by Harlow James
Mike smashes his mouth to mine, turning us around and backing me up against a bare wall, the smell of sawdust and wood infiltrating my nose, mixed with his sweat and body wash. Mike is all man, and the way he controls me makes me want to surrender to this man for the rest of my life.
Our mouths move frantically, twisting and caressing our tongues together, sipping and tasting one another like it’s our last meal. Mike breaks from our kiss, resting his forehead on mine.
“Fuck, Vic. This is really happening, isn’t it?” He chokes out through the emotion in his voice, his thick arousal pressing into my belly and his breathing heavy and labored. He’s shaking beneath my fingers, the reality that what we’ve both waited for, for so long, is finally a reality.
“Yes, Mike… it is. Took long enough,” I joke, his chuckle breaking through the tension before he meets my lips with his again and kisses me like it’s our last moment on Earth.
My hands roam all over his chest and back, the friction of my nails on his shirt makes me moan and grit my teeth between kisses. Mike’s hand hoists my leg up around his hip so I only have one foot on the ground in heels no less, his fingers dipping beneath the hem of my dress and lightly traveling up my inner thigh. Good thing I have strong legs because I feel like I’m going to need my strength for what’s about to happen.
“Can I touch you, Vic?” He groans in my ear, nipping my earlobe as his index finger moves closer to the heat between my legs. I’ve never let someone else touch me there, but Mike is the only one I would allow. He’s the only want I want to do that. I know even though my experience is lacking, I’ve undoubtedly saved myself for him all these years.
“Yes, please,” I whisper, the anticipation of his fingers caressing my folds more than I can bear. His fingers find my core, wet and dripping with need for him as he pulls my thong to the side and slides one finger inside to part me and rub my clit softly.
“Holy hell,” I exclaim as Mike continues to kiss and nip at my neck, the sensation on multiple parts of my body sends my mind cascading into a fuzzy place of bliss.
“Victoria… God, woman. You drive me crazy…. You’re so wet for me.”
“Yes, Mike… keep going, please,” I plead, the pressure Mike applies on my clit spikes my orgasm faster than I’ve ever done on my own. Suddenly he stops and then pushes a finger inside of me, the tight fit feeling more sensational by his fingers than of my own. I may be a virgin, but I’ve definitely explored my body and I know what I like.
His thumb finds my clit now, his finger moving in and out of my channel, his lips finding mine again. I’m drowning in every touch and caress of flesh that my orgasm hits me like a truck, bursting through the pressure building since he first touched me that night in the bar.
“Oh my God,” I scream, biting his bottom lip as the waves buck up and down, my pussy throbbing around his finger and his thumb still moving around my clit.
“Fuck,” Mike whispers when I release his lip, his chest rising rapidly as he stares down at me once I come down from my high.
Our eyes are locked on one another, the intensity of our connection smoldering between us and baking the surrounding air.
“Please tell me you never let him touch you like this, Vic.” Mike stares down at me, begging for an answer to his question.
“No, Mike. You’re the only one. I’m….” I trail off through shaky breaths, contemplating my confession. But I know that it’s going to come out at some point anyway, so I decided to air my secret.
“I’m actually still a virgin, Mike.”
His head snaps up and a small gasp escapes his lips before a grin slowly stretches across his face.
“Why are you smiling like that?” I ask, anxious over his reaction.
His hand finds my cheek and cups my face before he presses his lips to mine in a slow and seductive kiss, distracting me from his confession.
“Because I am too, Vic.”
Now my head snaps up as I take time to memorize his face. He can’t be.
“What? How? I just assumed…”
“I mean, I’ve dated and done stuff…. But I never went all the way with any of those girls. It just didn’t feel right…” He trails off before locking his eyes with mine again. “They weren’t…. you.”
My chest bursts with love for this man, even more than I thought I already felt. All this time, I’ve been saving myself for him, even though I didn’t want to admit it. And now, to find out that he did the same thing only confirms the fate of our union.
I pull his face to mine, bringing our lips together in a passionate caress of our mouths and tongues.
“I can’t believe this,” I whisper when we part.
“Where do we go from here, Vic,” he breaks the silence, removing his hand from under my dress, wiping my arousal off on his jeans. I straighten myself back up, slightly flustered at how fast our conversation turned sexual, and then back again.
“You tell me, Mike. What do you want?”
“I want you to be my girlfriend. I want to date you and make you love to you and be with you… finally.”
“I want that too,” I beam. He pulls me in for a hug, wrapping me up in his arms, the feeling of safety and belonging overwhelming me. This is where I’m meant to be, here, with him. We part and kiss once more before he walks me to my car.
“Get through your first few days at work and then come over Saturday night to celebrate with me. I’ll make you dinner and we can spend some time together.” Mike is holding me in his arms, encasing me in his warmth even though it’s one hundred degrees outside.
“That sounds perfect.” I kiss him again before pulling away and opening my car door. “I’ll see you then.”
“Bye, Victoria.” He shuts my door for me before I start my car and pull away from his house reluctantly.
Mike and I are on track, finally. The drama was all worth it to lead us to this moment.
The next morning, I have my first official day as a teacher, greeted by a beautiful bouquet of flowers on my desk waiting for me when I enter my classroom. I’m not sure how he managed, but the gesture makes me tear up as I realize, this man is the only person I want to be with forever. I finish my day, elated and high on life, grateful that the dust has finally settled, and anxious over my date with Mike in three days.
Chapter 20
Victoria
“So, how were your first few days as a teacher?” Pauline asks while sitting on the couch, holding Axel in her arms as she breastfeeds him. Watching my friend be a mom, caring for a life that she created, it brings tears to my eyes, happy tears, of course.
I’ve been pretty emotional over the past few days will all the recent developments in my life. I finally had my first day of work with students three days ago, and it’s been better than I could have imagined. My kids are some of the sweetest little human beings I’ve ever encountered. Of course, the veteran teachers told me to give it a few weeks, since we’re in the honeymoon period of the school year, as they called it. Regardless, it’s been a surreal feeling to see all of my hard work pay off and actually feel accomplished in it. I have so many ideas and activities I want to get done. I’m having to remind myself to relax and let things develop as they come. I need to get to know the kids more so I learn what will work best for them. Teaching requires a ton of adaptation, and as a planner, I know that will be a challenge for me.
“It’s been so amazing,” I beam as I stretch my legs out across the loveseat I’m sinking in to. “Granted, it’s only been three days, but I’m so happy, Pauline. I love it.”
“That makes me so thrilled for you, Vic,” she smiles back at me.
“How has motherhood been treating you?” I ask, watching her struggle to hook her nursing bra back together after Axel released his grip on her. I leap up from the couch and retrieve him from her lap, laying a receiving blanket over my shoulder before situating him and gently patting his back.
“Thank you,” she sighs contently. “I’m not gonna lie, the lack of
sleep is rough, my nipples are so sore, and not in a good way, and I’ve never seen so much poop in my life,” she chuckles. “But he is worth all of it,” she beams proudly, admiring her son hoisted in my arms right now as I walk casually around the living room, a gigantic burp releasing from his tiny body stopping me in my tracks.
“Oh, my gosh! Did that just come out of him?” I chuckle, Pauline laughing with me as she stands carefully, still sore from childbirth.
“Oh yeah, he belches just like his dad. I’m going to go pee real quick, okay? I’ll be right back.”
“Take your time, Pauline. I know what I’m doing,” I assure her as she nods and hobbles down the hallway of their house. I take a moment to smell Axel, that newborn scent going straight to my ovaries, making my uterus skip a beat. I was sixteen when Lilly was born, so I remember quite a bit about caring for a newborn and how tiring it is. But back then, holding my baby sister and watching my parents go through the newborn phase couldn’t have been a better form of birth control, encouraging me, even more, to focus on school and not date.
I know I want children one day, and I still want to wait a few years, but the thought of having a baby with Mike---a human that is part of him and me---it makes those tears come back again. Oy, I’m such a mess.
Tuesday night seems like months ago, seeing as how time is passing so slowly in anticipation of our first official date tomorrow night as boyfriend and girlfriend. I know it sounds so childish, but being able to finally call Mike my boyfriend is my fourteen-year-old fantasy come true, so I’m going to enjoy it as much as I want. I can’t wait to see him, have him cook me dinner, touch him as much as I want without this nagging voice in the back of my head telling me it’s inappropriate because I’m also seeing someone else. Well, someone else, A.K.A. Ben, is no longer an issue. Tomorrow, I’m going to do whatever I damn well please with Mike, and nothing is going to stop me.
I’m not trying to put pressure on us, but I’ve waited twenty-five years to have sex, and what feels like longer than that to get to this point with him, so if it feels right and he agrees, I’m going for it. I still can’t believe he’s also a virgin still. It blows my mind, but it also makes me so happy that my first time will also be his, and we get to experience it together. It makes all the crap we’ve endured to get here completely worth it.
“What are you smiling like a fool about?” Pauline startles me as she makes her way back into the living room, reaching to take Axel from me.
“Nuh uh,” I say while sliding out of her reach. “It’s my turn. I’m getting my baby fix, and you’re getting a break. Enjoy, okay?”
She huffs at me as she sits back down. “Fine. I feel like I’m developing tennis elbow anyway. Okay, so spill. What has you looking like you slept with a hanger in your mouth?”
“Is that one of your favorite sayings, or something?”
“It’s a line from FRIENDS, and it just makes sense, especially in situations like this. So stop stalling and SPILL!”
I laugh at her. “Where do I begin?”
The whole reason for me coming over tonight was to catch Pauline up to speed on my love life and what’s unfolded since Tyler and Hayley’s wedding, and of course, to visit my friend and her new baby. Dean took advantage of my visit to go see Mike tonight and get a break from being the dad-of-the-year as well, leaving Pauline and me to have our girl talk. He was borderline terrified to leave Pauline and the baby alone, but I assured him we would all be fine. The newlyweds are on their honeymoon; otherwise, Hayley would be here to partake in the gossip as well. But Pauline begged for the adult interaction, so here I am.
I recall everything that happened after she left for the hospital at the wedding; I rehash the drama that unfolded after Mike saw me show up with Ben, and then I recount my confrontation with him at his house, minus a few personal details.
“Holy hell. I go have a baby, and I missed all that?”
“Right? But Pauline, I swear, it was all worth it. I can’t wait for tomorrow!” I seriously can’t wipe the smile off my face.
“I’m so happy for you guys, Vic. It’s about damn time. Do you think tomorrow will be, THE night?”
“I honestly don’t know. It just depends on Mike, I guess,” I trail off, avoiding eye contact with my friend. I don’t want to divulge Mike’s secret to just anyone, but part of me thinks it would be okay to tell Pauline. I just don’t want her to tease him, because sometimes you can never tell what is going to come out of her mouth.
“What aren’t you telling me, Vic? You’re a horrible liar and you won’t look me in the eyes.” She’s watching me as I continue to bounce around the living room with Axel on my shoulder, whom I’m sure has fallen asleep by now.
“Okay, but if I tell you this, promise me you won’t say anything to Mike, okay?”
“Can I tell Dean?” She questions, her face so contorted with curiosity over what I’m about to tell her.
“No. Not unless he already knows, which he might, but I don’t know, so no.” I’m rambling with nervousness.
“Okay, I promise.”
I clear my throat and turn to face her. “Mike is still a virgin.”
Her eyes form full, wide circles and her mouth pops open. “Seriously?” She shouts, then covers her mouth as she realizes she might wake the baby. “Seriously?” She whispers this time.
I nod. “I know. It took me by surprise too, but how amazing is that? It’s like…. It’s like we’ve both been waiting for each other this entire time.” The same intensity of fate warms my body just like it did when he confessed this to me the other night.
“Oh my God, Vic,” Pauline chokes through tears, which makes my eyes well up as well. “I can’t believe this. You two are so meant to be, it’s ridiculous.”
I sniffle, trying to wipe my eyes while keeping a hold on the baby. “I know. I love him so much, Pauline. So if we are both in the same frame of mind tomorrow, then I don’t want to wait any longer.”
“Definitely. My first time was with Dean, you know. And I know it wasn’t his, but he said that having sex with me was so different because he knew he loved me. When you experience that act with someone and feelings are involved, it’s insane. It’s unlike any other feeling… I can’t explain it. But just know, you’ll never forget it.” Tears are streaming down her face as she stands and reaches for a tissue to blow her nose and wipe her eyes. Once she’s finished, she retrieves Axel from me and places him in the bassinet in the corner of the living room before turning back to me.
“Just make sure you use protection, or you’ll end up with one of these things.” She juts her chin at Axel, sleeping peacefully and perfect.
I chuckle, wiping my tears as well. “I know. Does it hurt?”
“What? Childbirth or sex?”
I nudge her with my shoulder as she laughs.
“Sex? Only for a few minutes. Childbirth? Well, I’m still recovering, so just remember that.” She winks at me before we make our way into the kitchen and she recounts every detail of her labor. Maybe this was a good conversation for me to have the night before I plan to have sex for the first time. I wonder if Mike is preparing for this too?
Chapter 21
Mike
“So she’s coming over tomorrow?” My brother asks after he drains his beer and places the bottle carefully on the counter.
“Yup. I’m gonna make us dinner and…. Well, truth is I haven’t really thought past dinner.” I’m loading the last of my dishes into the dishwasher as I hear my brother chuckle behind me.
“Really? Do you think I believe that? You’ve been waiting YEARS for this and you’re going to try to convince me that you’re not contemplating finally having sex with Victoria after all this time?”
I slam the dishwasher shut and hit the start button before turning to face my brother. Dean is the only person who knows about my virgin status, besides Victoria now. I admitted my secret to him a few years ago after I went on a date with this girl who got really pissed that I wouldn’t d
o the deed with her. Dean got wind of her running her mouth and confronted me about what happened, so I told him the truth. She wasn’t Victoria, and I didn’t want to share that with anyone but her. Having his own unrequited feelings for Pauline at the time, the love of his life, he understood completely and encouraged me to hold out for her.
“I don’t want to put any pressure on her, Dean. She’s a virgin too, you know?”
“No shit! Wow… so you’ve both been holding out for each other then?”
I shrug. “I guess. It couldn’t be more perfect in my eyes. But just because we’re on even ground in that respect doesn’t mean we need to jump in bed together the first chance we get.” I cross my arms over my chest. My body and mind are at war over this debacle, believe me. I’ve had to jerk off every day at the thought of finally having Victoria beneath me. I know what my dick wants, but this means so much more than just sex. And I want to make sure it’s perfect.
Dean nods in agreement. “Well, little bro, then I hope that when you do, it’s everything you’ve hoped for. Sex with feelings is no joke, man.”
“I bet. Just kissing her sends my heart into overdrive. I can’t wait for the rest.”
“It’s unreal. But uh, seeing as how I just had a baby, I’d be a fool if I didn’t give you the safe sex talk… you know, as you’re older brother and all.”
I laugh at him, his smirk across the bar makes this conversation turn lighter instantly. “I know all about that shit, okay? I get it. Believe me, I’m just now getting Victoria all to myself. The last thing I want is to knock her up already.” I look over my shoulder and out the back window, visualizing little kids running all around my backyard. “Although I do want that one day.”
“Axel is the best thing that has ever happened to me and Pauline, don’t get me wrong. But babies are a lot of work, and I miss sleep more than I ever thought I could.” The bags under Dean’s eyes mock me, as if silently saying, “You’d better wrap your tool, or otherwise, you and I will become best friends next.”