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The Emotional Wound Thesaurus

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by Becca Puglisi


  Having a gut response that turns out to be correct but not acting on it because one doesn’t trust one’s instincts

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  DISABILITIES AND DISFIGUREMENTS

  A LEARNING DISABILITY

  EXAMPLES: Suffering from a learning disability, such as dyslexia, dysgraphia, dyscalculia, slow processing, poor executive functioning, and visual or auditory processing disorders.

  BASIC NEEDS OFTEN COMPROMISED BY THIS WOUND: Love and belonging, esteem and recognition, self-actualization

  FALSE BELIEFS THAT COULD BE EMBRACED

  I’m defective.

  I’m too stupid to learn.

  I will never find a partner who loves me for me.

  If I engage, everyone will know how dumb I am.

  When I make fun of myself people accept me.

  If I worked harder or practiced more, I’d be able to succeed.

  If people find out about my disability, they’ll reject me.

  Why try when I’ll only fail?

  I should attack others before they attack me.

  THE CHARACTER MAY FEAR…

  Failure and mistakes (especially visible ones)

  Being unable to achieve their dreams or goals

  Being bullied or victimized

  Being called on at school or singled out for a challenging task as an adult

  Letting others down

  Their secret getting out

  Being rejected or abandoned by loved ones

  Being labeled and limited

  Passing a disability on to their children

  POSSIBLE RESPONSES AND RESULTS

  Avoiding responsibility out of the belief that one will only let others down

  Thinking small; limiting one’s dreams or goals so they will be reachable

  Thinking negatively about oneself and one’s abilities

  Withdrawing from others to avoid ridicule and teasing

  Bullying others

  Overcompensating

  Becoming angry or volatile

  Resenting people who are naturally smart or talented

  Engaging in destructive or risky behaviors

  Diverting attention from one’s disability (e.g., acting up and getting kicked out of class before a verbal spelling competition)

  Avoiding those who could help (counselors, teachers, or tutors) out of denial or a desire to keep one’s disability secret

  Making fun of someone with similar disabilities to distance oneself from them

  Avoiding conversations or interactions with people that may lead to revealing a limitation

  Avoiding social opportunities; staying home instead

  Refusing to read if doing so is a reminder of one’s limitation

  Studying admirable people to become more socially confident and adept (if this is a struggle)

  Becoming an advocate for those with learning disabilities

  Focusing on one’s strengths rather than one’s weaknesses

  Choosing jobs, hobbies, and activities that don’t utilize one’s weakness

  Working super hard to succeed

  Learning to compensate (by developing one’s memory, utilizing software, engaging a tutor, etc.)

  Refusing to allow the disability to define one’s identity

  PERSONALITY TRAITS THAT MAY FORM

  Attributes: Adaptable, cautious, charming, disciplined, empathetic, flirtatious, funny, imaginative, industrious, meticulous, pensive, persistent, private, tolerant

  Flaws: Abrasive, defensive, dishonest, evasive, inhibited, insecure, oversensitive, rebellious, resentful, self-destructive, timid, uncommunicative, uncooperative, violent, volatile, withdrawn

  TRIGGERS THAT MIGHT AGGRAVATE THIS WOUND

  Seeing someone with a disability being bullied or mistreated

  Having to ask for help

  Being unable to fix something that’s broken

  Not understanding instructions or a concept and feeling a wave of frustration

  Hearing people use certain labels (idiot, retard, etc.) that are offensive and hurtful

  Watching people with learning disabilities be mocked or misrepresented on TV and in movies

  Attending a school conference to discuss a child’s hereditary learning disability

  Seeing a learning disability negatively impact the self-esteem of a loved one

  Struggling with a new task

  Making a mistake due to one’s disability and having one’s competence questioned

  Being teased for one’s weakness

  OPPORTUNITIES TO FACE OR OVERCOME THIS WOUND

  Having to decide whether to pass up a promising opportunity due to one’s disability or tackle the extra work required to succeed

  One’s disability becoming public despite efforts to keep it secret

  Being unfairly penalized because of one’s ability (scoring badly on a test one was unable to read, being rejected as an applicant right out of the gate, etc.) and wanting justice

  As an adult, continuing to take shortcuts (instead of putting in the work necessary to deal with the disability) and suffering consequences for doing so

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  A PHYSICAL DISFIGUREMENT

  EXAMPLES

  Being burned by a fire or chemicals

  Bearing visible scars (from knife wounds, a gunshot, an animal attack, a car accident, surgery, etc.)

  Missing a body part, such as an eye, ear, nose, or finger

  Having malformed limbs

  Bearing a visible and disfiguring birthmark

  Having a cleft lip

  Bearing large goiters or tumors

  Having severe skin ailments like psoriasis, acne, discoloration, pigment loss, keloids, or warts

  Having out-of-proportion body parts (elephantiasis, legs that are different lengths, etc.)

  Body parts becoming flaccid or paralyzed following a stroke

  Having a disfigurement due to a botched plastic surgery procedure

  BASIC NEEDS OFTEN COMPROMISED BY THIS WOUND: Love and belonging, esteem and recognition, self-actualization

  FALSE BELIEFS THAT COULD BE EMBRACED

  No one will ever love someone like me.

  They’re looking at me because of my disfigurement.

  This is a form of punishment.

  I’m not worthy of love.

  Most people aren’t going to give me a chance, so I can’t let go of the ones who do.

  It’s better to be treated badly by someone who cares about me than to have no one at all.

  Anyone trying to connect with me must have an ulterior motive.

  People are cruel so it’s better to stay away from them.

  No one could understand what I’m going through.

  I’ll never be able to fulfill my dreams.

  “Normal” people are better than me.

  THE CHARACTER MAY FEAR…

  Intimacy

  Whatever caused the disfigurement (fire, hospitals, a deranged ex-boyfriend, etc.)

  Being stared at or ridiculed in person or on social media

  Losing people (through a death or a move, for instance) who have expressed love and acceptance

  Intolerance and prejudice

  Being rejected or abandoned

  POSSIBLE RESPONSES AND RESULTS

  Developing low self-esteem or self-hatred

  Never leaving one’s home; becoming a hermit

  Wearing clothing, accessories, or makeup that minimizes the disfigurement

  Gravitating toward online activities where one can create the persona one desires

  Avoiding situations where new people will be encountered

  Not opening up to others

  Mistrusting those who express love or kindness

  Maintaining shallow relationships

  Making fun of one’s disfigurement in an effort to minimize it

  Diving into a solitary hobby or area of interest

  Feeling intense jealousy of people viewed as beauti
ful by society’s standards

  Clinging to the kind and caring people in one’s life

  Pursuing unhealthy relationships

  Lashing out at others in frustration or hurt

  Pitying oneself

  Developing depression or an anxiety disorder

  Engaging in self-destructive behaviors, such as abusing drugs or alcohol

  Avoiding cameras and recorders

  Assuming that others are staring even when they aren’t

  Pursuing a creative outlet for one’s hurt, like composing music, painting, 3D printing, or designing clothes

  Seeing beauty in imperfections and appreciating the little things others overlook

  Reaching out to others who have been disfigured (joining forums or chat groups, for example)

  PERSONALITY TRAITS THAT MAY FORM

  Attributes: Cautious, courteous, creative, discreet, empathetic, focused, gentle, imaginative, introverted, loyal, merciful, pensive, perceptive, persistent, private, proactive, spiritual, tolerant

  Flaws: Abrasive, cynical, evasive, humorless, inhibited, insecure, jealous, martyr, needy, pessimistic, resentful, self-destructive, suspicious, temperamental, timid, volatile, withdrawn

  TRIGGERS THAT MIGHT AGGRAVATE THIS WOUND

  One’s disfigurement being pointed out by a curious child or other onlooker

  Seeing oneself on video and realizing anew how one looks to others

  Experiencing pain related to one’s disfigurement

  Being exposed to online memes that make fun of a person’s physical flaws

  Beauty ads, commercials, and TV shows that tie beauty to personal value

  OPPORTUNITIES TO FACE OR OVERCOME THIS WOUND

  Being the victim of a cruel joke that focuses on one’s disfigurement

  Realizing a dream can be fulfilled if one finds the courage to not let the disfigurement get in the way

  Bullying or ridiculing someone and realizing one has become just like those one hates the most

  Learning that another painful surgery is required that may or may not improve one’s appearance

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  A SPEECH IMPEDIMENT

  EXAMPLES

  Stuttering

  Muteness (being unable to speak)

  Speech sound disorders and lisps

  Speech issues due to a damaged larynx or injuries to the mouth or throat, such as a cleft palate

  BASIC NEEDS OFTEN COMPROMISED BY THIS WOUND: Love and belonging, esteem and recognition, self-actualization

  FALSE BELIEFS THAT COULD BE EMBRACED

  People hate listening to me speak and can’t wait to get away from me.

  I have nothing worth saying anyway.

  I can never make a difference because of my speech.

  It’s better for me to keep quiet.

  I’m not romantic material.

  Even if I have something important to say, no one will take me seriously because of how I talk.

  It’s better to avoid relationships because they lead to ridicule.

  I am an embarrassment to the people I’m with.

  No one understands what this is like.

  I can never be a leader, only a follower.

  THE CHARACTER MAY FEAR…

  Public ridicule

  Being singled out or put in the spotlight

  Public speaking

  Intimacy or vulnerability

  Social events

  POSSIBLE RESPONSES AND RESULTS

  Choosing a job that is solitary or has minimal interactions with people

  Becoming a big reader or movie-watcher

  Getting tongue-tied when one does have to talk

  Difficulty with romantic relationships because one struggles to converse

  Being less picky about partners due to low self-esteem and the belief that this is the best one can do

  Taking up solitary activities, such as camping, hiking, star-gazing, drawing, or gaming

  Choosing to engage with others online, interacting through chat rather than through speech

  Avoiding or prematurely ducking out of social functions and family get-togethers

  Blushing or sweating when one is put on the spot

  Avoiding eye contact with people to dissuade them from starting a conversation

  Frequent fantasizing or daydreaming

  Not participating in group sports, clubs, or activities

  Sitting near an exit or at the edge of the room

  A tendency to write long emails and texts

  Not answering the phone; letting it go to a message box so one can text a response later

  Carrying a book or phone so one can look busy and avoid socializing

  Not volunteering for opportunities

  Gravitating toward gregarious people who will do most of the talking

  Being moved by someone who shares one’s weakness but has become successful despite it (like a singer, speaker, or auctioneer)

  Seeking out people who share one’s challenge

  Identifying and focusing on one’s positive qualities, such as kindness, intelligence, or a sense of humor

  Connecting with others through nonverbal methods (giving gifts, being a good listener, making one’s home available for get-togethers, etc.)

  Getting active on social media where messages, pictures, and videos allow expression and connection

  Pursuing a passion or hobby where one can excel and gain confidence

  PERSONALITY TRAITS THAT MAY FORM

  Attributes: Analytical, appreciative, curious, disciplined, empathetic, focused, generous, gentle, honorable, independent, kind, loyal, merciful, nurturing, philosophical, private, protective

  Flaws: Antisocial, cynical, defensive, humorless, impatient, impulsive, inhibited, insecure, jealous, nervous, oversensitive, resentful, subservient, timid, uncommunicative, withdrawn

  TRIGGERS THAT MIGHT AGGRAVATE THIS WOUND

  Witnessing someone with a speech impediment being teased or bullied

  Listening to influential people who are reckless with their words (spreading hate or misinformation)

  Stressful situations that make one’s speech impediment more pronounced

  Being asked a direct question

  Being asked to attend a meeting that will require verbal participation

  OPPORTUNITIES TO FACE OR OVERCOME THIS WOUND

  Seeing speech difficulties emerging for one’s child

  Being asked to give a presentation or lead a meeting at work and being afraid to do so

  Having trouble speaking when first impressions count (at a job interview, on a first date, etc.)

  Wishing to speak out against an injustice but needing to work through one’s fears to do so

  Wanting to raise awareness for a cause but having to step into the spotlight to do so

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  A TRAUMATIC BRAIN INJURY

  EXAMPLES: Experiencing a traumatic brain injury caused by…

  Falling and hitting one’s head

  A fight

  A car, bike, Jet Ski, or boating accident

  A sports injury, such as a concussion from playing football or kickboxing

  Being kicked by a horse

  Being shot

  Something heavy falling on one’s head

  A daredevil activity or prank gone wrong

  BASIC NEEDS OFTEN COMPROMISED BY THIS WOUND: Physiological needs, safety and security, esteem and recognition, self-actualization

  FALSE BELIEFS THAT COULD BE EMBRACED

  I’m unable to contribute in any meaningful way.

  I’ll never be able to live a normal life.

  My dreams are out of reach now.

  Life is no longer worth living.

  I’m stupid.

  No one would want to be with me.

  I’m dysfunctional, only part of the person I was.

  THE CHARACTER MAY FEAR…

  Being rejected because of their condition

  Suppor
tive family members dying or falling ill (abandonment)

  Scenarios like the one that caused the injury

  Symptoms worsening unexpectedly

  Failing in their responsibilities to others

  Becoming fully reliant on others for even the most basic of needs

  POSSIBLE RESPONSES AND RESULTS

  Moodiness and irritability

  Changes in one’s sleeping pattern (insomnia, too much sleeping, or difficulty staying asleep)

  Being easily distracted

  Forgetfulness

  Amnesia

  Becoming sensitive to light or other stimuli that disturb the senses

  Being prone to headaches or migraines

  Difficulty with motor skills and other dexterity-related issues

  Regressing on recently learned skills

  Difficulty doing things one used to be able to do (talk, read, run, etc.)

  Pushing oneself too hard

  Lashing out at loved ones in frustration

  Depression or thoughts of suicide

  Self-medicating with drugs or alcohol

  Trying to hide one’s difficulties rather than admit them to others or seek help

  Avoiding situations where one can become over-stimulated

  Staying home rather than going out

  Avoiding friends and social activities

  Not engaging in conversation out of fear one’s difficulties will be made obvious

  Reluctance to try new things because one might not be able to do them well

  Refusing all help

  Becoming overly dependent on others

  Second-guessing one’s decisions

  Increased empathy for those living with limitations beyond their control

  Dedicating oneself to regaining lost ground (through study, physical therapy, etc.)

  Compensating for one’s shortcomings by honing other skills and talents

  Setting realistic goals and striving to achieve them

  PERSONALITY TRAITS THAT MAY FORM

 

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