The Complete Chalion

by Lois McMaster Bujold

  She studied her rescuer in this better light. Like his horse and sword, the rest of his gear was of the finest quality, but forbore gaudy jeweled studs or metallic inlay. Not a poor officer, then, but serious about his business. To survive twenty years on this frontier, as his beard and the weathering of his face suggested he must have, a man had to be paying close attention to what he was doing.

  That face drew her eyes. Not a boy’s face, fresh and full-blooded like Ferda’s or Foix’s, nor an aging man’s face, sagging like dy Ferrej’s, but a face in the full strength of its maturity. Perfectly balanced on the apogee of its life. Pale, though, for all his obvious vigor. Perhaps the past winter in Caribastos had been unusually dreary.

  A stunning first impression was not the same thing as love at first sight. But surely it was an invitation to consider the matter.

  What of her and love, after all? At eighteen, she had been lifted up by Lord dy Lutez into the bright, easy, poisoned triumph of her high marriage to Roya Ias. It had spiraled down into the long, dark fog of her widowhood and the curse, blighting mind and heart both. The entire center of her life was a blackened waste, its long years not to be recovered nor replaced. She’d had neither the life nor the learning from it that other women her age could be assumed to possess.

  For all the relentless idealism surrounding virginity, fidelity, and celibacy—for women—Ista had known plenty of ladies of rank in Ias’s court who had taken lovers, openly or in secret. She had only the vaguest idea how they’d gone about it. Such carryings-on hadn’t happened in the Dowager Provincara’s minor court in Valenda, of course; the old lady had held neither tolerance for the nonsense nor, indeed, kept any such nonsensical young persons about her, with the sole exception of her embarrassing mad daughter Ista. In Ista’s two trips to Cardegoss since the destruction of the curse, in the old Provincara’s train for Iselle’s coronation and to visit little Isara last autumn, she had fairly waded through courtiers, to be sure. But it had seemed to her that she’d read not desire, but merely avarice in their eyes. They’d wanted the royina’s favors, not Ista’s love. Not that Ista felt love. Ista felt nothing, on the whole, she decided.

  The past three days of numb terror excepted, perhaps. Yet even that fear had seemed to lie on the other side of some sheet of glass, in her mind.

  Still—she glanced sideways—he was a striking man. For an hour yet, she might still be modest Ista dy Ajelo, who could dream of love with a handsome officer. When the ride was done, the dream would be over.

  “You are very silent, lady.”

  Ista cleared her throat. “My wits were wandering. I am stupid with fatigue, I expect.” They had not reached safety yet, but when they did, she imagined she would fall like a tree. “You must have been up all night as well, preparing that most splendid reception.”

  He smiled at that, but said only, “I have little need of sleep, these days. I’ll take some rest at noon.”

  His eyes, returning her study, disturbed her with their concentration. He looked as though she presented some deep quandary or puzzle to him. She looked away, discomfited, and so was first to spot the object floating down the stream.

  “A body.” She nodded toward it. “Is this the same river my Jokonan column was riding down, then?”

  “Yes, it curves around here…” He forced his horse out into the rippling water, belly deep, leaned over, and grabbed the corpse by the arm to drag it sloshing up on the sand. It was not clad in Daughter’s blue, Ista saw with relief. Just another ill-fated young soldier, who would grow no older now.

  The officer grimaced down at it. “Lead scout, it appears. I’m tempted to leave him to ride the river as courier down to Jokona. But there will doubtless be others, more voluble, to carry the news. There always are. He can be collected with the rest.” He abandoned the sodden thing and clucked his horse onward. “Their column had to turn this way, to avoid both the stronghold of Oby and the screen of Castle Porifors. Which was originally designed to look south, not north, after all. Better they should have split up and crept past us in twos and threes; they’d have lost some that way, but not all. They were too tempted by the shortest route.”

  “And the surest, if they knew the river went to Jokona. They seemed to have trouble with their directions. I don’t think this line of retreat was in their original plan.”

  His eye glinted with satisfaction. “My b…best advisor always said it must be so, in such a case. He was right as usual. We camped upon this river last night, therefore, and took our ease while the Jokonans delivered themselves to us. Well, except for our scouts, who wore out a few horses keeping contact.”

  “Is it much farther to your camp? I think this poor horse is almost done.” Her animal seemed to stumble every five steps. “It is my own, and I don’t wish to lame it worse.”

  “Yes, we could almost have tracked these Jokonans just by the ruined horses they abandoned in their wake.” He shook his head in soldierly censure. His own elegant mount, for all its hard use that morning, appeared superbly cared for. A slight smile flitted across his face. “Let us by all means relieve your horse.”

  He shifted his horse up to her side, dropped his reins on its withers, reached across, plucked her from her saddle, and balanced her sideways upon his lap; Ista choked back an undignified yelp of protest. He did not follow up this startling move with any attempt to steal a kiss or other shameless familiarity, but merely reached around her to take up his reins with one hand and catch up her horse’s reins to tow it along with the other. Leaving her to wind her arms around him for security. Gingerly, she did so.

  His cool strength was almost shocking, in this proximity. He did not reek of dried sweat, as she had expected—she had no doubt she stank worse herself, just now. The congealing blood, stiffening in dark patches on his gray tabard, had little odor as yet, for all that a chill of death seemed to hang about him. She rested in the curve of his arm away from the dampest stains, intensely conscious of the weight of her thighs across his. She had not relaxed in the circle of a man’s arms for…for as long as she could remember, and she did not do so now. Limp exhaustion was not the same thing as relaxation.

  He dropped his face to the top of her head; it seemed to her that he inhaled the scent of her hair. She trembled slightly.

  He murmured in a voice of concern, “Now, I’m only being kind to your horse, mind you.”

  Ista snorted softly, and felt his body’s tension slacken a trifle at the reassurance of her half laugh. It was wonderful to imagine letting go one’s guard, if only for a moment. To pretend that safety was something another could give as a gift. It could only be for a few more moments; he would certainly not have blocked his sword arm with her in this way if they weren’t nearly within sight of his camp. But presumably, as long as she pretended, so would he. So she clung, and let herself be rocked along, her eyelids drooping.

  Hoofbeats on gravel, a shout; she knew it was friends before she even looked up, for no new tautness flowed into his easy embrace. Your dream is done. Time to wake up. She sighed.

  “My lord!” cried a horseman. One of a trio in gray tabards, she saw through her eyelashes, trotting down the river’s side in the sunny midmorning. The mail-clad soldiers broke into a canter and pulled up around them in a laughing mob. “You have her!” the speaker continued. “I might have known.”

  Her rescuer’s voice was amused, and possibly a trifle smug. “I should think you might.”

  She considered the heroic picture they presented atop the dappled warhorse, and what a fine show it made for this lord’s men. It would be gossiped about tonight in his troop, no doubt. And so a commander maintained his mystique—she did not begrudge him the calculation, if calculation it was. If, as a man, he had also obtained some bonus of pleasure from this courtly cuddle of her exhausted self, well, she could not begrudge that either.

  The men vented a spate of brief reports: of prisoners taken, of the area secured, of wounded treated or transported to the nearest town in carts, of
bodies counted.

  “We’re not done rounding up all who fled, then,” said their commander. “Though I begin to doubt the accuracy of our alarms from my Lord dy Tolnoxo. We seem to have only ninety Jokonans to account for, not two hundred as he claimed. You’ll find five more dead ones downstream. One that I pulled from the stream about three miles down, I think must have fallen when we first struck their van. Four more near the mouth of a ravine a mile or so farther, where I caught up with them attempting to make off with this lady. Take some men and collect them and their horses and gear, and put them with the rest, to be listed.” He tossed the reins of Ista’s horse to one of the men. “See carefully to this beast—it belongs to the Sera, here. Bring its gear to my tent. I’ll be found there for a little. Have any who were involved in delivering the captives from the baggage train report to me at once. I’ll ride to inspect the wounded and prisoners in the afternoon.”

  Ista roused herself to ask the soldier, “There were some men of the Daughter’s Order, taken prisoner by the Jokonans—are they safe?”

  “Yes, I saw several such.”

  “How many?” she asked urgently.

  “I don’t know exactly, my lady—there are some in the camp.” He jerked his head upstream.

  “You shall be reunited with them in a moment, and have all their accounts of the morning’s business,” her rescuer soothed her. He exchanged salutes with his men, and they all departed in their several new directions.

  “Whose are these excellent soldiers?” asked Ista.

  “Mine, happily,” he replied. “Ah, my apologies; I failed to introduce myself fully in all my haste. Arhys dy Lutez, March of Porifors, at your service, Sera. Castle Porifors guards all the sharp point of Chalion between Jokona and Ibra, and its men are the honed edge of that blade. Five gods be thanked, a somewhat easier task now that Ibra is made all peaceful in the Royina Iselle’s arms.”

  She froze in his gentle grip. “Dy Lutez?” she repeated, aghast. “Are you any relation to…?”

  He stiffened in turn; his cheerful amiability cooled. But his suddenly studied voice remained light. “The great chancellor and traitor, Arvol dy Lutez? My father.”

  He was not either of dy Lutez’s two principal heirs, sons of the chancellor’s first marriage who had trailed after him at court in Ista’s time. The famous courtier’s three acknowledged bastards had all been girls, disposed to high and lucrative marriages long ago. Dy Lutez had been twice a widower by the time Ista had first met him, his second wife already a decade dead. This Arhys must be a son of that second wife, then. The one whom dy Lutez, in the prime of his manhood, had abandoned at her country estates so that he might go haring off after Ias, at court or in the field, unimpeded. A northern heiress, yes, Ista recalled that much.

  His voice went a little harsh. “Does it startle you that a traitor’s son serves Chalion well?”

  “Not at all.” She turned her eyes up to trace the bones of his face, so close to her view. Arhys must take something in his fine chin and straight nose from his mother, but the appalling energy of the man was all dy Lutez. “He was a great man. You have…something of the look of him.”

  His brows shot up; he turned his head around to look at her in an entirely new way, a muffled, eager urgency. She had not realized how masked he was, until it slipped. “Truly? You once met him? To look at?”

  “What, had not you?”

  “Not to remember. My mother had a painting, but it was bad.” He frowned. “I was almost old enough to be brought to court at Cardegoss, when he…died. I was old enough. But…perhaps it was better so.” The eagerness cloaked itself, settled back to its secret lair. His brief smile was faintly embarrassed. A mature man of forty, pretending not to care for the grief of a young man of twenty. Ista took back her belief in her own numbness, for this inadvertent flash of self-revelation wrenched like a knife in her stomach.

  They rounded a bend in the river to discover its inward curve lapping a meadow edged with woods. The grass was trampled and littered with the detritus of a camp half-struck, dead campfires and scattered gear. At distant horse lines strung between trees, a few men saddled up mounts or tied baggage to mules. Men packed, men sat, a few men slept on blankets or on the bare ground. Some officers’ tents sheltered beneath a grove on the meadow’s far side.

  A dozen men rushed dy Lutez as soon as he came in view, cheering, shouting greetings and questions, pelting him with news and demanding orders. A familiar figure in blue ran stiffly in their wake.

  “Ah! Ah! She is spared!” Ferda dy Gura cried joyously. “We are spared!”

  He looked as though he had been dragged backward through thorn scrub for about a mile, dirty, exhausted, and pale with fatigue, but hale: no bandages, no blood, limping no worse than his own saddle soreness and a few bruises might account for. Ista’s heart melted with relief.

  “Royina!” he cried. “Thank the gods, one and five! Praise the Daughter of Spring! I was sure the Jokonans had snatched you away at the last! I’ve all who can still ride out with the march of Porifors’s men, searching for you—”

  “Our company, Ferda—were any hurt?” Ista struggled upright, a hand upon the march’s arm, as Ferda pushed his way up to the dappled horse’s shoulder.

  He ran a hand through his sweat-stiff hair. “One was hit in the thigh by a quarrel from the march’s men, bad luck, one had his leg broken when his horse fell on him. I set two to tend them, while we wait for the physicians to get free of the worse hurt fellows. The rest are as well as might be. Me, too, now that my heart isn’t being plowed through the dirt in terror for you.”

  Arhys dy Lutez had grown still as stone, beneath her. “Royina?” he echoed. “This is Dowager Royina Ista?”

  Ferda looked up, grinning. “Aye, sir? If you are her rescuer, I shall kiss your hands and feet! We were in agony when we counted the women captives and found her gone.”

  The march stared at Ista as though she had transmuted into some startling creature of myth before his eyes. Perhaps I have. Which of the several versions of the death of his father at Roya Ias’s hands had he heard? Which lie did he believe true?

  “My apologies, March,” said Ista, with a crispness she did not feel. “The Sera dy Ajelo was my chosen incognito, for humility’s sake on my pilgrimage, but for safety’s sake thereafter.” Not that it had worked. “But now I am delivered by your bravery, I can dare to be Ista dy Chalion once more.”

  “Well,” he said after a moment. “Dy Tolnoxo wasn’t wrong about everything after all. What a surprise.”

  She glanced up through her lashes. The mask was back, now, tied tight. The march let her down very carefully into Ferda’s upreaching arms.

  CHAPTER NINE

  ISTA CLUNG TO FERDA’S ELBOW AS HE ESCORTED HER ACROSS THE trampled greensward and poured out an excited account of the dawn’s battle as witnessed from somewhat farther forward in the column. She did not follow one sentence in three, though she gathered he was greatly enamored of Arhys dy Lutez’s warcraft. The meadow wavered before her gaze. Her head seemed poorly attached, and not always the same size. Her eyes throbbed, and as for her legs…

  “Ferda,” she interrupted gently.

  “Yes, Royina?”

  “I want…a piece of bread and a bedroll.”

  “This rough camp is no place for your repose—”

  “Any bread. Any bedroll.”

  “There may be some women I can find for your attendants, but they are not what you are used to—”

  “Your bedroll would do.”

  “Royina, I—”

  “If you do not give me a bedroll at once, I am going to sit down on the ground right here and start to cry. Now.”

  This threat, delivered in a dead-level tone, seemed to get through at last; at least, he stopped worrying about all the things he thought she ought to have, that weren’t here, and provided what she asked for, which was. He led her to the officers’ tents by the trees, picked one apparently at random, poked his head inside, an
d ushered her within. It was stuffy and warm, and smelled of mildew, strange men, leather, horses, and oil for blades and mail. There was a bedroll. She lay down on it, boots, bloody skirts, and all.

  Ferda returned in a few minutes with a piece of brown bread. She held up one hand and gave a vague wave; he pressed the morsel into it. She gnawed it sleepily. When the tent’s owner returned…someone else could deal with him. Foix could have convinced him that this blatant theft was an honor to be devoutly treasured, she had no doubt. Ferda might do almost as well. She was worried about Foix and dy Cabon. Were they still afoot in the wilderness? Liss had clearly escaped and reached Maradi, but what had she done after that? Had they found each other yet? And…and…

  SHE PULLED OPEN GLUEY EYES AND STARED UPWARD. POINTS OF light leaked through the tent fabric’s rough weave, winking as a faint breeze moved the leaves overhead. Her body felt beaten, and her head ached. A half-chewed morsel of bread lay where it had fallen from her hand. Afternoon? By the evidence of the light and her bladder, no later.

  An apprehensive female voice whispered, “Lady? Are you awake?”

  She groaned and rolled over to find that Ferda, or someone, had found attendants for her after all. Two rough-looking camp followers and a clean woman in the Mother’s green of a medical acolyte awaited her wakening. The acolyte, it transpired, had been conscripted from the nearest town by one of the march’s couriers. They shortly proved to have more practical skills among them than the whole troop of highborn ladies back in Valenda who had formerly plagued Ista with their services.

  Fully half of her own clothes had been retrieved from the Roknari spoils, presumably by Ferda or one of his men, and set in a pile on the opposite bedroll. Abundant wash water, tooth-sticks and astringent herb paste, medications and new bandages, a thorough brushing and replaiting of her feral hair, nearly clean garments—when Ista limped from the tent into the early-evening light on the acolyte’s arm, she felt, if not royal, at least womanly again.