Savages Series Boxed Set

by Jessica Gadziala

  Sensing this, Lo fell into step beside me, leading me outside and toward a black van that I climbed into without complaint, seeing my bag from Johnnie's place on the floor of the passenger seat and having to blink really hard to fight back the tears.

  "Ready?" she asked, turning the van over.

  "Yep," I agreed without thinking.

  But, well, apparently there was no way to really be ready for Hailstorm. Because Hailstorm was like a community all to itself, like a really paranoid, really well guarded survivalist camp. All the buildings were made out of huge shipping containers, a seemingly endless network of them powered by fields of solar panels and wrapped up in a barbed wire fence with what appeared to be guard dogs patrolling the grounds. There was a man at the security booth in front of the gates and some men and women walking around the grounds or even on top of the storage containers.

  Lo waved at the guard in the booth who hit a button and the gate slid open. We drove through, Lo parking off toward the side and hopping out, banging her hand on the hood as she did which I took to mean: come on. I grabbed my bag and climbed out.

  "Leo," she called to one of the men, reaching over and ripping the prescription out of my hands. "Need this filled," she told him and he nodded and moved away. "Alright, let's go get you settled in," she said, giving me a small smile and leading me into the storage container to the front. I found in oh, say about two minutes, that the inside of Hailstorm was a giant maze full of dead-ends and half-empty rooms. We passed through an area with a normal, homey looking kitchen and living room, then through a barracks-style sleeping area, then finally into a room with a door with a glass cut-out. She opened it and let me step inside. "This is the sick room," she told me, gesturing toward the simple white-linen beds lined up. "The rest of us sleep in the barracks when we're here, but I figured you'd want more privacy than that. You'll have this room all to yourself. There's a bathroom back there with a shower. No one will come in here except Mike who might want to get a look at your stitches and make sure you're not getting sick or anything from the concussion and me to bring you food and stuff, though you're welcome to come out and eat with everyone else."

  I moved numbly over toward one of the beds, dropping my bag down beside it and sitting down, palms on my thighs.

  "You alright?" Lo asked, leaning against the wall by the door, arms crossing over her chest.

  "No," I said honestly.

  Lo simply nodded. "You will be," she said, turning and leaving me alone.

  She wasn't wrong about me dealing with stuff. Too much had happened too quickly. Ben died. I met Johnnie and learned things I never wanted to know about how Ben treated him. I found illegal drugs in my wall and fled everything comfortable and familiar to me to fall into Johnnie's lap, laying my baggage at his feet for him to pick up. And he did. He did that effortlessly. He did it like it was nothing. Then, I let him in. I let him in in every possible way and he was under my skin. Even then, I could feel him there. Then I got myself kidnapped. Kidnapped! By some crazy drug dealer who couldn't let his obsession with his dead-ex go. I got beat and tied to a wall. I got choked. I watched a man's head explode right in front of me. I got taken to a hospital, got poked and prodded, got questioned by the police, then got taken... somewhat against my will, to some kind of illegal military camp thing.

  On top of all that, I had my heart crushed. There was no denying it; that was what happened when Johnnie walked away from me. He took the heart I had unwittingly handed to him and he gave it back to me, even more bloodied and bruised than how it was when I handed it over in the first place.

  That, well, that was just a freaking lot to deal with.

  And everything hurt. Physically and emotionally, everything felt sore and exposed.

  I sighed, looking down at my clothes with their blood stains. Some of it I knew wasn't mine. Some of it belonged in Luis' skull, but it wasn't in his skull because his skull was busted open. I should have been horrified by that. I should have been disgusted and freaked. But I felt none of that. All I felt was a strange sort of calm. My problems were over. Just like that. One squeeze of a trigger and I was safe again. Johnnie gave me that.

  On a pained groan, I grabbed clothes out of my bag and made my way toward the bathroom Lo had pointed out. I turned on the shower and stripped out of my clothes, unraveling the bandages on my arms. The cuts there weren't that bad and even if they were, I didn't care. I wanted a shower. I wanted to wash that entire day away. So that was exactly what I did. I did this crying. No, not just crying. Big, ugly, snot crying. But I was alone, as promised, and I needed to get it out. Once I did, all evidence was washed down the drain. I got out and got into my jean shorts and a plain white tee and made my way back to my bed where I found a bottle of my pain medicine on the table beside it. I reached for it, shaking one into my palm despite having another four hours until I was due for another dose, throwing it back, and climbing into the bed. It would force me to sleep. If I slept, I would feel better.

  Or, at least, that was what I was hoping.

  --

  I woke up a long time later, so long later that the clawing hunger in my stomach was what eventually broke through the drug-induced numbness of sleep and woke me up. My eyes fluttered open to look at the artificial bar lights on the ceiling. Hailstorm, apparently, had no windows. I imagined that was some kind of safety measure, but it made it impossible to know what time it actually was. I rubbed the sleep out of my eyes before I realized I wasn't alone. Don't ask me how I knew, but I knew. It was in the feeling of eyes on me that I swore made the hairs on my arms stand on end. My eyes flew from the ceiling to find four sets of eyes on me.

  One set belonged to Lo, her brown eyes giving nothing away. Another set belonged to a younger woman with dark hair and tattoos, her light blue eyes somehow feeling like they were piercing through me. There was another set of familiar brown eyes on a woman with delicate, perfect doll-like features, the woman from Ben's apartment in Alabama. The last set belonged to a redhead with freckles who seemed softer, more open than the others.

  "What the heck..." I started, shooting up in bed, ignoring the stabbing in my temple at the sudden movement.

  "It's alright," Lo said, holding up a hand. "This is Janie," she said, gesturing to the skinny girl with tattoos. "She's Wolf's woman. And that is Alex, who is..."

  "Breaker's woman," I said, remembering him talking about her. "You and Janie are hackers."

  "Yeah. And I didn't fuck Shooter," Alex told me bluntly. "I know he told you, but I wanted to tell you too. Just so we are all clear."

  I felt myself nod.

  "And I'm Summer," the redhead said, giving me a smile. "I'm..."

  "Cash's brother, Reign's, woman. You didn't know it, but you grew up in a criminal empire," I recalled.

  She gave Lo a look then laughed at me. "Yeah, that'd be me. I see Shooter's been talking."

  "I think he was trying to make me think I could fit in with all of you," I said with a shrug. "Not that it matters anymore."

  "Well, see," Lo said, smiling a little, "that's why we are here."

  "But not before we made a visit to Shoot," Janie said, giving me a smirk. "Just to check."

  "Check what?"

  "Well, see. Yesterday, Lo wouldn't let Shoot be involved with your rescue mission thing," she said, drawing my full attention. "She said he was too hot. He wouldn't have his head on straight. She wasn't wrong and she had some of our guys hold him back."

  "I don't understand. He was the one who..."

  "Made Luis' head explode like a Pinata at a birthday party?" Janie asked with a laugh. "Yeah, that was him. I kinda... helped him get free. See, I knew he was too hot to go in, but there's nothing that can shake his calm when he's got a scope and a trigger. I figured you would be safer with him on that roof, just in case."

  "Disobeying a direct order," Lo said at her, attempting a firm tone, but her lips were twitching. They had a strange mother/daughter or older sister/ younger sister dynamic.

&n
bsp; "Yeah, well, it was a dumb order and you fucking know it," Janie said, shrugging a dainty shoulder. "Anyway, I was pretty sure right then what he was feeling but then him being a dickhead and dumping you at the hospital before you even got patched up? Yeah, that was not cool. So we needed to investigate."

  "Investigate what?"

  "We wanted to see if he was just being an asshole," Alex cut in, "which is not like him," she said in a way that I knew she knew him well. "He might be a lot of things, but he's a good guy and he has never been that big of a fuckhead toward a woman. Actually, he's been nothing but amazing to the women around him, even the ones who key his car or whatever when they realize he's not the settling down type. So this wasn't like him."

  "What they're trying to say," Summer broke in, smiling a little, "in their very roundabout way is... we wanted to see why he left you like that. So we went over to his apartment."

  "And?" I asked, despite knowing I should just tell them to leave it be. It was over. He told me himself.

  "And he was a wreck," Lo said with an inappropriate, huge smile.

  "A wreck?"

  "Yeah, it was fantastic," she added.

  Janie rolled her eyes. "Lo is a hopeless romantic. She gets her jollies off on this kind of thing. Anyway, he was there with Breaker and the rest of our men... staring at the wall all doom and gloom. And, well, you know Shooter. He's not a doom and gloom guy. So we kinda had our answer."

  "What answer? Actually, what was even the question?"

  "The question was 'why did he dump you'," Alex answered.

  "And the answer is because he loves you," Lo said and the words felt like a hit to my solar plexus.

  No.

  Absolutely freaking not.

  I wasn't going to let myself believe that, no matter how much I wanted to.

  I shook my head at them and watched, with a small tug of amusement as all four of their heads started nodding at me at once. "Look, I know you guys are trying to help, but trust me, he doesn't love me."

  "He loves you enough to let you go, Amelia," Summer said in that sing-song voice of hers. "We all have men who love us. And, I know you don't know them that well, but trust me, it's with a sort of fierceness that is borderline brutal. But not one of them was willing to let us go. No matter how dangerous their lifestyle and, trust me, what Breaker and Wolf and Reign have gotten into makes what Shooter's done look like child's play. His life is relatively safe compared to the rest of them because he's so detached from his jobs, doing them from such a distance. But even so, he didn't want to drag you into it. He thinks that highly of you that he wants better for you."

  "Look," Lo said, her voice serious. "I've known a lot of men. I work with them. I employ them. I've chosen bad ones. And I have a good one. Let me tell you, I met Shooter and within minutes, minutes Amy, I knew that he had the potential to love someone like nothing I've ever seen before. He has a huge heart and he's given little pieces of it to us and our men, but there's so much left. I've never seen him so much as offer a chip of it to the women he has dated, but honey, let me tell you... the way he looked last night... he gave what was left to you. Him letting you go, that was his way of showing you how much he loves you. It was a stupid-man thing to do, but he felt it was right. Don't do a stupid-woman thing and let him slip away because of your pride."

  "This is nice and all of you guys," I said, the urge to get up and pace making me feel antsy. It was sweet and all that they came by to try to pep-talk me, but really, they had no idea what they were talking about. "But you don't know much about what has gone on with us. I've only known him like... I don't know... a week or something. You don't fall for someone in a week."

  "Really?" Summer asked, a weird smile on her face. "I was under the impression that love happens when it happens. I'm pretty sure there are no rules for when it has to happen, how long you need to spend with someone before you can claim you love someone."

  "Took Cash a year to get in. But I fell for him in a moment."

  "Knew Wolf for a year too. Took me just a second to fall though."

  My eyes drifted to Alex, figuring they were all going to spill their stories. "Oh, Breaker kidnapped me," she said with a shrug. "We got together kinda fast. I knew by the end of the first week I loved him, but I didn't tell him for like... half a year."

  "She's stubborn," Lo said with an eye roll.

  "Summer fell for Reign in like two weeks," Janie supplied, waving a hand. "But what we're saying is... love doesn't always creep up on you slow and steady as you share stupid shit about your childhood or why you hate avocados or whatever. Love is just that second when you feel it click, you know?" I did know. I knew that moment. And the scary thing? It was the second Johnnie walked into my apartment and told me he got me. But that was just... crazy. That wasn't love. That was... well hell. I didn't know what that was. But it couldn't have been love. I didn't know him at all. "I don't know if you believe in soulmates or if they exist or any of that cheesy bullshit," Janie said with an eye roll, "but it's like that. A part of you just... gets that other person."

  Well then.

  "Just saying... don't dismiss what you're feeling because someone told you it's too soon," Alex said.

  "Even if that someone is you," Summer said with a knowing smile.

  "I don't understand why you guys are here..." I said, needing to change the topic before they gave me any more hope. I couldn't take that.

  They exchanged looks and Janie shrugged. "I think you kinda get that we are all kinda stuck inside this huge boy's club between the guys here at Hailstorm and all the bikers at The Henchmen compound and all that... we girls need to stick together."

  I felt a smile tug at my lips despite myself. "So you're like... trying to recruit me into your... girl's club?"

  "We're just showing you that you'll be in good company when you get your head out of your ass and get Shooter back," Janie said with a smile. She was... blunt to say the least. I kind of liked that. You knew exactly where she stood. "I know I can speak for myself and say I'm a badass bitch to have as a friend. And Lo is like... queen of the badasses. Alex is like an anti-social badass and Summer, well... you can't trust her with an automatic weapon, but she bore the offspring of a biker leader so that goes without saying that she's a badass too."

  I shook my head, smiling a little sadly. "That's nice but... I don't see how I'd fit in. I'm not really a... badass or anything like that."

  "Honey, you got Shooter by the balls," Lo said with a smirk. "If that isn't badass, I don't know what is."

  "Yeah but I'm not like... a hacker or a like... a leader or..."

  "Amy," Summer said with a head shake, "right now I am just a glorified milk machine," she said, gesturing toward her chest. "But I'm still badass. Just... don't second-guess your position in Shooter's life because you think you don't fit in with us. The fact that one of our guys fell for you is proof enough that you're awesome. Because they're friggen great guys and they don't fall for just anyone."

  I let out a long breath, pulling my legs up and sitting cross-legged. "You guys are forgetting one thing. Even if I did decide, and that's a big if, that I wanted to be with Johnnie, he dumped me."

  "Oh, pshh," Lo said, waving a hand. "That's the easy part."

  "In what universe is that the easy part?"

  "In the girl universe," Janie said, shaking her head like I was being silly. "You realize guys like tits and ass and pussy, right? And you realize that you know... you have those things."

  "You think I can just... seduce him into wanting me again?"

  "Well, yes and no," Summer said.

  "Okay," Alex cut in, sounding like she was ready to lay it out without all the runaround. "Shoot has a job in two days. He'll be gone for four or five days . We're saying you go and settle in, make yourself at home. Move some of your stuff in. Show him that you are not going anywhere, that you belong in his life."

  "Move my stuff in?" I asked, feeling my head start to spin.

  "It's already on it
s way," Lo said, drawing my attention. At my look of shock, she smiled. "Well, Shoot had me send guys down there to investigate. I made a call a few hours ago and they packed up your shit and are driving back with it. Hang up your pictures. Put your clothes in his closet. Stock his pitifully bare cabinets. Get cozy. He'll see it and he'll see how much he wants that, wants you there, wants you in his life."

  "You guys can't be serious," I said, shaking my head at them. The plan was just so... over the top. It was ridiculous. But still... was it worth a shot? My stuff was apparently on the way anyway.

  "Oh, we're serious. And we will all be there, watching our men get nice and sweaty hauling your shit up to his apartment. Oh yeah," Janie said, closing her eyes at the image.

  "The guys know about this?" I asked, not able to hide my surprise.

  "How'd you think we got the idea?" Alex asked, smiling for the first time.

  "Seriously?"

  "Yeah well... they all kinda fell for us when we were forced to live with them because of, well, the crazy shit we had going on around us," Janie explained. "So I guess they think that has something to do with it. Breaker coughed up the info about his job. He will also let us into his place. It's all set up. So the day after tomorrow, you move in. Then the second you get him back, you need to call us. I don't care if you have to call us mid-fuck, we need to hear from you," Janie demanded.

  "Um..." I wasn't going to agree to it. The plan was stupid. It was worse than stupid. It actually made no kind of rational sense. But still...

  "Look, what's left for you in Alabama anyway?" Lo asked in a way that suggested she knew there was nothing for me there except work. "Up here, honey, you have us at least. I mean I know you don't really know us. But you will and you'll like us. We're good people. Even if, by some twist of fate that makes no damn sense at all, you and Shoot don't work out... we'll still be here for you. Isn't that better than what you had down in bumfuck nowhere?"