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Dear Dawn

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by Aileen Wuornos


  And then there’s Arlene.! She has that Adoptive Mommy jazz . . . She’s not getting in. Because I know she’s nothing but some kind of Cop, Jacky, Victim, or Mafia Material of some sort anyhow. OK?! So she won’t get in . . .

  And then in seeing you now. I’d Love to see ya today—but “Nick” cant be trusted . . .

  And when you say—well I dont think he is—and I think he did a good job with his flick da da da, da da da da. God. You just dont know enough about everything—and so are mislead to believe!. While I know 100s/ of things about this sneak and would’nt trust him alone with a loved one for a minute!....

  Anyway., lets get back to the real issue in this letter. Just get rid of the guilt not being able to see me before I die. OK. . . . if Money and Laws hadn’t of never been in the way surely we’d of seen each other plenty of times . . . We’ll just have to see each other on the other side. But please dont “feel” one bit guilty ...

  Yet as far as dying “Alone” . . . Man Dawn believe me. I dont care!. I’d rather have my thoughts on “Jesus” anyway as I’m dieing then a bunch of people watching as I go. Besides most who’ll be watching will be Satans Agents—anyhow!.... Let me instead be thinkin of you and Jesus elsewhere as I look up at the ceiling and they prick me out with their needles. That’d be far better for me in my book of emotions. OK!?. Then to have you stuck between these state workers and family members of the men I killed. As I wonder on just how many of them will show up.

  And then lastly Dawn, you have to go through alot of paper work in order to even participate in an X. So please forget the whole idea. While I’ll say it again. I’d rather die “Alone” . . .

  Now I’m sure alot of this has got you somewhat upset., but I’m sorry. Just please dont go too far into the deep end. You wanted me to be honest and quick to answer, so I did. Alright!. . . .

  Buddy, take good

  care of yourself

  and....

  “Happy Thanksgiving!”

  Love

  Aileen,

  11-15-00

  Dear Dawn,

  . . . Look at this election . . . “The Bushes” decided then to run to other states for a recount . . . Because otherwise it certainly would’nt look good and way too ackward if only florida had “That Problem”. . . . right!?.

  Anyway it should of been—Gore! . . . Jeb Bush and Mike Moore have just recently changed our Menu’s to ½ of what we use to receive! So instead of 2 pancakes for breakfast – there’s one, with lunch and dinner played with to . . . Its time to book.! . . .

  I’ve been relaxing myself from all the writting I did with some good books. By J.R.R. Tolkien (“Lord of the Rings” “The Two Towers” part 2) and the “Return of the King” part 3) . . . So Ill be comfortably reading besides the Bible to., While I prepare X-iting out. Ahhhh . . .

  Welll I’m gonna sign off here and get back into that good book I’m reading . . . Man – takes me away into another realm so very sweet and innocent., and thats just Where I wish I could stay.

  Love

  Aileen,

  12-19-2000

  Dear Dawn,

  Hello Buddy . . .

  By the way, another Death Row inmate died “Innocent.” A DNA test was done on another case, only to exonerate the guy on this one. But the sad part (is) he died 11 months ago on death row of cancer.188 Spent 14 years on it too—before he died of... And then to think how he died even gets more disgustingly wickeder They had him strapped to a bed—reeking in pain—unable to move under it—then continually unattended—only to die in his own fece’s like that! Sick A!. I mean it. “Evil!.” They are. Man I killed 7 men and still couldnt kill a human being like that. The death would have to be quick and simple. So I’m outraged, and so is everybody else . . . So now I’m really outta here because of “THAT” . . .

  “Merry Christmas!.”

  . . . I’ll catch ya again this weekend! In the Meantime

  Happy Hanakah!

  Love

  Aileen

  12-30-00

  Dear Dawn,

  Happy New Year sis., and everybody!.... and hell no, I’m not going to send the N.G.189 bill!. I’ve asked another soul to help me on that one., OK!? . . . As for the funneral . . .

  As for the stuff in my cell. I’ll have it all SENT to you . . .

  And then you misunderstood on my ashes . . . if you are able to come down—then., I’d appreciate it if you spread them out in flagler . . . say if you will “goodbye to ty” while your standing there., for me. Her and I spent some time together out there as well . . .

  About Dave. . . . Man., am I ever glad to hear he’s getting way better now!. I know I’d sue the piss out of that shop too. Tyria got [money] from a car accident settlement.... I met her – O When she was just about spending the last penny

  of. Chuckle. While so many times I wish I never had of met her—yet I still love her to death!. Anyway – I’d sue em royal if I could . . .

  I’ll end this letter with these cheerful notes and how J.R.R. Tolkien put it for fireworks., to bring in 2001.

  The finest Rockets ever seen

  They burst in stars of blue and green

  or after thunder golden showers

  came falling like a rain of flowers190

  Love

  Aileen

  1-11-01

  Dear Dawn,

  Say – I dont care if ya use the hearing191 for a vacation. Go for it, and good for you then. Great idea. I dont care!. But there is 3 things I’ll need for you to remember – if you would – before you take the stand. #1 – I’ll need for you to keep me at all times as smart looking as you can. Chuckle. So they cant try any incompetency shit . . . Then #2. on 7 and 7 . . . Say in some way or another if you can – that she’s “Refute” self defense a long time ago., because of Religious Reasons ! . . . she feels the Cops knew who she was before her arrest: Then lastly – if you would – help me scrub out that Child Abuse. It never happened! There never was any!. The Cops and Jacky started all that up . . . because it really came from the road. Yet . . . if you can help it, dont go there either. / OK. Just act as if you’ve only known me for a little while., after that I left Michigan ...

  And if you can. If ya get a chance., put in on the fact that I never hung out with “The Shelleys” or “Derek Anderson” . . .

  And so this is all I’m asking for you to do if you would please. Then I’ll be just as happy as a Lark....

  Grab your bathing suits

  Ha. Ha.

  4-now

  Love

  Aileen

  1-24-01

  Dear Dawn,

  . . . Arlene’s up to no good again. I believe she’s up to covert jobs with CCR., as she wants to (get this) appear in court next month to help in saving my life . . . I’ve been for the last 6 months writting Robert and her that I’m waiving off . . . So I expect her to be there, yet she was told by me, not to show up, and please just stay out of it all.

  . . . Well CCR came to see me yesterday ... they told me I had to be present at the hearing ... Then when I asked why I needed to be there., ordered by the judge to be., she just said . . . “its like a symphony thing.” In other Words., like an Orchestra. And then just before leaving Kori said – by the way – did you know a group out of California is planning to do an “Opra” on you. Its going to be about how Ty and you lived together. That kind of stuff. Well it really sounds to me like she’s in a round about way trying to hint to me throughout it all that its all over anyhow., so screw you and your waive off! [Like there just going to play a symphony and let the fat lady sing biz.] So needless to say . . . I just hate CCR. Period . . . So I’m going to need Discrediting help here Dawn, and screw their intentions all to hell. OK. “So 7 an 7 needs to be brought out.” To the Court room and the Media., forcing it on record . . . 7 an 7 in Pre-Med closes all the case’s and a warrent will only be next signed ... So if you would please do this (Cause) Arlene’s asking me through Robert if I’d like her there., and that she heard I wanted t
o live. ō sure! So there’s a strategy going on. Either with herself., or between her and CCR. And isnt she ever. “Deceptive” What an ungodly soul . . .

  And if you will – that is help me refute self defense., then let me give ya a rehearse example as to how you could spill some of this throughout the court . . .

  “Eventually she told me she was going to come clean and drop all of those self defense claims so that she could get on with the truth. Her being incarcerated like that brought her closer to God before she dies . . .”

  And then if you further can put in the 7 an 7., with all were Killed for the Money. biz. That she told me she just ran into bad days and Weather while hooken – so resorted to Robbery instead, and to cover things up if she could – Killed then – to eliminate Witness’s. And then that might to put the brakes on “Every thing” . . .

  And so until next time., guess We’ll be seeing each other soon in court., Amazing A!? Chuckle. Chuckle. Chuckle. For shore

  And so, see ya Soon.

  4-now

  Love

  Aileen

  2-10-01

  Dear Dawn,

  . . . Tomorrow a state psychologist will be here to see me . . . just going to kick back and enjoy the ride, while I Bona-fide in everything – that I’m a Serial Killer . . . I’m not even going to mention “Rapes” or “the road.” alls going to be denied., to seal the x . . .

  And should you be asked if I’m suicidal Answer – no., that she just wants to correct everything with everybody an God., before she goes. Needing to set things right . . . Then from there under questioning if you feel a need to deny anything – go for it., because trust me sis, they’ll never be able to prove it . . . So relax all the way in it., and enjoy the experience . . .

  And please remember this one toooo. If they should ask you – do you think she’d ever kill again, to say – well if she killed 7, its not hard to believe shed be pushed to kill an 8th. Having nothing to lose, with 7 already dead! The answer is to make sure everythings “cemented” from ever being overturned to life. OK. And so I have to remain dangerous. That is a danger past Death Row . . .

  And so until the hearings

  over. I’ll see ya there.

  Stay cool

  and Be Careful

  Love

  Aileen,

  2-25-01

  Dear Dawn,

  . . . I just cant believe joe would’nt let ya take the stand!. What the hell!? And then talk about NOT doing as the client wishes em to . . . I told em not to ever come see me again., requesting in the meantime a new attorney and Investigator . . . And boy were they ever sneering me down throughout it all! Kori and Joe. So its obvious – retaliation has been done on their part . . . Because the coming clean really screwed their case’s all to hell. I’ll be heading to an X for sure now . . .

  And talk about cracking me up! The shelleys! Who the hell was the fat one?!. . . . God did they look whipt!. . . . the trash they came up with – against My Mom, Brother, and Dad., was like Whoā!.192 I mean – “Insane.” It was totally sick, as I turned around and looked at joe who was sitting behind me and said “Whatt ya do! Tell em all to say this shit or something., so you could get your child abuse crap in there!.” Would’nt ya know – he gave me another sneer look.

  Anyway . . . gordon claimed he ran into me and my Dad screwing in the sauna. While Teddy claimed he caught Keith, Mike, and I fucking away in one of the forts out in the woods, so joined in. While the shelleys claimed my Dad was a living Bastard – that beat me more with the belt – then any of the rest of the kids . . . and that my Mom and Dad both drank heavy. So . . . as I watched and listened to them all – said to myself. O. . . . K. . now . . . I know!.. your . . . all . . . , CRAZY! . . .

  Well., I was able to put on record . . . “Everythings being perjured here about my family., and would be more then happy to polygraph it out – as so.!” . . .

  And to think – If my Dad ever forced me to have sex with him – I’d of called the Law on him. [ at any Age] . . . While my Mom – as you know – “Didnt Drink” . . . And the belt – as you know – was only used about 3 times on me., after that., he reverted to groundings ... Then as for Keith and Mike. Well – I’m sure you can remember how I explained Keith and I’s four play biz we did – “real little” but backed off going any further, realizing sisters and brothers we were told were’nt suppose to. Yet Mike., I did, butttt again – like only one time., and still cant see intercourse. I can only remember four playing around. Kissin and four playing, being to afraid to go any further. But as for ever having had sex with “Teddy” . . . Em. Em. Em. Boy ō Boy . . . the most him and I ever did – WAS KISS., and just once. Ha. Ha. See . . . there was this game we took and switched it around. Being that of hide an seek., and having all the girls hide and Whatever guy found her – then the 2 had to kiss. And Vise Versa. So I found Teddy., and we kissed. And that was it!. And it was’nt even a french one. Chh-hhccchhhhccchhh Chuckle Chuckle.

  So – as you can see . . . riggin on the case’s “AGAIN” . . .

  Well let me go ahead an fold this up. Hope you had a good time down here buddy ... Did ya see Ty by the way!? She looks terrible . . . And still love her., no

  matter how ugly she’s gotten.... Ha. Ha. Ha. I heard she’s a fork lift driver now in some Warehouse. Good for her., hope its bringing home plenty of bacon for her, Hoping things in the meantime start getting better for you guys too! Best of luck in all of it. So . . .

  3-4-01

  Dear Dawn,

  Hi Buddy. And lets see!. What week is this one? By george! I know its an important one. Let me think, Illl get it in a minute. O yeah. . . . I Remember!. Its your. – Birthday!. Well by goolly . . . Happy Birthday Dawn!....

  45! Can ya believe it!

  Me. Neither.

  WOW!.

  . . . I’ve also changed my mind on flagler with my ashes. Hate florida to much. So if you will take em back up north with ya. OK?!. . . .

  And Whats this – you walked outta the court room as soon as I did. Well I’m sorry if I gave ya any wrong impressions but this is why I left once I got a good look at ya.

  I’d been sitting at that table – from 8 AM to who knows when (each day) feeling and looking crappy in each and every one of them. Just waiting for you to hit the stand . . . Yet – joe and Kori in pure revenge decided to keep you from testifying. So – now I was really pissed. (Havent had a shower for days and hungry with this bull they pulled Em. Em. sure was). Asked then for them to let you in as a spectator behind me just so I could get a glimpse of ya, before the Judge would get hip with every thing and I’d have to cut it short and go. So did, and as I kept glancing over towards ya – he was – as he started eyeing the both of us then. So in order to keep you from any unnecessary embarressment decided to request being sent back, grateful enough I got at least a good look at ya. Otherwise, I’m sorry if it caused any wrong impressions or idea’s in your head . . . And so let me go ahead and wrap this one up here . . . And let me say it one more time, since I cant resist, and hope you really had a sweet one.

  Happy Birthday Sis!

  Stay Cool, and Until

  next flight in

  Love

  Aileen.,

  3-6-01

  Dear Dawn,

  Hi Buddy!. Happy Birthday again too., ya 45 year old babe . . . never in my wildest dreams did I think Id wind up dead by 45 . . . just wish I would send you a message. Let ya know there really is life after death. So then I go to thinking about it – and said – why not through a clock and numbers!.

  Ha. Ha. I can hear ya now. How’d this come about!?. Well – when my Mom died and my Dad immediately sold the house out afterwards, I went over an asked the new occupants of – if I could get a short cruise through it – just for memories sake. And having allowed me to, began asking me about my Mom an where she died, then telling me about strange things happening around the place. As one was with a clock he had, being a huge big ben. What happened is that for days as he was setti
ng the Alarm for 7 to get ready for work, the button would wind up misteriously in – an then ring only at 9. Thinking that maybe it was just the clock, went back to get another then and bought again another one. / Still occurred. So he asked me – What time did your Mom die. I said – I heard 9:45 in the Mornin. He said – Well I think she’s trying to say it wasn’t then, but instead at 9.

  So remembering this . . . if your into it, and willing then to get a big ben – . I was thinking additionally if I could communicate with you through it – for a sign – why not use numbers as a code, and then you could get questions answered. Like – One o’clock for yes. And the use of 2 o’clock for no. So let me know what ya think about it. If your cool with it., then tell me how you’d like it to “Happen” and I’ll do my best from the otherside. ok . . . 4 – now

  Love

  Aileen,

  3-13-01

  Dear Dawn,

  . . . And I stated in the 6 pager that I’d send on how the 7 died. Well I’m working on this now So once its sent keep in a real safe place. This will be far more worth then any of the other material you’ve ever recieved on Jacky and the Cops etc. So please keep it in a good safe place. It’ll be sent as soon as its done. 7 different incidence’s.

  Well – let me finnish up on that question you had about the hearing . . . Steve was first . . .

  Then Nick cruised in next . . . there was a tiny mike Nick wore (under his coller) . . . Seeing the mike hid like that and the way the camara was had [Judge] McCune193 feel he was doing it in a manipulative fashion. [Bugged – against his will.] Which is flat against the Law. – And so ticked off McCune – laid it on thick – as Nick was in the box – apparently to embarress him.

 

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