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The Emotional Wound Thesaurus

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by Becca Puglisi


  THE CHARACTER MAY FEAR…

  Loving or becoming connected to someone only to lose them

  Rejection and abandonment

  Poverty

  Being bullied, abused, and hurt

  Trusting someone and being betrayed

  That life will never get better

  Becoming attached to any person or place

  People in positions of strength, power, and authority

  POSSIBLE RESPONSES AND RESULTS

  Behavioral volatility; growing angry quickly

  Keeping secrets and being uncommunicative

  Lying or making up untruths, even when they aren’t important

  Telling people what they want to hear

  Being highly private

  Being very protective of one’s possessions and close relationships

  Avoiding locations, activities, and groups that have a strong family focus

  Keeping a bug-out bag or secret stash of items in case one has to leave quickly

  Steering conversations away from personal topics

  Pushing people away as a defense mechanism

  Difficulty sharing certain things

  Craving routine, yet being unable to adapt to it easily

  Wanting stability and permanence but questioning whether one deserves these things

  Looking for exits; being watchful for danger or threats

  PTSD symptoms (being in constant fight-or-flight mode, startling easily, etc.)

  Trust issues; difficulty taking people at their word

  Daydreaming of a future time when one is independent and not under the thumb of others

  Being disdainful of promises due to a desire to avoid more disappointment

  Difficulty asking for help, relying on people, or admitting that one needs others

  Being surprised when people follow through or do what they say

  A tendency to hoard certain things (money, food or items symbolizing what one was denied, etc.)

  Being emotionally unattached in relationships; choosing partners for convenience or shared goals

  Viewing sex as being different than intimacy

  Living sparsely; not forming attachments to places or things, yet craving something permanent

  Being highly empathetic; wanting to save others who are at risk and going to great lengths to do so

  Becoming fiercely loyal to the few people one allows to get close

  PERSONALITY TRAITS THAT MAY FORM

  Attributes: Adaptable, alert, analytical, cautious, courageous, disciplined, idealistic, imaginative, independent, introverted, just, loyal, mature, nurturing, observant, perceptive, persuasive, private, proactive, protective, resourceful, sentimental, thrifty, wise

  Flaws: Abrasive, addictive, antisocial, apathetic, confrontational, cruel, cynical, devious, dishonest, evasive, hostile, inhibited, insecure, jealous, judgmental, manipulative, needy, paranoid, pessimistic, rebellious, reckless, resentful, self-destructive, stubborn, temperamental, uncommunicative, violent, withdrawn

  TRIGGERS THAT MIGHT AGGRAVATE THIS WOUND

  Someone failing to show up when they said they would

  A break-up that causes one to be alone again

  Seeing parents who are mistreating or ignoring their children

  Sensory or situational reminders of one’s negative foster care experiences (a ratty towel, being in an enclosed space, smelling an odor associated with an abusive caregiver, etc.)

  Finding oneself back in the foster home’s neighborhood

  Being innocently asked about one’s childhood or hometown

  Family-centric holidays that reinforce connection and closeness, such as Thanksgiving and birthdays

  Locations where families typically gather (picnic sites, campgrounds, amusement parks, etc.)

  OPPORTUNITIES TO FACE OR OVERCOME THIS WOUND

  Being in an accident that could have left one’s child parentless, and realizing one needs other people

  Trying to help a distressed foster child but being unable to draw him or her out

  Wanting to become an advocate for children (perhaps by becoming a foster parent or social worker)

  Desiring a relationship with someone who also struggles with trust and connection

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  GROWING UP IN THE PUBLIC EYE

  EXAMPLES

  Coming from a family with extreme wealth

  Having a parent who is important and well connected (e.g., the head of a government organization)

  Having a parent who is a famous movie star, entertainer, athlete, etc.

  Being part of a royal family

  Being part of a very old and powerful family—of aristocrats, for example

  Having an infamous parent, such as a serial killer or terrorist bomber

  Being famous oneself (a singing prodigy, an actor, a beauty queen, etc.)

  Being famous for an unusual talent, like being able to talk to the dead or heal people

  Coming from a political family (of senators, governors, diplomats, etc.)

  BASIC NEEDS OFTEN COMPROMISED BY THIS WOUND: Safety and security, love and belonging, esteem and recognition, self-actualization

  FALSE BELIEFS THAT COULD BE EMBRACED

  I don’t know who I am, just what I’m supposed to be.

  I can’t afford to make mistakes.

  People expect me to be just like my famous mother (or father, grandparent, etc.).

  Everyone wants me to fail because I’m famous.

  People only want to use me for my fame.

  The cards are stacked against me. (if one’s fame is negative)

  Without my fame, I am nothing.

  I have the same genes; what if I’m a monster too? (if the fame came from a parent’s notoriety)

  THE CHARACTER MAY FEAR…

  Trusting the wrong person

  Public embarrassment

  Making a decision that will haunt them forever

  Never measuring up

  Letting people down

  Taking risks

  Being vulnerable and being taken advantage of or betrayed

  A secret being discovered that could ruin their reputation

  POSSIBLE RESPONSES AND RESULTS

  Being obsessive about one’s appearance (clothing, hair, behavior, etc.)

  Holding back rather than taking risks out of a fear of publicly screwing up

  Being more mature than one’s peers; having to grow up fast in the limelight

  Being unable to relate to “regular” peers

  Keeping secrets or avoiding voicing one’s opinion

  Obsessing over one’s imperfections

  Being very hard on oneself

  False bravado; pretending to be overly confident

  Having few genuine close friendships

  Becoming a “mean girl” or something similar to shield oneself from haters

  Doing what one is told and not thinking for oneself

  Working hard and not making time for oneself; trying to keep up with expectations

  Engaging in anonymous activities to feel like a regular person (wearing disguises, visiting chat boards with a fake name, etc.)

  Using alcohol to loosen up and not feel so self-conscious

  Using drugs to cope with high expectations or to escape

  Purposely acting in ways that defy the expectations of others

  Becoming entitled; believing one is above the law

  Trying to buy one’s way into situations or out of trouble

  Needing things to be bigger, better, and riskier to enjoy them

  Not knowing who one is because one is always playing a part for the media

  Messy burnouts and meltdowns from the pressure

  Seeking therapy (and help for addictions, if one has them)

  Striving to distinguish oneself in healthy ways

  PERSONALITY TRAITS THAT MAY FORM

  Attributes: Adaptable, cautious, cooperative, courteous, disciplined, discreet, extroverted, gen
erous, hospitable, independent, introverted, kind, loyal, mature, meticulous, obedient, organized, patient, private, proactive, proper, responsible, sentimental, socially aware, sophisticated, supportive, talented, unselfish

  Flaws: Addictive, callous, cocky, compulsive, confrontational, cynical, defensive, evasive, extravagant, foolish, frivolous, fussy, haughty, hypocritical, impatient, insecure, irresponsible, lazy, materialistic, melodramatic, paranoid, pretentious, rebellious, reckless, self-destructive, self-indulgent, selfish, tactless, temperamental, timid, vain, volatile, whiny, workaholic

  TRIGGERS THAT MIGHT AGGRAVATE THIS WOUND

  Discovering that a trusted friend is only interested in one’s fame and lifestyle

  A friend revealing one’s well-kept secret

  Being ripped apart in the media for spurning reporters

  Being misrepresented in the tabloids

  Being swarmed by paparazzi or fans when one was hoping to get away and de-stress

  Having one’s privacy invaded by the media

  An entitled fan demanding an autograph or a selfie

  OPPORTUNITIES TO FACE OR OVERCOME THIS WOUND

  Watching friends with normal lives follow their own paths, and wanting to do the same

  Developing a drug habit or other vice that is not sustainable

  Having a dream that conflicts with family expectations

  Developing depression and anxiety disorders that cause one to contemplate suicide

  Having a sibling who is struggling with the pressure and knowing they need an advocate

  Watching one’s child having difficulty relating to others

  Trying hard to maintain a clean public image, then being maligned by the media for something one didn’t do

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  GROWING UP IN THE SHADOW OF A SUCCESSFUL SIBLING

  EXAMPLES: Growing up with a brother or sister who…

  Excelled at a sport

  Was gifted in the arts

  Succeeded academically

  Was a celebrity

  Was a prodigy

  Was extremely popular or well-liked

  Was incredibly beautiful or handsome

  Excelled at everything he or she did

  BASIC NEEDS OFTEN COMPROMISED BY THIS WOUND: Love and belonging, esteem and recognition, self-actualization

  FALSE BELIEFS THAT COULD BE EMBRACED

  I’m ugly (or stupid, clumsy, etc.).

  I’m not good at anything.

  I will never be able to distinguish myself.

  I have nothing to offer.

  I can’t compete, so it’s pointless to try.

  People will always be more interested in my sibling than in me.

  No matter what I do in life, it won’t be good enough.

  If you want people to love you, you have to stand out.

  THE CHARACTER MAY FEAR…

  Never being able to distinguish himself

  Inadequacy

  Failing (and proving their inferiority)

  Being loved less than the sibling

  Being pitied

  Conditional love

  Taking risks and ending up worse off than they are now

  POSSIBLE RESPONSES AND RESULTS

  Pursuing an interest other than the one in which a sibling excels (even if one loves the same things)

  Being driven to succeed

  Struggling with low self-worth

  Needing desperately to distinguish oneself

  Always feeling one-upped by the sibling

  Friction with the sibling caused by one’s inferiority complex

  Constantly competing with the sibling out of a desire to beat them at anything

  Having low expectations for oneself

  Enjoying a sibling’s struggles or failures, then feeling guilty about it

  Becoming needy out of a desire to gain affection

  Adopting negative attention-seeking behaviors (being rebellious, fighting, abusing drugs, etc.)

  Confusing the sibling’s kindness with pity, and rejecting it

  Becoming devious or dishonest in order to appear more successful than one actually is

  Undermining one’s sibling so he or she will lose favor with others

  Rejecting one’s sibling as a peer; choosing friends who are part of a different peer group

  Becoming subservient to one’s sibling; losing one’s sense of personal identity

  Trying to be just like one’s sibling

  Being always on the lookout for favoritism, especially with one’s parents and relatives

  Becoming a people pleaser

  Relishing praise and compliments but wondering if they’re genuine

  Withdrawing from others

  Using a sibling’s accomplishments to get what one wants (access to a club or group, attention from the opposite sex, etc.)

  Purposely adopting positive traits that are different than one’s sibling’s (being merciful, easygoing, unselfish, etc.)

  Healthily distancing oneself from the sibling to cut down on drama and conflict

  Determining to take the high ground and support one’s sibling rather than tear them down

  Seeking to mend the relationship

  PERSONALITY TRAITS THAT MAY FORM

  Attributes: Ambitious, charming, courteous, disciplined, empathetic, flirtatious, imaginative, independent, pensive, persistent, private, quirky, responsible, studious, supportive

  Flaws: Catty, childish, cynical, devious, frivolous, humorless, insecure, irrational, lazy, needy, oversensitive, rebellious, resentful, temperamental, timid, vindictive, withdrawn

  TRIGGERS THAT MIGHT AGGRAVATE THIS WOUND

  One’s plans being canceled when a commitment comes up for someone else, highlighting again that one isn’t a priority with others

  Achieving something great but it being overshadowed by another’s accomplishment

  Parents missing an important moment in one’s life to attend a sibling’s event

  Discovering that one is being used by a friend to get to one’s sibling

  As an adult, being constantly overshadowed by a co-worker, parent, or other person

  OPPORTUNITIES TO FACE OR OVERCOME THIS WOUND

  Discovering that one’s sibling is also dealing with identity issues and is wanting to choose a different path but feels unable to do so

  One’s sibling turning to drugs to cope, and realizing that one can step in and offer support

  One’s parents blatantly favoring the sibling’s children over one’s own, causing one to take action

  Pursuing a passion despite a lack of giftedness and finding joy, regardless of the outcome

  Wanting to be supportive and happy for a partner who has received acclaim

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  GROWING UP WITH A SIBLING’S DISABILITY OR CHRONIC ILLNESS

  EXAMPLES: Getting through childhood can be difficult enough when life isn’t overly complicated. But having a sibling with chronic, long-term, or complex issues that require extra financial and physical attention from caregivers can make things much harder. Some examples of these issues include having a sibling with…

  A traumatic brain injury

  A failing organ in need of a transplant

  Cancer

  AIDS

  Cystic fibrosis, congenital heart problems, muscular dystrophy, cerebral palsy, seizure disorders, and other long-term afflictions

  Life-threatening eating disorders

  A physical disfigurement (loss of a limb, visible scarring, abnormal growths, etc.)

  Blindness, deafness, or muteness

  Mental disorders (OCD, depression, schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, etc.)

  Developmental disorders (autism spectrum disorders, Down syndrome, Tourette’s, etc.)

  BASIC NEEDS OFTEN COMPROMISED BY THIS WOUND: Safety and security, love and belonging, esteem and recognition, self-actualization

  FALSE BELIEFS THAT COULD BE EMBRACED

  My parents love him
or her more than me.

  It doesn’t matter what I do; my sibling will always be more important than me.

  This (parents divorcing, being unable to pursue a passion, etc.) is my sibling’s fault.

  I’m a terrible person for feeling anger (or resentment, frustration, etc.) about this.

  Life is not permanent. I could die at any time.

  I need to excel in some way so this gift of good health isn’t squandered.

  The only constant in life is pain. Anything good will be taken from me eventually.

  THE CHARACTER MAY FEAR…

  The sibling dying

  Dying or being struck with the same affliction

  That life will never be any different

  Never being able to achieve their dreams

  Always being loved second best by their parents (or a spouse, their children, etc.)

  POSSIBLE RESPONSES AND RESULTS

  Avoiding the sibling in public (as a child)

  Acting out as a way of getting a parent’s attention (when young)

  Overachieving as a means of earning a parent’s love

  Becoming independent out of necessity

  Seeking comfort and escape as a youth through overindulging (in food, gaming, etc.)

  Developing an eating disorder

  Maturing early emotionally

  Becoming overly compliant to one’s parents so as not to add to their burden

  Hiding one’s true feelings because one feels guilty about them

  Getting upset over little things

  Distancing oneself from the family unit

  Becoming anxious about oneself or a parent falling ill

  Exhibiting hypochondriac tendencies

  Rebelling against authority; becoming defiant

  Difficulties focusing and concentrating at school

  Sneaking out to escape one’s home and the constant reminders of illness

  Acting out whenever the sibling’s circumstances interfere with one’s plans

  Shyness with non-family members

  Neediness in peer relationships

  Blaming all of one’s misfortunes on the sibling’s illness

 

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