Scarred (Bullied Book 5) (Bullied Series)

by Vera Hollins

  He got in my face. “You know what, sis? You and our stupid mother can go straight to goddamn hell and fuck yourselves—”

  A white-hot rage blew up under my skin. No one talked about my mom like that. I drew back my fist and punched him in the nose, relishing in the sound of it cracking. It was like music to my ears, but I didn’t stop to think why I reveled in it, and swung my fist to hit him again, despite the raging pain in my knuckles.

  “Miss Brooks! Stop right there,” Principal Aguda shouted.

  Someone wrapped their arms around me from behind and pulled me back. A well-known sense of dread and fury spread through me, sending my heart into overdrive.

  “Let go of me,” I shouted, writhing and kicking.

  “Calm the fuck down,” Masen Brown growled in my ear, tightening his grip on me.

  Calm down? Now that he was here? He only made everything worse.

  It just had to be him who got to witness this. It had to be the person I hated the most. And I hated even more that he’d put his nasty, filthy hands on me.

  “Let. Me. Go!” I jerked my head back, managing to catch his jaw enough for him to release me.

  He staggered back. “Son of a—”

  I swiveled around with my fist raised in the air, ready to punch him, too, but Principal Aguda stopped right in front of me. “Miss Brooks, you will stop right now, or there will be consequences!”

  I grew still, breathing heavily. Fuck. I looked around. Everyone’s eyes were on me, their faces surprised and confused, but what really bothered me was that I hadn’t been able to control my anger and the principal had had a front-row seat to it. Great.

  I lowered my hand as I stepped back and looked over my shoulder at Steven, who stared at me with hurt and disgust written all over his face. His now prominently crooked nose was bleeding, and I was pretty sure it was broken. A pang of regret nestled in my chest.

  I’d told myself I would never hit him again.

  Yet, here we were.

  “Steven, I—” I started.

  “Stay the hell away from me, Melissa.”

  My heart stopped.

  “I don’t want to see you ever again, and I mean it.” He spun on his heel and marched away.

  My pride told me to stay right where I was and let him sulk as much as he wanted, but his words sounded too . . . too final.

  No, I couldn’t let him leave like this.

  I started after him. “Steven, wait!”

  “You’ll stay right here, Miss Brooks,” the principal said in a tone that left no room for argument, and I halted. “Mr. Brooks, you too!”

  Steven paid no attention to her, disappearing around the corner without a word or glance. I swore silently and faced Mrs. Aguda.

  “This is outrageous and unacceptable,” she said and then looked at Masen. “Are you all right?”

  “Yeah,” he replied, glaring at me with the intensity he saved for, I assumed, his worst enemies. He rubbed at his jaw, clearly pissed off by my move that, unfortunately, hadn’t even left a bruise.

  I curled my lip and let my eyes slide down his designer white shirt and dark jeans. They hugged his muscles too tightly and provided a truly ostentatious display that worked on so many girls around here. However, that effort was wasted on me because I loathed everything about him. No, loathing was too weak a word for what I actually felt.

  Masen Brown, aka Barbie. Aka Walking STD. Aka The Lowest Organism That Walked On The Earth. Aka More Irritating Than The Worst Diarrhea. I got hives just thinking about him. He was one of the most popular and sought-after guys at East Willow High, but as far as I was concerned, he was just a bag of shit, STDs, and utter human stupidity. He was sleazy, arrogant, and promiscuous, and if I could purge him from this planet, I would. Gladly. Preferably by farting in his face repeatedly.

  “I demand an explanation,” the principal said.

  “What’s there to explain?” Masen responded before I could say anything. “She has serious aggression issues. She punches students all the time.”

  What the . . .? My blood roared through my veins. “That’s not true! He’s lying.”

  “Of course I’m not lying. You saw it yourself, Mrs. Aguda. I’m lucky she didn’t break anything, which I bet her brother can’t say. It’s obvious to everyone she has serious issues—the ones that can be solved only with a straitjacket.”

  I balled my hand and took a step closer to him without thinking, but then I glanced at Mrs. Aguda. She was looking at my fist with a deep frown.

  I uncurled my fingers immediately. Dammit.

  Calm down, girl. Just calm down for a sec.

  I took a deep breath. Then another. I could be civilized, all right.

  “He’s lying,” I repeated calmly.

  She met my gaze. “Based on what I’ve just witnessed, I find it hard to believe Mr. Brown is lying. My office. Now.”

  “But—”

  “No buts.”

  “You see? She can’t even listen,” Masen goaded.

  My eye twitched.

  “And you wish I was lying. You preach all the time about bullying, but the moment something doesn’t go your way, you go Hulk mode.”

  Motherfucking piece of rat shit. He just had to be here to add fuel to the fire. He just had to.

  “You lying piece of shit,” I said through clenched teeth.

  “That’s enough, both of you,” Principal Aguda said.

  Masen smirked, as if he were amused by me, and this infuriated me even more. “Keep proving you’re not right in the head—”

  “Shut up!” I lunged at him and shoved his shoulders. He didn’t move an inch, his stupid smirk growing even bigger.

  “That’s enough!” the principal repeated.

  “I can’t stand you,” I shouted.

  “Miss Brooks!”

  I shoved his shoulders again. “Stop smiling!”

  “Miss Brooks, you are suspended!”

  “I’m going to—” I began, but then her words sank in, and I froze. Masen’s grin grew larger than China.

  Suspended?

  I turned my head to gape at her. What sorcery was this?

  She raised her eyebrows. “Got your attention? Good. Now, I suggest you change your attitude and follow me to my office right this second if you don’t want a worse punishment.”

  I chuckled, but I wasn’t amused. At all. “April Fool’s was the day before yesterday.”

  She stared at me, dead serious. “I’m not joking.” She glanced at Masen. “You may leave.”

  Masen nodded, his stupid smirk still plastered on his face. “Bye-bye,” he mouthed, saluted me with two fingers, and left.

  I HATE HIM.

  I opened my mouth to curse him, but Mrs. Aguda raised her hand. “I don’t want to hear a word from you.” She pointed in the direction of the stairs.

  I clamped my mouth shut. Goddamn Masen Brown. I wished he would fall down the stairs and break his neck. Three times, just in case.

  I followed Mrs. Aguda quietly, but inside, I was screaming. I was screaming at my brother for being a pain in the ass. I was screaming at Masen for existing and getting on my nerves all the time. I was screaming at myself for not doing better.

  And now, I was suspended.

  I took out my phone and checked the app. I couldn’t find Steven anywhere, and I didn’t want to think what that meant. I only hoped he was responsible enough to see a doctor to fix his nose, at least.

  Guilt churned in my belly. I’d overdone it. That idiot deserved it for speaking that way about our mom, but . . . breaking his nose was pushing it too far.

  I sighed. Mom wasn’t going to take this well.

  “I’m sorry,” I texted Steven quickly and slid my phone back in my pocket.

  Mrs. Aguda ushered me into her ridiculously small office, which remained unchanged from the time when the previous principal, The Uneducated Swine And Pain In The Ass Anders had occupied it. The desk was filled with two seemingly never-ending heaps of papers and a stockpile
of pencils and notebooks. What was she hoarding these for?

  I slumped in the chair across from hers and started counting the pencils to calm myself down, running my fingers over my aching knuckles absentmindedly. I wasn’t shaking anymore, but I was high-strung and still had the urge to break something in two.

  Mrs. Aguda took a seat and planted her elbows on her desk, entwining her fingers together. She looked stern, her glasses perched on her nose, and her piercing dark-brown eyes held no sympathy at the moment. Her umber skin looked flawless and wrinkle-free, giving her a much younger appearance, and I wondered if she had good genes or if she was a vampire.

  “I first have to say that you can be quite blunt, Miss Brooks, and while I appreciate when people don’t beat around the bush, there is a fine line between honesty and rudeness. Do I need to remind you who you’re talking to?”

  I had a lot to say that would be considered downright rude, but I decided to play along. Being suspended was already bad enough.

  I shook my head, fighting against the urge to bite my nails. I always did that when I was nervous—meaning, all the time—but I’d already bitten them all to the quick.

  I should start bringing my fidget spinner to school.

  “Good. So, watch your tone and tell me what happened there.”

  I glanced at my red knuckles. Punching my boxing bag later would hurt like a bitch. “What’s the point? You’ve already decided to suspend me.”

  “And my decision stands, but I want to hear your side of the story.”

  I let out a deep sigh. My side of the story? It would take us eons, countless boxes of tissues, and a therapist. “My brother insulted my mom. I lost it. That’s all.”

  She raised her eyebrows. “That’s all?”

  I nodded. “That’s all.”

  “And your altercation with Mr. Brown?”

  Just a daily occurrence, because he’s the world’s biggest asshat, I wanted to say, but then she would kick my ass all the way to Antarctica. Or even worse—make me team up with him for some project as a way for us to “reconcile our differences.” I shuddered.

  I’d rather drink bleach.

  “Irreconcilable differences,” I said.

  She tipped her chin down. “Irreconcilable differences?”

  Was she going to repeat everything I said? Was she a parrot?

  “Irreconcilable differences.” I crossed my arms over my chest.

  “All right, but irreconcilable differences or not, violence is not acceptable.”

  I barely stopped myself from rolling my eyes. “Of course. World peace and all that.”

  She narrowed her eyes at me. “You’re leading the anti-bullying campaign and you’re the vice president of the school council. You should know better than to use violence to solve your problems.”

  I started tapping my foot. “I know.”

  “No, Miss Brooks, if what happened today was any indication, you don’t know. I’m not sure you understand the ramifications of your actions. You have issues that can’t be brushed aside, especially not when you have your future to think about. Our counselor will have to notify your chosen college about your suspension.”

  I tapped my foot even faster. I’d been accepted into the department of sociology at the local community college, but that didn’t mean they wouldn’t withdraw their offer. “What does that mean? Will this affect my college admission?”

  “I’ll be honest will you—it may affect it.”

  I clutched my seat. “What? But—”

  “We are not talking about some minor issue here, Miss Brooks. This is about aggression, coming from the school council’s vice president. I saw your records from Rawenwood High, and while there were instances that aren’t necessarily in your favor, they weren’t exactly a representation of anti-social behavior.”

  Of course they weren’t. All those times, I got into trouble because I was defending students from bullies, and more often than not, one of those bullies was Steven himself. It was the least I could do as the sister of a bully. I refused to feel guilty for punching a couple of bastards here and there, even if it cost me my college admission.

  “They weren’t.”

  She nodded. “But they do represent aggression, just like today’s incident, which isn’t something we could remedy only with a suspension. This is why I’ll be including you in a new program we’ve rolled out recently.”

  Uh-oh. A new program. Why did that sound like a metaphor for brainwashing kids and sending them to work as secret agents in different countries around the world? Or turning them into zombies?

  I gave her a crooked smile. “Is this the moment you tell me you’re going to cut off my body parts and analyze me like I’m some alien?”

  She cocked her eyebrow. “It’s nothing out of a sci-fi movie, I assure you. It’s a program for problematic students, called Student Code.”

  Oh, this was getting better and better. Cue the maximum level of sarcasm.

  There were real bullies out there, and she was including me in this program? Logic at its finest.

  “The way you put it makes me sound like I’m every teacher’s worst nightmare.”

  She let out an exasperated sigh. “You may think you don’t belong in this program, but you will thank me later.”

  I snorted, which earned me a scowl. “Sure. So, what is it about?”

  “It’s about cultivating dialogue, understanding, and empathy through helping people in need. The students in this program are assigned as companions to those who are either mentally or physically disabled.”

  So basically, she’d decided I was a brute who needed to do community service. I balled my hands, thinking how ironic and unfair it was that I was being treated like a bully when I’d spent all these months fighting against them.

  “Let’s suppose I go through with this program. What do I get from it?”

  “It will cancel out any effect your suspension may have on your college admission. And most importantly, it will help you to gain a new perspective on life and be more patient.”

  I wanted to roll my eyes so badly. “Do I have a choice?”

  “Would you rather be stripped of your vice president duties?”

  “And have the council fall apart without me? Poor Shreya Wilkins will cry tears of blood if I’m gone, and believe me, that girl can cry a lot. All right. Where do I sign up?”

  Her lips remained pursed as she stared at me. She opened her drawer and pulled out a piece of paper. “Here are the details of the program. Call one of the coordinators today or tomorrow to get your assignment. You’ll find their phone numbers at the bottom of the page.” She handed me the paper. “I will talk to your mother, as well. I also have to get hold of your brother.”

  I folded the paper and put it in my pocket, hardly sparing it a glance. “Sure. And when can I come back to school?”

  “Next Monday.”

  My eyes bulged out. “Next Monday? But that’s a whole week!”

  “What you did today was drastic and serious. I can’t just let you walk away with a slap on the wrist.”

  Of course not. Only Barbie and his friends could get away with things easily. It made perfect sense.

  “But I’ll join this program. So, can you like, I don’t know, reduce it to two or three days? I’ll miss a lot of school if it’s five days!”

  “You should’ve thought about that before you punched your brother. I won’t change my decision. Now, if you don’t have any more questions, you may leave.”

  I had questions. Like, what if the Mandela Effect was real? Why was Nutella better than peanut butter? And what was the best way to kill Masen Brown and hide his body?

  I should have been glad I didn’t have to go to school, because viva la freedom and all, but I couldn’t be glad when I was being punished unfairly. Furthermore, I was sure Barbie would throw a party to celebrate my suspension.

  I hated that son of a Chupacabra from the bottom of my butt.

  I strode out of her office, anx
ious to blow off some steam. Maybe by throwing darts at Barbie’s face. Yes, that would be wonderful.

  But that would only partially satisfy me after what he’d done today. I should come up with something really good that would put him in his place.

  Soon. Soon, I’d make him see he couldn’t mess with me and go unpunished. I would get back at him for everything, one way or another.

  I parked in front of the limestone mansion I now called home and leaned my head against the seat. As I looked at the house, my gaze averted to the stone statue of a winged woman out front that felt so out of place. I imagined grabbing a hammer and smashing it to pieces as a way of relieving my tension. The thing was so ugly I would be doing the world a big favor.

  I unfastened my seat belt and climbed out of my Ford Fiesta. Everything about this place felt wrong to me. It was a bitter reminder that my parents’ marriage had fallen apart and Steven and I were the casualties. It was a symbol of failed vows of eternal love and respect. It showed how easy it was to utter words of profound love and then stomp on them. Nothing was eternal. Good times didn’t last forever.

  My mom had said she’d bought this estate because she wanted me and Steven to have a normal home, ignoring the fact that all Steven and I wanted was a normal family. And I wouldn’t call a colossal Cruella de Vil mansion purchased during a divorce a normal home. It was unnecessarily lavish and over-the-top in every way, flaunting its nine bedrooms, greenhouse, and indoor pool. It was like a neon sign for my dad that read “I’m over you, fuck off.”

  Sure, she was doing much better; she worked her ass off at her real estate firm and hung out with her friends every Friday and most weekends, but the same could not be said for me and Steven. We were getting worse.

  I vividly remembered the old days when Steven and I were conquering the world. With there being only a ten-month age gap between us, people often thought we were twins. We surely acted like twins, always together and supporting each other through our highs and lows. We even looked like twins, and people often got us mixed up. Our parents even enrolled us in school starting the same year.

  We had the same blue eyes. The same somewhat crooked nose. The same heart-shaped face that earned Steven a lot of taunts because it looked too feminine on him. The same tall and skinny body that earned me the nickname Tomboy. The same loud laughter and shrill voice. The same tendency to get into trouble.