With Us (Next Generation Book 2)

by J. M. Walker

  “Shade.”

  Turning back around, I headed into the bathroom. I walked past Sunny but couldn’t meet his gaze. It wasn’t like I had any intention of saying those words.

  When the door shut, my heart jumped.

  “What did you tell her?”

  I looked at him then.

  His dark hair shone from the shower. The scent of soap wafted around us, invading every sense I had.

  Sitting on the toilet seat, I rubbed the back of my neck. “I told her that I’ve only been with one man before.”

  “Did you tell her more about him?”

  I shook my head. “It’s way too soon for that shit and we would need a lot of alcohol too.”

  Sunny grunted.

  My ex fucked me up. And that was putting it mildly.

  “What else did you tell her?”

  “That I’m in love with you but she figured it out on her own.” I looked away, hating the guilt that resonated in him because he didn’t feel the same.

  “What did she say to that?”

  “Nothing.” I rubbed the back of my neck again, trying to ease the ache that had settled on my muscles since the beginning of the night. I wasn’t sure why, but something was changing and fast. Maybe it was because both of us were sick of this shit. We needed more. But I wasn’t sure if that was together or apart and I didn’t know if I wanted to find out.

  “She didn’t say anything at all?” Sunny scoffed. “Come on, Shade. Everyone has something to say. Everyone comments about this shit.”

  I frowned, meeting his dark stare. “Jaron told us that Meadow isn’t like most people. Or did you forget that. She may be young but there’s something about her. Something we both need.”

  “I know.” He huffed. “Fuck. This shit between us is new. I need you to have patience, Shade. You know how I feel about you. But our friendship comes first.”

  I stood, closing the distance between us. Before I knew what was happening, I pressed my body up against his.

  His dark eyes widened. “Shade.”

  “I won’t pressure you,” I said, my voice low. “I promise to God that I won’t pressure you into anything you aren’t ready for. But I won’t hide how I feel about you.”

  He searched my face, his jaw ticking. “I’m not gay. I have nothing wrong with people who are but I’m not…”

  “Gay.” I brushed a thumb along his jawline. “I know. Neither am I.”

  “But you’ve been with a man.” He grabbed onto my hips, pulling me closer.

  A shot of electricity rippled down my spine at the contact, but I ignored it. Sunny needed slow.

  “You know how that shit ended,” I murmured, glancing down at his mouth. “I’d rather be with you and not fuck you, than go through that again.”

  “He hurt you.”

  I went to pull away when he tightened his hold on me. “You know he hurt me. I was a kid. Experimenting. I was attracted to you, but I didn’t want to ruin our friendship, so I hid my feelings. And then…” I swallowed hard. I couldn’t talk about him without going back to that dark place in my mind. That place I had hidden from for the past fifteen years. That part of my mind was hell. Even for me.

  Sunny cupped my nape, leaning his forehead against mine. “I’m sorry.”

  “Don’t.” I wrapped my arms around his thick shoulders, holding him against me.

  “I am and I’m sorry for what I did earlier. I shouldn’t have brought Meadow into this.”

  “I don’t think she minded so much.”

  He grunted.

  I smirked, staring at him. My best friend. My partner…in…everything.

  “What?” he whispered.

  “I’ll make you want me as much as I want you.” I released him and left the bathroom before he could respond.

  ***

  (Sunny)

  “I’ll make you want me as much as I want you.”

  Fucking hell.

  Scrubbing a hand down my face, I took a breath and followed Shade out of the bathroom. Meadow was sitting on the bed with a phone to her ear. Shade joined her, resting his arm across her lap.

  She caught my gaze, giving me a wide smile. She pulled the phone from her ear. “I’m ordering pizza. You good with that?”

  My stomach rumbled. I chuckled. “Yup. Definitely good with that.”

  Her smile grew. She placed the phone back up to her ear. “Yes, sorry. I’m still here.”

  While she placed the order, I sat on the bed and leaned against the headboard.

  “Don’t make this weird,” Shade mumbled.

  I bit back a sigh. We never used to have issues talking but this, this was different, and it was something on a whole other level that neither of us were used to. I wasn’t even sure if we were ready for it.

  Meadow

  “HOLY FUCK.” SHADE GROANED. “This pizza is amazing.”

  I grinned. “I can’t believe you’ve never had it before.”

  “No.” Shade glanced at Sunny. “Why is that?”

  Sunny shrugged, crossing his legs at his ankles. “You have an obsession with sandwiches. That’s why we’ve never had this pizza before.”

  “Fuck me.” Shade groaned again. “I’ve been missing out.”

  I laughed. “It’s the only pizza I’ll order.” After it had been delivered, Sunny, Shade, and I grabbed the two pizza boxes and sat on the bed. I couldn’t remember ever spending time with the guys I slept with, but this was nice. My stomach twisted. Nope. Not going there. Things with Ashton had just ended. It wasn’t like we were serious but neither of us could deny that something was starting. I wasn’t stupid. I could fall in love with him but he could also break my heart at the same time. It was one reason why I was thankful he had ended it. He was far from ready to settle down. He liked variety and had a hard time being a one-woman man.

  “Meadow?”

  I jumped, not realizing I had zoned out. “Yeah?”

  “You good?” Sunny asked, searching my face. For what, I wasn’t sure. It wasn’t like I showed my feelings. Ever. Not since he ripped my heart to shreds and stomped on it in the process.

  I cleared my throat, grabbed another slice of pizza and moved farther up the bed. Leaning against the headboard, I took a bite of what was delicious just a moment ago but now tasted like cardboard. I choked down the bite before I answered. “I’m fine. Why?”

  “Because I’ve been around long enough to know when a woman says that she’s fine, she’s actually not fine.” Sunny moved closer to me, dropping his arm between us and running the back of his hand along my outer thigh. His fingers pushed the fabric of my dress higher, but he never took it further. He didn’t have to. That small touch alone was enough to shove me over the edge and beg for him to fuck me again.

  My skin erupted into goosebumps, but no matter the effect these men had on me, I wouldn’t reveal all of my dark and dirty secrets. Although, I was sure they could figure them out all on their own. It wasn’t like I hadn’t begged for them to rip me apart earlier that evening.

  “What’s going on?” Sunny asked softly.

  “Nothing.” I finished the slice, wiped my mouth with a napkin and drank the rest of my beer. Shade had quickly gone to the bar, grabbed a few bottles and came back shortly after. I wasn’t sure how many times they had been to this motel but clearly it had been enough for him to just randomly grab beer whenever he wanted.

  Shade stood from the bed and walked around it until he was standing directly in front of me. “I think something is wrong.” He lifted his hand when I went to speak. “I don’t expect you to tell us everything. It’s not like we’ve known you for long. But you will tell us. How do I know that? Because it’s how you’re wired. As soon as you let someone in, they know every single thing there is to know about you. But you don’t have many people you’ve let in, do you, little lamb?”

  I swallowed hard, not liking the turn of events taking place before me.

  “Answer him,” Sunny said, his deep voice rumbling through me.
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  “I…I have best friends.” How the hell could Shade pick me apart like that? And so soon.

  “Best friends?” Shade knelt on the bed and crawled toward me. “Do they know you? Truly know you? How about the men you’ve fucked? Did they know you, Meadow?”

  Everything inside of me was telling me to run and hide. To get away. To shove Shade to the ground and scream how wrong he was.

  But instead of running, I did the opposite. I glared up at him. “What are you getting at? Is this your thing? Both of you fuck a girl and then dig into their head? Find out all their dark and dirty secrets. Secrets that are not your business. You’re a biker. Are you a damn shrink too?”

  Much to my surprise, Shade wrapped his hands around my ankles and pulled me toward him.

  I gasped, slapping my hands against his chest. “What the hell are you doing?”

  “You see.” Shade cupped my jaw and turned my head toward Sunny. “He fucked you in front of me. Just the two of you.” His nose brushed up the length of my neck. “Now it’s my turn.”

  ***

  (Sunny)

  Maybe I should have stopped it. Maybe I should have shoved Shade off of Meadow and demanded to know what the hell he was doing. I knew things were rocky between us. They had been for the last little while. That’s what happened when you spent so much time with the same person and never talked about what the issue at hand really was. It was like we had fallen into a rut and I had no idea how the hell to get out of it. Although that little piece of shit voice in my head told me what I had to do, I wasn’t sure if either of us were ready for that just yet.

  I needed slow. I loved him. I loved him like he was a part of me. But I still needed slow. So instead of pushing him away from Meadow, I sat there and watched.

  “Shade,” she whispered, looking up at him and then at me. “I don’t…this isn’t a good idea.”

  “No?” He leaned down to her ear, muttering something that only she could hear but kept his gaze locked on me.

  She swallowed hard, her slender throat working at the rough movement. “You wouldn’t be mad?” she asked me.

  My heart jumped.

  Lying on my stomach, my fingers itched to touch her, but I wanted to see what happened next. I wanted to see just how far Shade would take it and what he planned on doing with her. He had always been dominant, even though he wouldn’t agree. When it came to Meadow, he submitted in ways I never thought I’d ever see in him. But this was something else. This was on a whole other level that made every fiber in my being, tingle.

  “No.” I reached out and brushed my finger along her jawline. “I fucked you and he wasn’t mad. Not at you anyway.”

  “I wasn’t mad at you,” Shade said, pulling Meadow farther under him and inching his hands up her thighs. He pushed her dress to her waist, slipping his hand between her legs.

  Her breath caught.

  “I was wondering what the hell was going on but mad?” He kissed her cheek. “No, I wasn’t mad.”

  He was lying but who was I to argue. I moved behind Meadow, leaning against the headboard and watching the show taking place in front of me.

  Shade chuckled, towering over Meadow. “He doesn’t believe me.”

  “Neither do I,” she told him.

  I grinned, crossing my arms under my chest.

  Shade looked at me then. He cupped her tits, pulling the fabric of her dress lower. Without taking his gaze from mine, he latched onto a nipple, sucking it between his teeth.

  Meadow hissed, the sound shooting straight to my dick.

  He released her with a pop, flicking his tongue back and forth over the swollen nub.

  “Geeze,” she whispered, arching beneath him. “You know, I don’t mind if Sunny joins.”

  “I got a better idea.” He placed a hard peck on her mouth. “Sunny, grab her hands.”

  Before she could protest, I did as he said and held her arms above her head.

  Her chest rose and fell.

  “Hmm…” He inched down the length of her body. “I like this. You restrained. Being held down by Sunny.” He pushed her dress to below her chest and sunk his teeth into her hip. “It’s hot as fuck.”

  My dick twitched at the rasp in his voice, all the blood rushing from my head to the tip of my cock.

  “I agree,” Meadow murmured. She tilted her head back, her gaze meeting mine. “Do you like it, Sunny?”

  I linked my fingers in hers, bringing her hand up to my mouth. “Yes, pet.” I kissed the tips of her fingers before dropping her hands to the bed. “I like it a lot.” Holding her hands on either side of her head, I glanced at Shade. I nodded once.

  He smirked, pushed her thighs open, and held her down. When he shoved his head between her legs, she cried out, bucking beneath him. He groaned, his eyes rolling into the back of his head. He covered her sex, thrusting his tongue deep inside her.

  I licked my lips, my mouth salivating for a taste. I would. In time. But right now, she was all his.

  Meadow squirmed, trying to close her legs but Shade only gripped her inner thighs harder.

  My cock lengthened, threatening to burst at the display before me.

  Shade released her with a smack, licking his glossy lips. “Fucking perfect.”

  “Please,” Meadow begged. “I need you or both of you to fuck me. I don’t give a shit right now. I just need you inside me.”

  Laughter fell between us.

  “You wanna join, Sunny?” Shade asked, kissing her inner thigh.

  “I do but I’m actually enjoying this at the moment.” As much as I wanted to play with our new little toy, this was hot as fuck. Something neither of us had ever done before. We shared and that was it. But we never fucked a woman in front of each other before. Not until I did it an hour ago. And now it was Shade’s turn.

  I released her at the same time Shade flipped her onto her stomach.

  “Hmm…” He landed a hard swat on her ass.

  She whimpered, gripping the blankets beneath her.

  “I haven’t felt this pussy squeezing my cock yet.” He undid his jeans, lowering the zipper. Pulling a condom out of his pocket, he tore it open. “Ready, baby?”

  Meadow lifted her head, meeting my gaze. “Oh yeah.”

  I brushed my thumb over her bottom lip. “You’re perfect.”

  She opened her mouth to say something when Shade thrust inside of her. “Fucking hell.”

  A dark chuckle left him. “Fuck me. I’ve never felt something so damn wet.”

  “Sunny.” Meadow rose on shaky arms. “Kiss me.”

  I glanced at Shade.

  He nodded once, releasing her.

  It was all the encouragement I needed. I cupped Meadow’s cheek. “Crawl to me, pet.”

  And she did.

  Shade

  “YOU THINK WE’LL SEE her again?” I asked, watching Meadow run up the driveway to her house. She said that she lived in it with her sister and two other friends. It made me feel better knowing that she wasn’t alone in such a big place.

  “Yeah, I do,” Sunny answered.

  When Meadow hit the steps of the porch, she turned and gave us a wave before blowing a kiss our way.

  I chuckled, waving back.

  “She’s something else,” Sunny murmured.

  Once Meadow was safe inside, Sunny straddled his bike.

  As many times as we used Meadow, I was still itching for more. I was on the verge of snapping. Needing that connection with another human being, constantly. I wasn’t sure what the hell was wrong with me, but I knew I needed something more. Something else. Something…raw.

  “Shade.”

  The abrupt use of my name pulled me from my thoughts. I took a chance and glanced at Sunny. He stared out ahead of us. His jaw was set. Firm and rigid. Much like the rest of him.

  “What?”

  His gray eyes flicked to mine before putting his bike into gear. “Nothing.”

  “What are we doing?” I blurted.

  “How the hel
l should I know? You’ve done this before. I haven’t,” he reminded me.

  I scoffed. “I haven’t done this shit since I was a kid. That was fifteen fucking years ago, Sunny. You know that.”

  When he didn’t respond, I glanced his way.

  “I need to go for a run,” he mumbled.

  I turned back around, unsure as to what to do from here. We had spent the night with Meadow. Let her sleep and then took turns with her. But we never fucked her at the same time again. I wasn’t sure why. Maybe my confession bothered Sunny in ways I didn’t think would ever happen. But what I did know was that something had changed, and it changed fast.

  “I wonder how sore Meadow is going to be today,” Sunny said, breaking the silence.

  My body stirred, an ache settling deep in my balls. “Probably the same as me.”

  He grunted. “Likewise, my man. I’ve never fucked something so damn hard before.”

  I shivered, scrubbing a hand down my face. I wondered what it would feel like to be fucked by him like that. To feel him truly let go. Although he had given Meadow everything she had asked for, something told me that he still hadn’t unleashed his full wrath. I had seen him with other women. Hell, I had fucked other women with him, but he still held back. Every damn time. And I wasn’t sure why.

  “Shade.”

  Much to my surprise, Sunny reached for my hand. He took it in his, brushing his thumb over the back of it. “I care about you. I hope you know that. I know our shit is fucked up and we shouldn’t have brought Meadow into it. We hardly know her but I…”

  “I want to get to know her,” I added, this newfound revelation not sitting well with me. Sunny wasn’t a talker. I was the one who did the talking. I pulled my hand from his and crossed my arms under my chest. My muscles twitched. A run sounded like a good idea at the moment.

  He sighed. “I want to get to know her too. I’ll meet you at home.”

  I watched him drive away, his bike kicking up dust behind him.

  I sighed, getting on my own bike and following him.