Love's Suspicion

by Flynn Eire

  “Yeah, okay.” He blew out a harsh breath and scrubbed his hand over his hair. “I want you happy, El. Just don’t flaunt it in front of me.”

  “I’m not mean.”

  “No, you’re in love, and everything else disappears when you are, so I’m just trying to remind you I’m around and missing you.”

  I blinked after him as he about flew out the door, not caring he pushed Sen aside to do it. I jumped when Sen called my name, realizing it wasn’t the first time.

  “He’s right,” I blurted as I met his gorgeous purple eyes. “I love you.”

  “That’s why you were in shock,” he sighed, leaning his forehead against my chest. “I thought it was hearing he still missed you.”

  “No, he said that before, that he wanted me still,” I murmured, hugging him. “Sorry, Sen. You shouldn’t have had to hear all of that or have me say the words that way.”

  “You’re not mad I was eavesdropping?” he muttered against my chest.

  I snorted. “No, we’re in your damn room. I didn’t want to go to his room to talk when I’m with you. It seemed wrong, but we needed to talk, calmly for once.”

  “I’m glad you got your closure.”

  I gasped as his fingers tickled under my shirt. “What are you doing?”

  “Touching my lover who I missed so, so much,” he purred and removed my shirt. “We need to talk too, but I cannot think past what you said and how much I’ve missed you.” He tilted his neck so I could kiss him, and I did, wanting it as much as he did. “What does my lovely want? Anything you want, El.”

  I heard the insecurity in his tone and gave him a gentle kiss as I hugged him tightly. “I meant what I said, Sen. I love you. I don’t want him. I want you, only you.”

  “Thank you,” he breathed against my lips. “I love you too, El. I know it’s fast and crazy, but I do. I think I’ve loved you from the moment you hurried to call me because I was upset, forgetting the gifts or groveling messages.”

  “Good,” I growled, mashing my mouth to his, thrilled to hear him say it. “Shit, I want you so bad. I know we need to talk, but I just—I need you, Sen.”

  “You have me. Take me, and then we can talk. Anything you want.” He smiled when I opened my mouth to argue. “Today was hard on you, not just because of Tadzio. Let me take care of you. I’m sorry I was late. I promised to be here to help, and I was late. Let me make it up to you.”

  I studied his face and smiled. “And you know it gets me fucking hard as can be to have my ancient, powerful, and amazing lover submit to me.”

  “Maybe,” he teased, smirking at me.

  “On your knees, Sen. Suck my cock,” I ordered, smiling when he groaned and immediately did. Fuck, I was definitely loved.

  5 ~ Seneca

  Ellison acted like he was being spoiled when I dropped to my knees, but honestly, I was. This young, gorgeous stud with a huge cock, and had more than Tadzio sniffing after him, was completely loyal and wanted no one but me. Yeah, I was spoiled. I might have been ancient, powerful, and wealthy, but he didn’t see any of that, and I was used to that being all people saw of me.

  All I was to people.

  And he didn’t judge me for wanting to be a bit submissive in the bedroom. It got me so hot how he praised me, stared at me with such longing and desire as I got to suck the best cock I’d ever seen in all my long years. He liked me naked to do it, he’d said that much in one of our many video calls, so I immediately got naked.

  As he finished getting naked.

  “I love you,” I swore to him, knowing down to my toes my soulmate was Ellison Noah. And he was worth waiting all these years for. He was perfect. He was loving, and kind, and a bit jaded and wounded, which I loved about him too. But most importantly, he saw me. He saw even the bad and how clingy and jealous I was and loved me anyways.

  “I believe you,” he purred, smirking down on me. “Now love on him before I fuck you so good.”

  I moaned and swallowed him down. The groan El gave shook his entire body and set me on fire. I pulled off and moved for the lube as fast as I could, smiling when he blinked down at me because he couldn’t keep up with my speed. “I love how you look at me when I get myself ready for you while sucking you.”

  He worried his lower lip. “I do, but I want to take care of you too, Sen.”

  “You do,” I promised. “You do, El. We’ve been apart too long. I want you inside me. You can stretch me another time.” He smiled, and I felt my heart soar that I’d said the right thing. “What do you want? Will you fuck my face?”

  He moaned as his dick twitched, and I got my answer. I squirted lube on my fingers and shoved two in my ass as I opened my mouth, moaning when he pushed his monster right past my lips.

  “Suck it like it’s the only cock you’ll ever suck again,” he hissed as his fangs came out, grabbing my head as he thrust. “Yeah, you heard me. All of you is mine , Sen. I own every inch of you, and I can give you everything you ever wanted.”

  I constantly swallowed as I deep throated him, stretching myself as fast as I could as my other hand teased his sac. I was so thrilled by what he said, so overwhelmed by my love for him and desire to please him, I ended up coming first just from my fingers. I cried around his cock, my eyes never leaving his.

  And fuck, did he love what he saw. He licked his fangs, and the moment I finished, pulling my fingers from my ass, he pushed me to the floor. I gasped as he moved over me, jacking off as fast as he could. “You’re going to smell like me, Sen. We’re going to go out in front of everyone with you smelling like me.”

  “Or you could bite me,” I offered, baring my neck to him.

  “I want to,” he admitted, his hand stopping. “I do, but it’s not fair to do when I’ve had such an upsetting day. When I bite you, I want nothing on my mind but you—us.”

  “I love you,” I choked out, my heart healing from so much past hurt that he would care so much. “I’m yours forever, El.”

  “Then ask me,” he demanded, moving one of my hands to his cock so we pumped it together. “Ask me what you want to, Sen. I’m ready.”

  “Will you mate me?” I breathed, hoping that was what he meant.

  “Yes,” he grunted as he came all over me. He gave me an evil smile as he sprayed me with his seed. “Yes, Sen. I’ll mate you. I want a human engagement after what we’ve both been through so neither of us ever thinks it wasn’t what we wanted but what we needed because of other things, but yes, I’d love to make you mine forever.”

  “A long engagement sounds nice,” I agreed after a few moments of thought. It did, which I found surprising. But he was right that I could one day think it was his upsets, from Tadzio to all the shit with the councils, that made him commit to me, and I didn’t want that.

  “Good,” he growled as he jumped to his feet. I gasped as he grabbed my ankle and dragged me over towards the sitting chair, moving so my ass was up against the end of it, sort of folding me in half. He moved his legs on the chair, and his hands were by my shoulders. Then he reached back and shoved his cock in me roughly. “I’ve been studying.”

  “I like,” I panted, floored he’d come up with a way to fuck me like no one ever had.

  That wasn’t easy to say when someone was thousands of years old.

  It was surprisingly intimate, as he had to keep his arms straight for balance, but we stared into each other’s eyes the whole time. He smirked as I gasped and moaned, his cock hitting my prostate perfectly every time. It egged him on, and he moved faster, harder.

  “Say you’re mine,” he grunted, baring his fangs at me. “Say all of you is mine . Every inch of you is mine, Sen. Be clingy. Be jealous. Just be mine .”

  “Yes, yes, and yes,” I gasped as I spread my legs wider for him. “All of me, El. Everything I am, all of me is yours forever. I love you so much, lovely.”

  “Good,” he snarled, leaning down and licking my lips. “Don’t ever forget it.” He smirked again when I quickly nodded. “Now come on me so
I smell like you too.”

  All I had to do was move my cock in his direction instead of against my stomach and I came. I cried out his name as one of the best orgasms of my life hit me as he kept fucking me with all he had. The moment I finished, he moved to the floor with me, rutting his hips against mine… And bit me.

  But he didn’t drink. He bit me to own me, in the best sort of way, but to own every inch of me. He kept fucking me with his fangs deep in me, and I came again before he did, all over both of us. It felt like forever, but then he finished, both of us moaning at how good it felt.

  I didn’t even get a chance to catch my breath before he flipped me under him and started plowing into me more. I angled my neck, offering whatever he needed, understanding something major was going on, some hurt of his trying to heal.

  “Never, not ever will you leave me,” he snarled before he bit me again. I felt his hot tears on my neck, and I reached back to hold him to me as his thrusts became erratic and then stopped. He retracted his fangs and buried his face against my back. “I can’t be alone again after having met you, Sen. You can’t ever leave me. I can’t go back to being the orphan no one loves after knowing what it’s really like to be loved. You have to love me forever now.”

  “I promise,” I rasped, my heart hurting from the pain he was in. I moved out from under him and straddled his lap as I pushed him back to the floor. I couldn’t take him in me because he’d gone soft in his mini breakdown. I leaned over and kissed him with all the love I felt for him. “Nothing will ever take me from you. I promise, El. Just you and me against the world forever. We’re our own family now.”

  “Swear it to me!” he sobbed, hugging me to him. “You can’t ever leave me, Sen.”

  “I won’t,” I promised over and over again, holding him while he let out some of his pain. When he settled down, his cock seemed to realize we were still naked and perked back up. I took him in me as I kissed his tears away. “Let me take care of you, lovely. Let me be everything you need.”

  “You are,” he said with a sniffle, wiping his eyes. “How can you want sex with me after I bawled like such a goober again?”

  “I wish you could see yourself as I do and how perfect you are,” I whispered against his lips. Then I kissed him as I let my body do the talking, riding him gently but passionately. We finished together that time, and I slumped all over him, completely spent.

  “I have never seen anything so beautiful as you riding me, lost in the pleasure I bring you,” he murmured in my ear, hugging me tightly. “Will you promise to announce it to everyone that you’re mine?”

  “Yes, as long as we don’t flaunt it to Tadzio. He doesn’t deserve that,” I agreed.

  “No, he doesn’t,” he sighed. “I forgot about him.”

  As evil as it might have been, my heart soared at hearing that. Fine, fine, El loved me, I knew that, but he’d had an emotional thing with his ex-boyfriend, his only other ex-lover, and I was glad he could forget about the man. So sue me.

  It was also how I ended up giving him another blow job right there no matter how wiped I was. I begged him to come on my face, to show I was all his. He seemed hesitant like it was demeaning, and I was glad he felt that way. I just wanted him to know how far my feelings went of me being his since he couldn’t say certain things in front of others.

  We showered, and when we were finished getting clean, I realized he was pouting because I’d washed away his scent. I smiled as I jacked him off to finish all over my groin, and while I rinsed off, I didn’t wash so the smell of him would stay.

  “Thank you,” he breathed in my ear as he hugged me from behind.

  “My man loves me so much he wants everyone to know I’m his. I’m thrilled,” I assured him, turning in his arms and giving him a soft kiss. “I just wish my body was more used to sex so we could go again. My very young, very ferocious lover has tired me out.”

  He snorted as he turned off the water and I grabbed our towels. “You’re thousands of years old. I doubt I—”

  “I don’t lie, El,” I snapped, turning and handing him a towel. “I haven’t had sex in a few decades before you, okay? And you are by far the best I’ve ever been with and not because of your size but because how much you care and want me.”

  He took the towel and wrapped it around his hips, giving me one of the intense, appraising looks he did when he was trying to control his temper and figure out what he was missing. Finally he came to some decision and pinned me to the tiles with his larger body, moving his face so we were nose to nose.

  “When I say something like that, it’s not that I think you’re a liar, it’s because I can’t fathom it. I can’t see what you can. Maybe my own self-doubt, as I’ve not had thousands of years of experience. I’m still recovering, Sen. I feel so weak all the time that I can’t fathom how I’d wear you out when you’re so much stronger than me. I know you wouldn’t lie to me, so assume it’s anything other than that no matter what I say, okay?”

  “Yes, and I totally heard you, but I’m so fucking turned on right now that I can’t stand it,” I panted, my heart racing as my body practically shook with lust.

  He gave me that sexy smirk that melted me. “Then apologize for snapping at me and assuming I was calling you a liar.”

  So I did. I dropped to my knees right there and gave him the best blow job I could.

  “Wanna doubt me some more?” he panted, his eyes dancing with mirth.

  “I want to worship you the rest of my days for making everything so easy for me to understand and being patient with me,” I confessed, my heart so full of love for him I thought it might burst.

  He smiled as he pulled me to my feet, cupping my cheek as he brushed his lips over mine. “I’m not patient, though, Sen. It’s how I knew I fell for you that I wanted to be. That you were worth cooling my temper for. Thank you for understanding it’s not easy for me to do either, and appreciating it.”

  “Thank you for appreciating me,” I moaned as he kissed all along my neck. “Fuck coming up for air or being adults. Take me again, El.”

  He chuckled deep enough I felt it echo in my chest as he nibbled on my ear. “You go be badass ancient and put them all in their place, my badass lover they totally submit to, and then you’re going to submit to me as I pound into you all night. I’m going to fuck you so good until you can’t come anymore, and then I might do it again just to make sure.”

  “Shit, El, who put the quarter in you?” I panted, totally fucking turned on and wanting everything he said. “Does me showing Claudius his place get you that hot?”

  “Oh yeah,” he groaned, sucking up a mark on my neck. “Show them all, Sen. Boss them all around and then beg me to fuck you like only I can, like only you want me to.”

  Apparently I’d found one of his very kinky fantasies. One I could so, so work with if it got my young lover all hot and bothered. It made sense given how young he was and I wasn’t, how much stronger I was than him. It was like evening the field to be equals… Which we were, so I was glad he’d worked that out as he did.

  “Fuck me now, El,” I begged, knowing he’d shut me down and loving he was comfortable enough to play like that.

  “Not yet,” he purred, squeezing my ass hard as he rubbed his huge cock against me. “I heard your stomach growl, and I don’t like you being hungry. You’re not the only one who wants to take care of their lover.”

  “Please do.” I smiled against his chest, feeling so loved and cherished I didn’t want the moment to end. But it did.

  I just hoped there were many, many more like it.

  “Speaking of Claudius, how well do you know him? Do you trust him?” El asked after we finished redressing and headed out, trying to be nonchalant about it but failing miserably.

  “I’ve known Claudius for a few thousand years,” I answered as I slipped my hand in his, smiling when he immediately raised it to his lips. “I trust him. I’d even consider him a friend if he’d stop being such a closed off idiot who doesn’t th
ink work can mix with friends. His honor is unquestionable. He’s a bit straight-laced and ruled by rules, but his own morality is impeccable.”

  “That’s what Rune said Helios told him too,” he muttered as he opened the door outside for me, staring off into the distance.

  “Can I help with whatever’s on your mind?” I asked gently.

  “I think you just did,” he sighed, squeezing my hand. “Don’t get mad at me for not telling you something I maybe should have. I was scared. I needed to spend more than one night with you to know for sure how solid we were.”

  I opened the door to the main building for us, staring at his worried expression. “Okay, but you’re telling me now?”

  “Yes.” He headed to ops instead of the cafeteria, and Helios’s mate, Rune, came right to us. “It’s ready?”

  “You sure about this?” Rune asked as he handed over a large memory drive.

  “Someone needs to have it, and Seneca has the same opinion of Claudius as your mate does.”

  Rune sighed, shaking his head as El took the drive. “It’s not that I doubt Claudius’s intent, but it’s a can of worms you’re opening, Ellison. You’ve been through enough, you’ve done enough. You don’t know what could come from showing this.”

  “No, but keeping it quiet is wrong too.” He let out a slow breath when Rune nodded. “You’ve got the backup so it can’t just disappear?”

  “Yeah, the original is locked up, and I’ve uploaded the full contents on two of my secret offsite storage servers. I’ve got you covered.”

  “Thanks.”

  “Good luck,” Rune sighed and headed back to his desk.

  “What’s on there?” I asked El gently when he kept staring at it.

  “Pandora’s box,” he grumbled and pulled me out of ops. I wanted to ask again, but he found Claudius talking to a few other Wyrok that had come for the inquisition. He dropped my hand and went right to the man in charge, holding out the drive before he lost his nerve from the tension in his shoulder. “One thousand, three hundred and six. That’s how many I killed, and here’s the proof of most of them.”