The Reconciliation

by Clive Barker

  “I said you'd come back,” she said. “Didn't I? Didn't I say you'd come back? Do you want to kiss me? Please kiss me, sister.”

  “What's she talking about?” Gentle asked.

  The sound of his voice brought a cry from the woman. She flung herself out of Jude's arms.

  “What have you done?” she yelled. “Why did you bring him here?”

  “He's come to help us,” Jude replied.

  Quaisoir spat in Gentle's direction. “Leave me alone!” she screeched. “Haven't you done enough? Now you want to take my sister from me! You bastard! I won't let you! We'll die before you touch her!” She reached for Jude, sobbing in panic. “Sister! Sister.'”

  “Don't be frightened,” Jude said. “He's a friend.” She looked at Gentle. “Reassure her,” she begged him. “Tell her who you are, so we can get out of here.”

  “I'm afraid she already knows,” Gentle replied.

  Jude was mouthing the word what? when Quaisoir's panic boiled up again.

  “Sartori!” she screeched, her denunciation echoing around the room. “He's Sartori, sister! Sartori!”

  Gentle raised his hands in mock surrender, backing away from the woman. “I'm not going to touch you,” he said. “Tell her, Jude. I don't want to hurt her!”

  But Quaisoir was in the throes of another outburst. “Stay with me, sister,” she said, grabbing hold of Jude. “He can't kill us both!”

  “You can't stay in here,” Jude said.

  “I'm not going out!” Quaisoir said. “He's got soldiers out there! Rosengarten! That's who he's got! And his torturers!”

  “It's safer out there than it is in here,” Jude said, casting her eyes up at the roof. Several carbuncles had appeared in it, oozing debris. “We have to be quick!”

  Still she refused, putting her hand up to Jude's face and stroking her cheek with her clammy palm: short, nervy strokes.

  “We'll stay here together,” she said. “Mouth to mouth. Mind to mind.”

  “We can't,” Jude told her, speaking as calmly as circumstance allowed. “I don't want to be buried alive, and neither do you.”

  “If we die, we die,” said Quaisoir. “I don't want him touching me again, do you hear?”

  “I know. I understand.”

  “Not ever! Not ever!”

  “He won't,” Jude said, laying her own hand over Quaisoir's, which was still stroking her face. She laced her fingers through those of her sister and locked them. “He's gone,” she said. “He won't be coming near either of us again.”

  Gentle had indeed retreated as far as the passageway, but even though Jude waved him away he refused to go any further. He'd had too many reunions cut short to risk letting her out of his sight.

  “Are you certain he's gone?”

  “I'm certain.”

  “He could still be waiting outside for us.”

  “No, sister. He was afraid for his life. He's fled.”

  Quaisoir grinned at this. “He was afraid?” she said.

  “Terrified,”

  “Didn't I tell you? They're all the same. They talk like heroes, but there's piss in their veins.” She began to laugh out loud, as careless now as she'd been in terror moments before. “We'll go back to my bedroom,” she said when the outburst subsided, “and sleep for a while.”

  “Whatever you want to do,” Jude said. “But let's do it soon.”

  Still chuckling to herself, Quaisoir allowed Jude to lift her up and escort her towards the door. They had covered maybe half that distance, Gentle standing aside to let them pass, when one of the carbuncles in the ceiling burst and threw down a rain of wreckage from the tower above. Gentle saw Jude struck and felled by a chunk of stone; then the chamber filled with an almost viscous dust that blotted out both sisters in an instant. With his only point of reference the lamp, the flame of which was just visible through the dirt, he headed into the fog to fetch her, as a thundering from above announced a further escalation of the tower's collapse. There was no time for protective feits or for keeping his silence. If he failed to find her in the next few seconds, they'd all be buried. He started to yell her name through the rising roar and, hearing her call back to him, followed her voice to where she was lying, half buried beneath a cairn of rubble.

  “There's time,” he said to her as he began to dig. “There's time. We can make it out.”

  With her arms unpinned she began to speed her own excavation, hauling herself up out of the debris and locking her arms around Gentle's neck. He started to stand, pulling her free of the remaining rocks, but as he did so another commotion began, louder than anything that had preceded it. This was not the din of destruction but a shriek of white fury. The dust above their heads parted, and Quaisoir appeared, floating inches from the fissured ceiling. Jude had seen this transformation before—ribbons of flesh unfurled from her sister's back and bearing her up—but Gentle had not. He gaped at the apparition, distracted from thoughts of escape.

  'She's mine!” Quaisoir yelled, swooping towards them with the same sightless but unerring accuracy she'd possessed in more intimate moments, her arms outstretched, her fingers ready to twist the abductor's head from his neck.

  But Jude was quick. She stepped in front of Gentle, calling Quaisoir's name. The woman's swoop faltered, the hungry hands inches from her sister's upturned face.

  “I don't belong to you!” she yelled back at Quaisoir. “I don't belong to anybody! Hear me?”

  Quaisoir threw back her head and loosed a howl of rage at this. It was her undoing. The ceiling shuddered and abandoned its duty at her din, collapsing beneath the weight of nibble heaped behind it. There was, Jude thought, time for Quaisoir to escape the consequences of her cry. She'd seen the woman move like lightning at Pale Hill, when she had the will to do so. But that will had gone. Face to the killing dirt, she let the debris rain upon her, inviting it with her unbroken cry, which didn't become alarm or plea, but remained a solid howl of fury until the rocks broke and buried her. It wasn't quick. She went on calling down destruction as Gentle took Jude's hand and hauled her away from the spot. He'd lost all sense of direction in the chaos, and had it not been for the screeching of Concupiscentia in the passageway beyond they'd never have made it to the door.

  But make it they did, emerging with half their senses deadened by dust. Quaisoir's death cry had ceased by now, but the roar behind them was louder than ever and drove them from the door as the canker spread across the roof of the corridor. They outran it, however, Concupiscentia giving up her keening when she knew her mistress was lost and overtaking them, fleeing to some sanctuary where she could raise a song of lamentation.

  Jude and Gentle ran until they were out from under any stone, roof, arch, or vault that might collapse upon them, into a courtyard full of bees feasting on bushes that had chosen that day, of all days, to blossom. Only then did they put their arms around each other again, each sobbing for private griefs and gratitudes, while the ground shook under them to the din of the demolition they'd escaped.

  In fact the ground didn't stop reverberating until they were well outside the walls of the palace and wandering in the ruins of Yzordderrex. At Jude's suggestion they made their way back at all speed to Peccable's house, where, she explained to Gentle, there was a well-used route between this Dominion and the Fifth. He put up no resistance to this. Though he hadn't exhausted Sartori's hiding places by any means (could he ever, when the palace was so vast?) he had exhausted his limbs, his wits, and his will. If his other was still here in Yzordderrex, he posed very little threat. It was the Fifth that needed to be defended against him: the Fifth, which had forgotten magic and could so easily be his victim.

  Though the streets of many Kesparates were little more than bloody valleys between rubble mountains, there were sufficient landmarks for Jude to trace her way back towards the district where Peccable's house had stood. There was no certainty, of course, that it would still be standing after a day and a night of cataclysm, but if they had to dig to reach the cel
lar, so be it.

  They were silent for the first mile or so of the trek, but then they began to talk, begining—inevitably—with an explanation from Gentle as to why Quaisoir, hearing his voice, had taken him for her husband. He prefaced his account with the caveat that he wouldn't mire it in apology or justification but would tell it simply, like some grim fable. Then he went on to do precisely that. But the telling, for all its clarity, contained one significant distortion. When he described his encounter with the Autarch he drew in Jude's mind the portrait of a man to whom he bore only a rudimentary resemblance, a man so steeped in evil that his flesh had been corrupted by his crimes. She didn't question this description, but pictured an individual whose inhumanity seeped from every pore, a monster whose very presence would have induced nausea.

  Once he'd unraveled the story of his doubling, she began to supply details of her own. Some were culled from dreams, some from clues she'd had from Quaisoir, yet others from Oscar Godolphin. His entrance into the account brought with it a fresh cycle of revelations. She started to tell Gentle about her romance with Oscar, which in turn led on to the subject of Dowd, living and dying; thence to Clara Leash and the Tabula Rasa.

  “They're going to make it very dangerous for you back in London,” she told him, having related what little she knew about the purges they'd undertaken in the name of Roxborough's edicts. “They won't have the slightest compunction about murdering you, once they know who you are.”

  “Let them try,” Gentle said flatly. “Whatever they want to throw at me, I'm ready. I've got work to do, and they're not going to stop me.”

  “Where will you start?”

  “In CJerkenwell. I had a house in Gamut Street. Pie says it's still standing. My life's there, ready for the remembering. We both need the past back, Jude.”

  “Where do I get mine from?” she wondered aloud.

  “From me and from Godolphin.”

  “Thanks for the offer, but I'd like a less partial source. I've lost Clara, and now Quaisoir. I'll have to start looking.” She thought of Celestine as she spoke, lying in darkness beneath the Tabula Rasa's tower.

  “Have you got somebody in mind?” Gentle asked.

  “Maybe,” she said, as reluctant as ever to share that secret.

  He caught the whiff of evasion. “I'm going to need help, Jude,” he said. “I hope, whatever's been between us in the past—good and bad—we can find some way to work together that'll benefit us both.”

  A welcome sentiment, but not one she was willing to open her heart for. She simply said, “Let's hope so,” and left it at that.

  He didn't press the issue, but turned the conversation to lighter matters. “What was the dream you had?” he asked her. She looked confounded for a moment. “You said you had a dream about me, remember?”

  “Oh, yes,” she replied. “It was nothing, really. Past history.”

  When they reached Peccable's house it was still intact, though several others in the street had been reduced to blackened rubble by missiles or arsonists. The door stood open, and the interior had been comprehensively looted, down to the tulips and the vase on the dining room table. There was no sign of bloodshed, however, except those scabby stains Dowd had left when he'd first arrived, so she presumed that Hoi-Polloi and her father had escaped unharmed. The signs of frantic thieving did not extend to the cellar. Here, though the shelves had been cleared of the icons, talismans, and idols, the removal had been made calmly and systematically. There was not a rosary remaining, or any sign that the thieves had broken a single charm. The only relic of the cellar's life as a trove was set in the floor the ring of stones that echoed that of the Retreat.

  “This is where we arrived,” Jude said.

  Gentle stared down at the design in the floor. “What is it?” he said. “What does it mean?”

  “I don't know. Does it matter? As long as it gets us back to the Fifth—”

  “We've got to be careful from now on,” Gentle replied. “Everything's connected. It's all one system. Until we understand our place in the pecking order, we're vulnerable.”

  One system; she'd speculated on that possibility in the room beneath the tower: the Imajica as a single, infinitely elaborate pattern of transformation. But just as there were times for such musings, so there were also times for action, and she had no patience with Gentle's anxieties now.

  “If you know another way out of here,” she said, “let's take it. But this is the only way I know. Godolphin used it for years and it never harmed him, till Dowd screwed it up.”

  Gentle had gone down on his haunches and was laying his fingers on the stones that bound the mosaic.

  “Circles are so powerful,” he said.

  “Are we going to use it or not?” .

  He shrugged. “I don't have a better way,” he said, still reluctant. “Do we just step inside?”

  “That's all.”

  He rose. She laid her hand on his shoulder, and he reached up to clasp it.

  “We have to hold tight,” she said. “I only got a glimpse of the In Ovo, but I wouldn't want to get lost there.”

  “We won't get lost,” he said, and stepped into the circle.

  She was with him a heartbeat later, and already the Express was getting up steam. The solid cellar walls and empty shelves began to blur. The forms of their translated selves began to move in their flesh.

  The sensation of passage awoke in Gentle memories of the outward journey, when Pie 'oh' pah had stood beside him where Jude was now. Remembering, he felt a stab of inconsolable loss. There were so many people he'd encountered in these Dominions whom he'd never set eyes on again. Some, like Efreet Splendid and his mother, Nikaetomaas, and Huzzah, because they were dead. Others, like Athanasius, because the crimes Sartori had committed were his crimes now, and whatever good he hoped to do in the future would never be enough to expunge them. The hurt of these losses was of course negligible beside the greater grief he'd sustained at the Erasure, but he'd not dared dwell too much upon that, for fear it incapacitated him. Now, however, he thought of it, and the tears started to flow, washing the last glimpse of Peccable's cellar away before the mosaic had removed the travelers from it.

  Paradoxically, had he been leaving alone the despair might not have cut so deep. But as Pie had been fond of saying, there was only ever room for three players in any drama, and the woman in the flux beside him, her glyph burning through his tears, would from this moment on remind him that he had departed Yzordderrex with one of those three left behind.

  7

  One hundred and fifty-seven days after beginning his journey across the Reconciled Dominions, Gentle once again set foot on the soil of England. Though it wasn't yet the middle of June, spring had arrived prematurely, and the season on its heels was at its height. Flowers not due to blossom for another month were already blowsy and heavy-headed with seeds; bird and insect life abounded, as species that normally appeared months apart flourished simultaneously. This summer's dawns were announced not with choruses but with full-throated choirs; by midday the skies from 'coast to coast were cloudy with feeding millions, the wheels slowing through the afternoon, until by dusk the din had become a music (sated and survivors alike giving thanks for the day) so rich it lulled even the crazy into remedial sleep. If a Reconciliation could indeed be planned and achieved in the little time before midsummer, then it would be burgeoning country that the rest of the Imajica would greet: an England of bountiful harvests, spread beneath a melodious heaven.

  It was full of music now, as Gentle wandered from the Retreat out across the dappled grass to the perimeter of the copse. The parkland was familiar to him, though its lovingly tended arbors were jungles now, and its lawns were veldt.

  “This is Joshua's place, isn't it?” he said to Jude. “Which way's the house?”

  She pointed across a wilderness of gilded grass. The roof of the mansion was barely visible above the surf of fronds and butterflies.

  “The very first time I saw you was in t
hat house,” he told her, “I remember... Joshua called you down the stairs. He had a pet name you despised. Peachblossom, was it? Something like that. As soon as I set eyes on you—”

  “It wasn't me,” Jude said, halting this romantic reverie. “It was Quaisoir.”

  “Whatever she was then, you are now.”

  “I doubt that. It was a long time ago, Gentle. The house is in ruins, and there's only one Godolphin left. History isn't going to repeat itself. I don't want it to. I don't want to be anybody's object.”

  He acknowledged the warning in these words with an almost formal statement of intent.

  “Whatever I did that caused you or anybody else harm,” he said, “I want to make good. Whether I did it because I was in love, or because I was a Maestro and I thought I was above common decency. . . . I'm here to heal the hurt. I want Reconciliation, Jude. Between us. Between the Dominions. Between the living and the dead if I can do it.”

  “That's a hell of an ambition,”

  “The way I see it, I've been given a second chance. Most people don't get that.”