An Autobiography or the Story of My Experiments with Truth

by M K Gandhi

  X

  THE BOER WAR

  I mustM1 skip many other experiences of the period between 1897 and 1899 and come straight to the Boer War.

  When the war was declared, my personal sympathies were all with the Boers, but I believed then that I had yet no right, in such cases, to enforceM2 my individual convictions. I have minutely dealt with the inner struggle regarding this in my history of the Satyagraha in South Africa,176 and I must not repeat the argument here. I invite the curious to turn to those pages.M3 Suffice it to say that my loyalty to the British rule drove me to participation with the British in that war. I felt that, if I demanded rights as a British citizen, it was also my duty, as such, to participate in the defence of the British Empire. I held then that India could achieve her complete emancipation only177 within and through178 the British Empire. So I collected together as many comrades as possible, and with very great difficulty got their services accepted as an ambulance corps.

  The average Englishman believed that the Indian was a coward, incapable of taking risks or looking beyond his immediate self-interest. Many English friends, therefore, threw cold water on my plan. But Dr. Booth supported it whole-heartedly. He trained us in ambulance work. We secured medical certificates of fitness for service. Mr. Laughton and the late Mr. Escombe enthusiasticallyM4 supported the plan, and we applied at last for service at the front.179 The Government thankfully acknowledged our application, but said that our services were not then needed.180

  I would not rest satisfied, however, with this refusal. Through the introduction of Dr. Booth,M5 I called on the Bishop of Natal.181 There were many Christian Indians in our corps. The Bishop was delighted with my proposal and promised to help us in getting our services accepted.

  Time too was working with us. The Boer had shown more pluck, determination and bravery than had been expected; and our services were ultimately needed.182

  Our corps was 1,100-strong, with nearly 40 leaders. About three hundred were free Indians and the rest indentured.183 Dr. Booth was also with us. The corps acquitted itself well. Though our work was to be outside the firing line, and though we had the protection of the Red Cross, we were askedM6 at a critical moment to serve within the firing line. The reservation had not been of our seeking. The authorities did not want us to be within the range of fire. The situation, however, was changed after the repulse at Spion Kop,184 and General Buller185 sent the message that, though we were not bound to take the risk, Government would be thankful if we would do so and fetch the wounded from the field. We had no hesitation,M7 and so the action at Spion Kop found us working within the firing line. During these days we had to march from twenty to twenty-five miles a day,186 bearing the wounded on stretchers. Amongst the wounded we had the honour of carrying soldiers like General Woodgate.187

  The corps was disbanded after six weeks’ service. After the reverses at Spion Kop and Vaalkranz,188 the British Commander-in-Chief abandoned the attempt to relieve Ladysmith and other places by summary procedure, and decided to proceed slowly, awaiting reinforcements from England and India.

  Our humble work was at the moment much applauded, and the Indians’ prestige was enhanced. The newspapers published laudatory rhymes with the refrain, ‘We are sons of Empire after all.’

  General Buller mentioned with appreciation the work of the corps in his despatch, and the leaders were awarded the War Medal.

  The Indian community became better organized. I got into closer touch with the indentured Indians. There came a greater awakening amongst them, and the feeling that Hindus, Mussalmans, Christians, Tamilians, Gujaratis and Sindhis were all Indians and children of the same motherland took deep root amongst them. Everyone believed that the Indians’ grievances were now sure to be redressed. At the moment the white man’s attitude seemed to be distinctly changed. The relations formed with the whites during the war were of the sweetest. We had come in contact with thousands of tommies.189 They were friendly with us and thankful190 for being there to serve them.

  I cannot forbear from recording a sweet reminiscence of how human nature shows itself at its best in moments of trial. We were marching towards Chievely191 Camp where Lieutenant Roberts,192 the son of Lord Roberts,193 had received a mortal wound. Our corps had the honour of carrying the body from the field. It was a sultry day—the day of our march. Everyone was thirsting for water. There was a tiny brook on the way where we could slake our thirst. But who was to drink first? We had proposed to come in after the tommies had finished. But they would not begin first and urged us to do so, and for a while a pleasant competition went on for giving precedence to one another.

  XI

  SANITARY REFORM AND FAMINE RELIEF

  It has always been impossible for me to reconcile myself to any one member of the body politic remaining out of use.M1 I have always been loath to hide or connive at the weak points of the community or to press for its rights without having purged it of its blemishes. Therefore, ever since my settlement in Natal, I had been endeavouring to clear the community of a charge that had been levelled against it, not without a certain amount of truth. The charge had often been made that the Indian was slovenly in his habits and did not keep his house and surroundings clean. The principal men of the community had, therefore, already begun to put their houses in order, but house-to-house inspection was undertaken only when plague was reported to be imminent in Durban. This was done after consulting, and gaining the approval of, the city fathers,M2 who had desired our co-operation. Our co-operation made work easier for them and at the same time lessened our hard-ships. For whenever there is an outbreak of epidemics,194 the executive, as a general rule, get impatient, take excessive measures and behave to such as may have incurred their displeasure with a heavy hand. The community saved itself from this oppression by voluntarily taking sanitary measures.

  But I had some bitter experiences. I saw that I could not so easily count on the help of the community in getting it to do its own duty, as I could in claiming for rights.195 At some places I met with insults, at others with polite indifferences. It was too much for people to bestir themselves to keep their surroundings clean. To expect them to find money for the work was out of the question. These experiences taught me, better than ever before, that without infinite patience it was impossible to get the people to do any work. It is the reformer who is anxious for the reform, and not society, from which he should expect nothing better than opposition, abhorrence and even mortal persecution.M3 Why may not society regard as retrogression what the reformer holds dear as life itself?M4

  Nevertheless the result of this agitation was that the Indian community learnt to recognize more or less the necessity for keeping their houses and environments clean. I gained the esteem of the authorities. They saw that, though I had made it my business to ventilate grievances and press for rights, I was no less keen and insistent upon self-purification.

  There was one thing, however, which still remained to be done, namely, the awakening in the Indian settler of a sense of duty to the motherland. India was poor, the Indian settler went to South Africa in search of wealth, and he was bound to contribute part of his earnings for the benefit of his countrymen in the hour of their adversity. This the settler did during the terrible famines in 1897 and 1899. They contributed handsomely for famine relief, and more so in 1899 than in 1897.196 We had appealed to Englishmen also for funds, and they had responded well. Even the indentured Indians gave their share to the contribution, and the system inaugurated at the time of these famines has been continued ever since, and we know that Indians in South Africa never fail to send handsome contributions to India in times of national calamity.

  Thus service of the Indians in South Africa ever revealed to me new implications of truth at every stage.M5 Truth is like a vast tree, which yields more and more fruit, the more you nurture it.197 The deeper the search in the mine of truth198 the richer the discovery of the gems buried there, in the shape of openings for an ever greater variety of service.M6

/>   XII

  RETURN TO INDIA

  On my relief from war-duty I felt that my work was no longer in South Africa but in India. Not that there was nothing to be done in South Africa,M1 but I was afraid that my main business might become merely money-making.

  Friends at home were also pressing me to return, and I felt that I should be of more service in India. And for the work in South Africa, there were, of course, Messrs Khan and Mansukhlal Naazar. So I requested my co-workers to relieve me. After very great difficulty my request was conditionally accepted, the condition being that I should be ready to go back to South Africa if, within a year, the community should need me. I thought it was a difficult condition but the love that bound me to the community made me accept it.

  The Lord has bound me

  With the cotton-thread of love,

  I am His bondslave,199

  sang Mirabai. And for me, too, the cotton-thread of love that bound me to the community was too strong to break. The voice of the people is the voice of God, and here the voice of friends was too real to be rejected. I accepted the condition and got their permission to go.

  At this time I was intimately connected only with Natal. The Natal Indians bathed me with the nectar of love. Farewell meetings were arranged at every place, and costly gifts were presented to me.200

  Gifts had been bestowed on me before when I returned to India in 1896, but this time the farewell was overwhelming.M2 The gifts of course included things in gold and silver, but there were articles of costly diamond as well.

  What right had I to accept all these gifts? Accepting them, how could I persuade myself that I was serving the community without remuneration? All the gifts, excepting a few from my clients, were purely for my service to the community, and I could make no difference between my clients and co-workers; for the clients also helped me in my public work.

  One of the gifts was a gold necklace worth fifty guineas, meant for my wife. But even that gift was given because of my public work, and so it could not be separated from the rest.

  The evening I was presented with the bulk of these things I had a sleepless night.M3 I walked up and down my room deeply agitated, but could find no solution. It was difficult for me to forgo gifts worth hundreds, it was more difficult to keep them.

  And even if I could keepM4 them, what about my children? What about my wife? They were being trained to a life of service and to an understanding that service was its own reward.

  I had no costly ornaments in the house. We had been fast simplifying our life. How then could we afford to have gold watches? How could we afford to wear gold chains and diamond rings? Even then I was exhorting people to conquer the infatuation for jewellery. What was I now to do with the jewellery that had come upon me?

  I decided that I could not keep these things. I drafted a letter,201 creating a trust of them in favour of the community and appointing Parsi Rustomji and others trustees. In the morning I held a consultation with my wife and children and finally got rid of the heavy incubus.

  I knew that I should have some difficulty in persuading my wife, and I was sure that I should have none so far as the children were concerned. So I decided to constitute them my attorneys.

  The children readily agreed to my proposal. ‘We do not need these costly presents, we must return them to the community, and should we ever need them, we could easily purchase them,’ they said.

  I was delighted. ‘Then you will plead with Mother, won’t you?’ I asked them.

  ‘Certainly,’ said they. ‘That is our business. She does not need to wear the ornaments. She would want to keep them for us, and if we don’t want them, why should she not agree to part with them?’ But it was easier said than done. ‘You may not need them,’ said my wife. ‘Your children may not need them. Cajoled they will dance to your tune. I can understand your not permitting me to wear them. But what about my daughters-in-law? They will be sure to need them. And who knows what will happen tomorrow? I would be the last person to part withM5 gifts so lovingly given.’

  And thus the torrent of argument went on, reinforced, in the end, by tears. But the children were adamant. And I was unmoved.

  I mildly put in: ‘The children have yet to get married. We do not want to see them married young. When they are grown up, they can take care of themselves. And surely we shall not have, for our sons, brides who are fond of ornaments. And if after all, we need to provide them with ornaments, I am there. You will ask me then.’

  ‘Ask you? I know you by this time. You deprived me of my ornaments, you would not leave me in peace with them. Fancy you offering to get ornaments for the daughters-in-law! You who are trying to make sadhus202 of my boys from today! No, the ornaments will not be returned. And pray what right have you to my necklace?’

  ‘But,’ I rejoined, ‘is the necklace given you for your service or for my service?’

  ‘I agree. But service rendered by you is as good as rendered by me. I have toiled and moiled for you day and night. Is that no service? You forced all and sundry on me, making me weep bitter tears, and I slaved for them!’

  These were pointed thrusts, and some of them went home. But I was determined to return the ornaments. I somehow succeeded in extorting a consent from her. The gifts received in 1896 and 1901 were all returned. A trust-deed was prepared, and they were deposited with a bank, to be used for the service of the community, according to my wishes or to those of the trustees.203

  Often, when I was in need of funds for public purposes, and felt that I must draw upon the trust, I have been able to raise the requisite amount, leaving the trust money intact. The fund is still there, being operated upon in times of need, and it has regularly accumulated.

  I have never since regretted the step, and as the years have gone by, my wifeM6 has also seen its wisdom. It has saved us from many temptations.

  I am definitely of opinion that a public worker should accept no costlyM7 gifts.

  XIII

  IN INDIA AGAIN204

  So I sailed for home.205 Mauritius was one of the ports of call,206 and as the boat made a long halt there,207 I went ashore and acquainted myself fairly well with the local conditions.208 For one night I was the guest of Sir Charles Bruce,209 the Governor of the Colony.

  After reaching India I spent some time in going about the country.210 It was the year 1901 when the Congress met at Calcutta under the presidentship of Mr. (later Sir) Dinshaw Wacha. And I of course attended it. It was my first experience of the Congress.

  From Bombay I travelled211 in the same train as Sir Pherozeshah Mehta, as I had to speak to him about conditions in South Africa. I knew the kingly style in which he lived. He had engaged a special saloon for himself, and I had orders to take my opportunity of speaking to him by travelling in his saloon for one stage. I, therefore, went to the saloon and reported myself at the appointed station. With him were Mr. Wacha, and Mr. (now Sir) Chimanlal Setalvad.M1 They were discussing politics. As soon as Sir Pherozeshah saw me, he said, ‘Gandhi, it seems nothing can be done for you. Of course we will pass the resolution you want. But what rights have we in our own country? I believe that, so long as we have no power in our own land, you cannot fare better in the Colonies.’

  I was taken aback. Mr. Setalvad212 seemed to concur in the view; Mr.213 Wacha cast a patheticM2 look at me.

  I tried to plead with Sir Pherozeshah, but it was out of the question for one like me to prevail upon the uncrowned king of Bombay. I contented myself with the fact that I should be allowed to move my resolution.

  ‘You will of course show me the resolution,’ said Mr. Wacha, to cheer me up. I thanked him and left them at the next stop.M3

  So we reached Calcutta.214 The President was taken to his camp with great eclat by the Reception Committee. I asked a volunteer where I was to go. He took me to the Ripon College,215 where a number of delegates were being put up. Fortune favoured me. Lokamanya was put up in the same block as I. I have a recollection that he came a day later.

  A
nd as was natural, Lokamanya would never be without his durbar. Were I a painter, I could paint him as I saw him seated on his bed—so vivid is the whole scene in my memory. Of the numberless people that called on him, I can recollect today only one, namely the late Babu Motilal Ghose, editor of the Amrita Bazar Patrika.216 Their loud laughter and their talks about the wrong-doings of the ruling race cannot be forgotten.

  But I propose to examine in some detail the appointments in this camp. The volunteers were clashing against one another. You asked one of them to do something. He delegated it to another, and he in his turn to a third, and so on; and as for the delegates, they were neither here nor there.M4

  I made friends with a few volunteers. I told them some things about South Africa, and they felt somewhat ashamed. I tried to bring home to them the secret of service. They seemed to understand, but service is no mushroom growth. It presupposes the will first, and then experience. There was no lack of will on the part of those good, simple-hearted young men, but their experience217 was nil. The Congress would meet three days every year and then go to sleep. What training could one have out of a three days’ show once a year? And the delegates were of a piece with the volunteers. They had no better or longer training. They would do nothing themselves. ‘Volunteer, do this,’ ‘Volunteer, do that,’ were their constant orders.

  Even here I was face to face with untouchability in a fair measure.M5 The Tamilian kitchen was far away from the rest. To the Tamil delegates even the sight of others, whilst they were dining, meant pollution.218 So a special kitchen had to be made for them in the College compound, walled in by wicker-work. It was full of smoke which choked you. It was a kitchen, dining-room, washroom, all in one—a close safe with no outlet. To me this looked like a travesty of Varnadharma.219 If, I said to myself, there was such untouchability between the delegates of the Congress, one could well imagine the extent to which it existed amongst their constituents. I heaved a sigh at the thought.220