My Muse
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Christopher J. A. Saint Germain
Copyright 2013 Christopher J. A. Saint Germain
To Love Me
There’s no man, or woman in this world
Who wants to be truly alone
And I’d like to tell you
You’re the most beautiful girl that I have ever known
But you wouldn’t believe, you think I aim to deceive
Just so I can have my way
But I have to tell you, I have nothing to sell
Because it’s not worth the price that I would have to pay
I just want you to love me
Is that so much to ask?
And in the morning the ocean
Is still rockin’ and rollin’
And children still want to play
No lack of emotion
Or preconceived notion
If you leave or if you stay
Wrapped in my arms
I can keep you from harm
And let our cares slip away
Or you can set out on your own
And go it alone
With the memory of today
Love me
And you always say that you’re not good enough
But dammit who are you to judge?
Because you’re good enough for me
And that’s all you need to be
To love me
I Will Return
You know I’ve been in Virginia
But she wasn’t very kind
I forgave her for her violent past
And I tried to make her mine
But she took all of my money
And she tried to beat me down
And she left me for dead near a watershed
In a ditch on the dark side of town
But like a phoenix I am rising
And my morning sun still turns
And if you look my way
After the second day
I will return
I had a love affair with Needles
But that’s all over now
Although I know the air
Is much crisper there
And my vision seemed clearer somehow
And though the life is hard and lonely
I still miss it now and then
That quiet desert border town
Will beckon me again
And I watched as the flames arose
And that majestic hotel burned
And the doorman called out,
“You may be leaving for now...”
I know I will return
So you ask me why I’m crying
As my love flies away
I’ve seen her dark romantic side
And I’ve plead for her to stay
She blinds me with her magic
It seems I’ll never learn
If I lose my way, to her passion I pray...
I will return
The choir sings, “Hallelujah”
As the saints all turn away
And the cowards turn to run
So they can live to fight another day
The first becomes the last
The last falls to his knees to pray
And Moroni on his steeple
Picks up his horn and starts to play
Lie to Me
Lie to me
Make me believe
Pretend that you’re happy
But I see the grief
Weave your web of deception
Behind veiled eyes
You try to hide
But I see through your lies
Lies Lies Lies
Lie to me
Just one more day
Tell me you won’t ever
Lead me astray
Disguise your moods
And that look on your face
Just one more kiss
And you’ll cover the trace of your lies
Lies Lies Lies
I want to believe you
I honestly do
But I need you to tell me the truth
Lie to me
Pretend that it’s real
Forget that I
Can feel what you feel
One glimpse behind
Your porcelain facade
And I see through the shadows
That darken your heart
Lies
Who am I?
Who am I that I should write?
What right do I have to join those literary greats?
No special gift
No higher degree
Just a man
I work with my hands and strum the odd tune
My music and my collar is blue
But if I can communicate to you the things which I have seen
If I can draw you in and paint the scene
Like walking down Italian cobblestone streets
Or praying in the fertile crescent on bended knee
Experience was my teacher
And I have the urge, the desire
To share her lessons with you
And if you can accept the combined role of pupil and friend
Then together we will travel and learn
I will share my knowledge with you
And You?
You can share your joy with me
We Don’t Have Anything but Time
Promise was a tear
For promises remain unspoken
Truth it was a tear
For fear the truth remains unbroken
Love was a tear
For love was lost just like a token
Life was a tear
For what we could or could not hope in
Time slips away
You can not hold it in your grasp
As your hair turns gray
You realize what you have lost
To see another day
You do not have the right to ask
You ask it anyway
Afraid to face or pay the cost
Promise was a tear
For promises remain unspoken
Truth it was a tear
For fear the truth remains unbroken
Love was a tear
For love was lost just like a token
Life was a tear
For what we could or could not hope in
Choices
If I had to choose between wealth
Or convincing you to stay
Then I’d take you in my arms
And toss my riches away
If I had to choose between seeing your face one last time
Or the promise of a pain free death
Then I would live with the pain of goodbye
And the memory of your face until I drew my final breath
If I had to choose between heaven
Or the chance to hold you near
Then the choice is already made
Because my angel is here
But if I had to lie to win your love or be cruel
That is something I could never do
Because I can’t choose a life of lies
Or a love that is untrue
If I had to choose
Between being in love or being a fool
Then I guess I’m the fool
For being in love with you
Hallowed Halls
There is no beauty in this world
That can compare with the great beyond
Save maybe the occasional dawn
And the joy of innocent souls
Untempered by life
And unfettered by this world of scorn
The Internet and shopping malls
Are hallowed halls for hollow souls
It pains me to see those empty shells
And dark eyes filled with vitriol
The man who
sets himself on high
Is blind and doomed to take a fall
Thousands more look to the sky
But still refuse to hear the call
What difference can this one man make
With open heart and healing hands?
Walls of hope and denial
Built a maze around where he now stands
Amber
Amber is the color of her hair
She’s an angel come to me I swear
She’s got the bluest eyes I’ve ever seen
And when she’s sad they turn a little green
But when she turns those eyes my way
She sees through all the games I play
She makes me feel like it’s okay
To just be me
She’s vulnerable and she knows
She’s beautiful and it shows
She rises high above the pedestals
I’d follow anywhere she goes
Amber is the color of her hair
I’d follow that girl anywhere
But when she spreads her wings to fly
I am the Icarus and I can only try
She’s got true faith to guide her
I’d like to walk beside her
But there’s confusion in those eyes of blue
Angels don’t always know what to do
But when she turns those eyes my way
She sees through all the games I play
She makes me feel like it’s okay
To just be me
Carry Me Away
Carry me away
Lay me down in a field of green
Sew my heart together at the seams
You’re the only girl for me
Take me by the hand
Hold me close, help me understand
I don’t have to be afraid to be a man
You’ll never let me hurt again
Close your eyes
Hold me tight
And fly away with me tonight
Carry me away
Tell me that you’ll always stay
Teach me what it takes to be unafraid
Tell me that you’ll never run away
And when you’re scared take me by the hand
I only want you to understand
I’ll never let you hurt again
Close your eyes
Hold me tight
And fly away with me tonight
Fly Away Fly Away
She
Is just like Heaven to me
A beautiful dream that I see
When I close my eyes at night
But she’s
Always out of reach
And I don’t know if I’m willing
To make the sacrifice she needs
To bring her into my life
Or finally set her free
Fly away, little angel
Fly