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Translations from Memory

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by Fred D’Aguiar


  Walk his craft down to the edge of the sound,

  A quiet stretch near Greenwich.

  He got in and pushed away into the deep

  Lane and soon other boats showed up,

  A tug, a barge and the surf they stirred

  Almost sank him. He hurried back

  To shore and picked more quiet

  Times to go back to the element he loves,

  Happy in his homemade boat.

  6. For the Record

  Caliban never had it so good with the crew on his island,

  On his terms with his name and his words in Prospero’s book.

  Ask him what he said and how he said it before he met Prospero.

  He raids a continent for it to operate his vocal chords.

  I ate root bulbs, drank from the swan-necked flower, scratched

  My back against the bark of trees, whistled in reply to feathered glories,

  Howled with baboons at the sight of a hyena tricking lunch

  From a lion and the lion too lazy to put up a fight.

  He looks up and reads cloud cover for hide and seek

  Between sun, moon, stars, river turning over a new leaf,

  Sea at the promontory folding volumes of laundry,

  Waves flapping their mouths in the breeze.

  7.

  (St Clement Danes, London. 21st December 1675. Baptism: Charles, a black, his name Hercules)

  Assume that he earned his name

  with hard labour and matching physique;

  that he had to be saved from himself;

  rescued from his dark origins;

  that his black skin needed to be cleansed;

  that he wanted this blessing

  more than he wanted to be free.

  Assume one or more or all of these things

  on behalf of a man who lost his tongue,

  who counts on you for the righteous

  in his name and bearing.

  8. Unofficial Lido

  My brother Andrew

  and three friends

  all in their teens

  swam in the river

  at Deptford

  beside Pepys Estate

  The trick was to stare

  into the murk as if Thames

  Tyne or Mersey

  were outer space

  pinpoint where wharf logs

  jutted and where room trembled

  free of splintered wreckage

  for a clean dive

  And in they went

  one after another

  entering clean and right

  away swerving up

  to avoid the shallows

  emerge wide-eyed

  with a whoop and a yelp

  crawl back

  up the jetty careful

  not to cut themselves

  on rotten wood

  shaken and stirred

  by the river readying

  themselves swapping

  versions of what took

  place in front of each

  other as they queued

  for one more dive

  9.

  (Tyeburne tree, London 6th March 1663 A Negress or coloured woman hanged)

  Black woman hold the city

  as a lover would sans pity

  For the city needs clothes and food.

  The city is strange and misunderstood

  Black woman hold the city

  as a mother would her baby

  For the city needs flesh and blood

  The city is strange and misunderstood

  10. Big Data

  It was community

  TV meets poetry

  in a Words on Film

  extravaganza

  from Equiano to the present

  The Beeb coughed up

  enough for us to rent a river

  boat, DJ thrown in

  for good measure

  sail from Westminster pier

  to Thames Barrier

  and back

  I mean through that nest of shark

  fins unimpeded

  a truckload of black people

  dancing to DJ tunes

  spun to keep dance floor full

  All you had to do was stand

  there and let the current

  work your hips

  side to side

  hold tight as tight can

  to the nearest somebody

  and in good time feel

  that boat and all its cargo

  spin out the barrier

  one way and back in

  another with hardly

  a roil heave or riff

  in the current below

  Marley’s One Love

  never sounded sweeter

  than that October

  night on that

  compound-free water

  11.

  (Stepney London and Commissary Court, London, 1632. Grace, a Blackamoor presented by churchwardens for living incontinently with Walter Church, Stepney.)

  Walter promised me a warm bed

  food and his unwelcome attentions

  I promised him nothing

  At first we slept back-to-back

  and in our sleep we turned to face each other

  hugged for warmth I believe

  The utility of a hug grew into something sweeter

  I referred to him as Unwelcome Attentions

  from that day to our last together

  They dragged me

  into their court

  said I sinned

  He stayed out

  of the frame

  They said my

  crime was that

  I slept with him

  not his for inviting me

  If only I could wash him off my skin

  I would wash myself clean down to my bones

  But he stays with me after soap and water

  his smell and his embrace

  his breath

  rapid as his body tightens and he says

  Girl I love you

  Stay with me

  And I say

  Thank you Unwelcome Attentions

  and we fall asleep back-to-back

  wake in a full embrace

  Francis Bacon

  No relation to pig, to sty, to trough, to mud, to slavery,

  to market, to market.

  No friend to the foe, of the fee fi fum.

  No enemy to the beast of the Easter bun.

  No relation to nation, to nacho, to macho.

  No friend to fee, no fi to foe, no fum.

  To market – tek ram ot

  No cab sic an rf

  Heads, Hobbes; Tails, Descartes

  1. Heads

  Cat nights and dog days dog chases tail

  cat coughs up hairball

  lady gives a damn man walks into bar minus one plus two

  Knick-knack, paddy-whack.

  Pop goes the weasel. Chi-ching.

  2. Tails

  Who put de cart before de horse put de harness before de furnace

  walled up with brick and concrete

  after de factory gates closed for de last time in a mean time

  but not him oh no not him no good boy-o worthless thing

  that man kept himself warm

  all winter curled up in an oven so that he could think tanked straight

  Spinoza

  Wanted more from reality than a knife and fork carved up and served to him

  mainly because he swallowed his food without chewing it or chewed sixteen times

  for each mouthful, which turned food in his mouth

  liquid then gas aka methane

  Could be worse, could be gas you cannot smell and can see only as a side effect

  too late to do anything about but lie back and observe it doing dirty work

  somebody got to make

  mess for everybody else to clean

  Leibniz

  Light poured from pint glass to pint glass as tea pours


  from one cup to another held an arm’s length to cool

  pint glass drained by parent as tea is fed to baby

  Never the other way around thank goodness

  on a merry-go-round that spins too fast to hop on or off

  where everything comes around twice

  Baby laughs parents cry

  dry eyes meet toothless wonder

  hugs kisses make up sex

  Liberals

  Got it wrong

  got it right

  got it wrong again

  until two wrongs

  made a right

  Never threw up

  hands kept

  those hands thrown

  to the side for

  balance stuck on

  a fence until

  name turned

  from dirt to dust

  to pollen riding

  every insect wind

  Locke Meet Hume

  Slavery works so long as slaves do not know

  the full extent of their condition

  which darker skins prevent those slaves from ever

  knowing as if reason were a membrane

  unless black turns white and whites bear

  black cross Ham curse skin of both impermeable to reason

  as much as rhyme in his era and ours separated by a hair

  whose ends split static fall hide behind teeth

  Hume Meet Locke

  Played the same unmistakable tune on a pennywhistle

  hollowed bone from his enemy

  spontaneity a tune that sounded like his instrument needed

  an enema or his audience could use beeswax plugs for tin ears

  two fish scales work overtime as covers for eagle eyes

  and they do not fall no matter the time ozone

  Romantics

  1. Mary & Percy

  Bombastic

  as in da bomb

  dream monster

  machine desire

  walked like one

  talked like one

  halfcocked on

  cooked laudanum

  doing things monsters do

  being human

  2. Byron

  At the bottom of a pint glass is a carafe

  out of which pours a string of octaves

  measured up the joints of an index finger

  knots of remembered bones for every conquest

  At the bottom of every remembrance

  is a carafe filled with some ferment

  that whiffs of hope and despair in equal parts

  down in one-be-merry head thrown back

  3. Blake

  Got his hands dirty

  not just with lead ink

  To illustrate my point

  I ask all fathers

  swallow a morsel

  of the afterbirth of each newborn

  you shoot up during a hey ho

  sweet jesus come for me

  4. Coleridge

  Each day turns over a new leaf

  eyes alone cannot tell

  fog this morning on a roll

  brought to the boil

  by a sun climbing over hills

  as much as clambering my skin

  It’s weather to be called away in

  from a bed or desk to an errand

  as one who leaves a cottage

  in the middle of Kubla Khan

  only to return to an absence

  made by air with flesh not there

  5. Wordsworth

  I push through pebbles

  my breath adds to what’s here

  I leave nothing behind me

  that cannot be found later

  what I chase remains hidden

  with each step I might draw near

  what keeps its distance

  from me and multiplies with each step.

  Pushkin

  How far ahead of my time

  can I get without losing

  touch with both time

  and my gunpowder self?

  Answers by Thursday’s last post

  Please.

  Take this drum

  my dark skin stretched over wood for bone

  tight so that insults bounce off

  light sinks in

  water-soaked drum

  walking talking drum

  ready for long nails fingertips feathers whips

  not bullets

  Answers by Thursday’s last post

  Please.

  Rousseau

  Vintage champagne bottle, candlelit dinner for two,

  Corner of lazy eye catches harpist, heard, not registered,

  back room of a mansion for a mind.

  A meal for the age, where at least one hand clasps another,

  no bed, empty, dead, for more than one night, no two

  nights the same, till everyone wakes together,

  time subtracted from some other soul, positively leaps

  through fingers, so that body shivers, backtracks,

  leapfrogs dazed, utterly alone.

  Kant

  Can

  can’t

  won’t,

  can-can

  tried to

  failed

  or failed

  for want

  of trying

  Is every damn thing

  going to be measured

  against old man fat lady slavery?

  No

  yes

  hell yes

  well maybe

  Hegel

  Played the hole to Marx’s bagel

  so the ice-lolly stick joke goes

  watched a mill next to a stream

  saw a production line of automatons

  who walked like children left to wander

  little people who talked in tongues

  made of lead laced with arsenic

  forked and with a lisp

  How wrong can you be about hot metal

  pressed against flesh that brands a company

  name on a body is not a question

  so much as a formula from his time

  down to mine and forwards into a black hole

  I have seen things I cannot talk about

  things I did that I am ashamed of

  people I hurt whose names and faces

  haunt my sleep and wake

  though I profited from them verily,

  thoughI gained nothing in the end

  etcetera

  just drink the damn poison and get

  it over and done with for nobody listens

  and somebody

  the last body to leave

  forgot to turn off the lights in a building

  earmarked for cellphone captured

  demolition

  Equiano

  Near water so much

  it seemed you could absorb

  water through your skin

  For the strength of Samson

  if black skin could outdo

  hair of biblical proportions

  Your book of exploits

  made tea for two volatile

  dispensed with table manners

  One pull on the tablecloth

  disturbs things set there

  in one flourish

  In a Durham Cathedral window

  stained glass lauded troubled

  cautioned against distress

  But the two qualities in me

  twinned as they are cannot be separated

  in a photo finish or split by time

  Schopenhauer

  Think of something small

  akin to loose change pulled

  from a shallow pocket

  with one foul scoop

  Think of a glance

  picked at picked out

  piece by piece

  from a wishing well

  whose mirror never lies

  whose glass wavers and stands

  still just long enough

  for a shadow to tiptoe across it

  set
tle as if pooled for trust

  negro trans on catwalk please

  lower your face

  drink your reflection

  see how your shadow looks harder

  than you and wonder how this

  can be and you not be dead

  on your feet buried standing

  how ceilings become floors

  made of glass or why that

  glass reflects and is seen

  through seen on all at once

  Nietzsche

  I pushed through turnstiles doubled

  as revolving doors, stood shaky on discs

  spilling blood, seasons, mass graves,

  filled over slights, or gaze.

  Not before I spit in my cold food

  seated at a strange table, saliva stops

  bullies from eating what’s rightfully

 

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