PS... Trust Me (TAT: A Rocker Romance Book 8)
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I smile but say nothing because it’s his way of admitting his weakness for me. This moment is ours though and I will never tell a soul about his tears.
“I remembered your promise too baby.” He moves to me and we are naked chest to naked chest and I am so home it’s not funny. “Look at my promise to you. I got it the day you left me.” He shows me his side and there is script there.
“How blest am I in this discovering thee! To enter in these bonds is to be free; then where my hand is set, my seal shall be. Full nakedness! All joys are due to thee, as souls unbodied, bodies unclothed must be to taste whole joys.”
Holy fuck!
“Oh my God!” It’s the remaining of my John Donne poem that was my gift to Chad before I even knew he would be the one receiving it.
“I’m your promise baby and you’re my home.”
“I love you!” I say through sobs as my lips and hands seek him out.
He guides me to the bed with his kiss, our feet tangling in the urgency to be connected in every way. “I need to get inside you baby. I was tested this time, I haven’t touched a woman since Seattle and I will only ever touch you again.” His lips are pulling at my nipples making it hard to think. “tell me I can come inside you baby.”
“I trust you.” I say and it is the only answer he wants or needs.
There is no foreplay. Six months apart was foreplay enough and I needed him inside me. Before I could let him inside me I needed to see him, all of him. My poem on his side, my fingers wrapped around him. I opened my legs in a selfless invitation and guided every long thick inch of him inside me, bringing him home to me for good.
“Jesus fuck, I have missed you baby.” He says and lays a hand between my breasts to feel my beating heart. His other hand is on the bed beside my head and he is rocking into me slow and deep making sure he feels all of me and I feel all of him. “You’re so tight…” He mumbles to himself and I moan such a needy and greedy sound I blush.
“Arch your back baby, let me deeper.”
I do as he asks and feel him slip farther than ever before. “I love you Chad.” I say as I climb that inevitable hill that will lurch my body off and into oblivion. He has me close, hitting the head of his cock on the top of my cervix and tapping my G spot with determination. He knows my body as well as he knows his guitar and works it just as perfectly. “Right there babe.” I pant and he chuckles the cocky sex God he is. He knows what he’s doing without question.
“Come for me Carrie. Please baby I can’t…” He never finished the sentence because I came with his command and felt him kick off inside me marking me as his once again.
We cried out together, promising love and forever and I knew that it was right.
Dorothy and John Donne came together and created a home of promise, love, and security in the heart of our own Emerald City.
Epilogue
Some years later…
Chad
We just finished the set for our seventh album tour in Seattle and had yet to do our encore. It was Carrie and I’s anniversary today and I had to do a serenade for her. This one was a little different. We were different. 3 kids and a million miles over the years separated us. I lost gramps a while ago but still feels like yesterday that he left.
Our kids, Noelle, Bowie and Gibson (yep like the guitar) are everything to me, they are my stars, Carrie, she is my moon and this time I sing to them.
“Kiss me woman.” I lean in and place my lips on hers while Gibson and Bowie laugh at Noelle who thinks we are embarrassing. Clearly, she doesn’t know who the fuck I am because I am the coolest mother fucker in here and she is about to realize that.
Carrie kisses me and it never gets old. There have been a million between us and each one feels like home. I pull her in tight to me, needing to hold her a few seconds longer. Reading her memoires of us on this tour, (and making my edits for the parts she breezed over) It made me more grateful she was mine forever.
The stadium lights dropped to darkness and the crowd went insane chanting our name. I took my seat at the stool, my guitar in hand and strummed a few chords making them all the more crazy and I soaked it in, look stage left to see Noelle smiling and I want to cry because she knows I'm cool as fuck and that makes me proud. Gibson is smiling ear to ear, her front teeth missing as she screams for us. Bowie is horns up and proud.
I raised em right.
Carrie blows me a kiss and the emotion is everything in me.
“Want one more song?” I ask and the audience lights up with cellphones as they keep chanting.
“It’s my anniversary today. So, if you keep your eyes on the screen behind me, you’ll see how happy Carrie has made me over the years.”
Carrie has a hand over her mouth as I start strumming the chords to cover that says everything that I need her to understand. Noah on the piano behind me.
‘Highway run
Into the midnight sun
Wheels go round and round
In my mind’
The crowd goes crazy for the Journey song and I see tears in my wife’s eyes and for once I am glad, I put them there.
The pictures play behind us when I call her to the stage to stand with me as I sing.
Pictures from before we were together. Pictures of all of us with Candy and Carrie at their graduation. The minute that Noelle was placed in her arms. Our wedding and the last photo of us with Candy at our wedding. Pictures of us on the road when she and the kids came. Bowie’s birth. Noah and Bright’s wedding. Gibson’s birth. Cal and Jen’s. Shame and Cassa hold first Ella, then Mateo. Cal and Jen with Axe, then with Axe and Rylie. Noah and Bright with Raleigh and the two girls they adopted, Veridy and Chase. Our life in pictures over more than twenty years.
‘I'm forever yours, faithfully.’ I sing to her as the final picture goes up of all of us, all our kids and wives together before we took the stage tonight.
I sing the rest of the song, as I repeat that I am forever hers as night blooming jasmine falls from the cannons above us on the stage before the lights went out and I kissed my girl.
“I love you Chad Blake.” She says and wipes her tears.”
I quirk my finger at her. “Come here.” She comes to my arms immediately as our kids rush out on the stage to hug us. “I love you too Carrie girl.”
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Play list for ‘Trust Me’
All or nothing- Theory of a Deadman… The minute he asks for ‘All In’
Better than me- Hinder… The confession
I stay away- Alice in Chains… Carrie on her dad
Over Now- Alice In Chains… Carrie six months later in school while writing.
Nutshell- Alice In Chains… Carrie after Dad confessed it all
Black g
ives way to Blue- Carrie on Cassa’s situation (lightly covered and more for next book)
Chemical Addiction- Alice In Chains… Noah
Down in a hole- Alice in Chains… Carrie after she leaves hospital
Rain when I die- Alice in Chains… Noah in his dark place
Brother- Alice in Chains… Carrie to Noah a tattoo…?
Love Hate Love- Alice in Chains… Noah and Candy
Stay- Shakespeare’s Sister… Noah for Carrie in hospital
Name- GooGoo Dolls… Carrie can sing and play shocking Chad
Drunk on you – Luke Bryan… “I will vagina kick Candy for telling my secrets” scene
Colorblind- Counting Crows… Love scenes that are gentle side
She talks to angels- The black crows… Noah and Chad thoughts for Carrie
Crazy Bitch- Buck Cherry… Noah POV in all things women and NOT Candy.
I’ll give you anything- Dramarama and Buckcherry versions… Chad POV on Carrie
Sorry- Buckcherry- You will know when you get to the scene ;)
Up all night- Hinder… Carrie’s last Tat concert opening scene song before Trisha appears
Burn it to the ground- Nickleback… Carrie’s first concert for TAT
Animals-Nickleback… the powers out let’s jam
Next Contestant- Nickleback… Carrie and her POV of fangirls and tatterflies
Saving Me- Nickleback… first time seranade
Rockstar- Nickleback… hahah the entire book
By The Way – Theory of a Deadman… The scene for the show in Seattle (closer to the end of book)
Blurry- Puddle of Mudd… for when they are apart
I’ll follow you down- Shinedown…epilogue
I can’t not love you- Every Avenue… The song for when they are apart
Only place I call home- Every Avenue…. Emerald City song for the book