Masters of the Novella

by Delphi Classics

  The flash of this knowledge — for it was knowledge in the midst of dread — produced in me the most extraordinary effect, started as I stood there, a sudden vibration of duty and courage. I say courage because I was beyond all doubt already far gone. I bounded straight out of the door again, reached that of the house, got, in an instant, upon the drive, and, passing along the terrace as fast as I could rush, turned a corner and came full in sight. But it was in sight of nothing now — my visitor had vanished. I stopped, I almost dropped, with the real relief of this; but I took in the whole scene — I gave him time to reappear. I call it time, but how long was it? I can’t speak to the purpose today of the duration of these things. That kind of measure must have left me: they couldn’t have lasted as they actually appeared to me to last. The terrace and the whole place, the lawn and the garden beyond it, all I could see of the park, were empty with a great emptiness. There were shrubberies and big trees, but I remember the clear assurance I felt that none of them concealed him. He was there or was not there: not there if I didn’t see him. I got hold of this; then, instinctively, instead of returning as I had come, went to the window. It was confusedly present to me that I ought to place myself where he had stood. I did so; I applied my face to the pane and looked, as he had looked, into the room. As if, at this moment, to show me exactly what his range had been, Mrs. Grose, as I had done for himself just before, came in from the hall. With this I had the full image of a repetition of what had already occurred. She saw me as I had seen my own visitant; she pulled up short as I had done; I gave her something of the shock that I had received. She turned white, and this made me ask myself if I had blanched as much. She stared, in short, and retreated on just MY lines, and I knew she had then passed out and come round to me and that I should presently meet her. I remained where I was, and while I waited I thought of more things than one. But there’s only one I take space to mention. I wondered why SHE should be scared.

  V

  Oh, she let me know as soon as, round the corner of the house, she loomed again into view. “What in the name of goodness is the matter — ?” She was now flushed and out of breath.

  I said nothing till she came quite near. “With me?” I must have made a wonderful face. “Do I show it?”

  “You’re as white as a sheet. You look awful.”

  I considered; I could meet on this, without scruple, any innocence. My need to respect the bloom of Mrs. Grose’s had dropped, without a rustle, from my shoulders, and if I wavered for the instant it was not with what I kept back. I put out my hand to her and she took it; I held her hard a little, liking to feel her close to me. There was a kind of support in the shy heave of her surprise. “You came for me for church, of course, but I can’t go.”

  “Has anything happened?”

  “Yes. You must know now. Did I look very queer?”

  “Through this window? Dreadful!”

  “Well,” I said, “I’ve been frightened.” Mrs. Grose’s eyes expressed plainly that SHE had no wish to be, yet also that she knew too well her place not to be ready to share with me any marked inconvenience. Oh, it was quite settled that she MUST share! “Just what you saw from the dining room a minute ago was the effect of that. What I saw — just before — was much worse.”

  Her hand tightened. “What was it?”

  “An extraordinary man. Looking in.”

  “What extraordinary man?”

  “I haven’t the least idea.”

  Mrs. Grose gazed round us in vain. “Then where is he gone?”

  “I know still less.”

  “Have you seen him before?”

  “Yes — once. On the old tower.”

  She could only look at me harder. “Do you mean he’s a stranger?”

  “Oh, very much!”

  “Yet you didn’t tell me?”

  “No — for reasons. But now that you’ve guessed—”

  Mrs. Grose’s round eyes encountered this charge. “Ah, I haven’t guessed!” she said very simply. “How can I if YOU don’t imagine?”

  “I don’t in the very least.”

  “You’ve seen him nowhere but on the tower?”

  “And on this spot just now.”

  Mrs. Grose looked round again. “What was he doing on the tower?”

  “Only standing there and looking down at me.”

  She thought a minute. “Was he a gentleman?”

  I found I had no need to think. “No.” She gazed in deeper wonder. “No.”

  “Then nobody about the place? Nobody from the village?”

  “Nobody — nobody. I didn’t tell you, but I made sure.”

  She breathed a vague relief: this was, oddly, so much to the good. It only went indeed a little way. “But if he isn’t a gentleman—”

  “What IS he? He’s a horror.”

  “A horror?”

  “He’s — God help me if I know WHAT he is!”

  Mrs. Grose looked round once more; she fixed her eyes on the duskier distance, then, pulling herself together, turned to me with abrupt inconsequence. “It’s time we should be at church.”

  “Oh, I’m not fit for church!”

  “Won’t it do you good?”

  “It won’t do THEM — ! I nodded at the house.

  “The children?”

  “I can’t leave them now.”

  “You’re afraid — ?”

  I spoke boldly. “I’m afraid of HIM.”

  Mrs. Grose’s large face showed me, at this, for the first time, the faraway faint glimmer of a consciousness more acute: I somehow made out in it the delayed dawn of an idea I myself had not given her and that was as yet quite obscure to me. It comes back to me that I thought instantly of this as something I could get from her; and I felt it to be connected with the desire she presently showed to know more. “When was it — on the tower?”

  “About the middle of the month. At this same hour.”

  “Almost at dark,” said Mrs. Grose.

  “Oh, no, not nearly. I saw him as I see you.”

  “Then how did he get in?”

  “And how did he get out?” I laughed. “I had no opportunity to ask him! This evening, you see,” I pursued, “he has not been able to get in.”

  “He only peeps?”

  “I hope it will be confined to that!” She had now let go my hand; she turned away a little. I waited an instant; then I brought out: “Go to church. Goodbye. I must watch.”

  Slowly she faced me again. “Do you fear for them?”

  We met in another long look. “Don’t YOU?” Instead of answering she came nearer to the window and, for a minute, applied her face to the glass. “You see how he could see,” I meanwhile went on.

  She didn’t move. “How long was he here?”

  “Till I came out. I came to meet him.”

  Mrs. Grose at last turned round, and there was still more in her face. “I couldn’t have come out.”

  “Neither could I!” I laughed again. “But I did come. I have my duty.”

  “So have I mine,” she replied; after which she added: “What is he like?”

  “I’ve been dying to tell you. But he’s like nobody.”

  “Nobody?” she echoed.

  “He has no hat.” Then seeing in her face that she already, in this, with a deeper dismay, found a touch of picture, I quickly added stroke to stroke. “He has red hair, very red, close-curling, and a pale face, long in shape, with straight, good features and little, rather queer whiskers that are as red as his hair. His eyebrows are, somehow, darker; they look particularly arched and as if they might move a good deal. His eyes are sharp, strange — awfully; but I only know clearly that they’re rather small and very fixed. His mouth’s wide, and his lips are thin, and except for his little whiskers he’s quite clean-shaven. He gives me a sort of sense of looking like an actor.”

  “An actor!” It was impossible to resemble one less, at least, than Mrs. Grose at that moment.

  “I’ve never seen one, but so I supp
ose them. He’s tall, active, erect,” I continued, “but never — no, never! — a gentleman.”

  My companion’s face had blanched as I went on; her round eyes started and her mild mouth gaped. “A gentleman?” she gasped, confounded, stupefied: “a gentleman HE?”

  “You know him then?”

  She visibly tried to hold herself. “But he IS handsome?”

  I saw the way to help her. “Remarkably!”

  “And dressed — ?”

  “In somebody’s clothes.” “They’re smart, but they’re not his own.”

  She broke into a breathless affirmative groan: “They’re the master’s!”

  I caught it up. “You DO know him?”

  She faltered but a second. “Quint!” she cried.

  “Quint?”

  “Peter Quint — his own man, his valet, when he was here!”

  “When the master was?”

  Gaping still, but meeting me, she pieced it all together. “He never wore his hat, but he did wear — well, there were waistcoats missed. They were both here — last year. Then the master went, and Quint was alone.”

  I followed, but halting a little. “Alone?”

  “Alone with US.” Then, as from a deeper depth, “In charge,” she added.

  “And what became of him?”

  She hung fire so long that I was still more mystified. “He went, too,” she brought out at last.

  “Went where?”

  Her expression, at this, became extraordinary. “God knows where! He died.”

  “Died?” I almost shrieked.

  She seemed fairly to square herself, plant herself more firmly to utter the wonder of it. “Yes. Mr. Quint is dead.”

  VI

  It took of course more than that particular passage to place us together in presence of what we had now to live with as we could — my dreadful liability to impressions of the order so vividly exemplified, and my companion’s knowledge, henceforth — a knowledge half consternation and half compassion — of that liability. There had been, this evening, after the revelation left me, for an hour, so prostrate — there had been, for either of us, no attendance on any service but a little service of tears and vows, of prayers and promises, a climax to the series of mutual challenges and pledges that had straightway ensued on our retreating together to the schoolroom and shutting ourselves up there to have everything out. The result of our having everything out was simply to reduce our situation to the last rigor of its elements. She herself had seen nothing, not the shadow of a shadow, and nobody in the house but the governess was in the governess’s plight; yet she accepted without directly impugning my sanity the truth as I gave it to her, and ended by showing me, on this ground, an awestricken tenderness, an expression of the sense of my more than questionable privilege, of which the very breath has remained with me as that of the sweetest of human charities.

  What was settled between us, accordingly, that night, was that we thought we might bear things together; and I was not even sure that, in spite of her exemption, it was she who had the best of the burden. I knew at this hour, I think, as well as I knew later, what I was capable of meeting to shelter my pupils; but it took me some time to be wholly sure of what my honest ally was prepared for to keep terms with so compromising a contract. I was queer company enough — quite as queer as the company I received; but as I trace over what we went through I see how much common ground we must have found in the one idea that, by good fortune, COULD steady us. It was the idea, the second movement, that led me straight out, as I may say, of the inner chamber of my dread. I could take the air in the court, at least, and there Mrs. Grose could join me. Perfectly can I recall now the particular way strength came to me before we separated for the night. We had gone over and over every feature of what I had seen.

  “He was looking for someone else, you say — someone who was not you?”

  “He was looking for little Miles.” A portentous clearness now possessed me. “THAT’S whom he was looking for.”

  “But how do you know?”

  “I know, I know, I know!” My exaltation grew. “And YOU know, my dear!”

  She didn’t deny this, but I required, I felt, not even so much telling as that. She resumed in a moment, at any rate: “What if HE should see him?”

  “Little Miles? That’s what he wants!”

  She looked immensely scared again. “The child?”

  “Heaven forbid! The man. He wants to appear to THEM.” That he might was an awful conception, and yet, somehow, I could keep it at bay; which, moreover, as we lingered there, was what I succeeded in practically proving. I had an absolute certainty that I should see again what I had already seen, but something within me said that by offering myself bravely as the sole subject of such experience, by accepting, by inviting, by surmounting it all, I should serve as an expiatory victim and guard the tranquility of my companions. The children, in especial, I should thus fence about and absolutely save. I recall one of the last things I said that night to Mrs. Grose.

  “It does strike me that my pupils have never mentioned—”

  She looked at me hard as I musingly pulled up. “His having been here and the time they were with him?”

  “The time they were with him, and his name, his presence, his history, in any way.”

  “Oh, the little lady doesn’t remember. She never heard or knew.”

  “The circumstances of his death?” I thought with some intensity. “Perhaps not. But Miles would remember — Miles would know.”

  “Ah, don’t try him!” broke from Mrs. Grose.

  I returned her the look she had given me. “Don’t be afraid.” I continued to think. “It IS rather odd.”

  “That he has never spoken of him?”

  “Never by the least allusion. And you tell me they were ‘great friends’?”

  “Oh, it wasn’t HIM!” Mrs. Grose with emphasis declared. “It was Quint’s own fancy. To play with him, I mean — to spoil him.” She paused a moment; then she added: “Quint was much too free.”

  This gave me, straight from my vision of his face — SUCH a face! — a sudden sickness of disgust. “Too free with MY boy?”

  “Too free with everyone!”

  I forbore, for the moment, to analyze this description further than by the reflection that a part of it applied to several of the members of the household, of the half-dozen maids and men who were still of our small colony. But there was everything, for our apprehension, in the lucky fact that no discomfortable legend, no perturbation of scullions, had ever, within anyone’s memory attached to the kind old place. It had neither bad name nor ill fame, and Mrs. Grose, most apparently, only desired to cling to me and to quake in silence. I even put her, the very last thing of all, to the test. It was when, at midnight, she had her hand on the schoolroom door to take leave. “I have it from you then — for it’s of great importance — that he was definitely and admittedly bad?”

  “Oh, not admittedly. I knew it — but the master didn’t.”

  “And you never told him?”

  “Well, he didn’t like tale-bearing — he hated complaints. He was terribly short with anything of that kind, and if people were all right to HIM—”

  “He wouldn’t be bothered with more?” This squared well enough with my impressions of him: he was not a trouble-loving gentleman, nor so very particular perhaps about some of the company HE kept. All the same, I pressed my interlocutress. “I promise you I would have told!”

  She felt my discrimination. “I daresay I was wrong. But, really, I was afraid.”

  “Afraid of what?”

  “Of things that man could do. Quint was so clever — he was so deep.”

  I took this in still more than, probably, I showed. “You weren’t afraid of anything else? Not of his effect — ?”

  “His effect?” she repeated with a face of anguish and waiting while I faltered.

  “On innocent little precious lives. They were in your charge.”

  “No, th
ey were not in mine!” she roundly and distressfully returned. “The master believed in him and placed him here because he was supposed not to be well and the country air so good for him. So he had everything to say. Yes” — she let me have it— “even about THEM.”