Persuasion: Jane Austen (The Complete Works)

by Jane Austen

  It was a more pressing concern to shew attention to Jane Fairfax, whose prospects were closing, while Harriet's opened, and whose engagements now allowed of no delay in any one at Highbury, who wished to shew her kindness -- and with Emma it was grown into a first wish. She had scarcely a stronger regret than for her past coldness; and the person, whom she had been so many months neglecting, was now the very one on whom she would have lavished every distinction of regard or sympathy. She wanted to be of use to her; wanted to shew a value for her society, and testify respect and consideration. She resolved to prevail on her to spend a day at Hartfield. A note was written to urge it. The invitation was refused, and by a verbal message. "Miss Fairfax was not well enough to write;" and when Mr. Perry called at Hartfield, the same morning, it appeared that she was so much indisposed as to have been visited, though against her own consent, by himself, and that she was suffering under severe headaches, and a nervous fever to a degree, which made him doubt the possibility of her going to Mrs. Smallridge's at the time proposed. Her health seemed for the moment completely deranged -- appetite quite gone -- and though there were no absolutely alarming symptoms, nothing touching the pulmonary complaint, which was the standing apprehension of the family, Mr. Perry was uneasy about her. He thought she had undertaken more than she was equal to, and that she felt it so herself, though she would not own it. Her spirits seemed overcome. Her present home, he could not but observe, was unfavourable to a nervous disorder: -- confined always to one room; -- he could have wished it otherwise -- and her good aunt, though his very old friend, he must acknowledge to be not the best companion for an invalid of that description. Her care and attention could not be questioned; they were, in fact, only too great. He very much feared that Miss Fairfax derived more evil than good from them. Emma listened with the warmest concern; grieved for her more and more, and looked around eager to discover some way of being useful. To take her -- be it only an hour or two -- from her aunt, to give her change of air and scene, and quiet rational conversation, even for an hour or two, might do her good; and the following morning she wrote again to say, in the most feeling language she could command, that she would call for her in the carriage at any hour that Jane would name -- mentioning that she had Mr. Perry's decided opinion, in favour of such exercise for his patient. The answer was only in this short note:

  "Miss Fairfax's compliments and thanks, but is quite unequal to any exercise."

  Emma felt that her own note had deserved something better; but it was impossible to quarrel with words, whose tremulous inequality shewed indisposition so plainly, and she thought only of how she might best counteract this unwillingness to be seen or assisted. In spite of the answer, therefore, she ordered the carriage, and drove to Mrs. Bates's, in the hope that Jane would be induced to join her -- but it would not do; -- Miss Bates came to the carriage door, all gratitude, and agreeing with her most earnestly in thinking an airing might be of the greatest service -- and every thing that message could do was tried -- but all in vain. Miss Bates was obliged to return without success; Jane was quite unpersuadable; the mere proposal of going out seemed to make her worse. -- Emma wished she could have seen her, and tried her own powers; but, almost before she could hint the wish, Miss Bates made it appear that she had promised her niece on no account to let Miss Woodhouse in. "Indeed, the truth was, that poor dear Jane could not bear to see any body -- any body at all -- Mrs. Elton, indeed, could not be denied -- and Mrs. Cole had made such a point -- and Mrs. Perry had said so much -- but, except them, Jane would really see nobody."

  Emma did not want to be classed with the Mrs. Eltons, the Mrs. Perrys, and the Mrs. Coles, who would force themselves anywhere; neither could she feel any right of preference herself -- she submitted, therefore, and only questioned Miss Bates farther as to her niece's appetite and diet, which she longed to be able to assist. On that subject poor Miss Bates was very unhappy, and very communicative; Jane would hardly eat any thing: -- Mr. Perry recommended nourishing food; but every thing they could command (and never had any body such good neighbours) was distasteful.

  Emma, on reaching home, called the housekeeper directly, to an examination of her stores; and some arrowroot of very superior quality was speedily despatched to Miss Bates with a most friendly note. In half an hour the arrowroot was returned, with a thousand thanks from Miss Bates, but "dear Jane would not be satisfied without its being sent back; it was a thing she could not take -- and, moreover, she insisted on her saying, that she was not at all in want of any thing."

  When Emma afterwards heard that Jane Fairfax had been seen wandering about the meadows, at some distance from Highbury, on the afternoon of the very day on which she had, under the plea of being unequal to any exercise, so peremptorily refused to go out with her in the carriage, she could have no doubt -- putting every thing together -- that Jane was resolved to receive no kindness from her. She was sorry, very sorry. Her heart was grieved for a state which seemed but the more pitiable from this sort of irritation of spirits, inconsistency of action, and inequality of powers; and it mortified her that she was given so little credit for proper feeling, or esteemed so little worthy as a friend: but she had the consolation of knowing that her intentions were good, and of being able to say to herself, that could Mr. Knightley have been privy to all her attempts of assisting Jane Fairfax, could he even have seen into her heart, he would not, on this occasion, have found any thing to reprove.

  CHAPTER X

  One morning, about ten days after Mrs. Churchill's decease, Emma was called downstairs to Mr. Weston, who "could not stay five minutes, and wanted particularly to speak with her." -- He met her at the parlour-door, and hardly asking her how she did, in the natural key of his voice, sunk it immediately, to say, unheard by her father,

  "Can you come to Randalls at any time this morning? -- Do, if it be possible. Mrs. Weston wants to see you. She must see you."

  "Is she unwell?"

  "No, no, not at all -- only a little agitated. She would have ordered the carriage, and come to you, but she must see you alone, and that you know -- (nodding towards her father) -- Humph! -- Can you come?"

  "Certainly. This moment, if you please. It is impossible to refuse what you ask in such a way. But what can be the matter? -- Is she really not ill?"

  "Depend upon me -- but ask no more questions. You will know it all in time. The most unaccountable business! But hush, hush!"

  To guess what all this meant, was impossible even for Emma. Something really important seemed announced by his looks; but, as her friend was well, she endeavoured not to be uneasy, and settling it with her father, that she would take her walk now, she and Mr. Weston were soon out of the house together and on their way at a quick pace for Randalls.

  "Now," -- said Emma, when they were fairly beyond the sweep gates,--"now Mr. Weston, do let me know what has happened."

  "No, no," -- he gravely replied.--"Don't ask me. I promised my wife to leave it all to her. She will break it to you better than I can. Do not be impatient, Emma; it will all come out too soon."

  "Break it to me," cried Emma, standing still with terror.--"Good God! -- Mr. Weston, tell me at once. -- Something has happened in Brunswick Square. I know it has. Tell me, I charge you tell me this moment what it is."

  "No, indeed you are mistaken." --

  "Mr. Weston do not trifle with me. -- Consider how many of my dearest friends are now in Brunswick Square. Which of them is it? -- I charge you by all that is sacred, not to attempt concealment."

  "Upon my word, Emma." --

  "Your word! -- why not your honour! -- why not say upon your honour, that it has nothing to do with any of them? Good Heavens! -- What can be to be broke to me, that does not relate to one of that family?"

  "Upon my honour," said he very seriously, "it does not. It is not in the smallest degree connected with any human being of the name of Knightley."

  Emma's courage returned, and she walked on.

  "I was wrong," he continued, "in talk
ing of its being broke to you. I should not have used the expression. In fact, it does not concern you -- it concerns only myself, -- that is, we hope. -- Humph! -- In short, my dear Emma, there is no occasion to be so uneasy about it. I don't say that it is not a disagreeable business -- but things might be much worse. -- If we walk fast, we shall soon be at Randalls."

  Emma found that she must wait; and now it required little effort. She asked no more questions therefore, merely employed her own fancy, and that soon pointed out to her the probability of its being some money concern -- something just come to light, of a disagreeable nature in the circumstances of the family, -- something which the late event at Richmond had brought forward. Her fancy was very active. Half a dozen natural children, perhaps -- and poor Frank cut off! -- This, though very undesirable, would be no matter of agony to her. It inspired little more than an animating curiosity.

  "Who is that gentleman on horseback?" said she, as they proceeded -- speaking more to assist Mr. Weston in keeping his secret, than with any other view.

  "I do not know. -- One of the Otways. -- Not Frank; -- it is not Frank, I assure you. You will not see him. He is half way to Windsor by this time."

  "Has your son been with you, then?"

  "Oh! yes -- did not you know? -- Well, well, never mind."

  For a moment he was silent; and then added, in a tone much more guarded and demure,

  "Yes, Frank came over this morning, just to ask us how we did."

  They hurried on, and were speedily at Randalls.--"Well, my dear," said he, as they entered the room--"I have brought her, and now I hope you will soon be better. I shall leave you together. There is no use in delay. I shall not be far off, if you want me." -- And Emma distinctly heard him add, in a lower tone, before he quitted the room,--"I have been as good as my word. She has not the least idea."

  Mrs. Weston was looking so ill, and had an air of so much perturbation, that Emma's uneasiness increased; and the moment they were alone, she eagerly said,

  "What is it my dear friend? Something of a very unpleasant nature, I find, has occurred; -- do let me know directly what it is. I have been walking all this way in complete suspense. We both abhor suspense. Do not let mine continue longer. It will do you good to speak of your distress, whatever it may be."

  "Have you indeed no idea?" said Mrs. Weston in a trembling voice. "Cannot you, my dear Emma -- cannot you form a guess as to what you are to hear?"

  "So far as that it relates to Mr. Frank Churchill, I do guess."

  "You are right. It does relate to him, and I will tell you directly;" (resuming her work, and seeming resolved against looking up.) "He has been here this very morning, on a most extraordinary errand. It is impossible to express our surprize. He came to speak to his father on a subject, -- to announce an attachment--"

  She stopped to breathe. Emma thought first of herself, and then of Harriet.

  "More than an attachment, indeed," resumed Mrs. Weston; "an engagement -- a positive engagement. -- What will you say, Emma -- what will any body say, when it is known that Frank Churchill and Miss Fairfax are engaged; -- nay, that they have been long engaged!"

  Emma even jumped with surprize; -- and, horror-struck, exclaimed,

  "Jane Fairfax! -- Good God! You are not serious? You do not mean it?"

  "You may well be amazed," returned Mrs. Weston, still averting her eyes, and talking on with eagerness, that Emma might have time to recover--"You may well be amazed. But it is even so. There has been a solemn engagement between them ever since October -- formed at Weymouth, and kept a secret from every body. Not a creature knowing it but themselves -- neither the Campbells, nor her family, nor his. -- It is so wonderful, that though perfectly convinced of the fact, it is yet almost incredible to myself. I can hardly believe it. -- I thought I knew him."

  Emma scarcely heard what was said. -- Her mind was divided between two ideas -- her own former conversations with him about Miss Fairfax; and poor Harriet; -- and for some time she could only exclaim, and require confirmation, repeated confirmation.

  "Well," said she at last, trying to recover herself; "this is a circumstance which I must think of at least half a day, before I can at all comprehend it. What! -- engaged to her all the winter -- before either of them came to Highbury?"

  "Engaged since October, -- secretly engaged. -- It has hurt me, Emma, very much. It has hurt his father equally. Some part of his conduct we cannot excuse."

  Emma pondered a moment, and then replied, "I will not pretend not to understand you; and to give you all the relief in my power, be assured that no such effect has followed his attentions to me, as you are apprehensive of."

  Mrs. Weston looked up, afraid to believe; but Emma's countenance was as steady as her words.

  "That you may have less difficulty in believing this boast, of my present perfect indifference," she continued, "I will farther tell you, that there was a period in the early part of our acquaintance, when I did like him, when I was very much disposed to be attached to him -- nay, was attached -- and how it came to cease, is perhaps the wonder. Fortunately, however, it did cease. I have really for some time past, for at least these three months, cared nothing about him. You may believe me, Mrs. Weston. This is the simple truth."

  Mrs. Weston kissed her with tears of joy; and when she could find utterance, assured her, that this protestation had done her more good than any thing else in the world could do.

  "Mr. Weston will be almost as much relieved as myself," said she. "On this point we have been wretched. It was our darling wish that you might be attached to each other -- and we were persuaded that it was so. -- Imagine what we have been feeling on your account."

  "I have escaped; and that I should escape, may be a matter of grateful wonder to you and myself. But this does not acquit him, Mrs. Weston; and I must say, that I think him greatly to blame. What right had he to come among us with affection and faith engaged, and with manners so very disengaged? What right had he to endeavour to please, as he certainly did -- to distinguish any one young woman with persevering attention, as he certainly did -- while he really belonged to another? -- How could he tell what mischief he might be doing? -- How could he tell that he might not be making me in love with him? -- very wrong, very wrong indeed."

  "From something that he said, my dear Emma, I rather imagine--"

  "And how could she bear such behaviour! Composure with a witness! to look on, while repeated attentions were offering to another woman, before her face, and not resent it. -- That is a degree of placidity, which I can neither comprehend nor respect."

  "There were misunderstandings between them, Emma; he said so expressly. He had not time to enter into much explanation. He was here only a quarter of an hour, and in a state of agitation which did not allow the full use even of the time he could stay -- but that there had been misunderstandings he decidedly said. The present crisis, indeed, seemed to be brought on by them; and those misunderstandings might very possibly arise from the impropriety of his conduct."

  "Impropriety! Oh! Mrs. Weston -- it is too calm a censure. Much, much beyond impropriety! -- It has sunk him, I cannot say how it has sunk him in my opinion. So unlike what a man should be! -- None of that upright integrity, that strict adherence to truth and principle, that disdain of trick and littleness, which a man should display in every transaction of his life."

  "Nay, dear Emma, now I must take his part; for though he has been wrong in this instance, I have known him long enough to answer for his having many, very many, good qualities; and--"

  "Good God!" cried Emma, not attending to her.--"Mrs. Smallridge, too! Jane actually on the point of going as governess! What could he mean by such horrible indelicacy? To suffer her to engage herself -- to suffer her even to think of such a measure!"

  "He knew nothing about it, Emma. On this article I can fully acquit him. It was a private resolution of hers, not communicated to him -- or at least not communicated in a way to carry conviction. -- Till yesterday, I know he said he wa
s in the dark as to her plans. They burst on him, I do not know how, but by some letter or message -- and it was the discovery of what she was doing, of this very project of hers, which determined him to come forward at once, own it all to his uncle, throw himself on his kindness, and, in short, put an end to the miserable state of concealment that had been carrying on so long."

  Emma began to listen better.

  "I am to hear from him soon," continued Mrs. Weston. "He told me at parting, that he should soon write; and he spoke in a manner which seemed to promise me many particulars that could not be given now. Let us wait, therefore, for this letter. It may bring many extenuations. It may make many things intelligible and excusable which now are not to be understood. Don't let us be severe, don't let us be in a hurry to condemn him. Let us have patience. I must love him; and now that I am satisfied on one point, the one material point, I am sincerely anxious for its all turning out well, and ready to hope that it may. They must both have suffered a great deal under such a system of secresy and concealment."

  "His sufferings," replied Emma dryly, "do not appear to have done him much harm. Well, and how did Mr. Churchill take it?"

  "Most favourably for his nephew -- gave his consent with scarcely a difficulty. Conceive what the events of a week have done in that family! While poor Mrs. Churchill lived, I suppose there could not have been a hope, a chance, a possibility; -- but scarcely are her remains at rest in the family vault, than her husband is persuaded to act exactly opposite to what she would have required. What a blessing it is, when undue influence does not survive the grave! -- He gave his consent with very little persuasion."

  "Ah!" thought Emma, "he would have done as much for Harriet."

  "This was settled last night, and Frank was off with the light this morning. He stopped at Highbury, at the Bates's, I fancy, some time -- and then came on hither; but was in such a hurry to get back to his uncle, to whom he is just now more necessary than ever, that, as I tell you, he could stay with us but a quarter of an hour. -- He was very much agitated -- very much, indeed -- to a degree that made him appear quite a different creature from any thing I had ever seen him before. -- In addition to all the rest, there had been the shock of finding her so very unwell, which he had had no previous suspicion of -- and there was every appearance of his having been feeling a great deal."