Take Me To The Beach

by K. L. Grayson, Karina Halle, A. L. Jackson, Marni Mann, Monica Murphy, Devney Perry, Kristen Proby, Rachel Van Dyken

  Despite living with him for the last three years, I still don’t know his real name or why people call him Scooby (it might have something to do with him being a major stoner), but he’s at least clean, pays the rent on time, and is a great source of entertainment.

  He also reminds me of Marina in some ways, being this fathomless pit of random information, but less cute and more like the adult version of that kid from Jerry McGuire.

  “Did you know,” he goes on, as if to prove my point, “that there can be a twenty-degree difference between the temperature outside and the inside of a cucumber? Hence the expression, cool as a.”

  I get to my feet. “Tell me more about cucumbers,” I ask him wryly.

  “That’s all I got,” he says. He munches some more. “I’m surprised to see you home. Thought you’d be at Simone’s.”

  “We broke up,” I tell him.

  He guffaws. Crunch. Crunch. “You mean you broke up with her.”

  “Same difference, isn’t it?” I tell him, about to leave the room to get a glass of water, thanks to his talks about hydration, when my phone beeps with an incoming text.

  It’s Marina.

  I breathe out a sigh of relief. I thought that maybe she was avoiding me after what I proposed yesterday.

  I pick up the phone, Scooby losing interest in me and wandering back down the hall, and read it.

  Hey, wondered if you had time to talk.

  I suck in a breath. Talk. If we were dating, this wouldn’t be a good sign.

  What about?

  She responds back right away: You know what.

  Are you already breaking up with me? I text. A joke, but still.

  LOL. No. The opposite.

  Oh really…

  Want to come over? I ask.

  Sure. When?

  Anytime. Now.

  I’ll be there in an hour. Should I bring anything?

  Just that gorgeous arse of yours, I write, then quickly erase it. Instead, I send:

  Just you. See you then.

  I put the phone back on the desk and immediately sit down in the chair, picking up the pen. A rush of euphoria goes through me, just a quick burst, but it’s enough for my pen to move.

  There is a layer of terror under honey so sweet, the barb that always gets you when you plunge your hands in, sticky and raw with the promise of everything.

  I sit back and glance at it. Not bad. Not great. But it’s something.

  “Hi,” Marina says brightly as I open the door. She’s smiling but it’s a bit shaky, like she’s already nervous. Not that this would be an unusual state for her.

  “Hey,” I say back, opening the door wider and gesturing for her to come in.

  Damn. Maybe it’s in my head, but I swear there’s already this bizarre tension between us.

  “Hey,” Scooby says to Marina from the kitchen. Somehow, he still has a cucumber. I’m guessing there are multiple. “Cucumber?” He sticks it out toward her in offering.

  She frowns at him. “No thanks. Already had one.”

  “I can slice it up for you, if you’d like.”

  “I’m good,” she says, giving him a quick smile and then looking to me with a bemused expression. “Should we go somewhere private and talk?”

  “Oh,” Scooby says loudly. “I didn’t know you guys needed, uh, privacy. Hey, I’ll be quiet. Really. I’m going to my room. You cats do whatever you need to do. There are more cucumbers in the fridge if you want.”

  He saunters off down the hall, waving the cucumber around like he’s going into battle.

  “You know, I think with the book deal you’ll be able to afford a place without a roommate,” she says to me, keeping her voice low as she watches him disappear around the corner.

  “I know. We’ll see how the book does. I don’t want to get ahead of myself and make any bad decisions.”

  “You’re so adult,” she says. “If I had a book deal I’d be betting on the ponies.”

  “The only ponies you’d bet on would be of the My Little variety.”

  “A hundred grand on Applejack.”

  “High roller.” I head to the fridge and open it. “Want anything? Beer?”

  “Sure,” she says and sits down at the table as I grab two Coronas and hand one to her.

  I sit down across from her, the chair scraping loudly on the tile floor, and shoot her a grin that I hope looks absolutely charming. “So?”

  “So,” she says, wrapping a strand of hair around her finger. “I’ve been thinking.”

  “Apparently.”

  She holds up that hair-wrapped finger to signal for me to wait, has a sip of her beer, and then reaches down into her purse that she hooked on the chair, digging for something. I wait patiently while she empties out the entire contents of her hobo bag onto the table.

  “Where the hell is it?” she mumbles to herself. She pulls out handfuls of receipts, wads of cash, empty packages of gum, three pens, a compact, a comb, bottles of Benadryl and salve, hair ties, her phone, mints, lip gloss, a tiny rubber pig (?), her keys, a cigar cutter (??), a McDonald’s cheeseburger wrapper, a case of colored pencils, and what looks to be a chunk of honeycomb in a Ziploc bag. “Damn it.”

  “Dare I ask what you’re looking for? I guess I should be glad it doesn’t involve a cigar cutter and Benadryl.”

  She takes one of the receipts from CVS that’s almost longer than a roll of toilet paper, turns it over, then picks up a pen. “I thought I packed a notebook. I had made a list of rules at home but I guess we have to start from scratch.”

  “You know I have paper here, right?” I tell her, getting to my feet and grabbing a notepad from beside the fridge. I slap it down beside her. “And I assume the rules are about…”

  “You won me over,” she says.

  I’m smiling like crazy. “Really?”

  She nods quickly. “Yup. Though, at the end of our conversation there yesterday, you did say that I had a point. About the fact that we could ruin what we have.”

  “That’s true.”

  “So, I figured some hard and fast rules would keep us in line. And the moment it gets a bit weird for us, I think that’s the moment when we bow out.”

  “Sounds fair. So, what are the rules?”

  She clears her throat and sits up straight, pushing the emptied bowels of her purse over to the side.

  “First, we start with the schedule,” she says matter-of-factly, like we’re having a business meeting.

  “Schedule?”

  She writes as she speaks, her hair spilling over her face. “A minimum of four dates over the next two weeks.”

  “Why the timeline?”

  “Because otherwise we’ll lose character. Best to stay in character.”

  “But we’re playing ourselves, right? Isn’t that the whole point?”

  “But we need to be strangers for a bit. And we’re both busy people with lives, so I think we can master four dates within that time frame.”

  “So, I guess if we’re strangers, then we shouldn’t see each other as friends during that time.”

  “Correct.” She writes that down too. “Date number one, you pick me up. We treat it like we met online or through Tinder, so we don’t know much about the other. We go somewhere nice. Remember, you’re trying to impress me.”

  “And you’re trying to impress me.”

  She grins at me, sticking the end of the pen in her mouth. “I haven’t impressed you already?” she asks saucily.

  I don’t know if it’s her faux-seductive expression, the way her shiny wild hair is flowing over her shoulders, or the full swell of her breasts pressing through her low-cut top as she leans forward, but I’m suddenly feeling very hot under my skin.

  I clear my throat and try to ignore it. This isn’t going to help our situation.

  “And date number two?” I ask.

  “Same thing. Maybe we can do something with the bees.”

  I cock a brow. “Do we have to?”

  She laughs. “No
, but I saw this beekeeper in Arizona online and she has like these date nights where couples come and learn about beekeeping and how it’s done, stuff like that. It makes her some extra income, it educates people, and it’s a fun experience for the couple.”

  “Providing neither of them have a fear of bees…”

  “Oh, you do not have a fear of bees,” she says with a dismissive wave of her pen. “After all I’ve told you about them. Anyway, it would be a fun thing to add to Palm Trees and Honey Bees and we could kind of test it out.”

  “Okay, fine. And then the third date?”

  “I don’t know, we’ll figure it out. Same goes for the fourth.”

  “Then what happens beyond the fourth?”

  “I guess we just take stock of it. See how we did. Give report cards.”

  “You’re pulling my leg.”

  “No one is pulling your leg,” she says. “Speaking of, we now need to lay down the other rules.”

  I laugh. “Speaking of things the size of your leg?”

  “Don’t flatter yourself,” she says. “And I mean it. No sex, no kissing, no touching.”

  “Well, I simply won’t agree to that.”

  She frowns, a flush appearing on her cheeks. “Why not?”

  “Because touching, kissing, and sex are all very integral parts of dating,” I tell her.

  “No they aren’t,” she says quietly, looking away.

  “What? Yeah they are, Marina. To me, anyway.”

  “It’s not needed.” She pauses. “And we shouldn’t even be discussing it. If anything is going to screw up our relationship, it’s that.”

  I watch her carefully. She seems flustered and embarrassed on a whole other level. It’s like she’s ashamed.

  “Okay,” I say slowly. “We don’t have to have sex. I agree that would definitely make things complicated. But…I’m sorry, but I am going to kiss you.”

  Her eyes widen as she looks up at me.

  Bloody hell. She looks so absolutely shocked, it’s adorable. I could kiss her right now.

  “And I’m going to touch you,” I add. “That’s part of the game, isn’t it?”

  She doesn’t say anything to that.

  I lick my lips in thought, trying to phrase this right. “Can I ask you something?”

  “What?” she asks warily.

  “Do you not…are you not…physical, you know, with the guys you date?”

  “Laz, I’m telling you, it never goes past date three.”

  “Well, it’s not because you’ve been cursed by an old witch a long time ago.” I pause. “Is it?”

  “Not that I’m aware of.”

  “So, are you physical? I mean, obviously there’s a kiss goodnight.”

  “Not on the first date.”

  My eyes nearly fall out of my head. “You don’t even kiss on the first date? Marina…”

  “What?” she snaps. “If I’m not feeling it, I’m not feeling it.”

  “Are you…ever feeling it?”

  She closes her eyes and rests her head in her hands. “I don’t want to talk to you about it.”

  “Why not? I’m your friend.”

  “You’re a whole bunch of things right now,” she mumbles.

  “Hey,” I say softly, leaning in across the table. “Talk to me. Please. I want to help you.”

  “Help me?” She sighs long and loud and gives me big puppy dog eyes. “I’m just not comfortable…with any guys. I don’t know what happens, but I just freeze up. If they touch me, all I can think about is what’s next, what’s coming.”

  My god. I mean, I know she’s awkward as fuck sometimes but she’s gorgeous and so breezy, I just thought…

  “Marina,” I say softly. “Are you…a virgin?”

  Her flush deepens.

  Holy fuck.

  “This is so embarrassing,” she whispers, looking away.

  “Marina, there is nothing for you to be embarrassed about.”

  “I’m twenty-nine, Laz,” she says softly. “It’s sad. Sure, I’ve fooled around with guys, especially in college. But when it comes to actually having sex, I…I don’t know. Okay, I guess the technical truth is that I’m not a virgin. My ex, Cody, way back in college, he had the condom on and everything and, well, I guess I was too tense. He couldn’t get it in. It hurt too much. So, I made him stop.” She glances at me. “I can’t believe I’m telling you this.”

  “I’m glad you are,” I say. “We should be able to talk about this kind of stuff.”

  “You think I’m pathetic.”

  “You know I would never think that, no matter what you told me. If anything, I’m…in awe. You’re like a fucking gem. You’re smart, pretty, fucking hot…and a virgin. That’s rarer than diamonds. Don’t be ashamed of it. Be proud of it.”

  “But the thing is…I don’t want to be a…a virgin. At all. I know it sounds like an oxymoron but I like getting off. I want to get laid. I know what I want and I’m tired of pretending all my vibrators are the real deal. I want that connection. I want that passion, the heat. I need it.”

  Bloody hell. I’m getting hot under my skin again and my dick is starting to strain against my jeans. I adjust myself in my seat, trying to ignore it. But fuck...this is making me feel a lot of things I pretend not to feel. Or, at least I don’t often indulge it.

  I swallow, my throat feeling thick. “Uh-huh,” I murmur.

  “It’s true,” she says. “But on these dates, I just…god, I just start freaking out. And that’s why I’m single.”

  “Explain what you mean by freaking out…”

  “I don’t know. I guess we’ll see.”

  I mull that over. I can’t believe we’re doing this. And now with Marina’s confession, it’s putting things in a whole new light. I’ve always been protective of her but now I just want to keep her to myself. I don’t want to give her my opinion on what she’s doing wrong, have her fix that, and then sleep with the first guy she gets past the third date with.

  “I just want you to know, in case you don’t,” I tell her, “that any guy that has a problem with you not kissing them or putting out isn’t worth it. Believe me. The right guy will understand. The right guy knows what he has in his hands.”

  She doesn’t look convinced. “You just acted all shocked when I said I wasn’t physical with them.”

  “Because, for a moment, I wrongly assumed you were like every other woman.”

  “Seriously?”

  I grin. “I know. I won’t make that mistake again.”

  “Way to make me feel normal.”

  “I’m joking, Bumble. We can joke with each other. That doesn’t change. None of that changes, okay?”

  “You don’t think I’m…weird?”

  I’m trying not to smile. God, she looks so fucking sweet right now. “You’re an odd duck, Marina. So am I. That’s why we work so well together. But for this? No. I don’t think you’re weird.” I reach out and tap my finger on the notepad. “Back to the rules.”

  “You still want to do this?”

  I give her a look.

  “I’m still unsure about the rules,” she says.

  “Look, I’m putting the ball in your court. Or my balls in your court, if you will.” She rolls her eyes. “You control the ride. I won’t touch you, I won’t do anything. If you want to touch me, kiss me…that’s up to you.”

  That seems to make her feel better. In a way I wish it wouldn’t, but as long as she’s comfortable.

  “Okay. Thank you.”

  “So, when is our date?”

  “You’re in charge of the first one. You decide.”

  “It’s Sunday now, so how about Tuesday night? I’ll pick you up at seven.”

  She gives me a shy smile and laughs. “I’m already nervous.”

  “Don’t be nervous. It’s me. Except it won’t be me. My name will be Carl. Carl McNaughty.”

  “It will not,” she says, gathering up all the crap on the table and putting it back in her bag.

&
nbsp; “You have to pick a name too. Think on it.”

  “It’ll be better than Carl McNaughty, I’ll tell you that much,” she says, getting to her feet and slinging her bag over her shoulder.

  “You’re leaving already?”

  She gives me an apologetic shrug. “I promised Barbara I’d help her with dinner tonight. Which means I’m making her dinner.”

  “You’re an angel, you know that?”

  She taps her fingers along her chin. “Maybe that will be my name.”

  “It suits you.”

  She starts toward the door and I quickly get up, opening it for her before she reaches it.

  “See you Tuesday,” she says to me as she passes by.

  I reach out and grab her arm, pulling her closer to me.

  Her eyes widen. I lean in an inch. She smells amazing, like honey yet sweeter.

  “You told me something about you just now that I didn’t know before,” I say, my voice low. “That took a lot of guts. I figure I should do the same with you.”

  She stares at my lips for a moment before her eyes meet mine. “If you tell me you’re a virgin…” she says.

  I smile. “I’m not a virgin. But I do consult a Magic 8 Ball when I have to make some major life decisions.”

  She blinks at me, then lets out a short laugh. “What?”

  “It’s true. The band’s name came from somewhere.”

  “No!”

  “Yes.”

  “So…when it came to this whole dating thing, did it decide anything for you?”

  “It said Better Not Tell You Now,” I tell her. “So, we’ll see.”

  She shakes her head and steps out of the door. “I don’t believe you.”

  “Believe it, Bumble,” I say with a wink.

  She just smiles and walks down the hall.

  Marina

  “Sweetest Perfection”

  * * *

  “Last night I dreamt I was in Manderley again,” I say in a dreamy voice.

  “Pardon?” Susan asks.

  I give my therapist an apologetic smile. “Sorry. It’s from a movie I watched the other night.”