by Brenae Shaw
“Oh fuck” was all I could say as Rashad was hitting it from the back while my ass was in the air. Man car sex was hard, but that shit was exciting and made me feel even more alive. Rashad was drilling in my shit and it wasn’t like I could run, so I couldn’t do anything but take all of him.
“Damn baby girl. You know your shit good, don’t you? Turn that ass around.”
I did what I was told. He sat in the driver’s seat and I was in the passenger seat with one leg on the dashboard and the other on his shoulder. He picked me up by my ass and held me to the point where I couldn’t run or move if I tried. He kissed me all on my thighs which sent chills throughout my body. I then felt his warm soft tongue enter my honey pot and let’s just say, he fucked me so good with just his tongue it instantly sent me over the edge. This man know how to make a girl cringe and he know how to work his mouth. You would think he was eating my pussy for an hour.
“Ok ok ok, that’s enough. Shit I can’t take it,”
I pushed his head away from my pussy. He brought his head up and licked his mouth finishing my juices that I had left on him with a smile on his face. This man is dangerous, but I’m loving every part of it.
“Come here. I wanna taste me.”
I brought his face to mines and I kissed and licked all over my man.
“Damn, I taste good.”
He laughed.
“Really Kori?”
“What I do?”
I laughed.
“Rashad?”
“Yea?”
“I love you.”
“I love you too baby girl.”
It’s crazy how you can just meet someone in so little time and fall completely in love with them. Time really don’t have a limit on how or who to love. You feel it in your soul when you found the right one. Rashad is my king and I’m his queen and I’m gone ride for my love, no matter the cost.
Chapter
11
Rashad
Seeing the person that killed my brother brought every emotion from that night back up. “Say young blood. You ready for this hit tonight?”
“I don’t know man. I don’t feel right about this Brandon, something not sitting well with me.” “Look bro, I know how you feel and I understand, but this our life. This what we do. We gotta survive in these streets and eat. You think I like doing this bro? I hate this shit. I wanna get out the game because being in these streets ain’t gone do nothing but put us in the grave or behind bars. But, with a father like ours, we gotta do this. Rashad, you smart and intelligent. Nigga used to make straight A’s in school. This lifestyle took you over and as your big brother, ima get you outta here. You gotta make it out the hood, go to school, graduate college, and make a family. It’s in you, it’s not in me. If you wanna back out on tonight, I’m behind you a hundred percent.”
“Nah B, you rocking, I’m rolling. We in this together.”
“Good. Let’s go meet up with OG Pops. You know how he get when a nigga late”, he laughed.
We met up at the warehouse, where my pops was sitting in his regular chair. Every time we had a meeting, me and my brother sat on opposite sides of him, and then the rest just fell into play.
“Alright look, this the biggest lick that we’ve done. This man Jimmy owe me some money, and I’m not talking about chump change. He owe me millions, and I’m taking what’s mine. I don’t care if he around his mama, grandma, wife, or kids. Take them out if you have too. I’ve given this man plenty of chances to pay it back, but I hear Mr. Jimmy parlaying with my money. So, I gotta show him who’s boss in these streets.”
One thing I hated about my old man was he didn’t give two fucks who you were. If you associate with the enemy, you getting popped with the enemy, no questions asked.
The meeting was over. We all got our gear and was getting ready to leave when my pops called me over.
“Rashad, come here.”
“Wussup pops?”
“You know I know you, and I know when something is wrong. You not up for tonight are you?”
I ain’t know what to say, because I wasn’t up for it. I’m tired of living this life. I’m 15 years old and be worried about if I’m going to live another day or not.
“I’m alright pops, I can handle it. Been doing it for this long, ain’t no reason to back out now.”
I had my head down just thinking about everything. This shit wasn’t right. I hated this shit. But who was I to tell my pops, no I ain’t wanna do this shit no more. To me, it made me feel like I was weak and wasn’t shit. My pops was at the top of the game. If he made one phone call, five minutes later you heard someone got shot. So, I had to suck the shit up and deal with it.
“For one son, hold your head up. You don’t have to do this if you don’t want to. I know this not the life for you. I see you have more to life than this shit. You don’t have to follow in my footsteps or your brothers. Follow your own path. You would have much more respect from me if you chose different. As your father, I’m behind you which ever path you choose. So, ima ask you again, do you want to do this?”
“After tonight pops, I’m out. I don’t want this life no more. I wanna be a regular teenager. I wanna walk down the street without having to look over my shoulder.”
“Son, you will forever look over your shoulder because you are MY son. But, I wouldn’t let anything happen to my boys, y’all are my life. After tonight, no more of this life. Come on, get your vest on. You got your straps?”
“Yeah, I got em.”
“Alright, let’s go. One last ride with your old man.”
That night was the last night I saw my brother. My pops turned cold hearted and been out for revenge til this day. The man that shot my brother, I dreamed about every night. Seeing his lifeless body bleeding to death with his eyes wide open looking dead at me had me fucked up in the head. I had nightmares every night. My brother died protecting me and til this day, I feel like it was my fault my brother not here with me. I lost my best friend, my right hand man. His death hurts me every day. Not a day goes by without me thinking about him. And what makes matters worse, that’s KJ’s father...and that’s where the problem come in. Before I moved down here with my T-lady, my dad been plotting on Kori since my brother’s death, and he wasn’t going to stop until he reached him. And now that I’m with KJ, shit gets real and complicated. Who do my loyalty stand with? Who do I protect? Whatever it was, I had to think fast. KJ is my life. She’s a part of me. I have to make sure she don’t get in none of this before it’s too late. So until then, I had to play it cool and get my mind right because if it wasn’t for KJ, I would’ve popped her pops my damn self.
Kori (Father)
I had to play it cool and not make anything noticeable. I remembered that young man from that night when all hell broke loose. That night replays in my head every night. My father Jimmy owed this big time drug dealer a lot of money and I knew sooner or later he was coming to collect what was his, no matter the cost.
That night was a blood bath. We were all sitting down eating when all the lights shut off and the alarm system went down.
“What the fuck was that? I know I paid the light bill so the lights shouldn’t be off.”
All of a sudden, a whole bunch of bullets came flying from every direction.
“Everybody get down!”
That was all I could tell them. It was a bunch of screams coming from everywhere.
“Jimmy where the fuck is my money?! You thought this shit was a game nigga?! I gave you plenty of chances and opportunities to get your shit together and run me my money, but you want to be out here living the lavish life. Well let me show you what this life really about.”
I knew that deep ass voice from anywhere and he wasn’t playing. My dad knew how to fuck some shit up and was always digging himself in a deeper hole.
“Jimmy, what’s going on?! What’s happening?!”
Shots were fired.
Screams rang in my ear as the love of my father’s life was take
n away from him.
“Breana!”
Jimmy screamed her name. I knew my dad was fucked up. Everything that was going on right now, was his fault. This the price you pay in a game like this. Eye for an eye. That’s just how it goes.
“Daddy?! Daddy where are you?! Daddy, I’m scared.”
Oh no, please God, no not the kids, please not the kids.
“Kori get my kids outta here please and take them somewhere safe. I gotta get out of here.”
I looked at my daddy crazy like what the fuck. These are your kids, you should protect them with your life and you just gone leave them to die just to save your ass? But I couldn’t let them die, not like this. They had no clue their mother just died. They life was already turning upside down without them knowing it.
I was finna get the little girls when I seen a reflection of a man standing there with a gun pointed to her head.
“Please don’t shoot me. I don’t want to die. I just want my mommy, please.”
Tears was running down her face and I couldn’t sit there and let him shoot her.
“Say lil nigga, you don’t want to do that. I’ll pop your ass before you even get a chance to pull that hoe.”
He looked up at me and shot me in my arm. “Ahhhhhh, fuck!”
Yeah, this lil nigga got heart, but he finna die tonight. I brought the gun up and pointed it to his head and as soon as I pulled the trigger, a nigga jumped in front of him and I shot him instead.
“Brandon!”
I felt like the world stopped moving. The nigga wasn’t even worried about me no more. He was more concerned about the nigga I just popped. I had to get out of there. I grabbed the girls and took them to my aunt house where I knew they would be safe. Well, at least for now.
That night I knew I had to get out of this life. But no matter how much you try to leave the past alone and change your life, your past gone catch up with you regardless. And this very day, I knew my life was finna end. I just didn’t know when, but I knew it was coming soon. Seeing him was like staring death directly in the face. One thing for sure, KJ was in danger. That was my baby girl. And that meant to protect her with everything in me.
Chapter
12
Kori
“Hell nah. You want us to do all this work while your big bucket head ass chill? Ummm no sir! Get that ass up and come help us set this party shit up!”
I swear I couldn’t stand Nick ass sometimes. He always wanted me and Kendra to do all the work while he chill. Oh but not today, his ass was gone work or ain’t no party happening.
“Yeah Nick, get your ass up! My crippled ass should be the one sitting down and chilling, but yet I’m here helping your little dick ass.”
Kendra been on a roll lately. Ever since she tore her ACL, she ain’t been herself. I could understand why. She thought her track career was over and she was ready to give up on everything. I had to encourage her to keep going and to keep fighting. It’s not the end of the world. With her being in physical therapy, she’s slowly starting to come back. It’s going to take some time, but she’ll get there.
“Oh you wanna talk about little dicks huh? You don’t be saying nothing when you screaming my name to go deeper and pushing me off telling me to stop, so tell me where this little dick at?”
“Boy, I only do that to make you feel good. That’s the only way you last longer if I tell you something you like to hear. Other than that, you a quick pumper.”
“Damn Nick, you be busting nut in two minutes?
I couldn’t help but laugh.
“No...more like 6, but that’s beside the point. Say Kendra, I don’t know what they put in your medicine, but your ass been on fire and you really got a nigga fucked up. Matter of fact, meet me outside and square up.”
Nick was getting in his feelings and it was kinda funny.
“Square up then nigga. I ain’t scared to fight a nigga, so what’s popping five?”
“Yeah, let’s go, because you been on it.”
Nick and Kendra started fighting and it was kinda cute.
“Alright y’all, come on before y’all start doing this shit y’all damn self.”
The party started at 10:30. Knowing black people, that hoe gone start jumping at 12:00 midnight. I made it home to take a shower and pack me an overnight bag since I was staying with Rashad tonight after the party. When I got to my room, I noticed I had a letter from LSU. My heart dropped. I ran over to the bed and I couldn’t even open it. My hands were shaking so bad.
“Mama, where you at? Come here!”
“KJ, why you screaming my name like a crazy person. What’s wrong child?”
“Sorry, I just can’t find myself to open this letter. I don’t know what it’s going to say. What happens if I don’t get in?”
My nerves were really getting bad, now that my palms were sweating.
“Baby the only way you gone find out for sure is if you open the letter and see. Open it.”
“Ummm, ok. Yeah, just open it right?...Ok cool, ima open it right now...”
Man I couldn’t even get myself together. I was falling apart to where my mama had to snap me back into reality.
“Girl open the got damn letter! You making me nerves bad, hell.”
My mama had this annoyed look on her face while waving her hands around in the air.
“Okay, okay...geez.”
I opened the letter and I couldn’t believe my eyes. The only thing it took for me to read was, “Congratulations, you have been accepted into LSU on a full ride scholarship.”
“Mama, I got in...I...I...I...got into my dream school!”
Me and my mama started to scream and jump around. Like, I can’t believe it. This is what I’ve worked hard for my whole life. This all I ever wanted and I thank God everyday for this amazing gift he has given me.
“Kori, I’m so happy for you! Look, I know things ain’t been the same with us. I understand why and I really want to apologize. I should have never kept you away from your father, but his life style wasn’t meant for a family, so I did. Well, I thought I did everything in my power to help you and protect you. You are of age now and I trust you to make wise decisions.”
“I know mama. I’m not worried about it anymore. As long as we building our relationship now, that’s all that matters.”
“Ok, enough of this. Get ready for the party. Please have fun and be responsible and call me and let me know when you make it to Nick’s house.”
My mama gave me a kiss on the cheek and went on about her business. I was still in disbelief about my college letter. I couldn’t wait to tell Kendra, Rashad and Nick.
I finished getting ready because I knew Rashad was going to be here before I knew it and let’s just say, I was fine as fuck.
“Damn baby girl, you fine as fuck in all the right places. Bring your fine ass here and give me a kiss.”
I had these booty shorts on that had my ass sitting nice and peachy with a red crop top and some custom made red and white glitter forces.
“Thank you baby.”
I gave him a kiss.
“You might not make it to that party girl. I’m trying to keep myself together ‘but you making it hard for me’.”
He started singing that part and of course I laughed at his dumb ass.
“You silly. I mean, we don’t have to stay long. We can just show our faces and then go back to your place and have our own party. Sounds good to you?”
“Yeah, I’m down for that.”
We pulled up to the party and let’s just say, that hoe was live at five. It was people everywhere. It was crazy.
“It’s a lot of fucking people here. Look like the whole school at this motha fucka”, Rashad said as he parked the car.
“Say, on me it’s packed as fuck. Ain’t no way in hell all these people go to our school.”
And what do you know, it wasn’t just our school. It was the whole North, South, East and West in this hoe. It was people we ran up against in track. Hell, i
t looked like middle school kids were here too. “Most definitely leaving early. Will not be partying with little ass kids.”
I laughed.
“Alright, that’s cool.”
Rashad grabbed my hand and guided me to where Nick and Kendra was.
“KJ? Wussup bitch! Man you like fire as fuck in that outfit. I’m loving the bloody look.” Kendra ass was drunk as fuck and it was funny to see her come out her shell. I ain’t never seen this side of her before and we been friends forever. “Kenken, baby girl, you might wanna slow down a little don’t you think?”
I tried to take the cup but that only pissed her off. “No the fuck I don’t need to slow down. I’m good and I’m going to enjoy myself to the fucking fullest. Fuck what y’all talking about.”
Just like that, she was downing three more shots. “Nick, fam, make sure you take care of her. She gone need you tonight more than ever bro.” “Rashad, she gone do what she wants to do man. Ever since she tore her ACL, she been an ungrateful and rude ass bitch and I hate it to the fucking fullest. At this point, fuck her. I’m tired of trying. She gone do what the fuck she wanna do.” Nick poured him another cup and just left.
“Well, so much for my best friends knowing the big news.”
“What big news?”
“I wanted to tell you guys together, but looks like that’s not going to happen. So, I’ll just tell my man the good news.”
“Okay, what is it?”
“I got my acceptance letter to LSU on a full ride scholarship!”
“Baby girl that’s amazing! Wow, congratulations baby. Oh it’s a must we turn up for your shit. Come on, take these shots.”
I think I was 10 shots and two drinks in. I was drunk as fuck. I could barely function.
“Baby I think I’m ready to go. I’m not feeling good.”
“I know you are. Your ass almost drunk a whole thing of Hennessy by yourself. I tried to take the bottle, but you wasn’t having that shit, so I let you do you.”