Second Chances

by Kitty Berry

  “I’ll try.”

  “And you’re sure we’re safe without a condom. You’ve never missed a pill?”

  “I’m sure. You promise you’ve never been with anyone without one?”

  “Nah, baby, wouldn’t trust anyone but you.”

  I use my fingers to be sure she’s lubricated enough for what I’m about to do to her. I swirl my fingers over her opening and dip inside a few times. When I’m sure she’s ready, I take myself in my hand and guide it to her entrance. My eyes remain locked on hers. She tries to close her eyes, but when Raina feels me touch her opening with my swollen head, they fly open and dart to mine. “Shh” is all I say as I start to push into her, her resistance like a barrier. She’s tense, I know she’s scared and it’s making it harder for me to gain entry. “You okay, baby? You’re so tight.”

  I push at her again, this time with more force and it makes us both cry out, me in agonizing pleasure, and her with a pinch of pain.

  “Aww, oh God, Pete, it hurts” she admits through tears.

  “Just a little more, baby, it’s going to be so good once I get all the way inside. I’m almost in. Just a little more,” I coax through each thrust of my hips. Then I still myself to let her adjust to me.

  Raina moans and her head falls to the side.

  I smile then nudge her with my nose so our eyes lock again. “Let me do it fast in one push so I don’t keep hurting you inch by inch, okay?” I ask as I gently kiss away her tears. “You are so beautiful, Princess. You have no idea what this means to me, that you wanted me to be your first.”

  She nods as more tears flow and I check again to see if she’s ready. She nods, I kiss her one more time, and then I prop up on my arms and shove into her with one last thrust. She yelps in surprise and her tears start to flow. She tries to blink them away but they’re flowing freely now. I kiss her, holding still, and wait until she settles and becomes acclimated to our bodies joined as one.

  “It hurts, Pete, it hurts. I can’t do this. Take it out” she begs.

  “Hey, look at me, you can do this,” I say as I gently thrust inside her, rubbing along her sensitive walls and finding her G-spot. “It’s going to be over fast. You’re so soft and tight, I had no idea how incredible it would be bare like this. I just need to move a few times, baby. I want to make you come. Then I promise it’ll be over, but I want to finish making love to you. It feels so fucking good to be inside you, but if you really need me to stop, I will. Do you need me to pull out?”

  Raina answers with a heated kiss. She pulls my mouth to hers and her tongue opens my lips. She groans at the contact and I feel a surge of moisture coat my erection, making it easier for me to thrust further into her. I start to move slowly, rocking my hips. I do a bunch of mini thrusts, barely moving in or out but then I have to pick up my pace, the feeling so overwhelming I can’t hold back any longer. The feeling of her stretching flesh is almost too much to withstand, but at the same time the feeling is exquisite. I watch her eyes until I lose control and my head falls back, my eyes shut, and I moan.

  At the realization of the pleasure she’s giving me, Raina forgets her pain and basks in her pleasure instead. Her hands shoot to my forearms and she digs her nails in. I look at her and smile. “Wow, fuck this is so good. You squeeze me perfectly. I can’t hold it anymore, baby. It’s like you were made just for me.”

  She crashes and breaks apart around me. The walls of her body constrict and release, squeezing me tighter. “Oh, fuck, yeah, baby. Jesus, you just got so hot and wet. Are you sure it’s safe? I’m gonna come, too.”

  After she tells me once again that it’s safe, I get in three more pushes then my orgasm tears through me and I climax like a primitive animal in the wild, screaming my release into the pillow under her head.

  I relax and my entire body weight falls on her for a minute. I lean up on my arms as soon as I recover so she can breathe and I feel bad about the pain I know I’m going to cause her as I remove myself from her body. “I’m going to take it out; it shouldn’t hurt as much coming out as it did going in” I say as I try to slowly slide out of her.

  When I look down between our bodies and see the evidence of her lost innocence, her virginity given to me, my chest tightens and I feel the blood leave my head. I must look pale because Rains looks at me and asks, “What? What’s the matter? Was I not good? I’m sorry I just laid there. I know you’re probably used to…”

  I cut her off. “Shh…you were amazing, Princess. I’ve never…it’s never been like that with anyone. So different with you. It’s just there’s some blood. Are you in pain? Did I hurt you?”

  “Sore but okay. Let me get up. I’ll get cleaned up” she offers.

  “No. You’re not moving from my bed. Stay right there. I’ll take care of you. Relax and don’t move. I’ll be right back.”

  When I return a few minutes later with a warm soapy washcloth and a cool glass of water, my chest hurts when I see her asleep in my bed. I try to gently clean her without waking her, but the wetness of the washcloth startles her. She’s obvious sore and any contact between her legs makes her jump. “Shh, easy. It’s just me. Here, relax; let your legs open for me. I’m going to clean you up. I want to make sure you’re okay. God, I should have been easier on you. Raina, I didn’t mean to hurt you, baby” I say as I gently clean her.

  “You didn’t hurt me, Pete. I’m fine. I’m sure I’m fine.”

  I put her panties back on her and slide one of my t-shirts over her head. I look at her and say, “Baby we need to get you some pants,” She allows me to slide her shorts back on her and when she picks her hips up off the bed to allow the shorts onto her body, she winces. “Sorry, Raina you should have stopped me before I hurt you.”

  “Pete, stop. You didn’t hurt me. I’m fine. Have you ever been with a virgin before? I mean, I’m guessing this is what it’s like for everyone. And well, honestly, not to give you a bigger ego than you already have, but um, you are kind of packing, you know?”

  I smile and shrug my shoulders. “Never had a virgin before. Too much work. Girls get all weird with the guy they give it to. I read somewhere that there’s this hormone that girls release and it makes them develop this connection to the guy that never goes away. Never wanted that kind of responsibility or lasting connection before.”

  “But I…” She begins but I cut her off again. “Different. You’re different,” I tell her again. Then to end where this conversation is headed, I say, “Here, let me help you get up. You should pee. Something about peeing after sex so you don’t get an infection or something I remember reading about, too.”

  I quickly help her to the bathroom and once she’s inside, I head back to my bed. I lay there and wait for her to come out. I only have moments to think about what just happened, but in that short time, I know without a doubt that I am in love with Raina Montgomery and I want nothing more than to have her be mine and mine alone.

  When she climbs back in bed with me she snuggles up to my body and sighs contently. “I’m glad it was you, Pete. I know you won’t get all weird on me. This is a good thing we have, right? I’m sorry about before at the party. I was just nervous about asking you to do this. Forget everything I said. I had no right to give you shit about Kelly.”

  “Raina we should…um, we should get some sleep. I usually wake up hard and the chances are good that I’m going to want to fuck you again as soon as I do,” I kiss her gently. “Good night, Princess.”

  I can’t believe what a pussy I’m being over her. I know I should have finished my sentence and told her my real feelings, but I chickened out in the end with the lame excuse of getting some sleep. Yeah, like I can fucking sleep right now.

  At some point during the night, Todd must come in with Amanda. He has the key to my room; I installed a lock on my door with a key shortly after Raina started sneaking into my window so my mom wouldn’t walk in on us. My mom is cool about me having a sex life as long as she knows I’m being safe and I don’t flaunt it in her fac
e, but if she found out that Raina slept with me almost every night, she’d have a shit fit and put an end to it. Todd spends most weekend nights with me to avoid his parent’s scrutiny and now that he and Amanda are getting it on, they use my room as their love shack. It’s only fair. The only reason he moved off campus was for me. After my dad’s accident, he knew I had to take care of my mom and he didn’t want me to feel like I was left out and the only one not on campus. That’s the kind of friend Todd is. He always thinks of my needs before his own.

  Neither Raina or I heard them come in, in the morning when we wake up, we realize we’re not alone and have to be extra quiet, but their presence isn’t about to stop my need to be inside her again.

  Raina wakes in my arms and smiles when she sees that I’m already awake. I kiss her then nod at the bed across the room and tell her we need to be quiet. I walk softly to the bathroom, use the toilet, brush my teeth, and run my hands through my hair before I return and nod to Raina to go do the same. When she comes back out, I lift the covers for her to climb back in next to me and say, “Join me, the party’s just starting.”

  I’m naked under the sheets with my hand wrapped around my dick, slowly stroking it to its full size. When Raina cuddles next to me, I kiss her softly on the lips. “Oh, God I want you so bad. I have no idea how I am ever going to be near you again and not be inside you. How am I going to get through the day?”

  I slide on top of her then slide one of my fingers over her sex to be sure she’s ready for me again. “Wow, you’re so wet already. Want me that badly, do ya?” I tease then slowly begin to slide into her slick, wet body. “We have to do this quietly so they don’t wake up and catch us. Is this okay or are you too sore?” I ask.

  “It doesn’t hurt the same as last night. It feels like it hurts only because maybe I’m bruised a little, but its fine, keep going,” she begs with a whisper in my ear. “Argh, Pete” escapes her and I respond with a soft moan of my own into her ear.

  “It’s going to be fast again, baby, I promise. God, you are so fucking tight and wet, I can’t hold off for long. I’m not used to this without a condom. Fuck it’s so hot” I say before pushing into her a few times causing us both to find our releases.

  She clamps down on my shoulder to keep from yelling out as she tightens around me, growing slick and hot and I growl in her ear as I let go inside her.

  We were quiet and fast and finished before Todd and Amanda woke up. When they do, they smile over at us before heading into the bathroom to take a shower together. Raina and I kiss good-bye and she climbs out of my window with a promise to see me later in the day.

  Everything has changed, while at the same time, everything is the same.

  December 2013

  Pete

  I can’t wait for the others. I grab Raina by the hand and lead her out of the club, through the mass of bodies to the coolness of outside. I hand the valet a few bills and request a taxi. When he sees the look in my eyes, as I turn to Raina, he moves quickly. I pull her into my side and clasp my mouth onto her ear and nibble. She giggles and relaxes into my hold. I growl in her ear and let my hand start to roam over her ass. So firm, it fits in my palm perfectly. “Fuck, you have me so hard right now. Please tell me you’re already wet for me.”

  “Oh, Pete, I have been since I saw you in the studio when I was bent over that bench.”

  “Say it, Raina. You’ve been what?”

  “Wet, Pete. I’ve been so wet for you.”

  “Oh, thank fuck” I mutter as the taxi pulls up and I shove Raina inside and climb in behind her. Before the driver even pulls away from the curb I descend on her, my mouth covering hers. She opens for me and I slip inside until I hear the driver clear his throat.

  “Yeah, none of that shit in here. Keep it in your pants until I get you home lover boy. Where to?” the driver asks.

  I give him the address and a look that challenges him to just try to give me another order. And he might for all I know. I can’t hear a thing with the beat of my blood roaring in my ears as Raina’s hand slips into my lap. Her fingers slowly find my dick, hard for her like never before, and she gently grasps me. I moan and my head falls back onto the seat. “He said to keep it in your pants” she says with a wicked smirk on her flawless face.

  “Jesus, Raina. Seriously, if you keep stroking me like that, you’ll make me come in my pants like some kid getting whacked off for the first time. And not that I give a fuck what he said but keep doing what you’re doing. It’s good. I want this to build inside both of us and last for hours. I plan to savor you tonight.”

  Raina giggles and continues stroking me in her firm grip. Luckily for me, the taxi pulls up in front of the beach house while I’m still holding on to my control. Barely.

  I usher her out of the backseat, throw the cabbie some bills, and run for the door with Raina’s hand in mine. I throw the door open, shove her inside, slam the door shut with my foot, and lean her against it. I hover over her, my arms on either side of her head. I lower and find her mouth. Our hearts are beating triple time, our breathing coming fast and hard. I run my tongue over her lips, when she growls at me, I bite that plump bottom lip of hers until she whimpers. Knowing that I need her to be with me all the way, I pull back to have the necessary discussion.

  “Raina, wait, Princess, we need to talk first. I have to explain some things about sex with me before we do this,” Raina looks apprehensively at me and I sigh before I take her hand and lead her to our bedroom. I sit her down on the bed and try to take a few deep breaths before I begin. No amount of breathing can calm me at this point.

  “Okay, so I know I told you that I’m a sexual Dominant, but I don’t know if you can really understand what that means without first experiencing it, so I need you to understand a few things before we start. First, I’m a demanding bastard in bed,” I state. “I like things my way. When I ask you to do something, you’ll do it without question, without thought or hesitation. Secondly,” I continue as I carefully try to gauge her reaction. “I need all of you, Raina, your mind, your heart, your soul, and your body. You’ll surrender your power to me, trust that I’ll take care of you, bring you pleasure so strong you’ll sink into a world of bliss like you’ve never known before. I will have your mouth, that pretty pussy, your tight ass, and I’ll have them often. Whenever and wherever to wish. Once I start with you, Princess, I’m not going to let up. I haven’t had sex in a very long time, and once I bury myself balls deep inside of you, I’m never going to leave. Can you handle what I’ve said so far?”

  She nods, overwhelmed for sure, but then she glances down at her feet like a true submissive and I know I have her. She has what it takes to do this. Then something hits me, a feeling of unease. That’s what I’ve required for years from my subs, but with Raina it feels wrong. “No,” I demand. “Never cast your eyes down with me. Forget the training from Bash’s video shoot, this is different. You’re different. With me, you’ll be submissive in bed, but I don’t want you to feel less than me. I’m a demanding bastard, yes, but I won’t be an asshole in bed, not with you. I want you to always feel safe with me. I will never hurt you, I will push you to your limits, there will be pain, but it will be for pleasure in the end. You still with me, Princess?” I ask. I’ve dropped a tone on her in one quick breath.

  “I think so. I just want you, Pete. Please, we’ve had sex a hundred times in the past. Are you really that different from the way you used to be?”

  “Yes and no, baby. Okay listen, I usually talk about safe words and limits but if you want me to stop, you just say the word and I’ll end it. I think I know you enough to push you, but not take you further than you can handle. I can still read your body better than my own. You trust me, don’t you?”

  “Of course, I do. Always have.”

  “Good. I thought I’d be able to take my time, savor this, but damn it, I’m not strong enough. I need to fucking have you right now. If I don’t get inside you in the next two minutes, I don’t know what mig
ht happen to me, but it won’t be pretty.”

  I rip my shirt over my head, kick off my shoes, and yank my pants down over my hips. I’m standing in front of her with a raging hard-on held back only by my boxer briefs when she remembers about my cloud tattoo and comes closer for a better look. But instead of examining it, she licks the outline, brings goose bumps to the surface of my skin, and causes chills to run throughout my body. She pulls back at my intake of air to finally examine it. It’s then that she finally sees the lettering, her name over my heart. “Pete?” she questions.

  I sigh happily. I’ve wanted to admit to this for a long time. It’s well overdue. “I got it the day after you left. I needed to know I’d always have you where you belonged. You’ve always been in my heart, Princess. I love you. I’ve always loved you. Just didn’t know what to do with it before. I know now. I won’t make that mistake again” I promise.

  I don’t wait for her to respond, I’m not sure she’ll return the sentiment and I’m not prepared for her not to. “I’ve told you how I feel; we can talk more about that later, but now? Now, I want you naked. Take off your clothes,” I order, my Dom voice in full swing. “Then I want you to lay on the bed and wait for me. Don’t move, don’t squirm, wait for me patiently. Now, Raina. Remember no questions, no thinking or hesitating. Do what I say.”

  She obeys me like the good little submissive I know she’ll be as I reach into the closet for my Dom bag. Blindfold, cuffs, and a crop, that’s what I carry to the bed where I find her just as I requested. She looks at me with her eyes wide with desire and a hint of panic. “Shh,” I reassure her. “I’ve blindfolded and cuffed you before. It drove you wild. The crop won’t hurt, just going to wake up your senses, make you feel things more vividly. I know what I’m doing, relax. You can trust me. I’ve got you. You didn’t complain when I spanked you last night.”

  “Yeah, but that was you fooling around, no? And it was your hand.”

  I shrug my shoulders. I went easy on her last night, that’s true, but I definitely wasn’t fooling around. I don’t fool around when it comes to my sexual preferences.