by Brenae Shaw
She kept him from me? Why would she do that? Why did she think that was ok? Yeah he was locked up, but at least he was trying to keep in touch with me.
I open one letter and it made me cry even more. My daddy had been to all my track meets since the beginning of my high school career. He knew the times, what heat I was in, how my hair was and everything. He didn’t want me to see him or for my mama to know that he was there, so he kept a low profile. At this point, I was angry, hurt, and confused.
“Kori, I’m home.”
I heard my mama call my name. I grabbed the letters and put them back in the box and took them to my room, except for one. I went down stairs with the letter in my hand. I needed answers and I needed them now.
“Kori, baby, what’s wrong? Why you look upset?”
Before my mama could say anything else, she seen the letter in my hand.
“...KJ I can explain everything, ok?”
“What is there to explain?! Why did you keep this from me? Why did you keep my dad from me?! From me seeing him?”
At this point, my mom was crying, but I didn’t care. This was a low blow. The woman I looked up to for raising me by herself, my best friend, my mother, was keeping secrets from me.
“KJ, my love, I’m so sorry baby. I was going to tell you when the time was right. I didn’t want you to see your father in that state of mind. I didn’t want you growing up knowing your father in that way, behind bars, locked up. I didn’t think it was good for you, so I stopped taking you to see him. I hid every letter from you because I was protecting you.”
“Protecting me from what? What is there to protect me from? At the end of the day, that’s my daddy, and at least he was trying to communicate with me. No matter if he was locked up or not, you don’t have the right to hide and keep him from me. All this time you had me hating this man, thinking he didn’t want anything to do with me!”
My voice got so loud that I forgot who I was talking to. But, fuck all that. I ain’t give a fuck at this point.
“KJ, I know you are hurt, but you need to lower your tone when you talking to me. It’s some things that I didn’t understand until now baby girl. I’m so sorry I did it but I was going to explain everything, I promise I was.”
“Did you know that he was at every track meet? Did you know he was there? Did you know he knew my times, how my hair was, what day it was? Did you know that?”
All my mama could do was look at me with pain and sorrow in her eyes.
“...But yet you couldn’t come to one since I’ve been in high school.”
“Don’t you do that KJ. Don’t forget that I’ve had to work to make sure you had everything you wanted.”
“I needed you mama! I needed you there! You haven’t came to not ONE of my high school track meets. Grandma had to step in, all because you wanted to work. I bet you wasn’t coming tomorrow either, huh?”
When I said that her face gave me the answer I was looking for.
“I didn’t bother or worry about it because you was busting your ass. You were a ‘single’ parent, popping pills, just so you can go back and slave. When in reality, I needed you here, and yet you rather pick your job and stupid ass pills before your daughter.”
Before I could say anything else, my mama slapped me and it shocked me and her. My mama never put her hands on me. She didn’t need to because I was always respectful. But today, I over stepped my boundaries...but at this point, I didn’t care, the damage was done.
“KJ, I don’t care how much wrong I’ve done or how many mistakes I’ve made, if you think for one second ima let you talk to me stupid like that again, it’s going to be more where that came from.”
“Yeah. I’m staying at grandma house. Don’t bother coming tomorrow...not like you were going to be there anyways.”
I walked up stairs, packed my bags, and called the only person I wanted to see or be with.
“Hello?”
“Hey, it’s ok if I come over and stay with you? I don’t wanna be home right now. Can you come get me please?”
“I’m on my way baby girl.”
Rashad
I was just now getting out the shower when my phone started ringing. I looked on the caller ID and it said “baby girl”. I started calling KJ that out of nowhere. I thought it was cheesy, but she didn’t seem to mind it, so I kept calling her that.
“Hello?”
“Hey, it’s ok if I come over and stay with you? I don’t wanna be home right now. Can you come get me please?”
I noticed that she had been crying and something was bothering her.
“I’m on my way baby girl.”
I rushed and put on some basketball shorts with a black t-shirt and slippers to match, and I was out the door. It didn’t take nothing but 10 minutes to get to Kori house. I pulled up to her drive way, texted her, and told her I was outside. She came through the back gate instead of the front door, but I didn’t wanna ask any questions. She got in the car and her face was all red and puffy. I couldn’t stand to see my girl feeling and looking like this.
“You wanna talk about it?”
“No, not really. Can we just go back to your place and lay down? I’m really tired and I just wanna go to sleep.”
“Ok baby girl.”
The ride to my house was quiet and long, even though I stayed around the corner from her. We got back to my house and walked to my room. KJ looked surprised when I opened the door.
“What’s wrong? Never seen a nigga room before”
I was just joking with her, trying to make her laugh. And what do you know, I did just that.
“Duhhh nigga. I just thought it would be like any other nigga room and not as neat and clean like yours is.
“Well, I ain’t no dirty nigga-”, I laughed.
“-I keep up with myself.”
My room was red and black, my two favorite colors. And I mean, I had basic shit in my room, but like I said, I kept it clean and neat. That was just the type of nigga I was.
“You mind if I turn on a movie?”
“Nah, go ahead ma. Ima go grab some water, you want anything?”
“I’ll just take a water please.”
“Ok.”
I came back with the water. I couldn’t help myself but see how fine and beautiful Kori was. Her skin was glowing from the TV light. Her eyes were glistening from the moon light that was shining from the window. Her body was so amazing and the view that she was giving me was nothing but ass staring back at me. I instantly got hard and it’s not like I could hide it. The motha fucka was peeping through my damn shorts, but I tried my best to hide it.
I gave Kori her water and fixed myself on the slick and sat on the opposite side of the bed. “Thank you. Why you sitting way over there? You don’t wanna sit next to me?”
Man her voice alone made a nigga dick jump. “Ummm, nah, it’s not that. You know, I just want you to feel comfortable.”
“I’ll feel more comfortable if you was next to me.”
Kori crawled over to where I was and straddled me. I couldn’t do anything but admire her. I don’t know what it was, but I was falling in love with this girl, and I barely knew her. But, I knew this was the girl I wanted to be with for the rest of my life.
I seen the look on her face and I knew something was off.
“Baby girl.”
“Yea?”
“Talk to me. What happened, what’s wrong?”
She was stalling at first, but then she finally told me everything that happened. At the end, she started crying, and I couldn’t do anything but hold her close to me.
“Why would she do that? Why did she think that was ok to keep him away from me?”
“I know what she did was messed up on so many levels, but at the end of the day, that’s still your mama. And back then, she probably was protecting you from something you have no clue about. Just give it some time and talk to her about it and the real reason she kept you away. And as for your track meet, I’ll be there cheering yo
u on and I’m pretty sure your dad will be there too, even if you don’t see him.”
I picked her chin up so our eyes can link, and an instant hunger came between us. I tried to fight it off because I knew now wasn’t a good time and I wasn’t going to pressure her into anything. But, I didn’t have to, Kori made the first move.
We started kissing. Our tongues were intertwining with each other’s. It was so sweet and her lips were so soft, I couldn’t stop.
“Kori, baby, we don’t have to do this. We can do this another time.”
“Shhhh, let me take control this time.”
Kori laid me down and started kissing me again and again. She then went to my neck and kissed me there and instantly my bad boy jumped. She made this chuckle noise and whispered in my ear so softly.
“Don’t rush me daddy...mama didn’t forget about you.”
Man if that didn’t make me wanna nut right then and there. I don’t know what the hell got into her, but I’m loving it.
Kori started back and went down to my belly button and that’s when I felt her warm mouth around my dick. She was sucking me so good I let out a slight moan. She then went to add her hands while giving me that sloppy neck. Lord I ain’t never had this! She was sucking me dry like I was the last thing to drink.
“Baby I’m finna nut, stop.”
But of course she didn’t stop, she kept going. She deep throated me all while having my balls in her mouth and that took it over the edge, I nutted. I tried to move her head but she sucked all the cum up. She got on top of me and licked her lips and gave me the most wicked smile.
“Why you looking at me like that? Didn’t think I had it in me?”
“I mean I knew you was a freak, but not like this”, I laughed.
“I wasn’t expecting this out of you.”
“Well there’s more to me that you can explore.”
She then put my dick inside of her while on top and started bouncing up and down. I had to get deep inside of her. I brought her down to me and held her in place and started pumping my hips into her while lying down on my back. I knew I was hitting her spot because she tried to run, but once she opened up a little more for me, she was meeting my rhythm.
“Daddy you feel so good, don’t stop, you hitting my spot.”
“I got you baby girl, don’t worry.”
I turned her over while still inside her. When I looked into her eyes, I knew this wasn’t just us fucking, I wanted to make love to her, take it slow, and I did just that. But first, I needed to taste my baby before we got into all that. I spread her thighs wide enough for me to enter her honey pot, and what do you know, it was so pretty and wet. I was ready to dive in. I lowered my head and went to town. I slurped up every juice she had dripping from her and she was cumming over and over again. She tried to move my head, but I locked her hand with mines and put them under her legs where she couldn’t run and also for her to open wider for me. I was moving my magical tongue all around her clit. I sucked on it while moving my tongue in an up and down motion, all while fingering her. This was sending her over the edge. Her legs started shaking.
“Rashad, oh my God, I can’t take it no more! Why are you doing this to me?!”
I started smiling because I had her right where I wanted her. I raised my head, licked my lips, and gave her the same grin back she gave me. We both busted out laughing. But it was back to her. Everything will forever be about her.
I slid my dick in her wet pussy and she opened up to me even more. I didn’t want to go fast or break her back in, I wanted to slow stroke my baby. I started giving her them slow passionate strokes and each stroke was getting deeper and deeper. I went to go kiss her, then I noticed her crying. I instantly got alarmed.
“Baby what’s wrong? Did I hurt you?”
“No baby, no.”
She grabbed my face and looked me in my eyes. “You didn’t hurt me baby, but I think I’m falling in love with you...No, I know I’m in love with you.”
I kissed my baby so softly and said,
“I’m in love with you too baby girl.”
We kissed some more and I continued to make love to my girl.
This very night was special to me, to her, to the both of us. Tonight was the night we became one. I had it in my mind not to hurt her and to protect her from any and everyone. Kori was mine, and I was hers, and nothing or nobody was coming in between that.
Chapter
10
Kori
The past 24 hours has been hell, but I couldn’t think about what happened. I was still upset on how my mama lied to me all these years for no reason. But like I said, my head needed to be focused on this meet.
“Hey, I’m going to drive there once I get done with my test. My mama signed a paper for me to leave early so I can come watch my baby girl.” Rashad kissed me while I was getting ready to get on the bus. Man things with him were moving pretty fast, but it felt right. I knew he was the one I really needed to be with, and to make matters worse, I’m falling in love with him every time I’m with him.
“Thank you so much for coming. After everything, you have really been there to ease my mind from all the stress from these last couple of days.”
“That’s what your man supposed to do. Now get on the bus, pray, have faith, and watch how God work.”
I kissed him one last time and got on the bus. The girls were on one bus and the boys were on the other so it would be better to concentrate and focus. I put my headphones in and started listening to my gospel playlist to soften up my mood and give me a little encouragement that I got this. We’re going to get first place and I was determined to make that happen. That first place was mines and I’m here to take what’s mine.
Man when I say we was on the grind today, we was doing the damn thang. The boys and girls were coming in 1st and 2nd place. We was getting ready for the 4x4 relay when Coach Lee came running towards me with a puzzle look on his face. “What’s going on Coach?”
“We might have to pull out the 4x4.”
“Why would we do that?”
I was getting nervous by this point.
“Kendra tore her ACL while doing her long jump and I know you girls been running with each other for a long time. Kori, you the captain, what you think we should do?”
At this point, I didn’t know what to do. This was our last year and this race was the only one we needed to make us distract champions.
“Where is Aaleah?”
”The freshman girl?”
Coach Lee looked at me crazy when I asked him that question.
“Put her last leg. Shae, you go 1st leg to give us the lead, I’ll do 2nd leg, and Nett 3rd.”
I know this was a big change at the last minute, but one thing for sure, Aaleah reminded me of myself. I’ve seen her run and she’s good as fuck. Everyone deserves a chance at winning and my gut was telling me to pick her.
“KJ, baby doll, I don’t know...you sure? I mean she never ran or practice with you all together.”
“Believe me coach, I know what I’m doing. We got this...I got this.”
I hope I was doing the right thing because this was a major change. God please gives us strength.
Your girls were district champs! We won first place in the 4x4 out of all the heats. Aaleah ran her ass off. She wanted it more than anything. I’m so happy I picked her.
“KJ, thank you so much for believing in me and giving me the chance to prove myself.”
Aaleah hugged me with tears in her eyes.
“Of course. I’ll do it all over again if I need to. Thank you for your strength and dedication. You’ll be a good captain one day, keep it up.”
I was getting ready to walk off when I heard my name being called. It was a familiar voice, but I couldn’t make it out. I turned around and you would have thought I was looking at myself, but a male version.
“Daddy?”
“Hey KJ.”
I was loss for words and didn’t know what to say. At this point, my emot
ions were everywhere. I didn’t know if I should hug him or just stand there and look stupid.
“Can I get a hug? It’s been a while since I had my baby girl in my arms.”
I just started crying. Today was an emotional day and all I wanted was to be with my daddy and have that relationship I was reaching for.
“Daddy you don’t know how much this means to me. Do my mama know you’re here?”
“Yes, she knows I’m here. Actually, we drove together. I wouldn’t miss this for the world baby girl. I know everything didn’t go as planned but your mom had her reasons. Look, your mother did the best she could to keep you out of the life style I lived. The way she did it wasn’t the right way, but she was just protecting you.”
I knew what my dad was saying was right, but I still felt some type of way on how she handled things.
I was about to ask where my mom was until Rashad came up behind me with flowers and balloons.
“Awww Rashad, thank you baby.”
Jayson never did anything like this for me and that’s why I’m in love with this man. I gave him a kiss and forgot my daddy was standing there.
“Oh, I’m sorry. Umm, daddy, this is Rashad, Rashad, this is my dad.”
“Nice to meet you sir.”
“Nice to meet you too Rashad. Looks like Kori got a good one this time that treat her right.”
“Of course. I will forever have her back and be there for her.”
“Well I like the sound of that. Well KJ, I gotta run and head back to your mama. You make it back safe and be careful. Love you kiddo.”
“I love you too.”
It was weird, but it felt right to actually talk and see my daddy. I looked over at Rashad and he had this look on his face that I’ve never seen before.
“Baby, you ok? Look like you saw a ghost.”
“My bad baby girl. Something just came up in my head, but I’m good. Enough about me, look at my baby though. You was worried sick, now look at you, a motha fuckin champ!”
Rashad knew how to make a girl blush and wet at the same time.
“Ummm, did you drive here?”
“Yeah, why, you wanna ride with me back?”