When Stars Are Bright

by Amber R. Duell

  Contents

  Copyright

  Dedication

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  Chapter 22

  Epilogue

  Acknowledgments

  About the Author

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  WHEN STARS ARE BRIGHT

  Copyright © 2019 by Amber R. Duell.

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  This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, brands, trademarks, places, and incidents either are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events, locales, organizations, or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental and beyond the intent of either the author or the publisher.

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  For Mom

  Thanks for crying over this one!

  There’s a certain thrill in doing something forbidden. Sneaking out past curfew, dancing freely to a jazz band, stealing kisses in a dark corner. Any one of those things will send my mother into hysterics. I’m not sure what she’ll do if she finds out I’m doing them all at once. When she finds out, because she always does.

  But, if I want to see Christian, it’s my only choice.

  The band electrifies the air with each note they play. At least fifty strangers twist and turn around us in the empty barn, and the lingering scent of hay tickles my nose. Christian doesn’t seem to notice the lack of marble floors or fancy wall sconces. His eyes haven’t left my face since we got here, except for the kissing.

  His arms cocoon me near the wall, and I lean into his chest. He’s warm and sturdy against me, and I close my eyes. The soft thump of his heartbeat beneath my palm dulls the sharp edge of missing him, but it never stops cutting. It won’t as long as we’re forced to sneak around behind our parents’ backs.

  “Are you tired, Lina?” Christian twists one of my curls around his finger. “We can go.”

  “We’ve only been here an hour.” And there’s no telling how long until we can meet again. I stretch up on my toes, the hem of my yellow skirt tickling the back of my knees, and kiss the fine stubble on his cheek. “Come on. I love this song.”

  Pulling Christian behind me, I find a free spot in the middle of the barn. Dozens of worn, dusty boots and Mary Jane’s slam down on the planked floor, sending bits of straw and dirt into the air. The music vibrates against my body, and we join the rhythm.

  The band wears worn slacks and checkered shirts like the rest of the crowd. Christian’s the only one here without patched clothes or any idea of the work that will go into filling this barn with hay tomorrow. No one will have the energy for dancing after a day of haying. They’ll be lucky to drag themselves to bed before collapsing, my mother and I included, though it will be a different field we work in the morning.

  Sweat trickles down Christian’s temple as we kick up dust of our own, and a wide grin breaks out on my face. I’m not the best swing dancer, far from it, but I don’t care. Giving myself over to the music makes me feel weightless. Free. No one pays attention except Christian, and he’s not much better. When the trombone sounds its last note, I laugh and collapse into his arms, breathless.

  “Want to get something to drink?” I ask over the start of the next song.

  He nods and leads me back through the crowd. His cotton shirt clings to his skin, showing off the muscles in his arms and back, and gray suspenders hang down from his waist. After more than a year together, it’s the most I’ve seen of him, and it would be a lie to say I’m not enjoying it. If we didn’t have to sneak around, I’d make him go dancing every weekend for the view alone.

  “Wait here.” He slips under a slanted support beam at the back of the barn, and kisses me. When he steps away, he keeps hold of my hand until he’s too far to reach. “I’ll be right back.”

  I scoot farther under the protection of the beam until it grazes my hair, and watch his head bob above everyone else. A lantern burns beside me, casting a warm glow, and the band plays their own version of Puttin’ on the Ritz. There’s no singer tonight, without a microphone it would be impossible to hear one anyway, but I know the words. I hum along with the smooth sound of the saxophone, my foot tapping in time with the bass and, before I realize it, I’m singing.

  It’s a cheery tune, but I keep my voice quiet. My mother is the only one who’s heard me sing since I was little, and she insists I keep it that way. Being known as the infant abandoned in a tulip field, I’m used to whispers behind my back. Going steady with the heir to the Van Buren petroleum fortune only makes things worse. I don’t mind being thought of as an unlovable gold digger—not much anyway—but I’m tired of standing out. I especially have no interest in drawing a crowd tonight like I did when I was five. Twelve years later, I still get chills thinking about the people that closed in on me as I hummed in the marketplace.

  A heavy man inches along the wall, hunching over to fit beside me. His eyelids droop over dark eyes, and his round face is close enough that I can count the pockmarks. His breath wheezes over the music. “You have a lovely voice. Where did you get it?”

  I slam my mouth shut on the last line of the song. Naturally, the one time I sing in public someone’s listening. Though it’s only one person, this is somehow equally unnerving.

  “Have you thought about a career?” The strange man leans closer. From his dialect, it’s obvious he’s from a different part of Holland.

  “A career?” I shift away, and scan the crowd for Christian. When I don’t see him between here and the water barrel, I step away from the wall.

  The man bobs his head up and down, his jowls shaking, swallowing the yellow-stained Marlboro collar. “In show business. With that delicate face of yours, the blond hair and blue eyes, it would be easy to make a name for yourself. I’ve never felt an addictive quality as strong as yours either. Of course it’s rare. Where did you get it?”

  “I have no idea what you’re talking about.”

  “Keep your secrets, little Symric. Fairy folk always do.” He inches closer still. “But what do you say? You want to make it big in America with me?”

  My laugh is quick and high-pitched. Where are you, Christian? “No.”

  “You should.”

  “She should what?” Christian asks from the opposite direction. He steps up beside me without refreshments and wraps an arm around my shoulders. I lean closer.

  The man eases out from under the beam to reach his full height. He’s on the short side—five-foot-three, perhaps—but still over a foot taller than me. “I was complimenting her voice. No harm intended.”

  “I see.” Christian raises an
eyebrow and steers me toward the exit. “Let’s get some fresh air.”

  My lungs scream for it, but mostly I want to be away from the stranger. Away from the way his eyes burn holes into my back. I snuggle into Christian’s side.

  “Do you know him?” he asks. I shake my head. “Well, I’m sure he’s just a harmless drunk. Don’t worry.”

  Outside, the leaves show their backs in a promise of rain, but the moon shines down from a clear, starlit sky. The cool night air kisses my damp skin. I tilt my head back and take a deep breath. “I’m not worried,” I lie. I can still feel the man’s gaze roaming over me despite the wall between us.

  Christian leans me against the only car on the property: his brand new 1930 Bentley. He’s driven it for about two months now, and I’ve never seen him more excited to venture further out than our usual haunts. It’s not so different than his last vehicle—it has the same curved fenders, chrome grill, and brown leather interior. This one is green.

  “Good. Because I want all of your attention tonight,” he says.

  I fight a smile. “How greedy.”

  “Only when it comes to you.” He wiggles his eyebrows and leans over, his mouth hovering directly above mine.

  The familiar scent of mint leaves fill my senses, and my chest tightens when he closes the distance between us. His lips move gently against mine, and a tingle runs down my back when he cups my face. I clutch his neck, soaking him in. My fingers itch to move to the bit of exposed collarbone where the top buttons of his shirt are undone. But we agreed if we’re going to betray our parents with our relationship, we would at least keep things respectable.

  Sort of. Secret late-night rendezvous aren’t exactly on the up-and-up.

  “I should get you home,” he whispers.

  I groan. “Just a little longer?”

  “We both have an early morning tomorrow.” His bronze hair falls limp against his forehead, the gel spent after a long day at his father’s office and a night here with me. He traces my jaw line with a finger. “We’re already pressing our luck.”

  “Please?”I pull him against me and peek up from under my lashes.

  “Don’t look at me like that.” He turns his face, rubbing the back of his neck. “You know it tears me up to take you back there, not knowing when I’ll see you again.”

  I sigh, and look up at the stars twinkling overhead. He has more to lose with our relationship than I do. My mother will give me an earful, but his parents might disown him if he pushes too far. “I’m sorry. I know.”

  “I’d stay here with you all night if we could.” He kisses my cheek and moves a piece of hair behind my ear. “You know I would.”

  The barn door opens, releasing a louder blast of music. The man from under the beam steps outside and strikes a match. I can’t tell if he’s watching us from beneath the brim of his flat cap, but it feels like he is. Ducking under Christian’s arm, I scurry into the passenger seat without more prodding and force myself not to look back at the bright flame.

  Christian steps to the front vehicle and grabs the crankshaft while I fidget, keeping my eyes away from the windows. The engine rumbles to life. I rub my sweaty palms against my knees as he lowers himself behind the steering wheel.

  “Don’t be upset with me,” he says.

  “I’m not upset.” I’ve never been angry with him before, and I’m not going to start just because he’s being sensible.

  My willpower snaps, and I glance over my shoulder. Empty wagons stand along the front of the barn waiting to be hitched to teams of horses in the morning. A single tractor sits near the barn doors where a line of bicycles lean against the building. Smoke trails upward from the man’s lips, and he wanders idly between them, the red cherry blazing his path.

  My mouth runs dry. “Let’s go. Please.”

  “Should I say something to him?”

  “No. I’m sure I’m overreacting.” My voice wavers, and he shifts into first gear. Bits of gravel crunch beneath the tires. We pull away from the dance, and I twist in my seat to watch the building grow smaller behind us. It isn’t until the last bit of the barn vanishes behind a dark wood-shingled farm house that I exhale.

  Christian gives my hand a quick squeeze before shifting gears again, and the speedometer climbs to twenty-five kilometers. Usually I would be glad he was taking the trip so slow to give us an extra few minutes together, but not tonight. Not anymore.

  “He’s gone. We won’t go back there.”

  “We’re running out of places to go,” I grumble. “I hate having to sneak around like this.”

  He swallows hard. “I know it’s not ideal…”

  “It’s better than not seeing you at all.” I fiddle with the brass buttons running down the front of my dress and kick off my scuffed suede pumps to stretch my toes. The situation is wearing on me more than I’ll admit to him—I don’t actually like lying to my mother—but I don’t want him to think I’m calling it quits. I’ll keep this up the rest of my life if it means we can be together. “Maybe our parents will come around one day.”

  “Sooner than you expect, I hope.” He winks. “Which reminds me, I’ve been meaning to ask you about something.”

  “Oh, no. The last time you said that, you wanted to go on a drive with your friends. Remember?” That day is the reason Christian has a new car. A cyclist had sped around a bend, forcing us off the road, straight through a fence, and into a cow pasture. The wooden slats cracked both headlights, and sent us spinning across the field. “We ended up knee deep in mud. I can’t even say with certainty that’s all we were standing in.”

  His laughter fills the car. “You were up to your knees. It was only up to my ankles.”

  “Christian.” I swat his arm at the short joke. “It’s not funny. My mother barricaded me inside for a month after that. I’m surprised she didn’t throw away the key.”

  “No mud this time. I promise.” He shakes his head, his face sobering. “My parents are hosting a garden party next week.”

  “Oh, well in that case.” I pause. The nervous twitch in the corner of his eye tells me he’s perfectly serious. My jaw drops, and a choked noise escapes my throat. “What? No. Have you met your mother? She’s worse than mine. I’ll be chopped up into little pieces and served as an appetizer.”

  “That was...vivid.” He looks over at me with his big brown eyes. “Please? I promise everyone will behave.”

  I roll my eyes. “Don’t make promises you can’t keep.”

  We drive in silence then. Christian gnaws on the corner of his lip, and I study his silhouette. Each time feels like the last time I’ll be this close. The thought sucks the air from the car, from my lungs. One day it might happen. One day I might wake up and realize this was all a dream. The car comes to a stop at the top of a hill, and the engine drones.

  My cottage, a brick structure with a thatched roof and peeling white shutters, is nestled at the bottom between a creaky windmill and an empty tulip field. A candle glows in the front window, which means my mother’s awake. She must have checked on me and found the bed empty. I crinkle my nose. The lump of blankets I arranged beneath my quilt was convincing tonight too. So much for sneaking in.

  “I wouldn’t invite you to come if I thought there would be trouble,” Christian says, pulling my attention away from the window. “They’ll never see our side of things if we don’t make an effort to show it to them.”

  The way he’s leaning in, holding eye contact, I almost believe him. He does have a point. Maybe if they see us together, they’ll understand what we have is real, but his entire family is terrifying. They also take their parties very seriously. If anything happens, things will only get worse for us because, whatever it is, it’ll be my fault.

  “I don’t have anything to wear,” I say as an excuse.

  “Wear this.” He touches my puff sleeve. “It’s a pretty dress. You don’t have to doll yourself up to please anyone.”

  “I don’t know.” It’s easy for him to say, but I know
the looks I’ll get if I show up in the house dress I wear to milk cows. I don’t own a pair of shoes without dirt stuck in the seams, my hair is long and out of fashion, and I don’t own a stitch of rouge. “Did you ask your mother if I could come?”

  His cheeks burn bright, and he picks at the steering wheel. “I didn’t want to give her the chance to say no. If you’re there, she can’t do anything about it without making a scene in front of all her friends.”

  “Does that really sound like a good idea to you?” It sounds more like a death wish to me.

  “I’ll beg if I have to,” he warns.

  I shake my head and slip my shoes back on. “I’ll come if she says I can. I don’t want her to hate me more than she already does.”

  “Please.” He takes my hands. “For me?”

  Every piece of my body warns me not to go. Instigating trouble with his parents is about the worst thing we can do, especially when they have enough money to force things to go their way. Our landlord is senile, his children eager to sell the tulip farm. It wouldn’t take much to press the issue. My mother and I might as well move now before we’re thrown out with the clothes on our back. But the Van Buren’s wouldn’t go that far if I went to one little party.

  Right?

  “Fine,” I blurt. “Against my better judgment, I’ll go.”

  His face lights up. “You won’t be sorry.”

  Yes, I will. I already regret it. His world is closed off and confining, but he doesn’t see it like I do. Even if he doesn’t agree with all the rules, he’s used to fine food, polite conversation, and proper manners. He can’t throw an outsider like me at his society parents and expect them to be okay with it. They’re looking for a proper daughter-in-law, not some spinster’s charity case.