Stone of Tears

by Terry Goodkind

  Captain Ryan finally looked to the ground and pushed snow with his boot. "Forgive me, Mother Confessor, but I still don't like it. It puts you at danger for nothing of much gain."

  "That is not true. There are two more important reasons I must do this. First, when I left the Order's camp last night, I was being chased by about fifty men. The D'Harans have no doubt that those fifty men will catch me, and kill me."

  The Captain stiffened. "You mean there are fifty men roaming around looking for you?"

  "No. They are all dead. To a man. But the men back at camp don't know that. When they see me, all white, like a spirit, they will think I was killed, as I should have been, and that it is my spirit in their midst. It will only frighten them further."

  "All fifty...!" He peered up at her. "And what's the second reason?"

  Kahlan stared at him for a moment. Her voice came softly. "When those men of the Order see me, whether they think me a spirit, or they think me a naked woman on a horse before them, they will stare. While they are staring, they cannot kill our men. But we can kill them. It will divert their attention from the men, to me."

  He gazed silently at her as she went on. "I would suffer any embarrassment on my part," she said, "if it will save the life of even one of our men. I must do this to help them, and to keep them alive."

  He looked to the ground as he put his hands in his pockets.

  "I never knew the Mother Confessor was a person who cared this much for her people," he whispered. "I never knew before, that she cared at all what happened to any of us." He looked up at last. "Is there anything at all I can say to talk you out of doing this?"

  Kahlan smiled. "There is only one man in the world who could keep me from doing this, and you are not he." She laughed quietly. "In fact, if he knew what I was about to do, I'm sure he would forbid it."

  His curiosity overcame his caution. "One man? Is he your mate?" She shook her head. "He is the one you will choose as your mate?"

  Kahlan sighed pleasantly. "No. He is the one I am to wed. At least I hope to wed him. He asked me to marry him." She smiled at the confused look on his face. "His name is Richard. He is the Seeker."

  Captain Ryan stiffened and his breath cut off. "If I'm asking what I shouldn't, just say so, but I thought all Confessors used their power... I thought, your magic would... I didn't think Confessors could... marry."

  "They can't. But Richard is special. He has the gift, and my power cannot harm him."

  Captain Ryan smiled at last. "I'm glad. I'm happy for you, Mother Confessor."

  Kahlan lifted an eyebrow. "But if you ever meet him, don't you dare tell him about this... pretending to be a spirit business. He has rather fusty views about such things. If you told him you let me run around naked with a thousand of your men, he would probably take your head off."

  Kahlan laughed at the alarmed look on the Captain's face.

  "Captain, I need a sword."

  "A sword! Now you're going to fight, too!"

  Kahlan leaned toward him. "Captain, if I'm sitting there naked, and a D'Haran wishes to despoil my honor, how am I to defend myself unless I have a sword?"

  "Oh. Well, I see your point."

  He thought a moment. An idea brightened his face and he withdrew his own sword from its scabbard. He held the weapon out in both hands. It was an old sword, with a blade pattern wielded in the old fashion and acid etched in the fuller to display the wavy folds of steel.

  "This blade was given to me by Prince Harold when I became an officer. He said it was his father's, that it was one that belonged to King Wyborn himself. He said King Wyborn held it once in battle." He shrugged self-consciously. "Of course, a King has many swords, and holds many of them in battle at least once, so they will be said to have been wielded by a King in defense of his kingdom. So it's not really valuable, or anything." He looked up expectantly. "But I would be honored if you took it as yours. It seems only right that, well, since you are King Wyborn's daughter, I guess, that you should wield his sword in battle. Maybe it has magic, or something, and will help protect your life."

  Kahlan carefully lifted the sword from his hands.

  "Thank you, Bradley. This means a lot to me. You are wrong; it is valuable. I will carry it with honor. But I will not keep it. When I am finished, and leave for Aydindril in a couple of days, then I will return it, and you will have a sword wielded not only by a king, but by the Mother Confessor, too."

  He grinned with the idea of that.

  "Now, would you please post a guard outside this tent? And then see to the swordsmen?"

  He smiled a little smile and brought his fist to his heart. "Of course, Mother Confessor."

  As Kahlan went inside the warm tent, he was already returning with three men. He had a scowl on his face as serious as any scowl she had ever seen on any officer's face.

  "And while the Mother Confessor is in her bath, you will keep your back to the tent, and not let anyone near. Is that clear!"

  "Yes, Captain," the three wide eyed soldiers said together.

  Inside, in the warmth, Kahlan leaned the sword against the tub, slipped off the fur mantle, and then her clothes. She was so tired she felt sick. Her stomach felt as if it were rising and falling in waves. Her head spun so that she had to fight nausea that swelled in bouts.

  She dragged her hand through the whitewash. It was hot, like a wonderful bath. But this was no bath. She lifted her legs over the edge one at a time, and eased herself down into the silky smooth, white water. Her breasts felt buoyant in the milky pool. For a few minutes, she draped her arms over the sides of the tub, closed her eyes, and pretended it was a hot bath. She wished so much that it could be a bath. But it wasn't.

  It was something she did to keep some men alive, and to kill others. She would wear white as the Mother Confessor always did, but it would not be her dress, as always before.

  Kahlan held the hilt of her father's sword between her breasts, with the length of the blade running down her body, against her belly, and between her legs. She crossed her ankles and kept her legs apart so as not to slice her thighs on the weapon. She held her nose closed with her other hand, squeezed her eyes shut tight, took a deep breath, and then submerged herself.

  42

  Richard and Sister Verna continued on, through a dark and humid, dank and stifling, tunnel of green, ascending the gently sloping road toward the humming, haunting sound of distant flutes. Branches holding not only their own leaves, but vines of every sort spiraling around and over them, and pale moss hanging in wispy curtains, filled the gaps between trunks to the sides, and nearly closed off the light from above.

  Short walls to each side, looking to have been built in an attempt to hold back the tangled growth, were instead being snared by it and slowly enfolded into the creeping, leafy mat of life they sought to retain. From joints in the stone block, vines sprouted, surrounding and smothering whole sections of wall, bulging it in other places, pushing the occasional stone out to hang at drunken angles, unable to fall to the ground because of the net of tendrils. The walls looked as if they were prey, being swallowed by a ponderous predator.

  Only one part the walls were untouched by the forest life—the human skulls. Atop the walls to each side, they were spaced at intervals of no more than three feet, each sitting on its own square of lichen splotched stone, each clean of growth, looking like so many finials with eye sockets and toothy grins. Richard had lost count of the number of skulls.

  His curiosity, his dread, failed to overcome his stubborn silence. He and the Sister had not spoken since their last argument. He had not even slept in camp with her, preferring instead to spend his watch, and the rest of the night, hunting and sleeping with Gratch. Sister Verna's angry silence was, at last, no match for his. He had no intention, this time, of being the one to make amends. They both contented themselves with looking at anything but each other.

  Opening into sunlight, the road widened, splitting in the distance around a striated pyramid. Richard frowned, t
rying to see what made it look the way it did—a dotted, pale, tan, with darker bands at evenly spaced intervals up its sides. He judged its height at three times his eye level from where he sat atop Bonnie.

  As they approached, he realized the mound was constructed entirely of bones. Human bones. The dotted tan parts were skulls, and the bands were leg and arm bones placed end out in layers. He guessed there must be tens of thousands of skulls in the orderly heap. He stared as they rode past; Sister Verna didn't seem to take notice.

  Beyond the bone pile, the wide road led into a plaza of a dark and hazy city in the middle of the thick forest. The flat hilltop had been cleared of every tree, as had the terraced fields they had passed not an hour before.

  The fields looked to be in preparation for planting. The ground was freshly turned, and there were stick people to scare away the birds when the seed was planted. It was winter, yet here, in this place, people planted. Richard thought it a wonder.

  Rather than feeling open, after riding in on the tunneled road, this vast city, cleared of every bit of green that surrounded it, seemed even more closed and dark. Buildings were square, with flat roofs, and faced with dingy plaster the color of bark. Near the roofs, and at each floor level, the ends of support logs stuck from the plastered walls. Windows were small, with never more than one in a wall. The buildings varied in height, but most were attached into irregular blocks. The tallest must have had four floors. None had the slightest variation in style, other than their height.

  Haze and wood smoke obscured the sky, and the buildings in the distance. The plaza seemed simply an open place around a well in the center, and was the only open area of any size. It quickly terminated in narrow, dark streets with smooth walls rising up to each side, creating man-made chasms. Overhead, many of the blocky buildings bridged the streets, making them dark tunnels, and where there were none of the bridging buildings overhead, wash hung on lines between opposing windows. Some streets were cobblestone, but most were mud, running with fetid water.

  People in drab, loose fitting clothes filled the narrow streets, walked barefoot through the mud, stood with their arms folded, watching, or sat in groups in doorways. Women carrying clay water jugs on their heads, and balanced with the aid of a single hand, moved tight against the walls to make room for the three horses. They made their way to and from the well in indifferent silence as Richard and Sister Verna passed.

  A few older men sat in wide doorways, or leaned against walls. The men wore brimless, straight sided, round, dark flat topped hats, with strange markings in light colors that looked to have been painted on with fingers. Many of the men smoked thin-stemmed pipes. Conversation fell silent as Richard and Sister Verna passed, and all watched the two strangers and three horses moving by. Some idly tugged on a long, dangling earing the men wore in their left ears.

  Sister Verna led the way through the narrow streets, taking them deeper into the maze of drab buildings. When they at last reached a wider cobblestone street, she halted, turned to him, and spoke in quiet warning.

  "These people are the Majendie. Their land is a vast, crescent shaped swath of forests. We must travel the length of their land, all the way to the point of the horn of their land. They worship spirits. Those skulls we saw back there were sacrifices to their spirits.

  "Though they hold foolish beliefs which are reprehensible, we do not have the power to change them. We need to pass through their land. You will do as they ask, or our skulls will end up with all the others on that pile."

  Richard refused to give her the satisfaction of an answer or an argument. He sat with his hands folded over the pommel of his saddle and without emotion watched her until she finally turned away and started out once more.

  After passing under a low, bridge building, they entered a slightly dished, open square. Perhaps a thousand men milled about or clustered in small groups. Like the other men he had seen, these all wore the one long, dangling earing, though on the right side instead of the left. They also all wore short swords and black sashes. Unlike the other men, none of these wore hats on their shaved heads.

  Off in the center, a raised platform held a circle of men sitting cross-legged, facing inward, around a thick pole. Here was the source the eerie melody. A circle of women in black sat in a ring, facing outward, around the men.

  Standing with her back against the pole, a big woman in a billowing black outfit slid the back of her hand up the pole and took hold of a knot in the end of a rope hanging from a bell. As she watched Richard and the Sister ride into the square she rang the bell once. The Sister brought them to an abrupt halt as the piercing peal drifted across the square, hushing the men, and urging the flute players into faster strains.

  "That is a warning," Sister Verna said. "A warning to the spirits of their enemies. The bell is also a call to the warriors present. Those are these men here in the square. The spirits have been warned, and the warriors called. If she rings that bell again, we die." Sister Verna glanced to his even expression. "This is a sacrifice ritual, to appease spirits."

  She watched men come and take hold of the reins to their horses. The circle of women in black stood and began to dance and twirl to the haunting music. When Sister Verna glanced at him again, Richard, with deliberate care, checked that his sword was loose in its scabbard. She sighed and then dismounted. When she cleared her throat in annoyance, he finally dismounted, too.

  Sister Verna drew her light cloak tight around herself as she spoke to him while watching the women in black dance and spin around the pole and the woman in the center.

  "The Majendie live in a crescent around a land of swampy forest in which live their enemy. The people who live in the heart of that forbidding land are a wild, savage lot, and will not allow any of us through their land, much less guide us. Even if we could avoid them, we would become lost within an hour, and never find our way out. The only way for us to reach the Palace of the Prophets, which lies beyond these savages, is to go around them, along the crescent of land belonging to the Majendie. Our destination lies between the cusps of the crescent belonging to the Majendie, and beyond the savages in the center."

  She glanced over, to make sure he was at least listening, before she went on. "The Majendie are at constant war with the savages who live in that swampy forest. In order to be permitted through Majendie land, we must prove we are allied with them and their spirits, and not their enemy.

  "Those skulls we saw are the skulls of this enemy, who were sacrificed to the Majendie spirits. In order for us to be permitted to pass, we must help them in this sacrifice. The Majendie believe that men with the gift, like all men, carry the seed of life and soul, endowed by the spirits. More, they believe that one with the gift has a special, direct link with the spirits. A sacrifice made with the aid of a young man with the gift confers the sanctifying grace of their spirits upon all their people. They believe it breathes life, divine life, on their people.

  "The Majendie require this participation when we bring young boys through for the first time, believing it links their spirits to those of the Majendie. This ceremony also insures that the people with whom they are at war will hate wizards, because they help the Majendie, and will never cooperate with them. This, the Majendie believe, denies their enemy a divine channel to the spirit world."

  The men in the square all drew their short swords. Laying the swords on the ground with their points toward the woman in the center, they knelt with shiny heads bowed.

  "The woman who rang the bell, the one in the center, is the leader of these people. The Queen Mother. She is the one who is bound to the female spirits. She represents the spirits of fertility in this world. She is the embodiment of the receptacle of the divine seed from the spirit world."

  The dancing women in black formed into a line and started off the platform in the direction of Richard and the Sister.

  "The Queen Mother is sending her representatives to take you to the sacrificial offering." Sister Verna glanced up at him, then fussed with
the corner of her cloak. "We are fortunate. This means they have one to be sacrificed. If we came here and they didn't, we would have to wait until one of their enemy was captured. Sometimes that can take weeks, even months."

  Richard said nothing.

  She turned her back to the approaching women in black and faced him. "You will be taken to a place where the prisoner is held. There you will be offered the chance to give your blessing. Not giving your blessing means you wish to precede the prisoner in sacrifice. If you don't give your blessing, it will only ensure that you die, too.

  "You give your blessing by kissing the sacred knife they will offer you. You don't have to kill the person with your own hand. You have only to kiss the knife to give your blessing, to give the spirits' blessings, and they will do the killing. But you must watch them do it, so the spirits will see the sacrifice through your eyes." She glanced over her shoulder at the approaching women in black. "The beliefs of these people are obscene."

  She sighed in resignation and turned to face him again. Richard folded his arms and glared at her.

  "I know you don't like this, Richard, but it has kept peace for three thousand years between us and the Majendie. Though it sounds a paradox, it saves lives, more lives than it costs. The savages who are their enemy make war not only on them, but also on us. The Palace, and the civilized people of the Old World, are sporadically subjected to their raids and fierce attacks."

  Small wonder, Richard thought, but he said nothing.

  Sister Verna stepped aside to stand at his shoulder as the women in black formed into a dark knot before the two of them. All were older, perhaps the age of grandmothers. They were all portly, and their black outfits covered their hair and everything else except their wrinkled hands and faces.

  With gnarled fingers, one drew the coarse, black fabric tight at her chin. She bowed her head to Sister Verna. "Welcome, wise woman. Our sentries have told us of your approach for nearly a day now. We are pleased to have you among us, for it is the time of the planting sacrifice. Though we had not expected your presence, it will be a great homage to the spirits to have the blessing in the sacrifice."