Complete Sin Box Set

by Georgia Cates

  I’d love to have one of Starbucks’ new chestnut praline lattes but we settle for the first café we come upon. We choose a lonely table near the back in hopes of privacy for this conversation I think neither of us wants to have.

  I sip my caramel latte. When it burns my tongue, I set it aside to cool.

  “Not good?”

  “I can’t be sure. I think it may have scorched my taste buds.”

  “How’s your pumpkin bread?”

  I nod. “Good.”

  “I’m not sure how you’d know. It looks like all you’ve done is pick at it.”

  I don’t know. I can’t recall tasting the few bites I’ve taken. I’m too preoccupied. “I don’t have much of an appetite.”

  He reaches across the table and covers my hand with his. “Tell me what you’re thinking.”

  I’m not sure how to put my feelings into words when I’m incapable of sorting out what’s happening in my head. And heart. “The consult didn’t go as I expected.”

  “Agreed.”

  Good. At least we’re on the same page.

  “I’m thrilled we weren’t told a pregnancy was a hopeless cause.” Now here comes the part where I must choose my words carefully. “But I’m terrified of doing this so soon. We’ve only been married six weeks.”

  “I feel the same. I’m very happy Dr. Paschall believes we have a chance but I wasn’t expecting him to advise us to proceed so quickly. I thought we’d do the retrieval now and implant in a year or two.”

  He looks as uncertain as I feel. I see it in the lines of his forehead, in the way his lips turn down at the corners.

  “We aren’t ready to do this, are we?” I ask.

  “No.” He releases my hand and sits back in his seat. “But are we prepared to let what might be our only chance at having a child slip through our fingers because it’s sooner than we’d like?”

  The timing is horrible. “Unfortunately, we aren’t blessed with the luxury of waiting until we’re ready. It seems it’s now or possibly never.”

  It feels as though my life revolves around an inconvenient schedule due to circumstances out of my control. It’s disheartening.

  “I need time to think about this. I can’t decide today.” And probably not tomorrow, or even the next day.

  “I say we enjoy our day together and talk about it after we’ve had time to adjust to the idea.”

  “Agreed.”

  Chapter 12

  Sinclair Breckenridge

  Bleu’s never been to London. In fact, she’s pretty much never been anywhere so I thought she’d be excited to see the sights. Although her camera is hanging around her neck, she hasn’t taken a single picture. She’s too absorbed by what I can only assume is an internal battle—probably the same one I’m struggling with. I know because she’s paying far more attention to the infants and children we pass than any of the iconic places we’re visiting.

  We browse the gift shop at The Tower of London after finishing our tour. We make the circle and end up in the children’s section. She picks up a royal guardsman teddy bear from the shelf. “He’s cute.”

  I disagree.

  I’m Scottish, so for me, it’s a symbol of oppression. Our conflicts with England are centuries’ old and still run deep. I’ll never be a fan of anything representing the English. I avoid this place. I wouldn’t be here now if the Assisted Reproduction Centre didn’t have the highest successful pregnancy rates in IVF.

  Bleu wasn’t reared here. She doesn’t understand how many Scots feel toward our southern neighbors. But she’ll come to know since she’s going to spend the rest of her life in Scotland.

  She studies the toy another moment before returning it to the shelf. She almost looks regretful about it. “Do you want the bear?”

  “No.” She shrugs. “I don’t know. Maybe.”

  “I’ll buy you any Scottish bear you want, but not an English one.”

  “You look angry.”

  “No worries. It’s nothing to do with you.”

  I attempt to distract Bleu—and myself—with sightseeing. It’s a long day by the time we return to the hotel. My leg feels the miles by the time we return so once we’re back in our suite, I remove my prosthesis. “Fuck, I’m sore from all the walking we did today.”

  “You should’ve told me. We didn’t have to stay out all day.”

  It wasn’t a problem earlier. In fact, I didn’t notice the discomfort until an hour ago. “It was fine all day. The walk back was when it started giving me trouble.”

  I pushed myself too far in an attempt to keep Bleu’s mind off the baby stuff. And mine. Mission not accomplished.

  She plops on the floor in front of me and reaches for my leg. “Here. I’m going to rub it for you.”

  I don’t want her doing that. “No.”

  “If my feet hurt, you’d rub them for me. In fact, you’ve done it for me before—more than once if I recall correctly.”

  “Aye, but this is different.”

  “You have pain in your lower extremity and I want to make it better for you. It’s no different than what you do for me.”

  But it is. She just can’t see that. “It’s my stump. Not my foot.”

  “True. It’s not your foot because you only have one and it’s on your other leg. Stop being stupid and let me massage it for you.”

  She’s determined to make me feel better as she rubs her hands over the end of my amputated leg. “Better?”

  I don’t want to hurt her but she needs to understand why I don’t want her doing this and why it’s different from rubbing feet. “Muscle is what’s massaged. That’s why it feels good. My stump is mostly skin-covered bone and there’s not a lot of sensation. It’s not a pleasant feeling. That’s why it’s not the same thing.”

  She stops and looks up at me. “Okay. But I still want to make you feel better.”

  She moves to her knees and glides her hands up my thighs. “What about this? Better?”

  I like the place this is going. “Not quite there but it’s a definite improvement.”

  She stretches to place her lips against mine and sucks my bottom lip into her mouth. “I’m going to make you feel so damn good.”

  She moves her mouth down the side of my neck. “You’re definitely moving in the right direction.”

  “Getting warmer, huh?”

  “Aye.”

  She loosens the knot of my tie and lifts it over my head. She pulls the bottom of my shirt from my pants and begins unbuttoning it, starting at the top. When it’s open, I sit up and she pushes it from my shoulders before tossing it over the arm of the sofa.

  She places her palms on my chest and pushes me so my back is pressed against the sofa. “Relax. Let me take care of you.”

  “Whatever you say.”

  She kisses the center of my chest while tracing the tips of her thumbs around my nipples. They harden and she pinches them, sending a tingle straight to my cock. Or maybe her mouth moving down my stomach is the culprit.

  Bleu reaches the waistband of my trousers and tugs the button open before lowering the zipper. Her hand reaches inside and frees me. She looks up at me and licks her lips. “Am I getting warmer?”

  “Definitely.”

  She lowers her mouth and presses her tongue just above my balls, dragging it in a slow, upward motion along my length. She reaches the head and sucks it into her mouth, swirling her tongue back and forth across the tip while holding the base.

  She looks up and we make eye contact. “Still just warm?”

  “No.” I suck air through clenched teeth. “You’re on-fucking-fire.”

  She smiles before taking me back into her mouth in what I’m predicting will be the best blow job ever.

  I lace my fingers through her hair as her head bobs up and down over my cock. Her hand cups my scrotum and she gently rolls my balls. This kind of massaging, I can stand. She can do it any time she wants. “Mmm… you’re making me feel so damn good, just like you said you would.”
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  I’m going to come very soon. I’m not sure how Bleu prefers that to happen. But I know how I feel about it. She’s my wife, not one of my previous conquests. I don’t plan to treat her as such. “Bonny. I’m about to come. I don’t want to do it in your mouth.”

  Her head lifts but she’s still close enough I feel her warm breath on my dick when she speaks. “It’s okay.”

  No. It’s really not.

  I’ve done it plenty of times and it was always with one thing in mind—to convey to the woman I was with that she was nothing more than an object I was using for my own gratification. I don’t want that for my Bonny Bleu.

  I caress my hand over her hair. “Stop, baby.”

  She does as I ask and looks up at me. “What’s wrong?”

  “Not a thing in the world.”

  I tug on her hands—willing her to stand—and she follows my cue. I unfasten the bottom button of her shirt and work my way up. She’s wearing a pink-and-white-striped bra, trimmed in black lace. Something about it reminds me of Paris. “Ooh la la.”

  She trails two fingers down her breastbone between her tits. “Do you like it?”

  “Aye. So well I think you should keep it on a while longer. I like the way you’re all stacked up there.”

  When I’m finished, her shirt joins mine on the couch and I go to work on her trousers. Her shoes are already off so she kicks out of her pants.

  She’s wearing matching knickers. No surprise there. My lass always wears paired sexies for me.

  I grasp her arse cheeks in my hands and pull her forward, pressing my nose against the satiny triangle barely covering her. I inhale deeply. “You smell like the best kind of aphrodisiac. I can never get enough.”

  I slip my finger into her elastic waistband and pull back, dipping my nose inside. “I like these knickers very much but I’d prefer seeing them on the floor.”

  She pushes her fingers through my hair. “I think you’ve mastered all the ways to make that happen.”

  “I’m sure there’s always room for improvement.”

  I glide my hands over the arse of her knickers and hook my fingers over the back waistband. I scrunch them in my fisted hands and drag them down her legs. She steps out and I crumple them against my nose. I breathe in Bleu’s aroma. “I could very well develop a panty fetish because of your scent, my dear Mrs. Breckenridge. It’s divine.”

  “Then I’d have to call you a weirdo. Or sex fiend. That’s probably more appropriate.”

  “I assure you I’ve been called much worse.”

  I grasp her behind her knee and place her foot on the sofa so I have better access to what I want. She grasps my shoulders for balance as she stands on a single foot.

  My hand palm side up, I slip it between her legs. I push my fingers through her slit and bring them forward, barely grazing her sensitive nub. I do it again, softly and slowly. Deliberate. I want her to yearn for more. “Do you like it when I do that?”

  “Mmm-hmm.”

  I stroke her again. “Then you’d like more of this?”

  “You know I do.”

  “How badly do you want it?”

  “Desperately.”

  “Then ask me for it.”

  “Touch me.”

  “I don’t think that’s exactly what you want. A simple touch will never make you come. Tell me what it is you really want.”

  “Stroke me.” She takes one of her hands from my shoulder and places on top of mine. She rocks her hips back and forth. “Right here.”

  “Stroke here until you what?”

  “Until I come.”

  I move my fingers back and forth. “Like this?”

  “Mmm… hmm.”

  She’s holding my hand with hers, moving her hips against my fingers. Faster and harder. It isn’t long before I’m seeing the cues she’s close to climax. “I want to be inside you when you come.”

  I grasp the back of her leg, the one she’s still standing on. “Hold onto my shoulders.”

  I pull her so her legs are straddling me. I guide my rock-hard cock to her entrance. She sinks over me until I’m deep inside. “Ohh,” she gasps.

  She wraps her arms around my shoulders and begins moving with me. I move my fingers to that sensitive spot above our union and continue stroking her sensitive zone. “This is where I want to come. Inside you—here.” Never in her mouth like the others. Never in the mouth she’ll use to kiss our children.

  “It’s starting,” she says while slowing to ride me with more deliberate motion. And she’s right. The muscular contractions squeeze tightly around my cock. It’s all I need to start the onset of my own climax.

  “I feel it.” I grasp her hips tightly, digging my fingertips into her flesh. I pull her down hard and plunge deep, meeting her thrust for thrust.

  “Ohh… ohh,” she groans. It’s her patented noise every time she comes. It’s a glorious sound to hear. It means I’ve given my wife another orgasm. I’m still the only man who’s ever done that for her.

  It’s a carefully orchestrated act to bring together. And worth every bit of effort. There’s nothing else like it in this world.

  When we’re both satiated, she relaxes against me, resting her cheek against my shoulder. I’m still inside her. I want to keep it that way so I put my arms around her waist to hold her in place.

  I thought making love might take her mind off the baby stuff but I don’t think it has. “You’re still there.”

  She pulls away to look at my face. “I’m still where?”

  “That place your mind went after we left the fertility clinic this morning.”

  “I’m sorry.” I’m happy she isn’t pretending she doesn’t know what I mean.

  “It’s okay. I’m in the same place.” And I want to be there together.

  “It scares me.”

  “Which part?”

  “All of it.” She presses her forehead to mine. “I’m terrified it won’t work. I’m petrified it will.”

  I rub my hands up and down her back. “I think all first-time parents have these kinds of fears.”

  “But mine are different. They consist of more than how I’ll care for a baby.”

  I want to know and understand the things causing her angst. “Tell me about it.”

  She sighs long and hard. “I’ve always thought of my future family as the end result—my reward to myself for avenging my mother’s death and putting all the darkness behind me. I never once considered taking a husband or having a child before the deed was done.”

  “I see.” Things are happening out of order and she’s having a hard time dealing with how reality differs from the plan in her head.

  “I thought I’d be healed—and normal—before I married and had a baby. How can I become someone’s mother when I’m still like this?”

  “You’ll need to choose which is more important—your obsession with your mother’s killer or taking the only chance we may get at having our own children.”

  “I want both.”

  It’s impossible to have both right now. “Revenge will wait. Our family won’t.”

  “Doesn’t it bother you that we’d be making the decision to do the IVF for the wrong reason?”

  Bleu having our baby should never be called wrong. “The timing may be questionable, but never the reason.”

  She shakes her head. “I’m sorry. I’m saying all the wrong things.”

  It’s okay. I understand what she means. “We didn’t get the news we were anticipating. We thought we’d have plenty of time. Turns out we may not. No one can predict the future, not even these specialists. What I do know is that our baby will be wanted and loved like no other. In the end, isn’t that what matters most?”

  “I feel like the most important events of my life have happened to suit a time frame that wasn’t my own. Infiltrating The Fellowship. Marrying you. Now, bringing a baby into the world sooner than I’d like because my ovary may not hold out.”

  “And it’s worked out for the best
every time.”

  “Yes. But I’d like to do something without feeling cornered.”

  Being pushed before she’s ready is the last thing I want her to feel. “We don’t have to make a decision today, nor should we. We need time to sort out our feelings and what proceeding means for our lives and marriage.”

  “How long do we give it?”

  Dr. Paschall said we shouldn’t wait long. “Let’s take the week to think it over and we’ll make our final decision after the wedding reception.” I think we need that off our plates when we return to this conversation again. “Agree?”

  “Agreed.”

  Seven days until Bleu and I make a decision that will ultimately change our lives forever. Choose wrong and we could spend the rest of our lives in regret.

  Please. Let us not make the wrong decision.

  Chapter 13

  Bleu Breckenridge

  As agreed, I’ve taken this week to sort out my feelings about the IVF. There’s only one emotion not in question: I’m no less terrified than I was the day we left the clinic.

  I wish I had one close friend or family member I could meet for coffee so I could pour my heart out. Sin’s the only one I can do that with and that makes for a problem.

  I’ve never been a person who opens my heart to others about my personal issues. I’m content bottling my feelings but this situation is different. I have an intense need to talk to someone besides my husband. I need a woman’s opinion.

  My friendships with Lorna and Westlyn are growing but neither is in a place where I feel comfortable talking about having a baby. And as much as I adore Isobel, this isn’t something I can discuss with her. I’m certain she’ll be in favor of a grandchild and an heir for The Fellowship.

  It’s clear. I need my sister. But she’s more than four thousand miles away, so a phone call will have to do.

  “Hello, bonny lass,” she says with the worst Scottish accent I’ve ever heard.

  “That was horrible.”

  “No way, dude. I’ve been practicing every day.”

  We’re southern and have been our whole lives. It’s not something you can easily tone down. “I live among these people and hear it every day. Trust me when I say your execution sucks.”