Savage: A Bad Boy Fake Fiancé Romance

by Kira Blakely

  Bebe cleared her throat then fanned her face, pressing out her pouty lips. “OK, so, you have to understand that I’ve always been jealous of you. Like, hearing that Beckett slept with you killed me. I’ve been in love with him for months.”

  “Months,” I said, at last. Mirth trickled through the shock. Or maybe it was just a symptom of it.

  I’ve loved Beckett since I was a teen. Since before you even knew he existed.

  I didn’t say it out loud because I had a modicum of dignity left. I wasn’t about to fight over him when he’d already driven me to the brink of panic and destruction.

  But Bebe? What the hell was I supposed to do with this information?

  “You kissed him,” I said, my eyes flicking back and forth in my skull. “Did you sleep with him?” What did it matter? He wasn’t mine! But still, I had to know. I had to know if he’d slept with her last night. If I meant anything at all on any level to him.

  “God, no. He told me that I was nothing. I was drunk, and the kiss was sloppy. I kind of just threw myself at him like a bi—dog in heat,” she said and winced. “It doesn’t matter except for the fact that there were other people there who saw, and I think someone heard, because it’s all over social media that your engagement is fake.”

  My stomach thudded to the floor. “What?”

  “Yeah.” Bebe nodded. “But I—it’s weird though because the article I read about it this morning on this one website was dated from like, yesterday afternoon, not this morning. So maybe it got out some other way first?”

  “I—that’s irrelevant,” I said and pushed up off the sofa. I paced back and forth in front of the coffee table, and Bebe lifted her feet to avoid getting trampled.

  “I’m so, so sorry, babe. I know this is bad. I know I shouldn’t have kissed him and—”

  “Stop, I don’t care about the kiss.”

  Liar, liar, hair on fire. You care in a big way.

  “OK? Well, maybe you should.”

  “Huh?” I didn’t stop pacing. Nausea washed against the inside of my stomach. This was bad. This was past bad. It was disastrous. We could deny the engagement was fake, but it was still out there, and this was definitely something Nicki and George could use against me.

  God, why had I gone along with this stupid idea?

  Why had I made such a terrible decision? It was as if I’d just proved everyone right.

  I wasn’t responsible. I wasn’t capable. I wasn’t—

  “I think he’s falling for you,” Bebe said, softly. “You should have heard the way he spoke about you last night, babe. He—he really cares.”

  “No,” I replied. “He doesn’t care. He’s never shown me anything but passion or disdain, and I’m done with that. I made this stupid decision to go along with the fake fiancée thing because I didn’t believe I could do this on my own. I felt like I needed Beckett’s support and his, ugh, his presence, and that’s not true. I don’t need him. I don’t need anyone. I’ve got to figure this out on my own.”

  “Babe—”

  “Bebe, no. I don’t want to talk about him. I don’t want to talk about anything. Right now, all I want to do is give Penny her snack and spend time with her.” I won’t let them take her away from me! I won’t.

  “All right, but—”

  “Thank you for being honest with me,” I said and cut across her. “I think you should leave.”

  Bebe paled and pressed those fingers to the circles beneath her eyes again. Her bottom lip trembled. “But—”

  “Please,” I said.

  Bebe rose from the sofa and collected her wine. She walked to the door, and I didn’t watch her, didn’t say goodbye. Five seconds later, the door clicked shut.

  My mask crumbled a little. My knees shook.

  I walked to Penny’s playpen and bent in front of it. She scrambled to her chubby feet and toddled over, grinning big. “Libya!” She threw her arms around my neck and held on tight. “We go get Beck poo now?”

  “No, baby, not now.” And I couldn’t figure out whether it was the bear she wanted or the man himself.

  Life was about to change for us again. In a big and potentially disastrous way.

  “I love you, Penny,” I whispered. “I love you so much.”

  “Love you, too, Libya.”

  And that was it. That was the moment my heart truly broke.

  Chapter 23

  Beckett

  I stormed down the street, the phone pressed to my ear and rage feeding every step I ground into the sidewalk. Concrete and dirt crunched beneath my shoes. People jumped out of my path, some of them did a double-take, anger etched into their expressions, but once they caught a glimpse of my face, of the anger bubbling from it, they backed the hell off, and fast.

  “I’ve just gotten off the phone with them,” I barked at Kayla. “They’re not interested.”

  “That’s… unfortunate, Beck.”

  “Unfortunate? They’re potential investors. Cooper’s already snapped up the businesses we were interested in. This is a disaster. It’s not unfortunate,” I replied, but my tone didn’t carry the truth of it. I didn’t care about the businesses. I didn’t care about the investors. I certainly didn’t care about Cooper.

  Red flags popped up in my mind. If I didn’t have my business, what did I have?

  “I understand your frustration, but there’s not much we can do about that, now. We need to handle damage control. Beck, it’s a good thing you called me last night to warn me about this. I did as much as I could do before the pictures of you and Bebe—”

  “Fuck!” I grunted.

  A woman nearby gasped. I ignored her and kept walking.

  “Before the pictures of you two surfaced. But it was too little too late.”

  “What do you mean?”

  “I mean, there was already an article up about you two faking the engagement yesterday evening.”

  “That’s impossible,” I replied.

  “I know. And it was written by some vlogger and shared about a hundred times across several social media platforms before you’d even kissed Bebe.”

  “I didn’t kiss Bebe,” I snapped.

  A cab honked right next to me, and another growl escaped my throat. I couldn’t contain my anger. I’d spent the morning trying but failing to get ahold of Olivia. She’d obviously seen the pictures. Every call had gone to voicemail. Every text had gone unanswered, most unread, too.

  Christ, it’d been bad yesterday. What would it be like today? I’d find out soon.

  Nothing would improve my mood except seeing Olivia.

  “It doesn’t matter,” Kayla said. “That’s what it looks like. Listen, I don’t know how whoever this vlogger dude is found out, but he did, and it’s everywhere, in all the circles that matter. This looks bad, but it’s not the end. We can spin it some way. We can make it seem like she needed help, and you wanted to do the right thing.”

  “What?”

  “The kid. We’ll say that she wanted you to be a pretend dad to the kid, or that she loves you and you don’t love her, so you faked it because you wanted to help your best friend’s sister. Something cute and sympathetic.”

  “You’ve lost your mind, Kayla,” I said. “And if you suggest something like that to me again, you’re fucking fired. Do you understand?”

  “Yes, sir,” she said, and without a trace of irony. “But we’ll have to do something about the—”

  “Not now.” The business was on the back burner, officially.

  In all honesty, the reason I’d started it with Mike was because I’d never found a passion of my own. I was good at dominating people or charming them, according to my needs, but I was shit at picking out something I enjoyed personally.

  I’d thrown myself into it not out of passion, but out of need.

  Anything to forget her.

  For seven years, that was all I’d focused on. Forget her. Put her in the past. Don’t fall for her. Don’t think about her. And now, it had all come back to bite me
in the ass.

  Money, clothes, alcohol, cars, success—all of it was stripped bare when it came to her.

  “—discuss this in person.”

  Fuck, I’d tuned Kayla out for a full minute, and she was still chattering on. “What? Repeat that.”

  “I said that we’ll have to do damage control. Even if it’s not right now, we should at least meet to discuss this in person. We’ll go over what was said and formulate a game plan for—”

  “I said not now. I’ve got someone to see.”

  “Beck—”

  I hung up and stowed the phone, then turned the corner into the street that contained Olivia’s apartment building. If she wouldn’t answer my calls, I’d go directly to the source. She’d never been able to resist me face-to-face. She’d crumble and listen to my side of this story.

  She had to know that I would never touch Bebe. Not after her.

  My thoughts dipped back to how she’d been in the jewelry store, picking out the ring, filled with cold fire.

  I reached her building and entered, ignored the fucknut sitting behind the desk and headed straight for the elevator, my shoes tapping on the marble.

  “Uh, sir? Sir! I’m afraid I have to ask you to give me your name and the apartment you’re visiting,” he squeaked behind me.

  I hit the button on the elevator, tucked my hands behind my back, and waited.

  “Sir!”

  “You know who I am,” I replied.

  The doors skated open, and I stepped inside, turned, and pressed the knob that would take me to her floor. Silver slid closed and revealed my image, still grave and stark, all in black and white, but hazy now.

  Softer around the edges?

  That was what she’d done to me. Made me soft. I couldn’t think the dreaded “word” for it. I couldn’t fathom it to be true. Olivia and Penny mattered now. How they were handling this situation. How this would affect them in the future, with those assholes breathing down O’s neck.

  The ride to the top took forever. Finally, I was out, down the hall and in front of her door.

  I knocked so hard the wood rattled in the frame.

  “Olivia,” I said, and even to me, my voice sounded tense—drawn tight like a guitar string about to snap.

  “Go away, Beckett.” Her voice was a balm. I rested my forehead against the door.

  “Open up. We need to talk about this.”

  “No, we don’t,” she replied. “Listen, Penny’s taking her nap. She’ll probably wake up soon, and I don’t want any interferences in her schedule. You should leave.”

  “Bullshit.” I balled my hands into fists. I braced them on the jamb on either side of that door. Just a panel of wood separating us. A single panel. I could almost feel her on the other side.

  “This is over, Beckett,” she whispered, right up against the door. “It would be better if you didn’t come back here again. Listen, I understand why you wanted to do this whole engagement thing, but it didn’t work.”

  “It doesn’t change anything,” I replied. We hadn’t actually been engaged. Why did this feel like an epic breakup? I’d never had a breakup before. The closest I’d come had consisted mainly of me calling a cab for the chick the morning after.

  “You know that’s not true,” Olivia whispered. “You know that this goes deeper than the fake-out. This is bone deep for me.”

  “O—”

  “No. It’s bone deep for me, but it’s not for you. I know that, now. I understand what type of person you are. You’re the man who can never give me what I want, no matter how much I want you to.” She gave a small, sad laugh. “Typical of me to choose the one guy who could never connect on the level I needed.”

  My tongue glued itself to the top of my mouth.

  Tell her! Tell her now! Tell her before she shuts you out for good, you fuckhead.

  But I couldn’t. I just couldn’t.

  Memories shrieked through me. The time I’d picked my mother off the floor, weeping because my dad hadn’t been home in months, hadn’t called or messaged. The letter she’d left me on the day she skipped out for good—I hadn’t heard from her since. My father’s expression when she’d gone: blank, uncaring.

  All of it had pointed me to the truth that love was a farce. That people who loved you left you. That was that.

  Silence expanded between us until I was certain she’d left.

  A tiny noise proved me wrong. A hiccup? A sob?

  But her voice came through strong. “I can’t hold on to this fantasy anymore. I can’t hold on to you. And I think it would be better if you didn’t come around for a while. Penny needs some time to adapt, and we’ve got a long battle ahead of us, no doubt. We’ll do it on our own.”

  “I can help.” The only cogent thought I’d formed in the last couple minutes.

  “No. I don’t want your help. I don’t want you around. I don’t want to feel anything anymore. Take it back, Beckett.”

  A paper slipped underneath the door, and upon it waited the fake ring we’d gotten from the jewelry store. I bent and picked it up, then froze. Not a paper, several papers. Letters addressed to O, the ones I’d written to her in high school and college.

  “O,” I said.

  “Just take it and leave, OK? We’ll be fine, ha, not that you’re that concerned about it, but we will be.” Her voice was far too cheery.

  I left the ring on the floor, but picked up the papers, held them in trembling hands.

  “Thanks for trying to help,” she said. “Goodbye.”

  And then footsteps traced away from the door, and my world exploded into pain.

  So much pain. More than I’d realized was possible.

  What the fuck was this? Why did my chest hurt?

  My heart ticked like a broken clock. I balled up my fist and drove it into the doorjamb, once, twice as hard as I could hit. Anything to transfer the pain from my chest to my fist. My knuckles split, and blood leaked down my fingers.

  My hand throbbed, but it didn’t help.

  The agony was still there.

  I lifted my fist and stared at it, then opened it. The letters I’d written were balled up inside. I dropped them and backed away from the door, staring at it as if it’d done this to me. Whatever this was.

  Don’t play dumb, asshole. You know exactly what this is. You know exactly what you’re feeling.

  I lifted my hand again—to beat the door, to tear it down and get through to her, but sanity struck at me. Penny was in there. Olivia needed space.

  And I? I needed a heart transplant or a head transplant.

  A soul transplant.

  Chapter 24

  Olivia

  Penny sat on my lap, and I bounced her up and down, up and down, to keep her at least a little entertained while my lawyer droned on. We’d walked here, since his offices were just a couple blocks away, and the exercise had done us both good.

  Mr. Goldschmidt was the best money could buy, and I was damn thankful I could afford him in this situation. I didn’t have anywhere to take Penny, though, and I didn’t trust a sitter or anyone else enough to look after her.

  Beckett was, naturally, out of the question.

  Goldschmidt sat dead still in his leather-backed chair, speaking with only his mouth and using his hands occasionally. He was gray-haired, in control, well put together—nothing like me right now.

  “You haven’t been severed with papers yet, correct?”

  “That’s correct,” I said and bounced Penny again. She giggled but seemed more interested in the lawyer’s tray and all the neatly arranged documents within. I held her back and mentally crossed my fingers that she didn’t make a mess in here.

  “Right,” Goldschmidt said and tapped on the corners of his desk. “Right, well, that makes things easier, then. For now. Your brother’s last will and testament clearly stated that he and his wife wanted you to be in charge of Penny’s schooling and care. You are her legal guardian.”

  My confidence didn’t grow, but it was good
to hear him put it like that.

  Her legal guardian.

  I hugged her tight and kissed the top of her head. “Yes,” I said. “I—well, I’m all she’s got right now.”

  “Except for this estranged aunt and uncle,” Goldschmidt said, and sniffed. “Tell me more about them.”

  “OK, well, they hadn’t met her until they turned up on my doorstep. They weren’t exactly a huge part of my life or Michael’s. In fact, they didn’t even come to his funeral.” I glanced down at Penny, but she didn’t register a thing.

  She probably hadn’t known that her father’s name was Michael. She continued wriggling around until I placed her down in front of me. She got up and walked to the armchair placed to one side, next to a small wooden coffee table.

  I watched her while I spoke. “They didn’t seem interested in anything family-related until they turned up on my doorstep.”

  “Hmm.” Goldschmidt fingered his chin. “Interesting. Now, the judge will obviously take into account your brother’s last wishes when making a decision, should these two relatives serve you with custody papers.”

  “That’s good,” I said. “This was what Michael wanted, me and Penny living together.”

  “Of course.” But the lawyer wasn’t done yet. “However, the judge would also take other mitigating factors into account. The fact that they’re related to her is a plus for them. He’ll have to examine the reason they want custody of Penny.”

  “Meaning?”

  “Meaning you have to show that you’re a capable guardian, that you aren’t negligent, and that you can look after Penny to the best of your abilities,” he continued. “Which should be easy. You’re financially flush. You don’t have a drug habit, do you?”

  “What? No!”

  “Good,” the lawyer replied. “I’m a straight shooter, Ms. Abbott. I’m going to ask you hard questions and expect answers.”

  “I appreciate that.” I watched as Penny clambered onto the armchair and sat in it as if she was the one in charge of this office. She grinned at me. No screaming, no crying. She’d finally started settling. Finally. I wouldn’t let them take that away from her.