Cast in Silence

by Michelle Sagara

  Kaylin bit her lip. She did not dislike the Arkon in the way she disliked the pretentious and snobby nobles who occasionally crossed her path—but even so, she didn’t like being all but called a moron. Instead of concentrating on her injured dignity, she concentrated on his words. Her eyes widened.

  “You think that Ravellon is—”

  He raised a brow.

  “You think it exists in more than one world.”

  “Why do you say that?”

  “You didn’t think the first explanation was true, although it would make sense, you believe the second explanation. And the theoretical existence of other worlds ties into that explanation. You think that, near the heart of the fiefs, there is some other world that’s touching ours that wouldn’t support Aerian life.”

  He raised both brows. “Sanabalis,” he told her tutor, “she shows serious potential as a student. Why has this not been explored?”

  “For a human, she is much like Lord Tiamaris was in his youth.”

  This clearly meant more to the Arkon than it did to Kaylin; the Arkon actually grimaced. “Very well. They are both rather young.” He spoke as if youth was a failing. “Yes, Private Neya. That is what I believe.”

  “It is also,” Sanabalis finally said, “not relevant at the moment.”

  “Do you think the shadows come from somewhere else? I mean, some world that isn’t ours?”

  “No. The shadows, as you call them, are at the heart of our world. They are the scions of the Old Ones.”

  “But the Old Ones are gone—” She stopped. Glanced at her arms, the marks covered as they always were by layers of cloth.

  “It is possible that the magic that once sustained the Old Ones exists only in a very few places now. We do not understand what happened to them, and why they retreated—but no life as we know it would exist had they not.”

  “But they created—”

  “Yes?”

  “The Barrani. The Dragons. Even the Leontines.” Although admittedly that was less widely known. “They created everything.”

  “Not everything. But even if they did, it does not refute my argument. What the world is now, and what it would have been, is not the same. Do not look for a return of the Old Ones, for if they returned, it would not only be the forefathers of our races, but also the forefathers of the ferals, and the darker creatures which have no name.”

  She was silent for a full minute before she trusted herself to speak again. “Ravellon,” she began.

  He raised a brow, but nodded.

  “It was supposed to be the heart of a city. There was supposed to be a library there that was bigger on the inside than—” her eyes widened slightly “—the outside. You think—”

  “Yes?”

  “That the library did exist. And that it existed in a space between worlds somehow.”

  He said nothing.

  “It was supposed to contain all of the knowledge about anything that had ever, or would ever, exist.”

  “Yes. That was the legend.” He glanced out the window. “And for the sake of that legend, many have died.”

  She nodded. “Knowledge is power,” she said softly, quoting someone, although she couldn’t remember who. Probably an Arcanist.

  “Yes. But power is not entirely unaligned,” he replied. He rose. “And what once lay at the heart of Ravellon—and Ravellon is not a traditional fief name—may or may not now exist. What exists around it, however, in layers we cannot pierce magically or by mundane means, is shadow. We do not know if the shadows came searching for what we sought. We know only that they are now rooted there, and we cannot unseat them by any means we currently have in our possession.

  “You’ve seen ferals, no doubt.”

  She nodded.

  “You’ve seen, by all accounts, worse.”

  She nodded again, glancing at Sanabalis.

  “It is for that reason, Private Neya, that we are prepared to allow you to investigate. You have experience with what you might find along those borders—or within Barren as it now stands—and you have, better yet, survived. You do not seem, to my admittedly inexperienced eye, to be insane. Nor, if your last involvement with the Courts was an indication, have you developed a love of power, and the casual indifference that comes with it.

  “Therefore it is felt that you might approach—approach, mind—the borders.” He reached into his robes and pulled out a crystal. She grimaced. “You recognize this, no doubt. You are expected to carry it with you wherever you go in the fiefs. It will record what you see.”

  “But I—”

  “There is some magic involved, yes. I have heard that you have some sensitivity to magic, and it may cause you some discomfort. You will live with it. Come here.”

  She cringed, but rose and held out her palm.

  He placed the crystal firmly into that palm, and then caught her wrist. He spoke three words—three loud, thunderous, Dragon words—and all of her hair stood on end. She barely felt the stinging pain of the crystal’s edge against her palm, her ears hurt so much.

  By the time the ringing had cleared, the Arkon was seated again, his hands folded in his lap; the crystal, with its sharp and unpleasant edges, was gone. “I am expected at the library,” he told her almost curtly. “And I will endeavor, for that reason, to be brief.

  “What we know with any certainty about the fiefs is due to the investigations that Tiamaris, in part, undertook some time ago. He was not always the most careful or fastidious of investigators, no doubt a deficiency in either his teaching or his aptitude.”

  Sanabalis and Tiamaris now exchanged a silent glance. The Arkon did not appear to notice that he had casually insulted them both. “However, what we were told,” and this time he did pause to give Tiamaris a pointed glance, “was that the fiefs pass from one ruler to another when a new ruler takes over the central building. If this was, indeed, the case, then the fief of Illien would never have become the fief of Barren. Yet it did.

  “You are tasked with finding out why.” He paused, and then added, “Anything of use you can discover about the nature of the fiefs will also prove valuable at this time.” He rose. “I must return to the library. I have left instructions, should I be unavailable, that you are to be granted entry—with or without Lord Tiamaris—should the need arise.

  “Familiarize yourself with the rules of my library,” he added gravely. “At the moment, breach of those rules would have unfortunate consequences.”

  Great. On the other hand, what she recalled was pretty straightforward: touch or break any of his stuff, and die horribly. Not much leeway there for accidental errors.

  He walked to the door, and then paused there again. “There was some discussion about your role in this investigation, Private Neya. I spoke in favor of it, but I have misgivings. I am not,” he added, as she opened her mouth, “about to explain them again. The explanation would probably deafen you, because I am now old enough that I find certain complications difficult to discuss in anything but my native tongue—a tongue which, by Imperial decree, is to be used sparingly in public places.”

  “Wait!”

  He froze there, and she was reminded, by his glacial expression, that there were forms she was expected to observe. “Arkon,” she said quickly, bowing. This did not, judging by his expression, mollify him much. “What did the Outcaste find? He said he found—”

  The Arkon frowned at about the same time Tiamaris stepped on her foot.

  “He found shadow. Possibly the last resting place of the Old Ones. If the library existed at all, it was no longer his concern. Do not be arrogant, Private. Your marks—your existence—might afford you some protection, although what that entails, and what its boundaries are, none of us can say. But what he could not do in safety, you cannot do. Do you understand?”

  She swallowed, remembering the great, black Dragon, his name so large and so intricate that she could not even begin to say it, although she could see it clearly. “Yes.”

  “Good. Tiama
ris, Sanabalis.” He nodded curtly, and this time, she didn’t call him back.

  “Lord Sanabalis or Lord Tiamaris, however, may feel free to enlighten you.” He glanced at both of them. “I assume at least one of them was paying attention.”

  Tiamaris’s grimace waited until the door had closed; Sanabalis’s expression, however, did not change.

  “I think I like him,” Kaylin told them both, as she settled back into her chair. “What were his misgivings about me?”

  The two remaining Dragons exchanged a glance. “The Outcaste,” Sanabalis said quietly, “went to Ravellon. What he found there changed him. He was not without power. He is not without power now.” They both hesitated. Kaylin marked it.

  “Why did he want you two to talk about this? He could—”

  “He dislikes caution in speech.” It was Tiamaris who replied. “And he dislikes politics. His definition of politics involves anything of consequence that occurs outside the boundaries of his library.”

  “Oh.”

  “There are matters that the Eternal Emperor does not consider suitable for public consumption. Public, in this particular instance, involves anyone who lives or breathes that is not Dragon and does not serve him.”

  “Meaning me.”

  “Meaning, indeed, you.”

  “So…there’s something they’re worried about, and whatever it is, he can’t tell me because I’m not a Dragon.”

  “No. There are many things that are discussed. A few of them have bearing—at least at this juncture—on our duties in the fiefs. But sorting out which of those things can be touched upon and which can’t requires the type of conversational care that the Arkon finds taxing. Left to his own devices, he would not emerge from his library at all, and his concerns would lead him to discuss certain historical issues which the canny—and you are that, at least—would then dissect.”

  Kaylin made a face. “Just tell me what I need to know.”

  Sanabalis chuckled. “It’s a pity you’re human. I believe you would find some sympathy in the Arkon, otherwise.” Fingers playing through his slender conceit of a white beard, he watched her in silence. After a moment, he said, “Tiamaris.”

  She recognized the tone of voice; she might as well have been locked in the West Room with an unlit candle in front of her face. Tiamaris grimaced.

  “He was always like this?” she asked him.

  “Always,” the Dragon Hawk replied. “Understand that the Arkon and the Outcaste were, in as much as any two beings can be, friends. It is hard to surrender an ancient friendship, no matter how dire the circumstance. Even the Arkon is not immune to some trace of sentiment.”

  Clearly the Dragon word sentiment didn’t really intersect the human one in any significant way. Kaylin managed to keep this thought to herself.

  “It was the Arkon who noted the change in the Outcaste upon his return from the heart of the fiefs. He did not immediately make his concern clear.” There was another hesitation, and it was longer and more profound. “In the end, however, it was the Arkon who was left to confront the Outcaste, because it was the Arkon who possessed the only certain knowledge we, as a race, held.”

  Kaylin frowned. “I’m not sure I understand.”

  “I’m sure you don’t,” Sanabalis replied quietly. “And after a brief pause for comprehension, you will once again resume all appearance of ignorance. This will not, one assumes, be difficult.”

  She grimaced.

  “The Arkon,” Tiamaris continued, as if Sanabalis hadn’t spoken, “has never said this explicitly, even when pressed. The Emperor has never commanded him to speak,” Tiamaris added. “Not even the respect the Arkon commands could stand in the face of his defiance of a direct order, and the Emperor does respect him greatly.” He glanced at their mutual teacher once more. Sanabalis nodded evenly.

  “But we believe that they were brothers in all but blood, the Outcaste and the Arkon. We believe,” he added, lowering his voice, “that the Arkon knew the Outcaste’s name.”

  Given the way the Barrani guarded theirs, and given the significance of the name itself, Kaylin understood why the Arkon had been loath to speak. If Dragons or Barrani had souls—and Kaylin had her doubts—they were entwined in the name; knowledge of the name was so profoundly intimate no human experience approached it.

  But she frowned. “If—” And then she stopped.

  The silence went on for a long time.

  “Yes,” Sanabalis said heavily. “He attempted to use the name, to bespeak the Outcaste.”

  This time, it was her silence that weighted the room. It passed for thought, but she didn’t need much time to think; she only needed the time to choose her words. Normally, she didn’t bother, but she had a strong feeling that was about to change, and like it or not, she would live with that.

  “He didn’t answer,” she finally said. As word choices went, it wasn’t impressive.

  But Sanabalis nodded anyway. “No.”

  “Sanabalis—”

  He waited, as if this were a test. Or as if all conversation from this moment on would be one. She really, really hated this type of lesson; it was all about failing, and interesting failure often didn’t count for part marks. She glanced at Tiamaris, and saw no help coming from that quarter, but he was as tense as she was. And why? It was only conversation.

  “His name,” she said quietly.

  “Yes?”

  “His true name.”

  Sanabalis nodded again.

  “It was different.”

  The Dragon Lord closed his eyes. “Yes,” he finally said. “We believe that something in the heart of the fiefs changed the very nature of his true name.”

  “And when the Arkon spoke it—”

  “He did not, and could not, hear it. Not as we hear the truth of our names when they’re spoken.”

  She was silent, then, absorbing the words and letting them sink roots. “I don’t understand,” she finally said.

  “No. No more do we.”

  Hesitating, she glanced at the carpet. It was safest. “When I went to the Barrani High Court—”

  “Speak carefully, Kaylin.”

  “I’m trying.” And so much for the effort. “When I went to the High Court, I saw—I learned—how Barrani are named.”

  “Yes.”

  She glanced at him. Rock was more expressive.

  “Look, Sanabalis—I was born mortal. I was born the usual way. We don’t have true names. We don’t even understand them.”

  “No. You are not bound by them, either.”

  “But—the Barrani don’t wake until they’re named.”

  “No.”

  “Do the Dragons?”

  He failed, deliberately, to answer.

  “From what I understand, the name is what they are, somehow. What you are.”

  “That is also our understanding.”

  “If his name changed, would he be—”

  “He is not what he was, Kaylin.”

  “Yes—but he remembered everything. He lied, based on that knowledge. He tried—”

  “Yes.” Sanabalis lifted a hand. “He did those things.”

  “So you can lose your name and still remember your whole life?”

  Tiamaris cleared his throat. “Had you a true name,” he told her quietly, “the Arkon would not have been swayed.”

  But she did. She had a name. She had no idea what it meant to have one, but she had taken one burning, glowing rune for herself from the waters of Life beneath the Barrani High Halls, and she still bore it. Severn knew it. Severn could call her.

  But…he had never tried to use the name against her. She wondered if he even could.

  “Wait.”

  “Yes?”

  “You have a name.” She spoke to Tiamaris.

  “Indeed, Kaylin.”

  “But—”

  “If I am not accompanied by you, I am not to enter Barren,” he replied.

  Her eyes narrowed. “You know something you’re not tel
ling me.”

  “It does not affect our mission.”

  “And your mission,” Sanabalis said quietly, “starts now. Private,” he added, rising, “understand that you are now seconded—as a Hawk—to the Imperial Court. What we have discussed in these rooms is not to be discussed with anyone save a member of that Court. If your Sergeant chooses to demand a report, the report you file must first go through the Court. Lord Grammayre may ask about your progress. You will take Lord Tiamaris to these meetings, and you will let him do the talking. Is that clear?”

  “As glass.”

  “Good.” He didn’t smile. “Your life depends on it. You have not yet met the Emperor, but that will not save you if you cross the lines he has drawn. Understand this,” he told her quietly. “Because if you do, nothing I can do or say will affect his decision.

  “You may, however, question Tiamaris at your leisure, as he is part of the Court and privy to Court matters. If you have any leisure time.” He gestured and the door opened. So much for economical use of power. “You have been given permission to remove your bracer. I suggest you wait until you’ve crossed the Ablayne.”

  “Oh, I will,” she told him. Because that was where she usually threw the damn thing.

  Tiamaris escorted her out of the Imperial Palace. They’d spent most of the day there, one way or the other, and Kaylin, glancing at the Halls of Law in the distance, grimaced. “Barren.”

  “You don’t want to return.”

  “No. Never.” She could afford to be that honest with Tiamaris.

  “Kaylin—”

  “But it just so happens we’re in luck.” She used irony here as if it were a blunt weapon. Against the force of Dragon humor, it pretty much had to be. “I met an old friend of mine on the way from Evanton’s shop.”

  He raised a dark brow. “An old friend?”

  She nodded. “She expected to see me. I sure as hells didn’t expect to see her. But she had a message for me. How much can we stall?”

  “Stall?”