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by William Carlos Williams


  unattached, floating like a pigeon

  after a long flight to his cote.

  . . .

  II

  There is no direction. Whither? I

  cannot say. I cannot say

  more than how. The how (the howl) only

  is at my disposal (proposal) : watching—

  colder than stone .

  a bud forever green,

  tight-curled, upon the pavement, perfect

  in juice and substance but divorced, divorced

  from its fellows, fallen low—

  Divorce is

  the sign of knowledge in our time,

  divorce! divorce!

  with the roar of the river

  forever in our ears (arrears)

  inducing sleep and silence, the roar

  of eternal sleep . . challenging

  our waking—

  —unfledged desire, irresponsible, green,

  colder to the hand than stone,

  unready—challenging our waking:

  Two halfgrown girls hailing hallowed Easter,

  (an inversion of all out-of-doors) weaving

  about themselves, from under

  the heavy air, whorls of thick translucencies

  poured down, cleaving them away,

  shut from the light: bare-

  headed, their clear hair dangling—

  Two—

  disparate among the pouring

  waters of their hair in which nothing is

  molten—

  two, bound by an instinct to be the same:

  ribbons, cut from a piece,

  cerise pink, binding their hair: one—

  a willow twig pulled from a low

  leafless bush in full bud in her hand,

  (or eels or a moon!)

  holds it, the gathered spray,

  upright in the air, the pouring air,

  strokes the soft fur—

  Ain’t they beautiful!

  Certainly I am not a robin nor erudite,

  no Erasmus nor bird that returns to the same

  ground year by year. Or if I am . .

  the ground has undergone

  a subtle transformation, its identity altered.

  Indians!

  Why even speak of “I,” he dreams, which

  interests me almost not at all?

  The theme

  is as it may prove: asleep, unrecognized—

  all of a piece, alone

  in a wind that does not move the others—

  in that way: a way to spend

  a Sunday afternoon while the green bush shakes.

  . . a mass of detail

  to interrelate on a new ground, difficultly;

  an assonance, a homologue

  triple piled

  pulling the disparate together to clarify

  and compress

  the river, curling, full—as a bush shakes

  and a white crane will fly

  and settle later! White, in

  the shallows among the blue-flowered

  pickerel-weed, in summer, summer! if it should

  ever come, in the shallow water!

  On the embankment a short,

  compact cone (juniper)

  that trembles frantically

  in the indifferent gale: male—stands

  rooted there .

  The thought returns: Why have I not

  but for imagined beauty where there is none

  or none available, long since

  put myself deliberately in the way of death?

  Stale as a whale’s breath: breath!

  Breath!

  Patch leaped but Mrs. Cumming shrieked

  and fell—unseen (though

  she had been standing there beside her husband half

  an hour or more twenty feet from the edge).

  : a body found next spring

  frozen in an ice-cake; or a body

  fished next day from the muddy swirl—

  both silent, uncommunicative

  Only of late, late! begun to

  know, to know clearly (as through clear ice) whence

  I draw my breath or how to employ it

  clearly if not well:

  Clearly!

  speaks the red-breast his behest. Clearly!

  clearly!

  —and watch, wrapt! one branch

  of the tree at the fall’s edge, one

  mottled branch, withheld,

  among the gyrate branches

  of the waist-thick sycamore,

  sway less, among the rest, separate, slowly

  with giraffish awkwardness, slightly

  on a long axis, so slightly

  as hardly to be noticed, in itself the tempest:

  Thus

  the first wife, with giraffish awkwardness

  among thick lightnings that stab at

  the mystery of a man: in sum, a sleep, a

  source, a scourge .

  on a log, her varnished hair

  trussed up like a termite’s nest (forming

  the lines) and, her old thighs

  gripping the log reverently, that,

  all of a piece, holds up the others—

  alert: begin to know the mottled branch

  that sings .

  certainly NOT the university,

  a green bud fallen upon the pavement its

  sweet breath suppressed: Divorce (the

  language stutters)

  unfledged:

  two sisters from whose open mouths

  Easter is born—crying aloud,

  Divorce!

  While

  the green bush sways: is whence

  I draw my breath, swaying, all of a piece,

  separate, livens briefly, for the moment

  unafraid . .

  Which is to say, though it be poorly

  said, there is a first wife

  and a first beauty, complex, ovate—

  the woody sepals standing back under

  the stress to hold it there, innate

  a flower within a flower whose history

  (within the mind) crouching

  among the ferny rocks, laughs at the names

  by which they think to trap it. Escapes!

  Never by running but by lying still—

  A history that has, by its den in the

  rocks, bole and fangs, its own cane-brake

  whence, half hid, canes and stripes

  blending, it grins (beauty defied)

  not for the sake of the encyclopedia.

  Were we near enough its stinking breath

  would fell us. The temple upon

  the rock is its brother, whose majesty

  lies in jungles—made to spring,

  at the rifle-shot of learning: to kill

  and grind those bones:

  These terrible things they reflect:

  the snow falling into the water,

  part upon the rock, part in the dry weeds

  and part into the water where it

  vanishes—its form no longer what it was:

  the bird alighting, that pushes

  its feet forward to take up the impetus

  and falls forward nevertheless

  among the twigs. The weak-necked daisy

  bending to the wind . . .

  The sun

  winding the yellow bindweed about a

  bush; worms and gnats, life under a stone.

  The pitiful snake with its mosaic skin

  and frantic tongue. The horse, the bull

  the whole din of fracturing thought

  as it falls tinnily to nothing upon the streets

  and the absurd dignity of a locomotive

  hauling freight—

  Pithy philosophies of

  daily exits and entrances, with books

  propping up one end of the shaky table—

  The vague accuracies of events dancing two

  and two with language which the
y

  forever surpass—and dawns

  tangled in darkness—

  The giant in whose apertures we

  cohabit, unaware of what air supports

  us—the vague, the particular

  no less vague

  his thoughts, the stream

  and we, we two, isolated in the stream,

  we also: three alike—

  we sit and talk

  I wish to be with you abed, we two

  as if the bed were the bed of a stream

  —I have much to say to you

  We sit and talk,

  quietly, with long lapses of silence

  and I am aware of the stream

  that has no language, coursing

  beneath the quiet heaven of

  your eyes

  which has no speech; to

  go to bed with you, to pass beyond

  the moment of meeting, while the

  currents float still in mid-air, to

  fall—

  with you from the brink, before

  the crash—

  to seize the moment.

  We sit and talk, sensing a little

  the rushing impact of the giants’

  violent torrent rolling over us, a

  few moments.

  If I should demand it, as

  it has been demanded of others

  and given too swiftly, and you should

  consent. If you would consent

  We sit and talk and the

  silence speaks of the giants

  who have died in the past and have

  returned to those scenes unsatisfied

  and who is not unsatisfied, the

  silent, Singac the rock-shoulder

  emerging from the rocks—and the giants

  live again in your silence and

  unacknowledged desire—

  And the air lying over the water

  lifts the ripples, brother

  to brother, touching as the mind touches,

  counter-current, upstream

  brings in the fields, hot and cold

  parallel but never mingling, one that whirls

  backward at the brink and curls invisibly

  upward, fills the hollow, whirling,

  an accompaniment—but apart, observant of

  the distress, sweeps down or up clearing

  the spray—

  brings in the rumors of separate

  worlds, the birds as against the fish, the grape

  to the green weed that streams out undulant

  with the current at low tide beside the

  bramble in blossom, the storm by the flood—

  song and wings—

  one unlike the other, twin

  of the other, conversant with eccentricities

  side by side, bearing the water-drops

  and snow, vergent, the water soothing the air when

  it drives in among the rocks fitfully—

  . . .

  Sunday in the Park

  (From Book Two)

  I

  Outside

  outside myself

  there is a world,

  he rumbled, subject to my incursions

  —a world

  (to me) at rest,

  which I approach

  concretely—

  The scene’s the Park

  upon the rock,

  female to the city

  —upon whose body Paterson instructs his thoughts

  (concretely)

  —late spring,

  a Sunday afternoon!

  —and goes by the footpath to the cliff (counting:

  the proof)

  himself among the others,

  —treads there the same stones

  on which their feet slip as they climb,

  paced by their dogs!

  laughing, calling to each other—

  Wait for me!

  . . the ugly legs of the young girls,

  pistons too powerful for delicacy! .

  the men’s arms, red, used to heat and cold,

  to toss quartered beeves and .

  Yah! Yah! Yah! Yah!

  —over-riding

  the risks:

  pouring down!

  For the flower of a day!

  Arrived breathless, after a hard climb he,

  looks back (beautiful but expensive!) to

  the pearl-grey towers! Re-turns

  and starts, possessive, through the trees,

  — that love,

  that is not, is not in those terms

  to which I’m still the positive

  in spite of all;

  the ground dry,— passive-possessive

  Walking—

  Thickets gather about groups of squat sand-pine,

  all but from bare rock . .

  —a scattering of man-high cedars (sharp cones),

  antlered sumac .

  —roots, for the most part, writhing

  upon the surface

  (so close are we to ruin every

  day!)

  searching the punk-dry rot

  Walking—

  The body is tilted slightly forward from the basic standing position and the weight thrown on the ball of the foot, while the other thigh is lifted and the leg and opposite arm are swung forward (fig. 6B). Various muscles, aided .

  Despite my having said that I’d never write to you again, I do so now because I find, with the passing of time, that the outcome of my failure with you has been the complete damming up of all my creative capacities in a particularly disastrous manner such as I have never before experienced.

  For a great many weeks now (whenever I’ve tried to write poetry) every thought I’ve had, even every feeling, has been struck off some surface crust of myself which began gathering when I first sensed that you were ignoring the real contents of my last letters to you, and which finally congealed into some impenetrable substance when you asked me to quit corresponding with you altogether without even an explanation.

  That kind of blockage, exiling one’s self from one’s self—have you ever experienced it? I dare say you have, at moments; and if so, you can well understand what a serious psychological injury it amounts to when turned into a permanent day-to-day condition.

  How do I love you? These!

  (He hears! Voices . indeterminate! Sees them

  moving, in groups, by twos and fours— filtering

  off by way of the many bypaths.)

  I asked him, What do you do?

  He smiled patiently, The typical American question.

  In Europe they would ask, What are you doing? Or,

  What are you doing now?

  What do I do? I listen, to the water falling. (No

  sound of it here but with the wind!) This is my entire

  occupation.

  No fairer day ever dawned anywhere than May 2, 1880, when the German Singing Societies of Paterson met on Garret Mountain, as they did many years before on the first Sunday in May.

  However the meeting of 1880 proved a fatal day, when William Dalzell, who owned a piece of property near the scene of the festivities, shot John Joseph Van Houten. Dalzell claimed that the visitors had in previous years walked over his garden and was determined that this year he would stop them from crossing any part of his grounds.

  Immediately after the shot the quiet group of singers was turned into an infuriated mob who would take Dalzell into their own hands. The mob then proceeded to burn the barn into which Dalzell had retreated from the angry group.

  Dalzell fired at the approaching mob from a window in the barn and one of the bullets struck a little girl in the cheek…. Some of the Paterson Police rushed Dalzell out of the barn [to] the house of John Ferguson some half furlong away.

  The crowd now numbered some ten thousand,

  “a great beast!”

  for many had come from the city to join the

  conflict. The case looked serious, for the Police were gre
atly outnumbered. The crowd then tried to burn the Ferguson house and Dalzell went to the house of John McGuckin. While in this house it was that Sergeant John McBride suggested that it might be well to send for William McNulty, Dean of Saint Joseph’s Catholic Church.

  In a moment the Dean set on a plan. He proceeded to the scene in a hack. Taking Dalzell by the arm, in full view of the infuriated mob, he led the man to the hack and seating himself by his side, ordered the driver to proceed. The crowd hesitated, bewildered between the bravery of the Dean and .

  Signs everywhere of birds nesting, while

  in the air, slow, a crow zigzags

  with heavy wings before the wasp-thrusts

  of smaller birds circling about him

  that dive from above stabbing for his eyes

  Walking—

  he leaves the path, finds hard going

  across-field, stubble and matted brambles

  seeming a pasture—but no pasture .

  —old furrows, to say labor sweated or

  had sweated here .

  a flame,

  spent.

  The file-sharp grass .

  When! from before his feet, half tripping,

  picking a way, there starts .

  a flight of empurpled wings!

  —invisibly created (their

  jackets dust-grey) from the dust kindled

  to sudden ardor!

  They fly away, churring! until

  their strength spent they plunge

  to the coarse cover again and disappear

  —but leave, livening the mind, a flashing

  of wings and a churring song .

  AND a grasshopper of red basalt, boot-long,

  tumbles from the core of his mind,

  a rubble-bank disintegrating beneath a

  tropic downpour

  Chapultepec! grasshopper hill!

  —a matt stone solicitously instructed

  to bear away some rumor

  of the living presence that has preceded

  it, out-precedented its breath .

  These wings do not unfold for flight—

  no need!

  the weight (to the hand) finding

  a counter-weight or counter buoyancy

  by the mind’s wings .

  He is afraid! What then?

  Before his feet, at each step, the flight

  is renewed. A burst of wings, a quick

  churring sound :

  couriers to the ceremonial of love!

  —aflame in flight!

  —aflame only in flight!

  No flesh but the caress!

  He is led forward by their announcing wings.

  If that situation with you (your ignoring those particular letters and then your final note) had belonged to the inevitable lacrimae rerum (as did, for instance, my experience with Z.) its result could not have been (as it has been) to destroy the validity for me myself of myself, because in that case nothing to do with my sense of personal identity would have been maimed—the cause of one’s frustrations in such instances being not in one’s self nor in the other person but merely in the sorry scheme of things. But since your ignoring those letters was not “natural” in that sense (or rather since to regard it as unnatural I am forced, psychologically, to feel that what I wrote you about, was sufficiently trivial and unimportant and absurd to merit your evasion) it could not but follow that that whole side of life connected with those letters should in consequence take on for my own self that same kind of unreality and inaccessibility which the inner lives of other people often have for us.

 

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