Duchess of Seduction (Hearts in Hiding Book 3)

by Beverley Oakley

  It came naturally. She moved with him as he ground his hips against hers; and her mind moved on to inhabit a different plane, it seemed, while her body immersed itself in the moment, a mass of heightened sensation.

  As important as the physical was the knowledge that she had claimed back what she’d thought she’d lost forever.

  He came with a shudder, and she wrapped her legs even tighter around him and thrust her own body forward to clasp his head to her chest.

  “My God, Cressy,” he groaned, “I had no idea how much I’d missed this.” He tightened his embrace, resting his cheek against hers. “And how much I feared I was losing you.”

  Cressida just held him, satiated and full of joy, her husband still inside her. Justin had just made love to her for the first time in ten months—and the aftermath of pleasure was not the fear and uncertainty of another pregnancy .

  Instead, added to the joyful, spontaneous abandon that had characterized the early stage of their marriage was a deeper appreciation of what each meant to the other, heightened by the knowledge of the jeopardy it had been in.

  “Oh, Justin, we are neither of us to blame,” Cressida whispered.

  They slid to the floor, embracing upon the thick wolf skin, stroking and kissing each other as renewed sexual desire quickly pushed aside post-coital lethargy .

  Then suddenly Justin rose, reached across for something, and Cressida was astonished to see he held his own contraceptive between his fingers.

  “This is what I planned to use at Madame Plumb’s this evening,” he explained as Cressida, wide-eyed, took the prophylactic from him, the wondrous sense of power growing again as she felt her husband harden at her touch.

  “You came...prepared?” She felt a moment’s distress. “I had no idea, Justin.”

  “And I had no idea the reason for your reluctance these past months was fear of another child.” He drew her across his lap so that he was looking down at her, his eyes clouded with guilt. “If I’d only known—” He cleared his throat. “If I’d only had the mind to think beyond my own pleasure and to consider what it might be like for you to face a potential confinement each time we did this, we could have been so much happier.” Gently, he stroked her face, and love and gratitude for the husband whose heart she’d been so fortunate to win swept through her. His voice gentled. “I’m so sorry for what I’ve put you through, when you had no one to turn to.”

  “Hush.” She touched his lips with her forefinger. “We both should have voiced what was in our hearts, but let’s not talk about that now. We’re back where we should be.”

  He smiled as he drew her to her feet. With his hands resting gently on her shoulders, he walked her backward until she was up against the billiard table. “Now you are my captive, my sweet,” he whispered with a smile as he gently stroked her bottom and flanks.

  “There are a multitude of means to prevent another baby, Cressy”—he nibbled her ear, making her shiver—“and as I intend we talk candidly about our desires for each other and whether or not to increase our family, rest assured that in future you can leave a" such related concerns to me, and I will not let you down. In the meantime, just enjoy the feeling of being loved. For indeed, you are.”

  “Oh Justin, I do love you,” she whispered, cupping his chin and nuzzling his hands, which rested lightly on her shoulders, adding quickly before he closed the gap to kiss her, “I’ve been to a place no lady would go, but what I’ve learned has liberated me.”

  “You don’t feel tainted? Shocked?”

  “I have been shocked. Very shocked!” She closed her eyes a moment, recalling the rapture on the faces of Ariane and Wentworth, the couple whose five-year marriage could not be made public but who’d clearly found ways to bring pleasure into their union. The license they allowed each other was not something she or Justin would contemplate for a moment in their own marriage, yet could she condemn others for finding satisfaction that did not impinge on the well-being of others?

  “If I had been honest with you from the start about what I was doing there, you’d have been protected from the evils that were thrown in your face.”

  “I’m not sure I would wish it any other way, Justin.” She crinkled her nose. “For one thing, I learned from Madame Zirelli how much I love you.” She paused, weighing up her words. “I also learned what a world of loving there is to be had.”

  When Justin raised one eyebrow, inviting elaboration, she was surprised at the wicked chuckle that escaped her lips and the unconscious ease with which she wriggled her body against him.

  “Perhaps you’d like to show me?” he suggested. “We are not restricted to the positions we’ve already tried, you know.” He fixed her with an inquiring glance. “Or perhaps you would like to take the initiative?”

  Cressida started to shake her head, but his burning gaze ignited a flame of courage in her breast. Why should she not?

  His breath was hot and inflammatory on her neck as she turned, emboldened by his words, pushing her bottom against his groin and gripping the billiard table. He’d pleasured her from behind earlier without consummating the act, and she’d enjoyed the sensation enormously .

  “Another of your fantasies you’ve not divulged to me until this moment, Cressy darling?” His hands shimmied up her thighs as he raised her skirts for unfettered access, and she gasped as if experiencing his touch for the first time.

  “I kept a tight rein on my fantasies, darling, when I thought of the consequences.” With a shudder, she closed her eyes as his hands cupped her breasts. Instantly, her anticipation was on a par with his. She sucked in a quick breath and managed to grind out, “Your old friend has tutored me in what every mother should tutor their daughter, if she wishes happiness for her... Oh my goodness,” she whispered urgently as he slid inside her.

  Sweat beaded on her forehead and upper lip, and she clenched her teeth as she gripped the billiard table, her breath coming in short, staccato bursts as the tension within her grew .

  Until, at last, with a gasp of rapture, Cressida’s desire reached its pinnacle, her world blackened to a haze, and her body convulsed in a series of uncontrollable shudders.

  Justin held her tightly as his orgasm came on the crest of hers, and together they crumpled to the floor, tight in each other’s embrace and secure in the knowledge that each was where they needed to be.

  They awoke with a start as they heard the first stirrings of the servants in the basement kitchen.

  “Quickly!” Justin pulled Cressida to her feet, seizing the discarded French letters, which he deposited into Cressida’s reticule before buttoning himself into his breeches, smoothing his wife’s tangled hair with his fingers. They ran up the back stairs to Cressida’s chamber, where Cressida collapsed, laughing, onto the bed.

  “Fugitives in our own home,” said Justin, sliding in beside her at her invitation, still fully clad, and cradling her in his arms. Blinking rapidly, Cressida exhaled on a sigh, thinking of her long, emotional, eventful night. Justin was here by her side, where she needed him to be. She had his love and support and always would, now .

  But there were others not as lucky as she. Others who’d helped her achieve such fulfilment but who were condemned by fate and penury to exist in a twilight world, shunned by the society that once embraced them. Madame Zirelli was just one. Cressida owed her friend and Justin’s past mistress a huge debt of gratitude, and Cressida’s sense of justice was keen. She could not shirk her responsibility. Not when the means were so within her power.

  As she drifted in and out of contented slumber, she thought of the many men and women she’d rubbed shoulders with, albeit briefly, and wondered why she’d been chosen to enjoy the bounties of life. Surely she should use the power and privilege she had to help redress the balance, where she could.

  At noon, when they’d both slept off the excesses of the previous night, Cressida raised herself onto one elbow and smiled down at her husband as he stirred into wakefulness. She could hear the birds singing i
n the garden outside and saw through a chink in the curtain that the sun was high in the sky. What did it matter what the servants thought? It was surely better they knew their master and mistress to be in love than to have cause to whisper suspicions of anything else that certainly was not true.

  “Cressy.” He reached up and stroked her cheek with his forefinger. Her heart hitched as she saw the softening of his expression and thrilled to his deeply sincere admission, “I must be the luckiest man alive.”

  She thought she might cry. “A loving marriage is the greatest gift a woman can hope for in this life, Justin.” She tried to think of any other woman who was as happy as she, but could not. “I have you, and I realize how lucky I am in a world where so many women suffer such great unhappiness through husbands that neither love, want, nor appreciate them.”

  “I’ve always wanted you, Cressy.” Justin drew her back down beside him and began to stroke her hair. “From the moment I saw you, it was love at first sight. You were so beautiful, but it was more than that. I saw such sweetness in your expression. Such kindness. I wanted to make you mine and to look after you...so that you’d be safe and protected from what can be a harsh world. I had no idea that such careful protection would lead to such happiness and then...ultimately to the opposite.” His expression was so sincere, and his silent pleading for forgiveness so poignant she had to fight to hold back the sentimental tears.

  “You are the best of husbands. You mustn’t blame yourself for what I could not and did not know. But now I have Madame Zirelli to thank for making it clear to me.”

  He was silent, as it was clear she wanted to elaborate, and she went on, “Madame Zirelli explained so much that I needed to know, but her own sad story is a reminder that we women are completely at the mercy of forces beyond our control. Justin, what do you know of Mr. Richard Pendleton?”

  “Richard Pendleton?” He frowned, as if he had no idea where such a question had sprung from, while he continued to stroke her face. “A diligent, if retiring, young man. May I ask why you wish to know?”

  “Didn’t you once say you thought he was marked out for great things? He’s very clever, isn’t he?”

  Justin rolled onto his back and stared at the ceiling, looking as if he had not the slightest idea where Cressida’s questioning was leading, though he continued his gentle stroking as Cressida went on, “I believe you have influence in the direction of his career? If he’s so clever, why is he working in some—no doubt dark and musty—corner, living on a hundred a year, or something similar? Surely you’ve guessed why I’m asking you? It’s because Mr. Pendleton is the man to whom Madeleine Hardwicke has lost her heart.”

  A look of dawning realization crossed his face, but his answer was disappointing. “Connections count for more than talent, though of course talent will generally be recognized, particularly if a young man is forceful and persistent enough.”

  Cressida raised herself onto one elbow. Idly, she stroked Justin’s chest. It was a strong, hard chest with well-defined muscles dusted with fine, light hair, and in the aftermath of their loving, her body pulsed with the thrill of knowing this man to be hers. Snuggling up to him, she added thoughtfully, “Which clearly means Mr. Pendleton is not. Justin, Miss Madeleine Hardwicke is, as you know, Madame Zirelli’s daughter, and she is to be married to Lord Slitherton next week.”

  “A fine catch for a girl with such a meager dowry.” Justin’s tone was cautious. He spoke only the truth.

  “Her mother...that is, the woman who took on the role of mother...is dying and needs the comfort of seeing her daughter settled, for it is true that Miss Hardwicke cannot marry for love if there is no money to support them. But, Justin, Miss Hardwicke loves Mr. Pendleton. I saw them together last year when she was presented and so was shocked when Catherine told me she was to marry a man nearly three times her age”—she felt indignation rise —“because he can support her and Mr. Pendleton can’t. Don’t you see, Justin? You have the power to change that. You can pull strings, see that Mr. Pendleton receives the recognition he deserves and consequently is assured of an expectation that will enable him to offer for Miss Hardwicke.”

  The patience in Justin’s smile as he fiddled with a lock of Cressida’s hair did not have the ameliorating effect for which he obviously strove when he objected, “My dear, Miss Hardwicke is to marry in three days’ time. For all your good intentions, three days is not nearly long enough to effect the necessary steps to achieve your undoubtedly well-intentioned plan. Besides which, the girl can’t possibly renege at this late stage. Think of the scandal.”

  Cressida understood her husband’s sentiment. She herself had at first not considered that Miss Hardwicke had an option when it was her family’s decision to see her marriage to Lord Slitherton, with all its obvious benefits, go ahead. Now she understood the importance of making a stand for the sake of happiness.

  The tone of her objection, however, was mild. “Would you condemn this poor young woman to a life of disappointment when a judicious word in someone’s ear could see her as happy as...well, us?”

  Justin sent her a look she’d never seen before—lust and calculation laced with a good dose of humor. With deliberate movements, he raised himself, carefully straddled her and then, when he’d caged Cressida with his body and she could feel his hot, heavy erection pushing into her stomach, he lowered his head and whispered hotly into her neck, “After last night, Cressy, you might confidently say that I’d be willing to put myself out a great deal to advance Miss Hardwicke’s happiness, and the collective happiness of your entire sex.”

  Chapter 15

  Some days later, after a great deal of legwork—both in the bedroom and in the course of the duties that Justin had undertaken on Cressida’s behalf—Cressida stretched luxuriously and regretfully as she heard the chime of the late hour, and sighed. “I wish we could stay in bed all day, but we have a wedding to attend.”

  “What time does Mary bring you your breakfast chocolate?” Justin sounded groggy, as well he might, having expended such efforts lately on Cressida’s pleasure.

  Without opening his eyes, he cupped her left breast then gently contoured her belly and hips.

  Cressida drew in her breath at the familiar surge of sensation to her groin as she returned his hand to her breast. “My very discreet lady’s maid will know by the dancing slippers I placed outside my bedchamber door that this is one morning she is not to bring me my customary hot chocolate.”

  Justin regarded her with feigned shock through one opened eye. “I should be surprised at nothing concocted by my wife, ever again,” he murmured. “Now, my dear, did you not say we had a wedding to attend today?” His look was inquiring as he toyed with her nipple. “Should we perhaps concentrate on the happiness of the very fortunate Miss Hardwicke, rather than our own?”

  How quickly he could whip her into a state of desperate desire. Cressida, though, was equally conscious of his erection jabbing into her thigh as he continued his languorous pleasuring of her.

  “I think we should certainly make a plan to be out of bed in...” She stopped on a pause, which became a squeak as his exploration moved downwards. “Ten minutes, Justin, if Mary is to make anything passable out of my hair, which rather resembles a bird’s nest after the activities of last night.”

  “I envy the lucky bird who makes it its home, then,” Justin said, playfully. “In either of your little nests,” he added, tickling her between the legs.

  Cressida squealed with pleasure as Justin threw himself on top of her and captured her mouth with his.

  Lord, but her husband knew how to kiss. She knew now the heavy roiling sensation she felt in her womb was not attributable to the possibility of a living creature growing inside her, but to the primal need to be joined as one with this man.

  As his tongue thrust inside her mouth, the ache at the juncture of her legs became unbearable, but he seemed insensible to her wriggling, for he refrained from entering her. Did he not know what she wanted?
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  Finally, he dragged his mouth away long enough to rasp, “Cressy, darling, the hour is growing advanced. We should be mindful of our responsibilities, both to Miss Hardwicke and to ourselves. You know I love you too much to burden you with another little angel so soon.”

  “We took precautions twice last night,” she reminded him, archly, “and of course, we’ll do so again. Justin?”

  He shook his head, sadly, as he rolled off her. “Our precautions are working overtime, and there are none that can be used right now, if you understand my meaning.”

  “Please, Justin,” she begged hoarsely, “I want to feel you inside me. I want to make up for all that I’ve missed these long months.”

  “We’ll spend a lifetime making up for that,” he murmured, kissing her lingeringly on the mouth. “We’ll enjoy every moment we have together, because our splendid union has been blessed in a way few others are, my darling.”

  She caressed his smooth cheek with her fingertip, which she then laid gently upon his lip. “We conquered what kept us apart by bringing it into the open.”

  “And we learned it was nothing more than fear. So insubstantial—”

  “When words and this can heal all the hurt.” Cressida finished her sentence with energy before she shimmied down beneath the bedcovers, clearly catching him by surprise, judging by his response as she took him into her mouth.

  “You do like it, don’t you?” she demanded, coming up for breath, and was more than reassured by his groan, though before too long, he was once more on top of her, grinding out through clenched teeth, “You don’t know what you do to me, Cressy, my darling. Right now I could refuse you nothing.”

  Supporting his weight on his forearms, he raised himself above her and looked down, his expression grave and deeply reverential, and in the brief silence, she felt her brain and body swirl with love and longing before craving for the physical held sway, and she arched her pelvis up to meet his.