Salem Falls

by Jodi Picoult

  The nurse who had been Annalise's labor coach came into her cubicle, accompanied by Joseph, who looked frantic and overwhelmed by his surroundings. She left them to their privacy, as Joseph approached Annalise and stared at the wonder of his son. The baby yawned and pushed a fist out of his blanket. "Oh, Annie," he whispered. "I was too late."

  "No, you were just in time."

  "But you had to come here." When Annalise didn't answer, Joseph shook his head, mesmerized. "Isn't he something."

  "I think he just might be," Annalise answered.

  Her husband sat down beside her. "We'll get you out of here right away," he assured her. "I already called Dr. Post at Lenox Hill, and he--"

  "Actually, I'd like to stay at St. Vincent's," she said, interrupting. "Dr. Ho was quite good."

  Joseph opened his mouth to argue but took one look at the expression on his wife's face and nodded. He stroked the infant's head. "Does he ... have a name?"

  El se llamo Joaquim.

  "I think," Annalise said, "I'd like to call him Jack."

  July 3, 2000

  Carroll County Jail

  Have you ever really held the hand of someone you love? Not just in passing, a loose link between you--but truly clasped, with the pulses of your wrists beating together and your fingers mapping the knuckles and nails like a cartographer learning a country by heart?

  Addie reached for Jack as if she were drowning, their hands joined across the old table in the basement of the Carroll County Jail. She touched him with all the emotion she'd kept curtained inside her since her testimony. She touched him a thousand times, for every moment that she'd wanted to walk up to Jack at the defense table and lay a hand on his shoulder, press a kiss to his neck. She touched him and found that even something as innocent as the lacing of their fingers could raise all the hairs on the back of her neck and make her blood beat faster.

  And she was so fascinated by the way they fit together--Jack's palm big enough to swallow hers whole--that Addie did not realize the man she was clutching was someone who desperately wanted to get away.

  It was when he gently pried her fingers from his that Addie looked up. "We have to talk," Jack said softly.

  Addie stared at his face. The stubborn jaw, the soft mouth, the fine golden stubble that covered his cheeks like glitter flung by a fairy--they were all still there. But his eyes--flat and blue-black--there was simply nothing behind them.

  "I think it's going pretty well, don't you?" she said, smiling so hard her cheekbones hurt. She was lying, and they both knew it. Hanging over them like an impending storm was the unspoken memory of Matt Houlihan reading that former conviction. If that thundercloud had followed Jack and Addie home, every single one of the jurors was being dogged by it, too.

  "Jack," Addie said, rolling his name around her mouth like a butterscotch candy. "If this is about my testimony--I'm so sorry. I never wanted to be subpoenaed." She closed her eyes. "I should have just lied for you when Charlie came that morning. That's it, isn't it? If I'd lied, you'd have an alibi. You'd be free now."

  "Addie," Jack said, his voice painfully even. "I'm not in love with you."

  You can be strapped to the most stable chair and still feel the world give way beneath you. Addie's hands clutched the edge of the table. Where was the man who had told her she was the bright light getting him through this misery? At what ordinary moment between yesterday and now had everything changed?

  Sometimes, when I think I'm going to lose it in here, I just imagine that I'm already out.

  Tears arrowed at the backs of her eyes, small, hot darts. "But you said--"

  "I say a lot of things," Jack said, bitterly. "But you heard the prosecutor. They're not always true."

  She turned her head toward the one window in the basement, a tiny square of dirty glass set nearly flush to the ceiling. She kept her eyes wide, so that she wouldn't cry in front of Jack. And maybe because of that, she had a clear vision of her father, years ago, after her mother had died. She'd found him one day in his living room, sober for once, surrounded by papers and mementos. He'd handed her a box of knickknacks. "This is my will. And some ... some stuff you ought to have. The first letter I ever wrote your mom, my medal from the Korean War."

  Addie had leafed through the box, her fingers going cold and stiff. These were the items you collected when someone died--as her father had done after they buried her mother, as Addie had only recently done with Chloe's things. You pulled the loose threads of their lives free, so that you could move on. Addie watched her father place his fancy gold watch into the box and understood: He was putting his affairs in order, so that she wouldn't have to.

  "You're not dying," Addie had told him, thrusting the box back into his hands.

  Roy had sighed. "But I might as well be."

  Now, Addie turned slowly toward Jack. He had no will to offer her, no medals, no memories. But he was giving her back her heart, so that when he left her life, there would be no strings attached.

  "No," she said firmly.

  Jack blinked at her. "I'm sorry?"

  "You should be. Lying to me, like that. For God's sake, Jack, if you really wanted to end things between us, you should have used an excuse I might actually have believed. Like ... you aren't good enough for me. Or that you didn't want me to suffer along with you. But to tell me you aren't in love with me ... well, that's just something I don't buy."

  She leaned forward, her words aimed right at his heart. "You love me. You do. And goddammit, I'm tired of having the people who love me leave before I'm ready for them to go. It is not going to happen again." She stood up, anger and determination hanging from her shoulders like the mantle of a queen. Then she walked toward the door where a guard stood posted, leaving Jack to suffer the sucker punch of being abandoned.

  "If you don't get to sleep," Selena said, "you're not going to be of any use tomorrow."

  Two in the morning, and they lay side by side in bed, staring at the ceiling. "I know," Jordan admitted.

  "You're all knots." She came up on an elbow. "Although that seems impossible, after what we just did."

  "I can't help it. I keep hearing Houlihan reading the goddamn conviction."

  Selena thought for a moment. "Then I'll make you think of something else."

  "Selena, I'm forty-two. You're gonna kill me."

  "Get your mind out of the gutter, McAfee." She sat up cross-legged, drawing the sheet around her like a medicine man's shawl. "So this guy gets sued because his mailman slips and breaks his pinky on a icy patch of his driveway. Two days later, the guy's wife sends a threatening letter, via her divorce attorney. He gets so fed up with lawyers that he goes to a bar to drink away his sorrows."

  "Now that," Jordan interrupted, "sounds promising."

  "Ten shots of tequila, and he's drunk as a skunk. He gets up on top of the bar and shouts at the top of his lungs, 'All lawyers are assholes!' "

  "Excellent. And this is supposed to relax me why?"

  Selena ignored him. "A man on the other end of the bar yells, 'Hey! Watch your mouth.' And the drunk guy sneers and says, "Oh? Are you a lawyer?' "

  Jordan finished the joke. "'No. I'm an asshole.' "

  Selena looked crushed. "You've heard it before."

  "Honey, I could have written it." He sighed. "I need to get a nice, relaxing job. Maybe there's an opening for an IRA operative."

  "You ought to try working for this lawyer I know," Selena said.

  Jordan smiled. "You gonna sue me for sexual harrassment?"

  "I don't know. Are you gonna sue me?"

  "I can think of better things to do with you," Jordan murmured, but when she expected him to reach for her, he simply turned away.

  Selena leaned over him, her braids brushing his shoulder. "Jordan?"

  He caught her hand, wishing it could be just that easy to hold to the rest of her. "Are you going to leave me again, Selena?"

  "Are you going to smother me again, Jordan?"

  "I asked you to marry me.
I didn't realize that was a criminal act."

  "Jordan, you didn't want to marry me. You were still reeling after the Harte case. And I was the closest thing to grab onto."

  "Don't tell me what I wanted. I know what I wanted. You. I still do."

  "Why?"

  "Because you're smart and you're gorgeous and you're the only woman I know of who would tell a defense attorney a really shitty lawyer joke at two A.M." His grip on her wrist tightened. "Because you make me believe that there are things worth fighting for."

  "Sleeping with me might make you a happier attorney, Jordan, but it doesn't make you work any harder for your clients." She shook her head. "You've always tangled up your work and your life. And you've made me do it, too."

  "Stay with me, Selena. I'm asking you now, so that you know it has nothing to do with the outcome of this case."

  "Maybe it should," she said lightly, trying to joke her way out of this. "Maybe we should ask the jury to decide, since you and I don't seem to be very good at it."

  "Juries hand down wrong decisions every day."

  She stared at him. "Are they going to be wrong this time?"

  Jordan didn't know if she was talking about the verdict for Jack St. Bride or for their own relationship. He lifted her hand and brushed his lips over her knuckles, a promise. "Not if I have anything to say about it."

  By three o'clock in the morning, Gillian not only had counted 75,000 sheep but she'd moved onto other barnyard animals for diversity. Time passed exceedingly slow, each second melting. But then, she had reason to be anxious. In six hours, court would reconvene, and Jack St. Bride's attorney would have a chance to unravel all the work that the prosecutor had done.

  She had tossed and turned so much that the covers were knotted. Sighing, she threw back the blanket and let the air cool her skin. At the sound of a footstep in the hall, she froze.

  The light went on, and Gillian curled her hands into fists. The sound of running water, another creak. Very gently, very quietly, she reached down and drew up the quilt, a tight cocoon.

  By the time her father opened her door, Gillian had turned to her side, pretending to be asleep. She felt the floor tremble as he crossed the room, sat on the edge of her bed. His hand fell like a prayer on her temple. "My baby," he whispered, the pain in his voice rocking her.

  Gillian didn't move. She kept her breathing steady, even when a tear slid between her father's hand and her own cheek, as binding as glue.

  Sad to say, the high point of Thomas's day was getting the mail. It wasn't even that he ever expected to get anything--well, the occasional solicitation for a credit card and some goddamned Boy Scouting magazine that he'd canceled when he was twelve but that had managed to follow him from address to address like a beleaguered ghost. But when you were fifteen and had to pick a daily peak experience from, oh, eating stale cereal for breakfast, reading assigned novels for next year's English class, and strolling out to get the mail, this won hands down.

  Jordan McAfee, c/o Thomas McAfee.

  The package was light and bulky and reminded him too much of a dead mouse that had been sent in the mail by the brother of a Mafia client of his father's who had been convicted. With trepidation, Thomas unsealed one end and shook a small notebook into his hands.

  He frowned at it. A black-and-white composition book was no big deal. But this one was wrapped like a birthday gift in a glittery silver ribbon. On its front were the words Book of Shadows. Thomas untied the bow and let the notebook fall open. How to Bring Money to You. Love Spell #35. The entries were arranged like the insides of a cookbook--ingredients, followed by directions. They were lettered by hand, but the writing varied, as if many different contributors had worked on it. In the margins were small notes and funny faces, like the ones he made in his history binder when he was bored.

  A longer entry: Imbolc, 1999. This one looked like a play written for four actors, with lines for each player. But the things they were saying, doing ... it was like nothing he'd ever seen before. Brows drawing together, Thomas began to read.

  "So you understand how important your answers are," Jordan murmured, nervously regarding the woman at his side. With her wild silver hair and rope sandals, her silver bangles and swinging earrings, she seemed a little offbeat--more the kind of person you'd expect to find beside you at a Grateful Dead concert than telling you truths from the witness stand.

  "Completely, Mr. McAfee," Starshine said. She reached into her pocket and pulled out a small blue bag tied with purple thread. "Would you give this to your client?"

  "Jack? What is it?"

  "A charm, of sorts. Just some bay laurel, High-John-the-Conqueror root, St.-John's-wort, and vervain. Oh, a little pine nut, tobacco, and mustard seed too, just in case. And of course, a picture of an open eye."

  "Of course," Jordan repeated faintly.

  "So that justice will look favorably on him."

  What to say to that? Jordan slipped the little bag into his breast pocket like a handkerchief, and Starshine ascended to the witness stand.

  Immediately, she had the jury's attention. Starshine slipped her hand free of the long cowl of her sleeve and touched it to the Bible. "I swear to tell the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth, so help me God." She smiled. "And Goddess." Then she turned to the judge. "May I have just a moment?"

  Judge Justice seemed beyond the power of speech. She waved the witness on.

  Starshine reached into a hemp bag she'd carried up to the stand and withdrew a thermos, a green candle, a cup, a packet of sugar, and a spice bottle marked saffron.

  "Here we go again," Matt Houlihan muttered. Then, louder, "Objection, Your Honor."

  "Sustained," the judge said. "Ma'am, I have to ask you what you're doing."

  But the woman was swaying slightly, her arms splayed and her eyes shut. "Just raising energy, Your Honor," Starshine said. "I'm doing a safe-space spell."

  "I beg your pardon?"

  "May I turn the chair? I need to be facing south."

  At the defense table, Jordan buried his face in his hands.

  The judge deferred to the prosecutor, who let a smile creep across his face. "Oh, by all means," Matt said. "If we need a safe-space spell, we need a safe-space spell."

  Starshine lit the candle, then poured some of the liquid from the thermos into its attached cup. "It's just milk," she said, then added the two packets. "Mixed with a little saffron and sugar." She lifted the cup to her mouth and inhaled deeply, her eyes drifting shut as she imagined a woman in black, a woman in red, and a woman in white all walking toward her. "I have been with you from the beginning," she said, and drank.

  A calm settled over the courtroom. Even the people in the gallery could feel it, small susurrations of surprise swept through the rows. Starshine earthed the power in her mind, bound the spell, and released the circle. "I think that takes care of it."

  Judge Justice turned to Jordan. "Have fun, Mr. McAfee," she said.

  Jordan rose, shaking his head. On the one hand, having Starshine be a crackpot worked nicely with his defense, because Gillian was playing at Wicca, too. On the other hand, if the woman was too much of a nut, the jury would never believe anything she said. "Do you know Gillian Duncan?" he began.

  "Yes, I do. She comes into my shop quite often." Starshine turned to the jury, suddenly a saleswoman. "I run the Wiccan Read, an occult bookstore in Windham."

  "An occult bookstore? What's that?"

  "We sell books and charms and herbs for people who follow earth-based religions."

  "When did Ms. Duncan last come into your shop?"

  "On April twenty-fifth."

  "What was she looking for?" Jordan asked.

  "Objection," Matt called out. "Hearsay."

  "Judge, this goes toward impeaching her credibility on what happened that night," Jordan argued.

  "Overruled, Mr. Houlihan. I definitely want to hear this one."

  Starshine continued. "She wanted to ask me about witch's flying ointment."
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  "Maybe we ought to back up for a moment," Jordan said, feigning confusion. "Witches?"

  "Yes. That's just what followers of the Wiccan religion are called."

  "Can you tell us what Wiccans believe?"

  "It's very simple, actually. First, do no harm, but follow your will. Second, that any witch is capable of raising energy, casting spells, performing magick, and communicating directly with the Goddess."

  "Objection, Your Honor," Matt said. "This is a rape trial, not an episode of Bewitched."

  Jordan turned. "If I could just have a minute, Judge. I'm laying a little groundwork."

  The judge overruled the prosecutor. "Are there many witches?" Jordan asked.

  "Three to five million worldwide, but not too many come right out and tell you." She glanced at the judge. "Why, this lady herself could still be in the proverbial broom closet."

  "Don't count on it," the judge said dryly.

  "Old habits die hard, and discrimination is very real, although all witches really do is honor women and respect the environment. It's not unlikely for a witch to be blamed for things that go wrong in a town, or to be singled out as a Satanist." She smiled. "Why, in Salem Falls, you only have to look as far as the statue of Giles Corey on the green to remember the hysteria of 1692."

  "You said Ms. Duncan was asking about flying ointment. What's that?"

  "Back in medieval times, witches used astral projection ointment to produce psychedelic effects. It contained elements like hashish and belladonna, which created the psychic tripping, if you will. Needless to say, we don't use it nowadays. Gillian came into my shop asking if I had a recipe for it."

  "What did you tell her?"

  "That it was illegal. I suggested she should redirect her energy and celebrate Beltane instead."

  "Beltane? What's that?"

  "The last of the three spring fertility festivals, a sabbat that marks the wedding of the God and the Goddess. In a word, Mr. McAfee," she said, "it's all about sex."

  "Is there a traditional way to celebrate Beltane?"

  "Witches hang offerings of food and herbs to the God and Goddess in the branches of a tree. There's often a bonfire to leap over and toss away your inhibitions."

  "A bonfire?" Jordan repeated.