Guarded Hearts (Love in Sienna Series Book 3)

by Laura John

  “I’m not going anywhere. This party is going to be insane, but I’m here,” Dustin says, kissing me.

  “I love you,” I whisper against his lips, and I smile at how wide his eyes go.

  “Do you mean it?” he asks.

  I nod. “You’ve shown me more love than anyone in my whole life. I’ve been afraid to say the words back, because I felt like the moment I did would be the moment you left me. But now I know that isn’t true. You’ve loved me through a lot, and now I’m ready to say it back. I love you, Dustin. With all my heart.”

  He kisses my lips with passion, and I almost forget that we are in the middle of a kids’ play place. I push back gently.

  “I love you too, Crystal.”

  Quickly, the play place is filled with tiny children yelling and running around.

  “So, are you scared off yet?” I ask Dustin.

  He laughs, wrapping an arm around me and pulling me close. “Nope. You aren’t getting rid of me that easily.”

  I giggle and hip check him slightly.

  “Mommy loves you very much,” I tell Olivia after buckling her into her car seat. “You be good for Auntie Tia and Uncle Mikey.”

  She smiles and nods. “Love you, Mommy.”

  I still miss her little lisp. Last month, her words started coming out clearer, and it makes me sad, in a way. Part of me doesn’t want her to grow up.

  I give her a quick kiss and step back.

  “Are you sure you want to take her for the night? Five kids is a lot,” I tell Tia.

  “We’ve got this. They’re already tired as hell from running around. You guys deserve a break too.” Tia winks at me, then pulls me in for a hug so she can whisper in my ear. “Now go have sexy times.”

  I shake my head at her.

  I told Tia about my plans to finally have sex with Dustin, and she was chomping at the bit to take Olivia. I think I’m ready, and if I’m not, I know he won’t pressure me.

  Dustin is like no guy I’ve ever dated before. He’s kind, caring, always puts my needs first, and he isn’t afraid of the baggage I come with. He thinks I’m strong and beautiful, and when I’m in his arms, I believe it.

  “Bye,” I say, waving as they drive off.

  I don’t have nights without Olivia very often, and I know I’m going to miss her like crazy, but I think it’s important that Dustin and I have some alone time. We don’t need to worry about waking Olivia, or her coming into the room.

  “All of the kids are gone. Are you ready to go home?” Dustin asks, putting his arm around my shoulders.

  I smile and nod. “Can we get some takeout on the way home? I really don’t feel like cooking.”

  “Why don’t I cook us something simple, and you can take a bath?” he suggests.

  I kiss him gently. “You’re too perfect. You know that, right?”

  He laughs and kisses me back.

  Instead of taking a bath like Dustin insisted on, I decide to do my hair and makeup to look extra sexy. I know Dustin says I don’t need it, but it’s not just for him; it’s for me too. I feel sexier like this, and it gives me more confidence.

  Looking in the mirror, I give my hair one last fluff. I stare at the black see-through body suit. I almost don’t recognize myself. I look hot!

  I smile and take a deep breath. I’ve got this. Now I need to go tell my man to forget about the food and to come eat me instead.

  “Baby,” I call from the hallway entrance, leaning against the wall. “Why don’t we skip dinner and go straight to dessert?”

  Dustin turns, and I swear to God, his eyes pop out of his head like those cartoon characters.

  I giggle. “Like what you see?”

  He nods and quickly strides over to me. His mouth is on mine in an instant, and my whole body warms at his touch.

  “You look fucking hot,” he says before crashing his mouth back to mine.

  Not breaking the kiss, I start walking backward, hoping like hell Olivia didn’t leave any toys for me to trip on. When we get to the bedroom, I start to take off Dustin’s shirt, but he stops me.

  “Are you sure about this?” he asks, staring into my eyes.

  “Surer than anything in my entire life. I trust you, Dustin. I know you won’t break my heart. You aren’t just in this for sex. You’ve proven that you want me and Livvy in your life. I love you and I want to do this.”

  He smiles and gives me a gentle kiss. “I love you so much. I want you more than the air I breathe, but I would have waited a hundred years if that was what you needed. I need you to know that I would never pressure you into anything. You are my everything and have been for a long time. You and Olivia are my family. Not step, not adopted, just family.”

  I feel a tear fall down my cheek. Dustin wipes it away, and he looks concerned.

  I smile and press my lips to his. “It’s a happy tear. You’ve shown me what love is, and I’m grateful for that.”

  I go back to taking his shirt off; this time, he doesn’t stop me.

  “These abs aren’t fair, you know,” I tell him, tracing my finger over the hard lines.

  He chuckles. “Good genes and a lot of time at the gym.”

  I pull him back toward the bed and press my lips to his again. When I slip my tongue into his mouth, I swear his throat does some sort of growl, and it’s so hot.

  “I’ve wanted you for what feels like forever,” he whispers against my lips, and I melt even more.

  “I’m going to need you to show me what you like,” I tell him, looking away. “I don’t know what I’m doing at all and I want this to be good for you.”

  He places his hand under my chin, forcing me to look into his eyes. “Baby, just being with you is a gift I never thought I would get. I want this to be good for you, since your last time was shit. You were with a greedy, chauvinistic boy last time. I’m going to show you what a man will do for you.”

  I feel a flutter in my lower stomach, and my knees quiver slightly.

  Dustin pushes me gently to sit on the bed. “Tonight is all about you. Discovering what you like. Giving you all the pleasure. I want to make you come, and I want to show you what it feels like when your partner worships your body the way you deserve.”

  For some reason, my thoughts drift to all the women he has worshiped before, and I instantly feel sad.

  “Hey, where did you go?” Dustin asks, so in tune with my emotions.

  “Sorry. I was just thinking about…all your other girlfriends,” I tell him honestly.

  “You know I’ve been with other women. There’s no point in lying. I wouldn’t lie to you anyway. But none of them meant to me what you do.”

  I can see the truth in his eyes.

  “I trust you,” I whisper, and it’s not a lie. I’ve never trusted anyone like I trust Dustin.

  He leans over my body and kisses me. “Good. Now let me show you how good this can be.”

  I nod and pull him back down to kiss me more. The way his body is hovering over mine, I can feel his erection, and it’s turning me on. I want him now, but I think I’m going to have to wait.

  His lips move to my neck and he bites me playfully. It tingles, and I giggle. He continues his kisses down, moving the lace of the body suit to the side and revealing my left breast.

  “Fuck,” he murmurs under his breath before taking my nipple into his mouth.

  I arch my back, pressing my breast even more into his mouth. I think he chuckles, but it’s hard to tell with his mouth full. He sucks my nipple harder, and tons of tingles shoot through my body. I feel myself growing wetter, and I’m a little self-conscious about it, but I try to push those thoughts aside and just let myself feel.

  While moving to my other breast, Dustin places one hand on my thigh, his little finger only a whisper away from where I want him. I wiggle my hips, seeing if I can make him move closer, but he doesn’t.

  “Not yet, baby,” he says against my skin. “I want to make this the best night of your life. I want you to come on my tongue
first, then maybe on my hand.”

  My eyes go wide at his comments, not from fear, but from arousal. That sounds so hot. He so very slowly moves down my body, leaving a trail of tingling kisses.

  When his face gets between my legs, I freeze. What if I smell down there? What if there is a nasty taste? I’m not bare either. Does he prefer girls who are completely naked?

  My brain is going a million miles a minute when he kisses my thigh and inhales deeply.

  “You smell fucking amazing. I can’t wait to taste you. I just hope I don’t get addicted,” he tells me.

  I slow my breathing as he moves the fabric of the bodysuit to the side, and now I’m wondering why I wore this stupid thing.

  His tongue slowly parts my folds, and I gasp. It feels so good. He does it again, slowly, and I buck my hips.

  “More,” I groan.

  This is agony. I want him so badly.

  “Patience,” he whispers before giving me more slow licks. “And I was right. You taste like heaven.”

  I blush, and he sticks his tongue inside me.

  I moan. God, this is what I’ve been missing? Why couldn’t my first time be this good?

  He continues to slowly tease me with his tongue, and I feel a pressure inside me growing.

  “You’re close, aren’t you?” Dustin asks.

  I nod. “I think so. It feels so good, but I want more.”

  Dustin sucks my clit into his mouth, and a wave crashes over me. My whole body is pulsing with pleasure and I scream.

  He wipes his mouth and grins at me. “That was the fucking hottest sight ever.”

  I give him a shy smile. “That was amazing.”

  I grab his face and pull him to me. I can taste saltiness on his lips. That must be what I taste like.

  “I want you to show me what making love feels like,” I tell him.

  The smile on his face could light an entire city.

  “With pleasure,” he tells me, giving me another gentle kiss.

  He quickly takes the rest of his clothes off and is standing next to the bed completely naked. I can’t help but stare at his giant cock. I mean not like I’ve really seen a lot, but he is huge!

  “Are you going to fit inside me?” I ask, not even joking.

  He chuckles and nods. “Yeah, baby. And I promise I won’t hurt you. We are going to take this nice and easy. Do you have condoms? I wasn’t expecting this tonight, so I didn’t bring any.”

  “Nightstand,” I tell him, not really able to form any more words.

  He gives me a funny look, and I feel a heat rising in my cheeks.

  “I was hoping tonight would happen, so I went out and bought some,” I admit.

  He smiles and grabs a condom, quickly sheathing himself. Climbing back onto the bed, he hovers over my body and presses his lips to mine.

  “If you need me to stop at any point, you tell me,” he says, staring into my eyes.

  “I will,” I say before kissing him again.

  I have no idea how I got lucky enough to find this man, but I’m not letting him go.

  He centers himself at my entrance and slowly pushes in. There is pressure, but not pain. I throw my head back and moan as he continues to inch in.

  “Fuck, babe. I knew you’d be tight, but this is fucking unreal,” he hisses.

  “It feels so good,” I moan, and I feel so many things, it’s hard to describe.

  Once he’s fully seated in me, he leans down and kisses my neck. “Wrap your legs around my back. I’m going to try and keep this slow and gentle, but I’ve wanted this for so long, I’m not sure I’ll be able to control myself. If it hurts or I’m going too fast or hard, please tell me.”

  I kiss him and nod. “I want all of you. Don’t hold back.”

  He starts moving, and it feels like I’m on a roller coaster. My stomach is fluttering, and I feel a vortex taking over my body.

  “More,” I say, knowing that he’s holding back.

  I need to feel all he can give me.

  “Please,” I breathe when he doesn’t comply with my request.

  He groans when I lift my hips to fuck him from underneath. I know I’m close to my second orgasm, and I want him to lose control and take me. Yes, I’ve been through a lot, but I’m not a fragile doll, and I know what I want.

  He finally starts to pick up the pace, and it feels so good, I think I’m going to die.

  “Oh, my God!” I scream.

  My whole body is on fire now, and it’s the best feeling I have ever experienced. His hand comes down and he presses his thumb against my clit. With that, I shriek as I contract around his cock.

  “Fuck!” Dustin yells, and I can feel his cock pulsing inside me.

  He collapses on top of me, while still holding himself up a bit so I can breathe.

  “That. Was. Amazing,” he says between breaths.

  He rolls off of me and pulls me into his arms.

  “Thank you for that,” he says before giving me the most passionate kiss of my life.

  “I love you so much, Dustin. Thank you for showing me how good that can be,” I murmur.

  After Dustin cleans up, we lie naked in each other’s arms. I try to convince him to go for another round, but he insists that I’ll already be a bit sore tomorrow, so I agree to naked spooning. It just feels good to be so close to him with nothing in between. My heart is his, and now, so is my body.

  Last night was hands-down the best night of my life. I’ve been with my fair share of women. I’m not proud of that fact, but it is was it is. And I can say that it’s never felt like that before. Something about Crystal is different. She gave me a gift she doesn’t give up easily, and it was special.

  Now I’m lying here with her in my arms, her body pressed against mine, and everything feels perfect. The way she fits in my arms…it’s like I found my missing puzzle piece. I love this woman with all of my heart.

  My phone pings, and Crystal jolts.

  Glancing at the ID, I see that it’s Nina, and I cringe slightly.

  “What time is it?” Crystal asks.

  I pet her hair. “Early. Go back to sleep.”

  Like always, I swipe to delete the text. She has been texting me way more than I thought she would. Sometimes, I’m tempted to open them and respond, but I feel like that would just encourage her. Nina was fun and a really good friend, but my heart has belonged to Crystal for almost four years, and now that I have her in my arms, I won’t be letting her go.

  “Are you coming to the show tonight?” I ask Crystal, kissing her on the lips.

  She beams at me and nods. “I wouldn’t miss it for the world. I love when you do small impromptu venues.”

  “Me too,” I agree. “Kyle told me about this new performing arts theatre opening up just a block away from my old school. They wanted to bring in local artists, so since I’m not on tour, we decided to offer a free concert.”

  She smiles and kisses me.

  “I love you,” she whispers, and I pull her into a tight hug.

  “I will love you forever.” I press my lips back to hers and try to lift her shirt before she pushes me away.

  “I have to go to work. I’ll see you tonight.” She smiles and walks out the door.

  I still don’t technically live here, but I spend every single night here. I think it’s time for Crystal and I to have that talk and take the next step. I’m never letting her go, so we might as well.

  “Everything is set up,” Kyle says, handing me a glass of warm water and lemon.

  “Thanks, man. No weird gift tonight?”

  He shakes his head.

  The gifts seem to have stopped, and I haven’t gotten any more texts, but I can’t help but feel like I am being watched lately. Like everywhere I turn, someone is standing there watching me. But, of course, when I turn around, no one is there. I still haven’t taken Kyle’s advice to get more security, though. I mean, it can’t be that bad, right? If someone wanted to hurt me, wouldn’t they have done it already?


  “Well, that’s good. Is Crystal here yet?” I ask after taking a small swig of my warm water. It doesn’t taste great, but it relaxes my vocal cords.

  “Yes. She and Olivia just got here,” he tells me.

  At that moment, the door opens and a bright pink fluff ball comes running at me.

  “Duddy!” Olivia screams, launching herself into my arms.

  I’m pretty sure she can say “Dusty” now, but it’s like it’s her special nickname for me. I hope one day she calls me “Daddy.”

  I catch her just in time and spin her around.

  “I missed you,” I tell her, placing a kiss on her forehead.

  I turn my attention to Crystal, and all of the air leaves my lungs. She is wearing a short dress that clings to her body, and I want to rip it off of her right now. I walk over to her with Olivia in my arms and kiss her gently.

  “Aww, don’t you guys make a cute family?” Kyle mocks.

  I laugh. “Damn right, we do. Now, go do whatever it is you do. I’ll be out in a minute.”

  Kyle nods with a smile and walks away.

  “How are my favorite girls doing?” I ask, and Olivia has the biggest smile on her face. “Isn’t this performance past her bedtime?”

  “Yes, but I’ll allow it so she can perform with her favorite person,” Crystal chuckles.

  I give Crystal a funny look. What does she mean, perform?

  “Time to get onstage,” Kyle says, interrupting us.

  I quickly kiss my girls and follow him to the stage. As I leave the dressing room, I stop dead in my tracks.

  What the fuck?

  There are life-size cut-outs of me in a tutu and tiara all over the damn place. I glare at Kyle, who is dying of laughter. Crystal brushes past me with the little princess in her arms. She steps onto the stage and gets the crowd’s attention.

  “Are you guys ready to rock?” she yells.

  The crowd goes crazy.

  “Good! Dustin has a special guest dancer tonight for one song only, so give it up for Olivia!” she says.