Falling for the Forbidden: 10 Full-Length Novels

by Jessica Hawkins

  I shake my head. “What if I’m a problem? What then?” I’m pushing for the answer I don’t want to hear, but I feel like we need to be clear. He may have treated me to the most incredible sex of my life, but nothing changes what this is. I’m his captive. If I don’t cooperate, I’m dead.

  He purses his lips. “Bambina, what are you trying to get me to say? I don’t want to do this.”

  I put my hands on my hips, challenge clear.

  I see the shadow of danger appear on his face. “Are you going to be a problem?”

  I ignore the twist of fear in my gut. “What if I am?” I whisper, my mouth dry as the Sahara, and I don’t mean the casino.

  He shoves his hands in his shorts pockets, regards me coolly.

  “Then you kill me?” I don’t know why this is an argument I’m trying to win. Do I need to prove I have a right to be afraid? That I know what I’m messing with, here?

  “No.” He shakes his head immediately and takes a step forward, but I step back. He stops. “I told you no already.”

  “Then what?”

  He scrubs a hand across his mouth. “Then I’d use your pressure points,” he finally admits.

  It’s bizarre how much of a relief it is to hear him admit it. To know the score.

  “I see. So that’s what this is. You tie me to your bed until you’re either sure of me, or know enough about me to keep me scared for the rest of my life.”

  He frowns and lunges for me so quickly I can’t dart away. He grabs my arm and pulls me into him, my body tumbling against the hard planes of his large frame. “That’s not what this is. Don’t fucking define it like that.” He’s mad and I’m not sure why. Oddly, his wrath turns me on.

  Does it mean he cares?

  Stop it.

  Don’t think like that. Stefano Tacone doesn’t care about women. He’s a player. He loves women; he takes pleasure in watching women, enjoys their bodies, slakes his lust frequently and with gusto. That doesn’t mean he develops feelings for them.

  For me.

  His lips crash down on mine. I respond before I even start to wonder if I should hold back. It’s like my body was made to come alive any time he touches it. It doesn’t matter if he was just threatening me, whether he’s holding me captive or tormenting me. I’m his.

  My pride tells me to push away, but I’m swept up in the moment. I want him to go on, to show me what comes next.

  He walks me backward, lips locked until my ass hits a wall, then he keeps pushing, pressing his hard length against my belly as his tongue strokes against mine. He comes up for air and insinuates one solid thigh between my legs. “First of all, I wanted to fuck you the first moment I saw you standing behind that roulette wheel.”

  Pardon me? I give him a what the fuck are you talking about look and he puffs with impatience.

  “Were you implying I’m fucking you to keep you quiet? Like I’m some manwhore who solves problems with sex?” He frowns and curses something in Italian.

  “If the shoe fits?”

  “Well maybe I am, but only with you.” His dark gaze bores into me. “Amore, you’re tangled up in something ugly. Something I never wanted you involved in. It’s my fault, and I’m doing my best to fix it.”

  “Interesting way of fixing it.” I can’t stop the dryness from crumbling my words.

  Stefano picks up my discarded tank and pulls it over my head.

  Session over. Discussion ended.

  Pretty sure I’m in the same place as when I started, except I have all kinds of happy sex hormones flowing through my veins taking all the bite out of being Stefano’s prisoner.

  Chapter Five

  Stefano

  I take Corey back to the suite, checking my phone for a message from Nico. I haven’t heard from him since he called on the way to see our dad in prison, and I’m a little worried. Before we arrive, I get an urgent communication from Tony in the earpiece I’d shoved into my gym shorts pocket.

  “We have a situation.”

  “What is it?” I bark, adjusting the device in my ear.

  “Knife wound to one of the guards. A guy stole some lady’s purse and he caught him.”

  “Fanculo. Did you call 911?”

  Corey shoots me a worried look as the elevator doors open. I grab her elbow and usher her to my suite.

  “Emergency vehicle’s on the way.”

  “Who’s the guard?” I key the door open. An entire rack of clothing for Corey has been delivered while we were gone, but she doesn’t move to look at it, she’s watching me, listening.

  “Joey Spitazzi.”

  “Merda. You call his wife?”

  “I’m about to. I’ll get her number from HR. What do you want me to do with the bastard who did it?”

  “You have him in hand?”

  “Oh yeah.” There’s menace in Tony’s voice. He’s not a mean guy—doesn’t get off on inflicting pain—but he’s loyal as hell. And Joey’s part of the Family, albeit far removed. He’s a grunt, a young soldier. Someone’s cousin or other relation who wanted a job from us. Still, he’s one of our own. And we protect our own with our lives.

  “No, you gotta turn him over to the cops. If an ambulance is coming, authorities will be involved. We can always handle things our own way if we’re not happy with how they come out.”

  “True that. Okay, boss. You want me at the hospital after I talk to the cops?”

  “You hold your position here. I’ll go to the hospital. Thanks, Tony.” I end the call and head into the bedroom to take a quick shower and change back into a suit.

  Corey follows me in, standing in the bathroom door as I shuck my clothes, like we’re a married couple. “Someone’s hurt?”

  “Yeah.” I climb in the shower and rub a bar of soap quickly over my body. “One of the guards got knifed by a purse-snatcher. I’m going to the hospital.”

  To my surprise, Corey steps in. As much as I’d love to drill her against the tile, I don’t have time for this shit. But she doesn’t look like she’s trying to seduce me. “Want me to come along?”

  I blink at her, water running down my face. Huh. “Yeah. Okay.” Why the fuck not? She might actually make things easier with dealing with the guy’s wife. Especially if Joey dies.

  Then again, this could be her ploy to escape, and I definitely don’t have the bandwidth to keep a leash on her while I’m trying to deal with shit.

  She holds her hand out for the bar of soap and I give it to her and step out, my mind already at the hospital, hoping to hell we don’t lose a soldier.

  Fifteen minutes later, we head down to the parking lot. Corey’s wearing an ivory blouse and a pair of black jean capris with her high heels. She looks like a model showing the summer daywear line. I lead her to Nico’s black Mercedes and call Tony to find out which hospital Joey was brought to. Twenty minutes later, we enter the waiting area.

  A young woman with two preschool-aged children stands up when we get there. Her face is tear-stained and pale, dark hair pulled up in a messy bun on her head. “Nico?” she asks tentatively.

  “Stefano Tacone,” I say. “Nico’s brother.”

  “I’m Trisha. Joey’s wife.”

  I pull her into an embrace because, well, that’s how it’s done in my family. A guy takes a knife for you, you’re gonna hug his wife, even if you’ve never met her. “What’s the word on Joey?” I ask when we come apart.

  Tears pop in her eyes. “He’s in surgery. I don’t know. They said even when he comes out, I can’t bring the kids back there.” Her two little girls hide behind her legs and peek out at us.

  “Well, they can stay out here with me,” Corey offers. “Or do you have someone who can watch them? I could drop them somewhere.”

  Relief flickers on Trisha’s face. “Yeah, my girlfriend can come when she gets off work, but if I can go see him before then, I need to.”

  “Of course. I will hang with the kiddos.” Corey smiles at the little girls, who stare up at her like she’s a princess.
And who could blame them? With the heels, Corey stands almost five feet ten inches, and her flame-colored hair cascades in waves down her back like she’s royalty. I have to push away the fantasy of wrapping it around my cock and jerking off to it.

  “Mommy, I’m hungry,” one of the girls says, eyeing Corey, like she’s testing to see how sincere she is.

  “Let’s go find you a snack.” Corey holds out her hand.

  The little girl shyly takes it.

  “Except I’ll need Uncle Stefano’s wallet because I don’t have my purse.” She slides me an almost teasing look.

  I step to her side and touch her back. It’s not that I don’t trust she’ll come back. I can’t see her kidnapping or abandoning a kid. It’s that I’m too fascinated by her to want to let her out of my sight. “I’ll come along. Where are you headed; the Starbucks down the hall?”

  “Yes.” She leans down to the look at the little girl. “Think we can find you something there?”

  The girl nods gravely. It’s a bizarre feeling walking with Corey and a small child through the halls of a hospital. Both new and unique and yet strangely familiar all at once. It would be true of any experience under the sun—with Corey.

  She’s that different. That right. I never in a million years would’ve guessed she’d be good with kids. She’s not the warm and fuzzy first grade teacher type, yet here she is with a small child wrapped around her finger.

  We stand in line at the hospital Starbucks and Corey orders a latte for herself and Trisha and Ninja talks the little girl out of a donut and into a yogurt with fruit. I order a double espresso and drink it before we leave the counter.

  “Anything you’re not good at, Corey Simonson?” I toss the drained cup in the wastebasket.

  Surprise lights up her face. “What are you talking about?”

  I lift my chin at the little girl, who is chattering away as she walks beside us, carrying the yogurt and two spoons so she can share with her sister.

  Pink stains her cheeks. “I’m not good with kids.” She shrugs. “I just figure someone needs to step up right now.”

  “I read your file. Bachelor in psychology, graduated summa cum laude. Why are you working as a croupier in Vegas?”

  She slows her steps, a frown appearing between her brows. “First of all, what file did you read?”

  “The one my brother put together when he started dating Sondra. I guess he already knew your dad’s a fed.”

  Her expression clouds even more. “‘Kay. I’m a little freaked out now. But maybe no more than I was falling asleep last night with my wrists zip-tied to the bed.”

  Damn. My concern she’ll never forgive me for that seems valid.

  She shakes her lovely hair. “Don’t respond to that.” We arrive back in the waiting area and she hands Trisha the coffee as the girls hunker down together to fight over who gets to hold the yogurt while they share.

  Corey takes a seat and I sit beside her, still waiting for an answer. After a moment, she says, “I know it seems like I gave up on my career—my life. My parents definitely think so. I came here for grad school and ended up getting a job at the Bellissimo for shits and giggles. I dropped out three months later.”

  I knew this much from her file, but I love hearing it from her. I stay quiet, hoping she’ll go on.

  “The Bellissimo satisfies an itch in me. I always hated the mundane. I get bored quickly, you know?”

  I nod, because it makes sense. She’s a smart woman—ordinary wouldn’t cut it.

  “I mean, I grew up in Marshall, Michigan, for God’s sake. It’s the join the soccer team and mow your grass on Saturdays kind of place. Only I always knew I didn’t fit in. I had a dad who worked for the FBI for one thing. And for another, he was a functioning alcoholic and an asshole. Tragically, I probably get my impatience with the rest of the population from him. He was always tearing everyone down. He saw through every lie, destroyed every dream.”

  She laughs, but it’s bitter and I already want to kill her dad. It wouldn’t be hard to do.

  “Sondra and her family lived across the street—the model of what a family should look like. Cheesy, supportive parents, report cards pinned on the fridge.” She stares down at her fingernails, the low-key French manicure making her fingers look even longer. “Sondra’s parents used to come to her soccer games with their faces painted in the team colors. They carried banners and signs cheering her on.

  “I always prayed my dad wouldn’t come because he would stand on the sidelines and chew me out for every wrong move. He chewed the coach out, the other team’s coach. The other kids. It was a freaking nightmare.”

  “Father of the year,” I mutter.

  “Yeah.” She jerks her head up suddenly to look at my eyes. “Why am I even telling you all this?”

  “You were explaining how you came to be a croupier.”

  “Right.” She sighs and stares across the waiting area at the exit. “Why I hate normal. So yeah, I have a degree in psych because I’m interested in people. What makes them tick. But school was too ordinary, too boring. Too structured and delineated and confining. So I figured why learn from a textbook when I can study the Bellissimo clientele to my heart’s delight? And the money’s good.”

  Something inside my chest rearranges. I can’t quite name the clawing need rising up. A desire to fix her pain? Protect her from more of it? Free her from all the bullshit of life? As if that could be done. No, life’s a shithole for most everybody. A few people rise above because they have that raw potency the rest of the population foregoes. I think that may actually be what Corey’s talking about with her rejection of normal. She’s not going to lie down and take it. She’s fighting back, even if being a croupier seems like she laid down to take it to the rest of the world.

  “You ever think about going back?”

  “To school?” She raises her eyebrows. “Nah. I often think I should. I won’t have any career to fall back on when my boss fires me for calling him an asshole one too many times.” She darts a glance under her lashes at me that makes my dick twitch in my pants. I might have been wrong about her not being submissive under all the bluster. “Or if I break my ankle and can’t stand behind the table for hours on end. Or when I get bored with categorizing gamblers. But I really can’t get myself excited about it. Up until I dropped out of grad school I was still trying to prove my worth to my dad, who never saw it. And now that I finally realized my idiocy, I just can’t make myself do things that conventional wisdom says I should do.” She shrugs. “I don’t want to be ordinary.”

  #

  Corey

  Oh shit. What in the hell made me overshare like this?

  Stefano stares at me, his dark, curling lashes thick and beautiful against the backdrop of such a masculine face. I can’t read him, but his attention makes me shift in my seat, change the crossing of my legs.

  A nurse comes out and calls for Trisha. We all stand up and watch as Trisha rushes over. When she returns, she says, “They said he came out of surgery and is stable. He probably won’t wake up tonight, so she said I should go home to rest and come back tomorrow.” Her lip trembles.

  Stefano reaches in his pocket and produces a business card. “My cell number’s on there. Keep me posted, all right?”

  She bobs her head, eyes filling with tears. “Yeah, okay. I will. Thanks so much.”

  He touches her shoulder. “The Bellissimo will take care of all the medical expenses and missed pay. All Joey needs to worry about is recovering.”

  Trisha surges forward and gives him a tight hug around his waist.

  Stefano one-arm hugs her back. As we walk away, he interlaces his fingers with mine. My breath stalls a moment. After all the things he’s done to me—we’ve done together—it’s odd that holding my hand is the gesture that feels most intimate, but it does.

  It’s tender. Sweet.

  Things I don’t associate with Stefano Tacone, royalty to the Vegas underworld.

  I can’t even imagine wh
y he’d do it, and yet it also feels perfect. Exhilarating, even.

  On the ride back, he calls into the casino for a report and lets them know the status of Joey.

  I arrive back at the Bellissimo a changed woman. It’s like I’m seeing things for the first time as I glide in with Stefano’s hand on my lower back. Seeing them from his perspective, realizing how much he has to worry about with Nico gone.

  And yet he doesn’t ditch me straightaway, as I expected. I wasn’t even going to complain. No, he asks me which restaurant in the casino is my favorite.

  “Caffe Milano,” I tell him, indicating the eatery modeled after a Italian sidewalk cafe. It has cute little tables nestled together and sprawling outside the restaurant in a lush patio. “They have the best Caprese salad.”

  His lips twitch and he leads me there, requesting the table out on the “sidewalk”—which really just means outside the pseudo-enclosure, with a view of the casino hustle and bustle.

  “Is this so you can keep an eye on things?” I ask as he holds my chair for me.

  “Yes. You keep an eye out, too.”

  I love that he recruits me like this, the way he did last night on the floor before the ill-fated game. He thinks I might have something to contribute to his efforts. It makes me want to please him, which is probably dangerous territory. I don’t need to be working hard to impress a guy. I did that way too long with my dad. But maybe I purposely chose a loser like Dean because I didn’t want to have to impress a guy.

  “Tell me about the categories you put gamblers in.” Stefano shifts his gaze from the passersby to me.

  I curse the flush that hits my cheeks. Why did I ever tell him so much?

  “Come on, don’t be shy.” He pours more wine in my glass. “I want to hear what you’ve learned. It could be useful for me working security.”

  I tilt my head to the side. “Yeah, it probably could. It’s how I knew something was off with you that first night.”

  His sensual lips spread into a slow grin. He leans forward, eyes glittering with intensity. “Tell me.”