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by Brooks Haxton


  had sunk the bottom deep enough to please him,

  when masons had dressed the face of the levee

  for show with a stone wall high as a two-story house,

  when the water rose, and the fishery stocked it

  with yearlings in good health, a few days later,

  the trout were already slow, and a cormorant came

  to fish beside the dam. The mall tycoon keeps

  weakening with age, and now his trout are failing him.

  But the dam he built will outlast everyone living.

  Bananas

  A monkey with the muttonchops and lips

  of Henrik Ibsen barked, and creatures

  on the forest floor stood still to sniff

  and listen. There, a traveler might pick,

  according to Jules Verne, a fruit “healthy

  as bread and succulent as cream.” Buddha

  ate bananas in that realm. And Jesus

  would have loved them, if he lived nearby,

  or later. Muhammad with his wisdom

  brought about the great diffusion of bananas

  west, into the Andalusian caliphate where Berbers

  ate black figs. Experts say, banana, Spanish,

  comes from Portuguese, from Wolof

  slave merchants who got it from the Berbers’

  Arabic, banaana, meaning finger. They

  don’t know. Fine tailors made kimonos

  for the summer heat from fabric woven

  of the softest, innermost banana leaf. Bashō

  wore bashofu, one student says, and wrote

  while kneeling on a carpet of banana silk.

  After United Fruit made sweet bananas

  cheap and plentiful, former rabbi Eli Black

  acquired the company and paid his workers,

  in good conscience, six times more,

  but when the company, and then his conscience,

  and then bribes and tax schemes, failed,

  he took his briefcase, bashed the window

  from an office forty-four floors up,

  and threw his papers and himself

  out of the New York skyline into the street.

  The Moons of Jupiter

  My wife and I looked after they found one

  about the size of Hawaii, and a smaller one

  shaped like a russet potato with craters

  for eyes, not that we saw them. What we saw

  was the neighborhood where we lived, lit

  by streetlights in the rain. My wife said

  Patsy Cline had fallen out of a sky like that

  in Tennessee years earlier. A pilot

  with too little training thought he could fly her

  home in a storm. Jupiter has one old storm

  about the size of Alaska, and seventy-nine moons,

  most with a surface area less than that of the state

  park in Topanga Canyon. Two of the four moons

  Galileo saw have crusts of ice with oceans

  underneath. Mountain lions live in Topanga

  Canyon, inside the city limits of LA. Unusual

  salamanders live there too. Nobody knows

  what lives in the ocean under the ice

  on Europa. Nothing would be my guess.

  Don’t Get Me Wrong

  In praise of George Starbuck and his poem “Of Late”

  My younger colleague told me, when I praised the poem

  of a dead white man, that this was microaggression.

  I tried to explain that the poem protested aggression too,

  during the war in Vietnam. By bashing McNamara,

  then the secretary of defense, the poem advocated peace.

  My colleague said he advocated peace by bashing me.

  Differences in scale and point of view may be deceptive.

  Gamma rays, for example, with a wavelength of one

  micromicron, leave an infinitesimal fleck in photographs

  of space where a star far larger than most exploded

  light-years from the Milky Way. The Milky Way

  from out there is another fleck, adrift in the limitless

  dark with galaxies flung in all directions, each

  at its core having crushed into a pinhole several

  million times the mass of the Sun. When power

  bears down, things get full of themselves sometimes

  and send out bad vibes everywhere. One gamma burst

  nearby, according to professors in Kansas, killed

  most living things on Earth. But that was before

  what we call consciousness, when living things

  were small, and nobody cared. Lately, hydrogen

  bombs make bad vibes too, and the atoms

  are only a few gamma wavelengths across.

  The poem about the war maintains that dropping

  napalm on an innocent civilian is no less wrong

  when you call your target the enemy aggressor.

  My colleague and I agree. What we’ve got here,

  Cool Hand Luke reminded the Walking Boss

  (who promptly shot him dead), is a failure

  to communicate. The poem blames smug

  white men for bombing people said to be less

  white, though it doesn’t mention gender or the color

  of anyone’s skin. I met the poet in an elevator

  when I was a mailboy where he taught, and his skin

  had that pink tone of Angora cat lips, slightly muted.

  The dazzle in his mind, prodigious then, is gone.

  But poems of his, if you care to read them, come alive.

  Tracks Everywhere at Noon

  Where a bobcat leapt across the vanishing

  rafter of prints from a turkey tom

  with jakes and hens, to look

  at the tracks and picture the animals

  in the act of leaving them took me

  out of myself as a boy, the way it did

  to walk out waist deep into the River.

  Hidden in all that water from woods

  and fields in thirty states one drop,

  I was thinking, might have melted weeks back

  under a marmot asleep on the ice

  near Three Forks, and that one drop might

  in another month glide over the blacktip fin

  of a shark downstream across the Gulf.

  Almost everything was hidden: eels

  in the cool dark underwater at noon

  with spoonbill catfish, and snapping turtles

  bigger and older than I would ever be.

  Behind the blue there had to be planets,

  thousands, with living creatures I could never

  imagine, and clusters of stars afloat on the surge

  of nothing out of nowhere. The current

  where I stood in the full noon sun felt cool

  on my legs and hands, a mile wide,

  moving steadily as the River of Heaven,

  which (fifty years later) landed me here

  on the solid ice of a big pond with a dog

  we brought home cowering from the pound.

  So here she went now, after a few months free

  from harm, galloping into the blizzard at noon,

  springing into the drifts, beside herself to smell

  tracks everywhere, crisscross, filled with snow.

  The Bewilderment

  My friend in high school said, God

  love her, Yes, and there was nookie,

  and we saw that it was
good. And lay

  bewildered on a sandbar which the River

  washed into the Gulf. And in her brother’s

  treehouse, which was broken, as were we.

  We said goodbye, and in another world

  I walked out onto the rubble of Our Lady

  of the Caves and Beasts in Ephesus.

  Where a patchwork column stands

  I stood. And dreamed. And met a college girl

  with whom I shared hashish, and crabs.

  She wanted to be the one on top, and it was

  nookie prelapsarian as light in heaven.

  Later, in the Rust Belt, in a heat wave,

  God’s apocalyptic messenger downtown

  kept shouting: Torment is eternal

  and the Lake of Fire awaits. I looked him

  in the eye and fell through helpless.

  But my friend in vinyl platform pumps

  with six-inch heels reached after me.

  She took me by the hand, and led me home.

  According to a book my father gave me,

  nookie names a woman’s tender part

  or person with “a kind of baby talk…

  almost polite,” and in more recent use

  it names the love between two men,

  the tenderness that follows after a kiss,

  a touch, a nibble in the kitchen while we cook,

  an act which state laws meltingly approve.

  As did my father, and as Jesus must have done

  at supper, when he took John to his bosom.

  Also John, who wrote this. And the John

  who said in First John, “God is

  love.” And Wild John, I would guess,

  who ate his locusts dipped in honey

  and felt glad to hear the Bridegroom’s voice.

  But as for the John who said that locusts

  sting like scorpions, so that the men stung

  writhe in pain for days until they seek

  the balm of death, though death flees,

  and the men for five months pine away,

  they fall in their bewilderment,

  and in the dust they see the stinging

  locusts with thoraxes like torsos

  of blood horses dressed for battle,

  and with gold crowns on their heads,

  their faces like men’s faces,

  but with women’s hair, and teeth

  the teeth of lions: John, alone on Patmos,

  saw this: he was pining for God’s love.

  To the Moon

  After I thumbed a ride I saw you

  in the passenger window, more

  than a crescent, almost half.

  It was getting dark, and a voice

  on the car radio was reporting

  that Neil Armstrong had stepped

  onto the Sea of Tranquility.

  He was walking there in the dust.

  Five times more, men visited,

  two at a time. Some of them

  lowered Moon buggies out of a bay

  in the side of the lander. These

  they unfolded and took for a spin.

  Flower children of my generation

  thought that the men were middle-aged,

  and they were, but they were children too.

  They left Moon buggies in your lap.

  I wanted to tell you last year,

  when I saw you in the bare limbs

  at your narrowest crescent

  next to the Morning Star,

  and just this fall when you were large

  and bright as I had ever seen:

  to consider you in the night sky is

  to release the mind more deeply into itself.

  If Earth is alive, you were alive

  when these men lived on you.

  When they left you died,

  and they plunged living into the sea.

  Transit of Venus, 1882

  Known for unruly auburn hair

  and a dark look and the moody

  talk only his sister took to heart,

  he felt urgency was a virtue.

  But when he proposed to his sister’s friend,

  she wanted him to join the church,

  and after he settled into the practice of law,

  finally, when she said I do, what he wanted

  on their wedding night went nowhere.

  *

  A junco nesting just outside flew

  at her own reflection, skull first

  thumping into the glass,

  over and over every day.

  The lady of the house made plans

  for a luncheon and for whist.

  The counselor walked for miles

  in the woods around the lake.

  She had not wanted him,

  she did not, and she never would.

  *

  More and more in the face of his wife

  at fifty, entertaining guests,

  he saw the smile of her father

  the barkeep, dead from drink.

  A young astronomer told their friends

  scattering light waves in thin air

  tinted the clear sky blue.

  *

  The counselor’s son at twenty

  taught the astronomer’s wife a step

  they called the Hesitation Waltz. He let it be

  known he found her irresistible as a flirt,

  and dance lessons ended in a parting of ways.

  *

  But the counselor, who was her father’s age,

  kept taking her on carriage rides in the country.

  He brought her to play and sing for his sisters,

  the way she learned at the Conservatory in Boston.

  The sisters, both of them single, pitied him

  in his marriage, and after she sang they let him know

  they approved…though one of them

  listened only from her room upstairs.

  The following day he spoke as he said he must,

  pausing outside the gate, and he saw, when he spoke,

  she hesitated before she looked away.

  *

  Within a month her husband had left

  on an expedition to California

  where he wrote in his diary

  about the transit of Venus photographed

  from an observatory on the Pacific,

  “We saw things as plain as was ever seen

  with any glass in the world.”

  His wife, meanwhile, explored

  the December woods near home

  in the company of the older man.

  *

  Within a year the counselor’s youngest,

  eight years old, contracted a fever. This

  was the boy who had returned his father’s

  affection always, often it seemed

  when there was no one else.

  *

  Having buried his son, he lay in bed

  with malaria for a week, shivering, sweating,

  begging forgiveness from the dead.

  When he appeared again in public

  he wore the wig he had worn for years,

  with the unruly auburn hair of his youth,

  but under the pallor of illness and age

  in his face there was a wound past healing.

  *

  The astronomer and his wife

  decided together, it was time:

  she took the older ma
n as her lover

  now in the elegant dining room

  of the house where he was born,

  his wife asleep in the house next door,

  the sisters quiet in their beds upstairs.

  *

  For years to come, after observing the stars,

  the husband home at daybreak

  would whistle a tune from a comic opera

  to let the lovers know he had arrived.

  *

  The astronomer’s wife had forgiven him

  his affairs, not that he would ever change

  or repent. But he came home. He built

  a fire. He laid out pillows by the hearth.

  He led her there, and knelt,

  and spoke while he undressed her.

  *

  At first, to relieve the uneasiness in her mind

  she needed devotion from her husband.

  And later, more, from her lover. She needed

  to search the tenderness in their hands,

  their mouths, the urgency in the face of one,

  and then of the other, often that same day.

  The two men, meanwhile, had become good friends.

  *

  Because the dance lessons ended in a parting of ways,

  the eldest reported everything to his mother.

  It was a secret everyone everywhere knew.

  Her sisters-in-law had known

  in advance. The congregation

  knew, faculty, faculty wives.

  Her neighbors’ servants knew.

  Shopkeepers. Judges. Deans.

  *

  In the year of mourning for their son

  endless arguments led nowhere.

  He was a man of the law. Pleading,

  with him, was even more useless than tears.

  When she suggested renovating the house,

  and he objected to the expense, she wheeled

  to rip at the wallpaper with her hands.

  When she threw a kitchen knife

  at his heart, what surprised her

  least was her revulsion,

  seeing him walk away.

  *

  Her well-known evenings now

  became a travesty for gawkers.

  She, the unloved wife, must

  drunkenly play herself.

  *

  For years, even on days he planned

  to spend the night in his neighbor’s arms,

 

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