Until The Stars Fall: A Just The Way You Are Novel

by Kade, Abigail

“I trust you with my life, Connor McDaniel. You’re right, about everything. We might have only had one official date, but if we’re both honest, we’ve been dancing around this relationship for weeks now. You’ve become a good friend in that time, more than a good friend. You’ve met my family and my friends, and you didn’t run away screaming.” He laughed, and I loved the deep rumble as it vibrated through my chest pressed up against his own.

  “I like you so much, maybe more than like, but more important than all of that, I trust you. I’ve never in my life told anyone I’ve ever dated those words. I don’t trust easily, but you’ve shown me more devotion and care in the last few weeks than all of my past relationships combined. I would be a fool to turn away from you.”

  I finally let go of his hand and lifted that hand up to cradle his head in both of my palms. I licked my lips and said, “So the answer to your question is yes. Yes, to all of it. I want to know what your gentle control will feel like. I want to be able to feel and not have to think.” I stood on my tip toes and slid my tongue followed by my teeth up his neck. “I want to feel your hands on my naked body, sliding in our combined sweat. I want to smell you, taste you and feel you so deep inside me, I’ll never forget I’m yours.” His breathing was almost a pant now, but he remained still as I explored him thoroughly. He could have been in shock for all I knew, but I hoped he’d snap out of it soon.

  I unbuttoned his shirt following each button with my lips down his abdomen. As I moved lower, I saw that Connor had been keeping a secret as I slowly revealed the tattoo that took up almost his entire upper torso. It was the most stunning dragon, its wings swept under his defined pecs in swaths of crimsons, violets, and fiery oranges in a mixture of feathers and scales that was at once reminiscent of a dragon and a phoenix together as one. The neck snaked through the valley of his chest up toward his neck before gracefully curving to rest right above his heart, its bright blue eyes staring back at me. The entire piece was a work of art, but those eyes at that moment saw into my soul, daring me to harm the man it guarded with its fire, teeth, and claws. I was drawn to this magnificent creature, so I reverently placed a kiss on the dragon’s head. Connor silently watched me, his hands gripping my hips now, tightening and loosening in a steady beat I recognized and loved. I drew my eyes up to meet his and smiled at his lust filled gaze. We were building up to something now, and there was no turning back for either of us.

  After I’d gotten his shirt undone and pulled from his jeans, I slid it off his shoulders and down to the floor, kissing my way across his chest and latching onto one of his tight brown nipples, sucking it and then biting lightly. He moaned long and loud with pleasure as I continued to taste one and then the other, back and forth. Sensitive nipples, good to know.

  His smell was intoxicating as I dragged my nose back and forth across his chest. He smelled of soap, clean sweat, and Connor. All of a sudden, I was taken even further out of my mind by the feel, taste, and scent of him and I needed more. I trailed my kisses up his side, lifted his arm and buried my nose into his armpit. The musky smell of my man hit me in the balls, and I couldn’t get enough. I burrowed into his hair and then licked a stripe all the way up to his arm, repeating the motion over and over.

  “Goddammit, that feels fucking amazing.” His accent was even thicker now. “Do you like the way I smell and taste, my Laddy?” Connor said in his Scottish brogue, and Jesus, Mary, and Joseph I nearly came from him calling me that. It was an immediate visceral response, and I shot my head back to catch his eyes, knowing my pupils were probably blown and my cheeks flushed with desire. I looked wanton and ready to be fucked. And damned if I wasn’t. So. Fucking. Ready.

  “Say it again, Conn. Call me yours. Call me your Laddy. God, that’s so fucking hot. I want to be yours, right here and right now. Make me stop thinking, Conn, and make me feel only you.”

  I somehow knew that if he took me up on this, neither one of us would ever be the same, and I was completely all right with that.

  Chapter Twelve

  I had been on yet another rollercoaster of emotions with Ladd tonight, but I was loving where we were heading. I had been so scared when he hadn’t answered me right away. I’d thought I’d stepped over the line and ruined my chances. But I had been so very wrong. Ladd and I were finally on the same page, and it was about to get interesting.

  “Come here, Laddy, I’m thinking I need a kiss.”

  Ladd’s breath hitched, and he immediately sidled up to me and leaned against me as if asking for permission. He recognized that we were starting down a new path now, different than the one we had been on a moment before.

  “You can touch me, boy, whenever and wherever you like unless I tell you otherwise. I want you to enjoy this just as much as I do and in every way possible.” I grabbed him roughly by the hips and pulled him into me, grinding my already hardened cock against his belly. Ladd reached up then and laced his arms around my neck and proceeded to attack my mouth with his own. We just stood there for a long time grinding against each other and kissing until I decided I needed more, a hell of a lot more.

  I reached down and roughly grabbed Ladd’s little ass cheeks and picked him up. His legs went automatically around my waist, and he grabbed a strong hold around my neck and lowered himself to grind his cock against mine. “Fuck yeah, Laddy, climb me like a tree!” He groaned when I called him Laddy, so I decided to keep going on that same track and see what else he liked. “You wanna be my Laddy, boy? Want me to take care of you?” He groaned and nodded his head still kissing along my neck, my shoulder, anywhere he could reach. I let go and dropped him to his feet without warning, then roughly pushed him down to his knees. “You think too much on your own don’t you, my Laddy? You need me to tell you what to do, don’t you, my boy?” He looked up from his place on his knees, and I saw his pupils were completely blown. He loved this, and I was going to show him how good it could be.

  I opened my pants and let them fall, then kicked them off completely while Ladd knelt before me staring at my groin in rapt attention. When my pants and socks were off, I was left standing before him in just my underwear. He was gazing up at me like I was his greatest wish come to life. Without a thought, I grabbed him by the back of the head and pulled him into me. “Show how much you want me, Laddy. Show me how much you want my cock, boy.”

  Ladd let out a faint, “Fuck yeah, I want it so much.” Then grunted a little whine from the back of his throat as he leaned in and mouthed my cock through the fabric. Fucking hell, it was a sight to behold. Ladd ran his tongue along the cotton, following my dick from root to tip over and over again. Then he began gently mouthing along the length just hard enough for me to feel the wicked pressure of his lips and teeth. The fabric became soaked with spit and stuck to my skin making it feel that much more amazing each time he licked over it. After a few minutes of that exquisite torture, I grabbed his hair in one hand and pulled him back as I used the other to pull my boxer briefs down just enough to tuck under my sack and take myself in hand. With my left hand still in Ladd’s gorgeous hair, I yanked his head until his neck angled perfectly. Ladd’s eyes never left my cock and he licked his lower lip as a stream of precum began to drip from my tip. I pulled his head closer and allowed the stream to land on his chin, close enough for him to see, but not close enough to taste.

  He let out a little whimper when he realized what I’d done, and I laughed, “You’ll have to earn my cum, boy. What do you think you’re going to have to do to show me you deserve it?”

  He looked up then, eyes meeting mine, “I can beg for you. I can beg so sweet. Please, Connor, may I taste your cum? I want to know what you taste like. I’ve wondered for weeks what you would smell and taste like. Please let me please you.”

  Jesus Christ, I almost came when he talked like that. What the fuck were we doing here? I looked down at his pleading eyes and decided to think about it later. Ladd was completely one hundred percent into what we were doing, and I was, too. How could I say no to such a sweet r
equest? “That’s a good boy, Laddy. You beg so pretty. I’ll let you do more than lick some precum though. I’ll let you swallow a whole load.” And with that, I shoved my shaft into his mouth. He moaned around my thick cock, and I nearly passed out from the intense wet warmth that enveloped me. I pulled back out just as quickly as I’d pressed in, and he whimpered his protest. “Not so fast, everything in good time. I want you to strip for me. I want to see your pretty cock while you take care of me.”

  He stayed on his knees and stripped by shimmying sideways a few times to get his legs out of his tight pants and underwear. He began to take off his tie, and I stopped him. “Leave the tie. I want you naked, but I want the tie to stay.”

  He looked up at me through his lashes and with a mischievous smirk he gave me a sassy, “Your wish is my command.” He managed to get his shirt off with the tie staying more or less tied around his neck.

  Once he got back on his knees, he leaned his head into my crotch and began nuzzling. He pressed his nose against my hair, my balls and even lower. I grabbed his head again and pulled him in tighter so he could bury himself in my scent. His breath on my balls was delicious, but I needed more. “Strip me down, boy, I want to feel all of you up against my skin.” He pulled my briefs down, threw them to the side, then he returned all in one quick motion. He loved it so much he started moaning and nuzzling deeper to cover his face in the smell of my sweat. I was noticing smell was a huge turn on for him.

  At this point he had me so hard, I had to take myself in hand to relieve some of the pressure. I gripped my cock tight, just under the head, and could only stand two tugs before letting go. As I released it, Ladd began to deliver long wet licks to my balls alternating the licks with more sweet nuzzles. Without warning, he took one all the way into his mouth and began to suck. “Fucking hell that feels amazing.” Leaning my head back, eyes closed, I let myself enjoy the overwhelming sensation. I fucking loved having my balls sucked.

  Ladd let the sack go with a loud pop, then made his way to my cock. I looked down at him, and he met my eyes as he used his pink tongue to draw a line from the base of my cock following the thick vein all the way to the tip. Never losing eye contact, he opened his beautiful mouth and took me in all the way to the root and started a rhythmic sucking. “Oh, fuck, fucking hell, oh God, so good.” I was babbling, but I couldn’t help it. I was lost in the most amazing feeling I had ever experienced. No one had ever been able to take me all the way before. His throat hugged my tip like a glove, and his tongue licked a fast and sensuous rhythm on my most sensitive area under the tip. He was working me like a porn star, and it felt fucking fantastic.

  I grabbed his hair with a hard grip, knowing that it would sting. He moaned around my cock, and my eyes rolled back in my skull as the vibration added to the warm suction he was giving me. He reached down between his legs and started jacking himself off, but I couldn’t have that. That cock was mine. “Hands off your cock, Laddy, that pretty pink dick is mine to play with. As soon as you take care of me, I’ll see to you, if you’ve been a good boy and pleased me.” He glanced up to see if I was serious. I nodded, and he reluctantly let go of his cock, then brought both hands up to my balls and started working me hard. His head was bobbing and sucking while one hand was gripping and pulling my balls.

  I was getting close, and I could feel everything tightening up. I was almost there when I felt Ladd reach his middle finger, wet from his spit dripping from my cock, back to my hole. Then with one swift move, he slid his finger in up to the first knuckle as he took my shaft all the way into his throat and swallowed around it. That was all it took. I grunted, “Fuck I’m coming!” Then I grabbed his head with both hands as I emptied myself down his throat. It seemed to go on forever, but once I had finished, Ladd still continued to work me with his mouth, licking me clean and not missing one drop. He let me go, licked his lips, then stood up. Roughly grabbing me around the neck, Ladd yanked my head down to meet his kiss, letting me taste myself on his tongue. It was the hottest, filthiest thing I had ever done with someone. I fucking loved it.

  We both hummed our excitement as we continued to kiss long and deep for several minutes. Eventually, the kisses were less urgent and more languid. Tasting and sliding over lips, tongues, and teeth. I reached down and grabbed his ass enjoying the feel of the firm cheeks filling my hands. I played with his cheeks as we stood there, kneading and spreading them. On impulse, I lay a heavy slap to one cheek and enjoyed feeling it jiggle. I wasn’t sure what to expect, but Ladd went wild in my arms. He broke the kiss and yelled, “God, yeah, please spank me! It feels so good.” I slapped his other cheek, and he threw his head back and groaned his pleasure. Well, fuck, that was unexpected.

  I reached both of my hands around his ass and roughly hauled him up against me, and again he threw his legs around my waist causing our cocks to rub deliciously against each other. I had just come and was a little sensitive, but I was making a valiant effort to recover. I needed to get some clarification on where we were going with this tonight before I went any farther, so I carried him over to the sofa and sat with him straddling my legs. “Ladd, I need to take care of you, but I need to know what your limits are. I wasn’t expecting to go this fast tonight, and we haven’t talked about anything specific. I need to know what you need and want before I go any farther.”

  He looked me deep in the eyes and for the second time bared himself to me completely. “Conn, I want to feel your teeth on my skin, your mouth on my cock. I want to feel your slap on my ass so hard I feel the sting in my balls. I want to feel your fingers stretch me, and I want your cock so deep in my ass I can taste it tomorrow morning. You can do as little or as much as you want to me. Just take me out of my head and make me feel. I’m giving myself over to you and know that you’ll do what feels good and is best for me. I trust you, Connor. I trust you to make your Laddy feel so good he sees stars.” Then he leaned in and kissed me deep and hard. I was floored at the trust he was handing over to me. I treasured it, and I wouldn’t let him down.

  * * *

  Ladd

  Connor was giving me every single fantasy I’d ever had all in one night. I’d dreamed of giving up control, but I’d never found anyone I trusted enough to give it to them. With Connor, I had no worries. I intrinsically knew he had my best interests at heart. He’d proven he would protect me over and over again. Now all I had to do was sit back and follow his lead. The act of giving up my control to him had been the ultimate freedom. He would tell me what I needed to know or do, all I had to do was listen and follow and feel bliss like I’d never known.

  I’d never been spanked before, so my reaction had surprised me as much as it seemed to surprise Connor. And every time I heard him call me Laddy, I got harder, if that was even possible at this point. All I wanted to do was live in this moment and feel.

  Connor lifted me up slightly and licked around first one, then the other nipple. “I love these pink nipples. They’re so tight and hard. I wonder what they’d look like pierced.” My dick gave a jump at the idea, and I sucked in a breath. “Ah, someone likes that idea. Maybe we’ll go see about that one day. I can see you with some pretty silver hoops. I’d suck them in my mouth at night and play with them for hours. You might even learn to come with just my mouth on your nipples. Would you like that?”

  He leaned back in and gently bit my right nipple, and I groaned, “Oh, fuck yes, I would love that. Please?”

  “Please what? What do you need from me, my Laddy?”

  I wasn’t above begging or whining at this point. “I need your hands on me, please? Please stroke me and finger me. Make me feel the sting. I need to feel that sting for it to feel good.” I began rocking into him rubbing myself against his hard abs and leaving trails of precum all over his skin. I wasn’t sure if he understood what I was saying, but I shouldn’t have worried. He flipped me over in one move, and I found myself facing the back of the sofa, knees in the seat and ass sticking out. He moved in behind me and covered me with his much
bigger body. It was suffocating and secure all at the same time.

  He kissed up my back, one kiss, then another, following a slow meandering trail up my spine. I never knew where the next one would fall and I held my breath in anticipation. At last, he moved to my left ear, nuzzling into my hair and pulling my earlobe into his mouth for a small bite. I sucked in a sharp breath at the sting, then sighed as he licked the sting away. He whispered in my ear, “I’m going to go fast, Laddy. I’m not going to take it easy on you. This is for you and I’m going to make you see your stars. Now hold on as long as you can for me, the longer you wait, the better it’ll be.” With that, he shoved my head down into the seat cushion and proceeded to rock my fucking world.

  He licked all the way back down, traveling from my neck, down my side, until he finally reached my ass. He kissed both cheeks while he squeezed and separated them over and over, moving his thumbs closer and closer to my hole, but never touching. It was torture of the sweetest kind. I tried to move my ass to intercept his hands and got a sharp slap to my ass, “Don’t you dare fucking move, or I’ll stop now, and you’ll be hard all night. Is that what you want?” I didn’t answer right away because I wasn’t sure. If you waited a long time to come it was always better, so what would happen if you waited all night?

  Before I finished my thought process, Connor answered. “Oh, fuck yeah! We’ll revisit that another time. You want me to keep you hard all night and not let you come ‘til morning, boy? I could even cage that pretty cock and not let you come for days if you want.” I couldn’t contain the moan that escaped my throat. I felt it all the way to my dick. Fuck yeah, that sounded amazing.

  I whimpered a pitiful, “Please,” but I wasn’t sure what I was asking for. It didn’t matter though because I wasn’t the one in charge. It was Connor’s job to take me on this journey, and so far it was fucking amazing.