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by L. M. Montgomery


  “It’s such a pity you couldn’t have gone to the Academy and studied for a teacher’s licence,” said Pauline, who knew what Ada’s ambitions were.

  “I should have liked that better, of course,” said Ada quietly. “But it is not possible, so I must do my best at the next best thing. Don’t let’s talk of it. It might make me feel blueish and I want to look especially pleasant if I’m going to have my photo taken.”

  “You couldn’t look anything else,” laughed Pauline. “Don’t smile too broadly — I want you to be looking over the asters with a bit of a dream on your face and in your eyes. If the picture turns out as beautiful as I fondly expect, I mean to put it in my exhibition collection under the title ‘A September Dream.’ There, that’s the very expression. When you look like that, you remind me of somebody I have seen, but I can’t remember who it is. All ready now — don’t move — there, dearie, it is all over.”

  When Pauline went back to Colchester, she was busy for a month preparing her photographs for the exhibition, while Aunt Olivia renewed her spinning of all the little social webs in which she fondly hoped to entangle the Morgan Knowles and other desirable flies.

  When the exhibition was opened, Pauline Palmer’s collection won first prize, and the prettiest picture in it was one called “A September Dream” — a tall girl with a wistful face, standing in an old-fashioned garden with her arms full of asters.

  The very day after the exhibition was opened the Morgan Knowles’ automobile stopped at the Wallace door. Mrs. Wallace was out, but it was Pauline whom stately Mrs. Morgan Knowles asked for. Pauline was at that moment buried in her darkroom developing photographs, and she ran down just as she was — a fact which would have mortified Mrs. Wallace exceedingly if she had ever known it. But Mrs. Morgan Knowles did not seem to mind at all. She liked Pauline’s simplicity of manner. It was more than she had expected from the aunt’s rather vulgar affectations.

  “I have called to ask you who the original of the photograph ‘A September Dream’ in your exhibit was, Miss Palmer,” she said graciously. “The resemblance to a very dear childhood friend of mine is so startling that I am sure it cannot be accidental.”

  “That is a photograph of Ada Cameron, a friend whom I met this summer up in Marwood,” said Pauline.

  “Ada Cameron! She must be Ada Frame’s daughter, then,” exclaimed Mrs. Knowles in excitement. Then, seeing Pauline’s puzzled face, she explained: “Years ago, when I was a child, I always spent my summers on the farm of my uncle, John Frame. My cousin, Ada Frame, was the dearest friend I ever had, but after we grew up we saw nothing of each other, for I went with my parents to Europe for several years, and Ada married a neighbour’s son, Alec Cameron, and went out west. Her father, who was my only living relative other than my parents, died, and I never heard anything more of Ada until about eight years ago, when somebody told me she was dead and had left no family. That part of the report cannot have been true if this girl is her daughter.”

  “I believe she is,” said Pauline quickly. “Ada was born out west and lived there until she was eight years old, when her parents died and she was sent east to her father’s half-sister. And Ada looks like you — she always reminded me of somebody I had seen, but I never could decide who it was before. Oh, I hope it is true, for Ada is such a sweet girl, Mrs. Knowles.”

  “She couldn’t be anything else if she is Ada Frame’s daughter,” said Mrs. Knowles. “My husband will investigate the matter at once, and if this girl is Ada’s child we shall hope to find a daughter in her, as we have none of our own.”

  “What will Aunt Olivia say!” said Pauline with wickedly dancing eyes when Mrs. Knowles had gone.

  Aunt Olivia was too much overcome to say anything. That good lady felt rather foolish when it was proved that the girl she had so despised was Mrs. Morgan Knowles’ cousin and was going to be adopted by her. But to hear Aunt Olivia talk now, you would suppose that she and not Pauline had discovered Ada.

  The latter sought Pauline out as soon as she came to Colchester, and the summer friendship proved a life-long one and was, for the Wallaces, the open sesame to the enchanted ground of the Knowles’ “set.”

  “So everybody concerned is happy,” said Pauline. “Ada is going to college and so am I, and Aunt Olivia is on the same committee as Mrs. Knowles for the big church bazaar. What about my ‘low tastes’ now, Aunt Olivia?”

  “Well, who would ever have supposed that a girl who drove cows to pasture was connected with the Morgan Knowles?” said poor Aunt Olivia piteously.

  The Growing Up of Cornelia

  January First.

  Aunt Jemima gave me this diary for a Christmas present. It’s just the sort of gift a person named Jemima would be likely to make.

  I can’t imagine why Aunt Jemima thought I should like a diary. Probably she didn’t think about it at all. I suppose it happened to be the first thing she saw when she started out to do her Christmas duty by me, and so she bought it. I’m sure I’m the last girl in the world to keep a diary. I’m not a bit sentimental and I never have time for soul outpourings. It’s jollier to be out skating or snowshoeing or just tramping around. And besides, nothing ever happens to me worth writing in a diary.

  Still, since Aunt Jemima gave it to me, I’m going to get the good out of it. I don’t believe in wasting even a diary. Father ... it would be easier to write “Dad,” but Dad sounds disrespectful in a diary ... says I have a streak of old Grandmother Marshall’s economical nature in me. So I’m going to write in this book whenever I have anything that might, by any stretch of imagination, be supposed worth while.

  Jen and Alice and Sue would have plenty to write about, I dare say. They certainly seem to have jolly times ... and as for the men ... but there! People say men are interesting. They may be. But I shall never get well enough acquainted with any of them to find out.

  Mother says it is high time I gave up my tomboy ways and came “out” too, because I am eighteen. I coaxed off this winter. It wasn’t very hard, because no mother with three older unmarried girls on her hands would be very anxious to bring out a fourth. The girls took my part and advised Mother to let me be a child as long as possible. Mother yielded for this time, but said I must be brought out next winter or people would talk. Oh, I hate the thought of it! People might talk about my not being brought out, but they will talk far more about the blunders I shall make.

  The doleful fact is, I’m too wretchedly shy and awkward to live. It fills my soul with terror to think of donning long dresses and putting my hair up and going into society. I can’t talk and men frighten me to death. I fall over things as it is, and what will it be with long dresses? As far back as I can remember it has been my one aim and object in life to escape company. Oh, if only one need never grow up! If I could only go back four years and stay there!

  Mother laments over it muchly. She says she doesn’t know what she has done to have such a shy, unpresentable daughter. I know. She married Grandmother Marshall’s son, and Grandmother Marshall was as shy as she was economical. Mother triumphed over heredity with Jen and Sue and Alice, but it came off best with me. The other girls are noted for their grace and tact. But I’m the black sheep and always will be. It wouldn’t worry me so much if they’d leave me alone and stop nagging me. “Oh, for a lodge in some vast wilderness,” where there were no men, no parties, no dinners ... just quantities of dogs and horses and skating ponds and woods! I need never put on long dresses then, but just be a jolly little girl forever.

  However, I’ve got one beautiful year before me yet, and I mean to make the most of it.

  January Tenth.

  It is rather good to have a diary to pour out your woes in when you feel awfully bad and have no one to sympathize with you. I’ve been used to shutting them all up in my soul and then they sometimes fermented and made trouble.

  We had a lot of people here to dinner tonight, and that made me miserable to begin with. I had to dress up in a stiff white dress with a sash, and Jen tie
d two big white fly-away bows on my hair that kept rasping my neck and tickling my ears in a most exasperating way. Then an old lady whom I detest tried to make me talk before everybody, and all I could do was to turn as red as a beet and stammer: “Yes, ma’am,” “no, ma’am.” It made Mother furious, because it is so old-fashioned to say “ma’am.” Our old nurse taught me to say it when I was small, and though it has been pretty well governessed out of me since then, it’s sure to pop up when I get confused and nervous.

  Sue ... may it be accounted unto her for righteousness ... contrived that I should go out to dinner with old Mr. Grant, because she knew he goes to dinners for the sake of eating and never talks or wants anybody else to. But when we were crossing the hall I stepped on Mrs. Burnett’s train and something tore. Mrs. Burnett gave me a furious look and glowered all through dinner. The meal was completely spoiled for me and I could find no comfort, even in the Nesselrode pudding, which is my favourite dessert.

  It was just when the pudding came on that I got the most unkindest cut of all. Mrs. Allardyce remarked that Sidney Elliot was coming home to Stillwater.

  Everybody exclaimed and questioned and seemed delighted. I saw Mother give one quick, involuntary look at Jen, and then gaze steadfastly at Mr. Grant to atone for it. Jen is twenty-six, and Stillwater is next door to our place!

  As for me, I was so vexed that I might as well have been eating chips for all the good that Nesselrode pudding was to me. If Sidney Elliot were coming home everything would be spoiled. There would be no more ramblings in the Stillwater woods, no more delightful skating on the Stillwater lake. Stillwater has been the only place in the world where I could find the full joy of solitude, and now this, too, was to be taken from me. We had no woods, no lake. I hated Sidney Elliot.

  It is ten years since Sidney Elliot closed Stillwater and went abroad. He has stayed abroad ever since and nobody has missed him, I’m sure. I remember him dimly as a tall dark man who used to lounge about alone in his garden and was always reading books. Sometimes he came into our garden and teased us children. He is said to be a cynic and to detest society. If this latter item be a fact I almost feel a grim pity for him. He may detest it, but he will be dragged into it. Rich bachelors are few and far between in Riverton, and the mammas will hunt him down.

  I feel like crying. If Sidney Elliot comes home I shall be debarred from Stillwater. I have roamed its demesnes for ten beautiful years, and I’m sure I love them a hundredfold better than he does, or can. It is flagrantly unfair. Oh, I hate him!

  January Twentieth.

  No, I don’t. I believe I like him. Yet it’s almost unbelievable. I’ve always thought men so detestable.

  I’m tingling all over with the surprise and pleasure of a little unexpected adventure. For the first time I have something really worth writing in a diary ... and I’m glad I have a diary to write it in. Blessings on Aunt Jemima! May her shadow never grow less.

  This evening I started out for a last long lingering ramble in my beloved Stillwater woods. The last, I thought, because I knew Sidney Elliot was expected home next week, and after that I’d have to be cooped up on our lawn. I dressed myself comfortably for climbing fences and skimming over snowy wastes. That is, I put on the shortest old tweed skirt I have and a red jacket with sleeves three years behind the fashion, but jolly pockets to put your hands in, and a still redder tam. Thus accoutred, I sallied forth.

  It was such a lovely evening that I couldn’t help enjoying myself in spite of my sorrows. The sun was low and creamy, and the snow was so white and the shadows so slender and blue. All through the lovely Stillwater woods was a fine frosty stillness. It was splendid to skim down those long wonderful avenues of crusted snow, with the mossy grey boles on either hand, and overhead the lacing, leafless boughs, I just drank in the air and the beauty until my very soul was thrilling, and I went on and on and on until I was most delightfully lost. That is, I didn’t know just where I was, but the woods weren’t so big but that I’d be sure to come out safely somewhere; and, oh, it was so glorious to be there all alone and never a creature to worry me.

  At last I turned into a long aisle that seemed to lead right out into the very heart of a deep-red overflowing winter sunset. At its end I found a fence, and I climbed up on that fence and sat there, so comfortably, with my back against a big beech and my feet dangling.

  Then I saw him!

  I knew it was Sidney Elliot in a moment. He was just as tall and just as black-eyed; he was still given to lounging evidently, for he was leaning against the fence a panel away from me and looking at me with an amused smile. After my first mad impulse to rush away and bury myself in the wilderness that smile put me at ease. If he had looked grave or polite I would have been as miserably shy as I’ve always been in a man’s presence. But it was the smile of a grandfather for a child, and I just grinned cheerfully back at him.

  He ploughed along through the thick drift that was soft and spongy by the fence and came close up to me.

  “You must be little Cornelia,” he said with another aged smile. “Or rather, you were little Cornelia. I suppose you are big Cornelia now and want to be treated like a young lady?”

  “Indeed, I don’t,” I protested. “I’m not grown up and I don’t want to be. You are Mr. Elliot, I suppose. Nobody expected you till next week. What made you come so soon?”

  “A whim of mine,” he said. “I’m full of whims and crotchets. Old bachelors always are. But why did you ask that question in a tone which seemed to imply that you resented my coming so soon, Miss Cornelia?”

  “Oh, don’t tack the Miss on,” I implored. “Call me Cornelia ... or better still, Nic, as Dad does. I do resent your coming so soon. I resent your coming at all. And, oh, it is such a satisfaction to tell you so.”

  He smiled with his eyes ... a deep, black, velvety smile. But he shook his head sorrowfully.

  “I must be getting very old,” he said. “It’s a sign of age when a person finds himself unwelcome and superfluous.”

  “Your age has nothing to do with it,” I retorted. “It is because Stillwater is the only place I have to run wild in ... and running wild is all I’m fit for. It’s so lovely and roomy I can lose myself in it. I shall die or go mad if I’m cooped up on our little pocket handkerchief of a lawn.”

  “But why should you be?” he inquired gravely.

  I reflected ... and was surprised.

  “After all, I don’t know ... now ... why I should be,” I admitted. “I thought you wouldn’t want me prowling about your domains. Besides, I was afraid I’d meet you ... and I don’t like meeting men. I hate to have them around ... I’m so shy and awkward.”

  “Do you find me very dreadful?” he asked.

  I reflected again ... and was again surprised.

  “No, I don’t. I don’t mind you a bit ... any more than if you were Dad.”

  “Then you mustn’t consider yourself an exile from Stillwater. The woods are yours to roam in at will, and if you want to roam them alone you may, and if you’d like a companion once in a while command me. Let’s be good friends, little lass. Shake hands on it.”

  I slipped down from the fence and shook hands with him. I did like him very much ... he was so nice and unaffected and brotherly ... just as if I’d known him all my life. We walked down the long white avenue, where everything was growing dusky, and I had told him all my troubles before we got to the end of it. He was so sympathetic and agreed with me that it was a pity people had to grow up. He promised to come over tomorrow and look at Don’s leg. Don is one of my dogs, and he has got a bad leg. I’ve been doctoring it myself, but it doesn’t get any better. Sidney thinks he can cure it. He says I must call him Sidney if I want him to call me Nic.

  When we got to the lake, there it lay all gleaming and smooth as glass ... the most tempting thing.

  “What a glorious possible slide,” he said. “Let us have it, little lass.”

  He took my hand and we ran down the slope and went skimming over the i
ce. It was glorious. The house came in sight as we reached the other side. It was big and dark and silent.

  “So the old place is still standing,” said Sidney, looking up at it. In the dusk I thought his face had a tender, reverent look instead of the rather mocking expression it had worn all along.

  “Haven’t you been there yet?” I asked quickly.

  “No. I’m stopping at the hotel over in Croyden. The house will need some fixing up before it’s fit to live in. I just came down tonight to look at it and took a short cut through the woods. I’m glad I did. It was worth while to see you come tramping down that long white avenue when you thought yourself alone with the silence. I thought I had never seen a child so full of the pure joy of existence. Hold fast to that, little lass, as long as you can. You’ll never find anything to take its place after it goes. You jolly little child!”

  “I’m eighteen,” I said suddenly. I don’t know what made me say it.

  He laughed and pulled his coat collar up around his ears.

  “Never,” he mocked. “You’re about twelve ... stay twelve, and always wear red caps and jackets, you vivid thing: Good night.”

  He was off across the lake, and I came home. Yes, I do like him, even if he is a man.

  February Twentieth.

  I’ve found out what diaries are for ... to work off blue moods in, moods that come on without any reason whatever and therefore can’t be confided to any fellow creature. You scribble away for a while ... and then it’s all gone ... and your soul feels clear as crystal once more.

  I always go to Sidney now in a blue mood that has a real cause. He can cheer me up in five minutes. But in such a one as this, which is quite unaccountable, there’s nothing for it but a diary.

 

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