiable nightmare. With Hellfire to supplement my magic and an enormously powerful being to serve as a tutor and consultant, my abilities could grow to epic proportions.

  If I had power like that, I could protect my friends—Murphy, Billy, and the others. I could turn my power against the Red Court and help save the lives of the Wardens and the Council. I could do a lot of things.

  And her kiss…The illusion had all been in my head, but it had been so utterly real. Every detail. Shiela herself had been so thoroughly genuine that I would never have guessed she was an illusion. Indeed, there was little difference, from my own perspective, between that complex an illusion and reality. The feel of her, the scent, everything had been there.

  And she had been just as convincingly real in her blond-goddess form beside the hot tub in my dream. Her appearance had to be malleable. She could appear to me as anything.

  As anyone.

  Some darker, baser part of my nature toyed with that notion for a moment. But only for a moment. I didn’t dare let that thought flow through my head for long. Her touch had been too soft, too gentle, too warm. Too good. I’d been without female company for years, and more of that warmth, that pleasing contact, was a temptation too great to allow myself to dwell upon.

  I turned slowly and faced Lasciel.

  She lifted her eyebrows, leaning a little forward in anticipation of my answer.

  I knew how to manipulate and control my dreams—and this manifestation of Lasciel’s shadow was nothing more than a waking dream.

  “This is my mind,” I told her quietly. “Get thee behind me.”

  I focused my thoughts and my power and brought forth my own illusion of imagination and thought. Silver manacles appeared from nowhere, manifested from my focus and desire, and locked themselves around Lasciel’s wrists and ankles. I gestured sharply and visualized her being lifted through the air. Then I opened my hand, my spread fingers out, palm to the floor, and she fell into an iron cage that appeared from my concentrated effort. The door slammed and locked behind her.

  “Fool,” she said in a quiet voice. “We will die.”

  I closed my eyes and with a last effort of imagination and will summoned a heavy tarp that fell over the cage, covering it and blocking Lasciel from sight and sound.

  “Maybe we will,” I muttered to myself. “But I’ll do it on my own.”

  I turned around to find Butters staring at me, his expression almost sick with fear. Mouse sat beside him, also staring at me, somehow managing to look worried.

  “Harry?” he asked.

  “I’m okay,” I told him quietly.

  “Um. What happened?”

  “A demon,” I told him. “It got into my head a while back. It was causing me to experience…hallucinations, I guess you could call them. I thought I was talking to people. But it was the demon, pretending to be them.”

  He nodded slowly. “And…and it’s gone now? You did, like, some kind of autoexorcism?”

  “Not gone,” I said quietly. “But it’s under control. Once I knew what it was doing, I was able to lock it away.”

  He peered at me. “Are you crying?”

  I turned my face away, trying to make it look like I was staring at the window while I wiped a hand over my eyes. “No.”

  “Harry. Are you sure you’re all right? Not, you know…insane?”

  I looked back up at Butters and suddenly laughed. “Look who’s talking, polka boy.”

  He blinked for a moment and then smiled a little. “I just have better taste than most.”

  I walked to him and rested my hand on his shoulder. “I’m all right. Or at least no crazier than I usually am.”

  He looked at me for a moment and then nodded. “Okay.”

  “Good thing you came along when you did,” I said. “You tipped the demon’s hand when you came up here. There was no way it could fit you into the illusion.”

  “I helped?” he said.

  “Big-time,” I said. “I think I’m just too used to knowing more than most people about magic. The demon was using some of my expectations against me. It knew exactly how to hide things from a wizard.”

  An idle thought flicked through my brain at the words. And suddenly I froze with my mouth open.

  “Hell’s bells,” I swore. “That’s it.”

  “It is?” Butters asked. “Er, what is?”

  Mouse tilted his head to one side, ears perked inquisitively.

  “How to hide things from a wizard,” I said, and I felt my mouth stretching into a wide, half-crazy grin. I dug in my memory until I found the string of mystery numbers and recited them. “Ha!” I said, and threw my hand up in the air in triumph. “Hah! Ha-ha! Eureka.”

  Butters looked distressed.

  “Let’s go,” I told him, rising excitement making tingles of nervous energy shoot through my limbs. I started walking to give some of it an outlet. “Come on, let’s hurry.”

  “Why?” Butters asked, bewildered.

  “Because I know what those numbers mean,” I said. “I know how to find The Word of Kemmler. And to do it, I need your help.”

  Chapter

  Thirty-six

  The lights of Chicago were still out and the night was growing even darker. The storm had driven most people from the streets, and now headlights appeared only intermittently. The National Guard had set up around Cook County Hospital, bringing in generators and laboring to keep them running while providing a shelter of some sort and a presence of authority on some of the streets—but they were as badly hampered by the lack of reliable telephone and radio communications as anyone else, and rain and darkness had cast them into the same morass of confusion as the rest of the city.

  The net result of it was that some streets were brigh
t with the headlights of military trucks and patrolled by National Guardsmen, and some of them were as black and empty as a crooked politician’s heart. One section of State Street was sunken in blackness, and I pulled the Beetle up onto the sidewalk in front of a darkened Radio Shack.

  “Stay, Mouse,” I told the dog, and got out of the car. I walked to the glass door and considered it and the bars on it. Then I leaned my staff against it, drew in my will, and muttered, “Forzare.”

  There was no flash of light with the release of energy—I’d kept the spell tidy enough to avoid that. Instead it all went into kinetic force, snapping the plate glass as cleanly as if I’d used a cutter, and bending the center bars out into a neat bow shape, large enough to slip through.

  “Holy crap,” Butters said, his voice a hushed shout. “You’re breaking in?”

  “No one’s minding the store,” I said. I nudged a few pieces of door that hadn’t fallen out of the frame, then carefully slid into the building. “Come on.”

  “Now you’re entering,” Butters informed me. “You’re breaking. And entering. We’re going to jail.”

  I stuck my head out between the bars and said, “It’s in a good cause, Butters. We’re the secret champions of the city. Justice and truth are on our side.”

  He looked at the front of the store uncertainly. “They are?”

  “They are if you hurry up before someone in a uniform spots us,” I said. “Move it.”

  I went back into the store, lifting up my amulet and willing it to light. I stared around me at all the technological things, only a very few of which I could readily identify. I turned in a circle, looking for one particular gadget, but I had no idea where in the store it would be.

  Butters came in and looked around. The blue light of my pentacle gleamed on his glasses. Then he nodded decisively at a section of counter and walked over to it.

  “Is this it?” I asked him.

  “Something wrong with your eyes?” he asked me.

  I grimaced at him. “I don’t get in here a lot, Butters. Remember?”

  “Oh. Oh, yeah, right. The Murphyonic technology thing.”

  “Murphyonic?”