Hooked On His Thuggish Ways 2

by Prenisha Aja

“Is she ok?” Her voice trembled as she looked at me with low, red eyes.

  “I mean, she’s in a coma Ma,” I stated, because I didn’t know if she was going to be ok. All that I could do was let it play out and pray that she woke up from it.

  “Fuck,” she screamed as her body just began to shake. She was pulling at her hair and scratching and clawing at her face and skin.

  “Chill yo.” I grabbed her up into my arms and that only made her break down and cry even harder.

  “I’m so sorry Jaxsyn. I’m so sorry…”

  As I held my mother, I looked at Kaizlyn whose eyes were big ass the fucking moon. Her mouth was wide open and her eyes were a little misty.

  “Please forgive me?” My mother dropped to her knees, her hands balled up together as she pleaded for my forgiveness.

  I shook my head because I didn’t know. I didn’t think that I had it in me to forgive her. That was not why I came over here. All I wanted to do was let her know about her daughter then leave. I wasn’t looking to rekindle anything. Not a damn thing.

  “Jaxsyn,” Kaizlyn called my name which caused me to look in her direction.

  Trying to say something to me, without really saying a word, she raised her eyebrows and nodded for me to say something, but I wasn’t ready. I didn’t have anything to say to the woman that had chosen her fucking abusive ass man over her kids.

  “Man, fuck this.” I walked away from my mother and she fell to the floor and just laid there. She laid there and continued to cry her eyes out.

  I walked out of the house and was headed to my car to leave. I couldn’t do this shit. I was a man and faced most shit, but this right here was something that I guess I wasn’t ready to face.

  “Jaxsyn, stop. Stop,” I heard Kaizlyn calling out behind me, but I ignored her. If she didn’t want me to leave her ass, she had better get in the car so that we could go.

  “Jaxsyn,” she yelled so loudly that I didn’t even know that her voice could escalate that damn high.

  Stopping midway in my stride, I turned around and looked at her. My face didn’t wear an expression.

  “You only have one mother and she could die tomorrow and you will be filled with regret,” she expressed, but I wasn’t feeling where she was coming from.

  “Nah.” I shook my head.

  “Yes.” She nodded back at me. “Yes, you will. I know you will. Listen to me. Listen to someone who has lost their mother and has to deal with that shit every day. Every day I am left to wonder if my mother would still be alive if I would have just not left out that room when I found her on the floor after being hit by the man that supposedly loved her. Wondering if I would have been more adamant about her taking me to school instead of him. Maybe that one little thing would have her in my life right now, but it doesn’t. You have time. Don’t take it for granted. I wish that my mother was still here. I would forgive her a thousand and one times for leaving me here in this fucked up world without her.” Kaizlyn now had tears in her eyes as she expressed to me her feelings.

  Real nigga shit, that shit had pulled at my damn heart. Yet again, she was speaking knowledge to me. I felt where she was coming from and I actually agreed with the shit that she was saying.

  Without even saying a word, I walked up to her and wrapped my arms around her. I held her so tightly as she wrapped her arms around me too and buried her head into my chest.

  “I feel you ma and I agree with you,” I told her, and she lifted her head to look up at me.

  “Good, now go in there and forgive her. Hug her too.” She gave me a smile even though I knew that she was hurting inside.

  “I got you.” I smiled back as I leaned down and placed a kiss on her soft lips.

  After the kiss, we pulled apart and I wiped her tears away before planting another kiss onto her lips. Kaizlyn was young but every day she was teaching a nigga like me something. She was hitting me with knowledge and making me aware of shit that I normally wouldn’t give two fucks about.

  Grabbing her hand, we walked back into my mom’s house so that we could have a talk and maybe even get a better understanding about shit.

  Watching Jaxsyn interact with his mom right now was bringing me a different kind of feeling. Knowing that he was willing to listen to little ole me and actually take my advice had my damn heart beating hard.

  But I was only telling him the real deal. Like he still had a chance to love on his mom, but yet he wanted to be mad about some shit that happened years ago.

  “I’m so glad that we talked about all of this and like I’ve said a million times, I’m sorry. I wish that I knew what I know now back then, because I would have been a better mom to you and your sister.” She held Jaxsyn’s hands in her hand as she spoke to him.

  I could see it in her eyes that she was sorry and that she wasn’t playing games, but Jaxsyn was still standoffish but he was open to it. He wasn’t being an asshole and he was willing to take the extra step in rekindling their mother and son relationship.

  “It’s cool Ma. You still have time, but don’t fuck up this go-round,” Jaxsyn stated, and I had to clear my throat.

  Never in a million years would I have cursed around my mom. She would have backhanded me and sent me to meet my maker.

  “Respect boy.” She tilted her head to the side and looked at him.

  “Oh yeah. My bad.” He chuckled.

  “I’m glad you got rid of that hoe ass nigga.” Jaxsyn looked around the house.

  “Yeah, me too. I hated I waited so long to do it. It took me calling the laws in order for me to do it, but he was sentenced to three years. He got about three months to go,” she spoke as her voice cracked.

  “What did he do to you?” I butted in, because I wanted to know.

  Standing to her feet, she turned around and raised her shirt. She spun around in a complete circle and from the top of her back all around to the center of her stomach was a long as cut as if he was trying to skin her ass.

  I covered my mouth and gasped because I knew that it had to be painful. Jaxsyn sat there as his jaws tightened and his temples began to thump.

  “Damn Ma.” He shook his head and stood up.

  This time, he was the one to bring her in for a hug and again, she began to cry. The whole sight and situation was just too much. My emotions were on ten.

  “It’s ok. I learned from it. I just hope he did too and doesn’t try to step back over here.” She gulped.

  “Don’t worry about that. I got you, but look Mom, I got to jet. I still got some shit to handle. My plans were never to be over here this long.” Jaxsyn chuckled. “I’ll be back over here to pick you up to see Keisha or you can just go by yourself. Take my number,” he told his mom, and she nodded her head then scurried to her purse that was upstairs in her room.

  When she came back downstairs, she had a pen and piece of paper ready to write his number down. I could see that she really wanted to get back close with her son, and even her daughter.

  Jaxsyn gave her his number and then we said our goodbyes.

  “Next time I meet you, it won't be such an emotional moment,” she yelled at me as she waved from the door.

  Laughing, I waved back and agreed. We didn’t even have a chance to even meet or talk about who I was to her son because there was a bigger problem that needed to be solved, and I was glad that I was there to help the both of them because who knows where it would have gone if I wasn’t there with his ass.

  “Thank you for being here with me today.” He paused. “You have no idea how hard this shit was for me. I’m real enough to say that if it had not been for you, I would still be holding that heavy ass weight on my shoulder. I feel way better. Now all I need is for my sister to wake up, so we can get this damn party started.” He tried to sound cheerful but his mood totally didn’t match the way his words came out.

  “You’re welcome and she’s going to wake up. Just trust God.” I beamed and then I leaned over and kissed him.

  I don’t know what came over Jaxsyn
but in one swift movement, he pushed his seat back, grabbed me and I was now in his lap.

  “Kaizlyn…” he mumbled my name lowly as he looked up at me with hooded eyes.

  He licked his lips as his hands rested on my ass. He firmly gripped it as I licked my lips also and looked into his eyes.

  “What…” I dragged and I batted my eyelashes and tried my hardest not to show all thirty-two of my teeth.

  Sitting in Jaxsyn’s lap right now as I felt his dick get hard had my damn head spinning. The way he was looking at me had me wanting to see exactly how fun car sex was. I mean, back at my old school and even in the group home, I would hear the girls talking about how fun car sex was but never had I really experienced it.

  When I was with Melo, we would just sneak and do it at his house. We would touch and feel on each other in his car, but that was about it.

  “Why the fuck you so fucking dope yo?” He chuckled.

  “I don’t know.” I shrugged. “I’m just me.”

  “Well, I like you. A lot.” He smirked and I had to lay my head down his shoulder to hide the big ass grin that was on my face.

  As I rested my head on his shoulder, he caressed my ass cheeks and I began to kiss and suck on his neck. I knew that he was loving it because his body relaxed and his grip on my ass got firmer and his dick got harder. Jaxsyn even let out a light moan and that made me wet. To know that I was turning him on, turned me on.

  “Damn...” he let out as he leaned his head over more to the left, giving me more room to suck on his neck.

  I was now planting soft kissing along his neck as I guided my lips up to his earlobe then ran my tongue against his outer ear.

  “We gon’ fuck right here if you don’t stop this shit.” He began to hump up and down and I could feel his hard dick pressed against my center which made me want to fuck him. Not here in front of his mother’s house, but I definitely wanted to fuck him in the car.

  “What if I want to fuck you right now. In yo’ car.” I tried my best to sound as sexy as I could as I whispered in his ear then bit down on his ear.

  “Fuck this shit.” He lifted me up and pulled his dick out.

  “Jaxsyn, no, not in front of your mama’s house.” I was shocked that he was really about that life. Yeah, I wanted to fuck him but damn, not in an area where we could get caught.

  “Nah, nah baby. You were talking that hot shit in my ear and now you have to handle him.” He looked up at me as he stroked his dick.

  “But…” I tried to reason with him but he wasn’t having it.

  “No buts. Handle this shit for yo’ nigga.” His fine ass bit down on his lip and looked at me with those deep brown eyes, and it was like I couldn’t say no. Something took over me and I was now pulling down my pants and climbing on top of his hard dick.

  “Yes, handle that shit.” He bit down on his lip, grabbed both of my ass cheeks and help me bounce on his dick.

  “Are we going to get caught?” I questioned as I looked around. I didn’t think that I would be this damn paranoid when I did this shit.

  “I want you to focus on me and this nut I want you to bust all over my dick,” Jaxsyn spoke as he leaned in and kissed me on my neck.

  Throwing my head back, I allowed Jaxsyn to guide me up and down his dick at the speed that he wanted.

  The way that his dick filled my pussy up only made me wetter and hornier. The way that he was caressing my ass cheeks while delivering deep strokes had me speechless. He had my whole body tingling. He was an expert with this shit and I was slowly learning.

  “How this dick feel?” he asked me, and if he couldn’t tell by the way that my face was frowned up and the way that my pussy was gushing all on his dick, if he couldn’t use those clues, then I didn’t know what to tell him because no words were coming out.

  “I said how does it feel?” He slammed me down on his dick and all I could do was scream out.

  “Ahh… fuck. It feels. It feels. Oh my.” I tried to answer his question, but the sensation and pleasure from his deep strokes had my mind so damn gone.

  “Talk to me, baby. I like when you talk to me. Tell me how Daddy dick feel?” he asked again as he bit down on his lip again.

  I didn’t know what it was about him biting down on his juicy, pink lips and showing off those perfect teeth that turned me on, but it did.

  “It feels so good. Too good,” I expressed as I placed my hands on his shoulders and began to pick up speed. I was now in control of how fast I wanted to go on his dick.

  “You feel good too. Too fucking good, shit. Damn Kaizlyn, slow down,” he told me, but I wasn’t listening.

  I was in a whole different element as I continued to bounce down on his big ass dick, causing my juices to splatter and our skins to smack together.

  The windows in the car were getting foggy and it was getting hot as fuck, but I didn’t care. My nut was right there and I could feel it deep in my stomach. I knew that when it came that I was going to lose it.

  “Jaxsyn… yo’ dick be feeling so good,” I hollered as I rode his dick in car. “And I’m about to… Ahhh!”

  “Yes… nut all on that dick,” he said, and that’s exactly what I did.

  My breathing stopped, my legs felt numb, my stomach ached and my pussy throbbed as I released all on his dick just like he had demanded me to.

  “Fuckkkk.” Jaxsyn bit down on his lips so that he wouldn’t get too loud, and then I felt his warm seeds fill me up.

  “Oh my god.” I leaned back on the steering wheel which caused the horn to blow, reminding me that we were in the car.

  Panicking, I looked around and was so happy to see that nobody was around. I quickly got off of his lap and got in the passenger seat as I pulled up my pants.

  “Yo’ ass lowkey a freak.” He looked at me as he stuffed his dick back into his pants and started the car.

  I was happy to feel some cool air blow on me because me and him had just caused the car to get hot and steamy.

  “No, I’m not.” I laughed.

  “Yeah, ok. You’ll see.” He winked at me and drove off.

  I just sat there in the passenger seat, still feeling like his dick was inside of me by the way my pussy throbbed and leaked not only my juices but his nut.

  “Jaxsyn,” I called his name after riding in silence for about ten minutes.

  I had been trying to think about how I wanted to say what I was about to say to him. The way that he was nutting in me, he was going to have me pregnant before I even graduated high school and got the chance to go off to college, and that was not something that I was picturing in my future right now.

  “We need to talk.” I bit down on my knuckle as I waited for him to say something.

  “Well talk… talk to me baby,” he stated in a calm tone.

  “I’m not on birth control and I don’t want no babies right now. So can we go get a plan b or something?” I expressed then held my breath as I waited for him to say something.

  Silence filled the car and I began to worry. Like what in the world was he over there thinking about? He should have responded quickly to that shit; it wasn’t something that he needed to think about. All he needed to say was, ok babe, I’ll stop and get you one.

  “You don’t even know if you’re pregnant yet.”

  Exhaling, I turned in my seat. “Jaxsyn, that is the whole point of the pill. To stop the shit before we even have to worry about buying a pregnancy test. Can we please stop and get one?” I was so serious right now. There was no smirk on my face.

  “Yeah, there’s a CVS by my house,” he stated then turned the music up, and we just drove in silence until we pulled up to the CVS.

  Jaxsyn parked and pulled his wallet out and was getting ready to hand me the money, but I knew that I couldn’t go in there to buy it, at least I didn’t think so.

  “I can't go in there and get it. I’m not old enough.”

  “What you mean? So you want me to go get it?” He pointed at himself.

  I mean,
who else was in the car that could go inside to get it? Not me.

  “Yes, Jaxsyn. Did you forget that I am only seventeen? You got to be eighteen to buy it, I’m pretty sure,” I told him, and he huffed before he got out of the car as if he was mad, and stormed inside of the store.

  About fifteen minutes later, he came outside with a bag. He got in the car and threw the bag in my lap, and I was actually offended.

  “Damn, is there a problem?” I asked him as I opened the bag to make sure he had gotten the right shit.

  “Yes it is. Had me going in there buying some shit I know nothing about. I had to ask the damn ladies in there. Which ended with them giving my ass a speech and telling me to wrap up so I wouldn’t be in here buying this type of shit,” he explained, and I actually burst out laughing.

  “You mad because they told you the truth?”

  “Kaizlyn, leave me alone.”

  “Oh, so you are mad. You should have gotten some condoms out of there while you were at it,” I told him as I held the box with the pill in there that I was going to have to take.

  I had never had to do this before, so this was going to be all new to me. I didn’t know exactly what it was going to do to my body, but I was more scared of pregnancy than anything, so I was just going to have to pray that I would be ok after I took it.

  “Kaizlyn, shut up.” Jaxsyn looked at me like I had said the dumbest shit ever, but I was serious about the condom thing. At least until I was able to afford to get on some birth control.

  I wish that I could express the amount of hate that I had for that nigga Jaxsyn. Like, just thinking about him made my soul burn. I just wanted him knocked off this fucking earth.

  “Man Dex, when you think we should make that move?” I asked Dex as he sat in the passenger seat rolling up a fat ass blunt.

  “Shit, I’ve been waiting on you to say the word,” he stated, and he was right. We had been talking about making the move, but it was me who hadn’t said the word. I had to remember that I was the boss and that these niggas were waiting on me to give the go.

  “You right. Let’s definitely make that move as soon as possible, and you sure that he is going to be there at the time you say?”