Pieces of Me

by Pua Ramona

  “Hi Grandma.” I look over my shoulder and see Marino and Emma walking over to Miss Rita. Seeing this asshole in here does nothing but piss me off. What really pisses me off is how he cares for Emma as if she’s his own daughter. Yeah, so the fuck what? I’m fucking jealous, and I feel my chest tightening. I haven’t really spent any time with Emma, so I don’t really know her. But the way Lei and Reese talk about her, Emma’s the perfect kid and that they wouldn’t mind if they had a baby. Just as long as their fetus was born with Emma’s cuteness and manners.

  My train of thought is cut short when I hear the asshole say “I’m sorry for your loss Mama.” What the fuck? I look over to see if Reese is seeing this shit but instead of being irritated like I am he’s more relaxed. Lei looks at me and just shrugs her shoulders. Do they know something that I don’t? Because if they’re not shocked and pissed off like I am, then I’m missing something. Reese looks at me and shakes his head no then goes back to packing.

  “Thank you Rino. What time did your flight get in?” asks miss Rita. What the fuck? Their flight? Maybe I didn’t hear her right. “Our flight was on time, but the traffic was pretty bad,” says the asshole. My heart starts beating fast and I know I have to get the fuck out of here, because if I stay I’m going to say something I’ll regret. I grab my keys and I feel Mama’s hand on my arm.

  I look over at her and she says, “Don’t do this right now son. They just lost Micah so whatever crazy you have in your head right now, set it aside out of respect for the family. If not, do it for her.” My shoulders fall and I know I’m being fucking asshole right now. Micah just passed away and I’m over here worried about my feelings being hurt. I take a deep breath and walk back to where Lei is and help her with clearing out the cabinets and the shelves.

  “Are you okay?” she asks.

  I look at her and snap “Micah just passed, I’ve just watched Sina break in front of us, and she’s fucking pregnant with Marino’s baby. So no I’m not okay.” I know I’ve fucked up because Lei’s face is red and she has tears in her eyes, fuck. I grab her wrist and kiss her temple. “I’m an asshole. I’m sorry Lei.” I apologize. She looks at me with tears running down her face as I say, “I’m not mad at you. It’s been a long day for everyone.”

  “She’s pregnant and she never said anything to us?” She cries.

  “I know Lei. But we can’t be mad at her because we kept this from her too” I remind her.

  More tears fill her eyes and she says, “But it wasn’t our story to tell.”

  I look down at her and ask “Would you be angry if it were Reese?” Her hand covers her mouth and she chokes on her sob. “Is she wrong for being angry?” I say as I pull her in and hold her against my chest.

  She shakes her head no and asks “Are you going to tell her about the baby?”

  “I don’t know Lei, she’s pregnant and from the look of things they seem happy.” I feel a sharp pain in my chest and all I want to do is leave here, but I don’t because the Peterson’s need us.

  Lei takes a deep breath and says “They do look like they’re in love.” I close my eyes and I die a little.

  I’m not sure what Miss Rita and Marino speak about, but he says his goodbyes then gives Emma a squeeze before handing her over to Luka.

  “I love you Rino,” Emma says.

  He leans down and kisses her forehead and says “I love you more Honey girl.” Emma gives him a sad smile and tears start running down her face.

  “Alright man, thanks for bringing them home,” Luka says.

  He looks at Luka and says “No thanks needed, I’d do anything for my girls.” Luka nods his head then kisses Emma on top of her head. Marino walks past me and doesn’t even look at me. Asshole.

  “How’s my favorite girl doing?” Luka asks.

  Emma smiles at him and says “I’m tired.

  He smiles at her and asks “You like Marino?”

  Emma’s eyes sparkle and she says “He takes care of me and Mama. And he’s always home to eat dinner with us.”

  I can’t listen to their conversation anymore so I grab my keys and say “I’m going to go grab us something to snack on. I’ll be right back.” I feel Mama and Miss Rita’s eyes on me, but I can’t look at either of them, because my heart is hurting. When Emma said He’s always home a piece of my heart broke. I knew she was going to move on, but I didn’t expect for it to happen so soon. And I really didn’t expect for her to move on with fucking Marino. The more I think about them, the angrier I feel.

  I almost make it out the door, when I hear Laura behind me.

  “Hey handsome, are you leaving?” she asks.

  I am definitely not in the fucking mood for this shit, but I don’t want to be mean either. She steps in front of me and starts biting on her lower lip. Now don’t get me fucking wrong, if I wasn’t so hung up on Sina, I would’ve had her somewhere in this building, bent over and getting fucked hard. But I’m not turned on at all. If anything I’m more fucking irritated with her little stupid ass games. She puts her hand on my chest, but I stop her before she starts rubbing on me.

  “Laura. I can’t do this” I say.

  She pouts and I feel myself getting pissed off.

  “I can make you feel better darling” she says. She takes a few steps and is right in my face, but before she starts speaking again I step back.

  “I’m not fucking interested Laura” I snap.

  She looks surprised. I know she’s mad because she gives me a bitchy look and says “Fuck you, asshole”, as she flicks her hair and walks away from me. I chuckle as I walk out of the building. I’m pretty much over today. Micah passing, Becca not being pregnant with my baby, then Sina showing up home with a baby in her belly. Yeah, I’m losing my shit.

  The air outside feels so good, especially with everything that’s going on right now. I needed fresh air in my lungs. My phone starts going off but I’m too distracted watching Sina and Becca on the bench talking right now. What the fuck is going on? Instead of walking to my truck, I want to make sure they aren’t going to kill each other. So I walk over to where they are. I’m close enough to hear them, but what shocks me is Becca reaching out to Sina. I expect that behavior from Sina, not Becca.

  Sina reaches for Becca and they’re both fucking crying, and it’s uncomfortable to watch. I mean, seeing two women who’ve played certain parts in your life, comforting each other is a weird scenario to see play out in front of your eyes. I walk closer until I hear Becca tell Sina that she’s having Micah’s baby. Sina asks Becca to repeat herself before she passes out. I make it to her just in time to catch her before she hits the ground.

  “What the fuck Becca?” I snap.

  Becca looks at me and says “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to upset her.”

  I look at her and say “You didn’t think to wait to share that news with her some other time? What? You felt so fucking guilty that you needed Sina to forgive your bullshit?”

  Becca steps back like I just hit her. “That’s not why I did it,” she cries. I wrap my arms around Sina and I sit down on the bench with her in my lap. “Should I get someone?” Becca asks.

  I look at her and say “Just let her family know what happened and that she’s with me.” I make sure she’s tucked safely in my arms and I stand up and walk to my truck.

  “Where are you taking her?” Becca asks.

  I look over my shoulder and say “I’m taking her home.”

  “Take care of her Eli.” Becca says as she walks back inside the building.

  Fuck, she smells so good. Yeah, I sniffed her. I forgot how good she feels in my arms, not realizing how much I’ve missed it. I park my truck in the garage because it’s easier for me to get her inside. I think about laying her on the couch, but decide that she’d be more comfortable in a bed. My bed. I just hope when she wakes up there that she doesn’t freak the fuck out. I did bring her home without her permission, she’ll probably think I kidnapped her. Shit!

  She looks so fucking beautiful
in my bed. I stand there and watch her until she moans. Well it isn’t a moan, but it sounded like one and it makes my dick jump all the same. She starts to move a little in her sleep so I make sure that she can’t see how hard I am. I don’t need her to wake up to me looming over her with my dick standing to attention like a weirdo. I adjust myself before I sit down next to her. Her hair is in her face so I tuck it behind her ear.

  Her eyes start to open and I want so badly to lean down and kiss her mouth. Fuck. I need to stop thinking about her lips because my dick is about to bust out of my jeans. It takes her a few seconds then the air is sucked out of my body as she opens her pretty brown eyes. I’m not sure if she’s still in shock or what, but her eyes are locked on mine. I lean and kiss her on the forehead and whisper “Hey beautiful.”

  She closes her eyes and takes a deep breath. “Hey you” she whispers. Fuck, I missed her voice. Fuck, I missed her so damn much. The way she’s looking me was does things to my insides and all I want to do is fuck her.

  “Eli” she whispers.

  I clear my throat and say, “Yes beautiful.” I see tears in her eyes and my heart starts aching for her.

  “Make it stop hurting” she cries.

  “Sina” I sigh.

  “Please. It hurts so much” she says. I can’t find my voice, but I know I can’t fucking take advantage of her. She closes her eyes and tears start falling down her face, soaking my pillow. She starts getting out of the bed and says “Take me home please?” I’m not ready to take her anywhere, I just fucking got her back.

  “Stay. Please” I say, begging her not to leave me again and taking her wrist in my hand. But she doesn’t say anything. She tries to pull away from me, but I stop her and pull her into me instead. Her back is to my front and my dick is harder now it's pressed up against her ass. I know she can felt me up against her, but I don’t give a fuck. I want her. I want to be inside of her. I move her hair out of the way because I need to taste her. She tilts her head to the side giving me better access to her neck and I plant little kisses there, making her moan. I can feel her heart thunder through her chest as I trail my tongue from her ear to her shoulder slowly.

  “Eli” she moans.

  “Shh. I want to feel you Sina” I whispered in her ear. I slowly move my hands under her knitted sweater and she starts panting. “Is this okay baby?” I ask and she nods as my hands find their way to her breasts. I tuck the cups of her bra down and start rubbing her nipples and sucking her neck softly. I need to see her so I peel her sweater over her head and throw it on the floor.

  “Eli” she moans. She turns around and faces me. I don’t mean to look, but my eyes land on her pregnant belly. I’m not going to lie and say that I don’t die a little on the spot. I don’t realize that I’m staring until the next thing I see is her picking up her sweater and getting ready to put it back on. Fuck. I wrap my arm around her waist and halt her progress.

  “I’m sorry” I whisper. Her shoulders shake with tears and I feel like the biggest fucking asshole in the world. I spin her so I can see her face and my heart hurts for her. She’s hurting and I don’t know how to fix it. But I know I can help her forget the pain for a little while at least

  I start kissing her neck, working a path down to the middle of her chest, then I kiss my way to her left nipple as I rub on her other one with my finger tips. Her breasts are so full that I can't fit it in my mouth but she tastes so damn good that I can’t stop myself from trying. I can feel my dick getting harder, straining against my pants. I start sucking her other nipple and she moans louder. I kiss my way down to her belly and my heart breaks in a million fucking pieces. I want to stop, but I need to do this for us. She needs me like this right now, so this is what I’ll be for her.

  “Eli” she cries. I don’t stop, even when I know she was feeling the lost like I am. I pause at her belly and kiss it three times. I slowly slide her yoga pants down along with her panties, and I can smell her wetness already. I kiss my way up her thighs, she’s so wet that it’s running down her thighs. I run my hand up her thigh, then start rubbing on her clit making her moan. I lean into her and start licking her pussy, running my tongue through her folds. I even love the way her pussy fucken smells. I use my teeth and pull on her clit just a little bit, and she grabs my head with both hands. “That feels so good,” she grinds into my face. I use two fingers and start fucking her pussy slowly with them. She moans louder and my dick gets harder. I pull my fingers out and suck them clean. I stand up and walk her to the bed. I lay her down and start taking my jeans and boxers off. I kick them to the side and my dick pops up. I love that she’s watching me, so I grab my dick and started stroking it.

  “Touch yourself for me Baby” I say. She bites her lower lip between her teeth and spreads her legs wide enough for me to see her pussy. She runs her hand between her legs then she starts rubbing on her clit. “Don’t stop” I growl, “Now stick two fingers inside your pussy and fuck it for me.” I stand here and watch her, stroking my dick in time with her fingers. “I fucking love watching you fuck yourself Baby.” I can’t take it anymore climbing onto the bed and settling between her thighs. I spread her legs wider, kissing my way up her thigh heading straight for her pussy. I use my tongue on her clit and nibble on her with my fucking teeth.

  “That feels so good,” she moans. She grabs my hair and starts pulling on it.

  I move my face away from her pussy and say,“Fuck my face Baby.” She pulls my hair and starts fucking my face hard. I wrap my arms around her thighs and make sure my face is smothered by her pussy. Fuck, she I love the way she tastes.

  “I’m going to come Eli” she moans. She tries to pull her pussy away from my face, but my arms hold her in place as I fuck her with my tongue. I’m not going to stop until she comes in my mouth. “Oh my god! I’m coming, Eli. I’m coming” she screams. I feel her pussy tightening around my tongue and I slide two fingers in at the same time, and she fucking detonates around me. I pull my fingers out sucked on clean before kissing her thighs and working my way up to her mouth. I want her to know what she tastes like on my tongue. I’m dying to be inside of her and I want her to fucking ride my dick. I help her up on top of me and make sure she’s comfortable.

  “Are you okay I ask but she doesn’t say anything. Instead she gently grabs my dick and starts running it up and down her pussy.

  “Fuck” I moan. She’s going to make me come and I’m not even inside her yet. She lifts her ass up a little and guides my dick to her center then she lowers herself on me. “Shit! You’re so tight baby” I whisper. I’m not sure if I’m going to last that long because her pussy feels fucking amazing wrapped around my dick. “Don’t stop babe, please don’t stop.” Fuck, she’s going to be the fucking death of me. I sit up and wrap her legs around my waist.

  “Ah Eli” she moans.

  “Fuck!” I hold her on my dick and fuck her. “Fuck me Sina” I whisper in her ear. She doesn’t slow down at all, but she does do as she's told and my girl fucks me hard. I feel my balls tightening and I know she’s close to coming again because her pussy starts clamping around my dick. “Fuck, I’m going to come baby. Come with me.”

  “I’m coming” she says. I bite down on her shoulder and I feel her coming on my dick. I don’t stop thrusting until I empty all my cum inside of her. Then it hits me straight in the heart. She’s already pregnant, and it isn’t my baby. Everything hits me hard and I realize I just had angry sex with someone who’ s pregnant and who isn’t mine. This shouldn’t have happened but it’s too late to take it back.

  She leans in to kiss me and I pull away from her. I fucking pulled away from her. Her face falls and I feel like the biggest fucking asshole in the world. She doesn’t say anything and I don’t expect her to after the way I just fucking made her feel. She gets out of the bed and goes to collect her clothes and she walks out of my room.

  “Fuck!” I get up and grab a pair of sweats. I’m worried that she’s going to leave, so I don’t waste time finding a
shirt. I walk past the kitchen and stop when I see her waiting by the door. I can’t believe how beautiful she looks. Pregnancy looked so good on her, she’s glowing and I can’t help the jealousy I was feeling at someone else's baby being in her belly. I should just grab the keys and drive her to her parents house, but because I’m feeling angry I decide to have words with her.

  I take a few steps toward her and she takes a couple of steps back, and that pisses me off more. Because I’m an asshole and this is the only woman who makes me feel so many fucking emotions, I can’t stop the shit that comes out of my mouth.

  “So you let me fuck you when you’re pregnant with another man’s baby but you won’t stop and talk to me without backing up?” I snap. She looks at me like I just slapped her and she takes a deep breath. I should stop talking, but it’s too fucking late. I’m hurting and I want her to feel what I feel so I continue hurting her with my words.

  “Does he fuck you good the way that I just did?” I taunt. Her face is turning red and I know I’m hurting her. “Are you that fucking mad at me that you begged me to fuck you, when you could’ve left with him and let him fuck you” I snap again. “I mean, you’re carrying his baby and you just fucking allowed me to fuck that pussy.”

  “Eli stop,” she whispers.

  “Does he know that you cheat on him? I hurt you that bad that you’re doing the same shit Michael did to you? I thought you were better than that.” I know I’m digging myself a deeper hole but I can’t stop myself. I chuckle and say “You’re just another Becca, and I hope you’re happy with yourself.”

  Tears are running down her beautiful face and I can’t get myself to give a fuck. I’m so blinded by my own emotions that I don’t care how she gets home anymore. I don’t care about how her family will feel about me, I just don't want anything to do with her anymore. She’s crying and I don’t feel anything. I need to get over her so I say, “Get the fuck out of my house, and have a good life just as long as you’re not in mine.”