Hearts of Darkness: A Valentine's Day Bully Romance Collection

by Joanna Mazurkiewicz

  “Seriously, guys, you’re scaring me. Should I be afraid?”

  Abbie cringed and peeked at me out of one eye. “Not gonna lie. A little, but we’ll meet you at the stables as soon as the period ends. We’ll walk back to your room together. Don’t freak out, but...do.”

  A few minutes later I’d changed my clothes and was officially shaking in my black riding boots. It wasn’t like I could just waltz into the stables and the horses wouldn’t sense it. I blew out a few cleansing breaths and tried to shake it off. Hay and gravelly dirt crunched under my feet as I made my way down to the last stall, where—I looked up at the name above the door—Jigsaw, a gorgeous pinto filly, was waiting for me.

  “Well, hello.” I reached out and gently brushed my fingers over her mane, but she pulled back. “Whoa. Don’t worry. It’s just today. I won’t always be giving off the scary vibes.”

  I blew out a sigh and let my chin fall for a few seconds. When I peered up at Jigsaw, she seemed to sense, or smell, the shitty day on me. Next thing I knew, her fuzzy chin groove was on my shoulder. I leaned my head against her muzzle and rubbed her nose.

  “I like you, too.”

  The rest of the period, I was still thinking about what Abbie and Owen needed to tell me, but my nerves calmed down...a little. Jigsaw and I exercised in the paddock, stretching her legs. Surprisingly, our rhythm synced quickly, and I relished the familiar comfort of her gait. My thighs straddling her, my feet in the stirrups, my hands easy on the reins, it soothed me. She felt like an old friend.

  The best part? I never had to work to fit in, to belong, with the horses. No matter what place or school I was yanked out of or stuck into, home for me was always where the horses were. If the days got too rough here, I knew I’d feel safe in the stable.

  After our exercise session, I led Jigsaw back into her stall. Once I’d removed her tack and given her coat a thorough grooming, I changed out of my riding clothes, found a stack of hay just off the barn, and waited for the students to leave and my friends to arrive.

  “Let’s be quick about this.” Abbie let her backpack fall to the ground, settled on a bale of hay, and angled herself toward me while Owen followed suit. Based on her bouncing foot and the way he kept looking over his shoulder, I assumed they were risking something by letting me in on whatever it was they were about to share.

  “How much do you know about Xander Gale?” Abbie asked.

  I barely suppressed an annoyed sigh. “That’s who all this is about? He’s no one to me, really. My dad and his father served in Desert Storm together, so Xander’s family is going to look out for me while Dad’s deployed. That’s mostly it...” I trailed off.

  “Mostly?” Owen tilted his head and his mouth twisted into a smirk.

  “We might have...kissed in the hallway at his parents’ house last night, but it doesn’t even matter, because apparently he doesn’t even recognize me anymore.”

  Abbie dropped her face into her hands and shook her head. “Holy shit. Fuck.”

  “It wasn’t that big of a deal, I promise.”

  Before I could say another word, Abbie dragged her backpack closer to her, unzipped it, and pulled out a history book. I must have looked confused because she held up a finger as she thumbed the pages until she reached about two thirds of the way through. At the top, the title read, “notes,” and there was this organizational diagram that looked like a family tree or a hierarchy chart.

  “What’s that?” I leaned in for a closer look.

  “Exactly what it says. It’s my notes on this school and basically a guide to safely walking the line between feed and normalcy.”

  “Okay, you lost me.”

  Owen flipped the book around, so it was facing me, and proceeded to go over the school’s players and non-players, or Crows, Ravens, The Feed, and the others.

  Notes

  Desert Badlands Wastelands Academy

  The Crows (guys):

  Xander Gale, Marshall Landers, and Jorden Battle

  The Ravens (girls):

  Honoré Montgomery, Penelope “Penny” Harding, and Nicolette “Nic” or “Nickel” Harding

  The Feed:

  Emily Sutton, Clementine Olivier

  The Others/Untouchables:

  Abigail “Abbie” Edelberg, Owen Branch, Heather Devers, Mischa Ferguson, and Ming Xhang.

  “Is it time for Q&A yet? Because I’m lost. What does this even mean?” I asked. “And why are you guys untouchables?”

  “My Dad is the dean,” Owen stated.

  Abbie shrugged. “I’m legacy. Abigail Edelberg,” she dragged out the last name like I’d recognize it, and it did sound vaguely familiar, but then again, everything at the school was new to me. “As in the Edelberg building, statue...,” she clarified.

  At her raised brows, I nodded, trying to figure where I fit in this hierarchy. “So...if your families make you untouchable, where do I fit in?” I tugged at my collar. It was hot all of a sudden.

  “Let’s just say The Crows and Ravens are all legacies, and certain bloodlines make you untouchable,” Owen added. And I did follow his deductive reasoning, but I was still trying to put the puzzle pieces together.

  “Then what the hell is The Feed?”

  Abigail eyed me tentatively, like she was apprehensive about letting me in on whatever it was she was holding back. She removed her glasses and her bright amber eyes dimmed. “I just wish we could have gotten to you first,” she said.

  “First?”

  “If Xander already has his sights on you, there’s not much we can do. I mean, we’re your friends, and that won’t change, but we can’t be with you twenty-four seven.”

  “So...I’m The Feed, as in to be fed to The Crows and Ravens?”

  They both nodded.

  “Well, what are they going to do to me?” I eyed the page once more, but then my gaze snagged on the name with a line through it. “And who is Emily Sutton? Why is her name crossed out?”

  I heard the horses neighing in the barn as I watched dust particles float in the waning sun.

  For the next half hour, they gave me the abridged version of The Feed. Apparently, we, since I was lumped in with them, were not merely playthings. We were prey to be sought out, ruined both socially and sexually, and eventually thrown out of the Academy. The Ravens, on the other hand, were not innocent bystanders. If The Crows needed anything, the Ravens helped them secure The Feed.

  As for my other question, a year ago Emily Sutton was pegged. Each of The Crows, a mix of both current students and some who’d since graduated, took turns videoing themselves fucking her—a feeding. They didn’t share the video initially. They held it over her head as insurance to keep her on the roster, but it fucked with her head and schoolwork, so she reported it to the dean. A horrible mistake. The Crows leaked the video and Emily killed herself in her room.

  Room 214.

  My room.

  “Oh.” I pressed a finger to my lip and bit down on it. “So, I’m fucked.”

  Abbie tugged both of her pigtails and slumped before straightening again hopefully. “Are you a virgin?”

  “Um, I’m not sure why that matters, but no.”

  Owen considered this. “Does Xander think you are?”

  I let my head hang back and thought about the conversation at dinner last night. How Mr. Gale asked me about a boyfriend back home. How Xander’s fingers glided, hot and hard inside of me while my folds clenched tight around him.

  “Probably.”

  Owen and Abbie shared a glance and she turned to me, something like hope in her eyes.

  “Maybe, you’ll only have to hook up with Xander. He’s got a thing for virgins, and he might want to keep you for himself.” She shrugged like that made all the difference. “I don’t know, he’s good-looking, built, and I haven’t heard anyone complain.”

  As much as I wanted to hurl in my own mouth, the idea of fucking Xander didn’t completely nauseate me. If I was being honest with myself, when he hustled me out of t
he dining room at and into the entryway of Gale Manor, I wanted to feel the hardness in his pants working inside me up against the wall. Even with Dad in the other room, the threat of someone walking in on us had rattled something loose inside me and desire flared low and tight in my belly—then and now.

  If that’s what it took to keep from turning into Grand Central Station, trains being run on me day in and day out, well...so be it.

  But for now, a new list ran through my head. One, avoid The Crows and Ravens at all costs, two, find out who the hell Clementine Olivier was, and three, find Emily Sutton’s video. I needed to discover what I didn’t know about Emily. Seeing the video would tell me exactly what I was dealing with.

  Abbie, Owen, and I left the stables, ate dinner together at the dining hall, and finally, some time after seven that night, we made it to the girls’ dorm. We were still laughing about the chalk lines and paranormal activity I envisioned after their first warning while I fished the key out of my blazer pocket.

  “I literally wasn’t planning to sleep,” I giggled. But then their laughter ceased, and I turned to discover I wouldn’t be sleeping alone tonight. “Hi, I’m—”

  “Izabelle Waters. I know.”

  A pair of deep emerald eyes beamed back at me. They were lined all the way around with smudged charcoal and offset by thin, bright pink lips. Everything about her was flawless and expensive. Bluish black hair hung loosely over her slender shoulders in a side braid.

  She was beautiful—and had moved into my dorm room, apparently. I took in her tailored leather bags and the bed across from mine fully dressed in dark grey sheets and a white down comforter.

  I studied her for a second. “I was told I wouldn’t have a roommate.”

  “Mine, bless her heart—and my ears—likes to play the violin at all hours. Try sleeping through Concerto for Two Violins in D minor at three a.m. No thanks.” She shook her head and flashed a pasted-on, toothy grin. “Anyway, when I heard you didn’t have a roommate, I figured...”—she gave a coy, twinkly little shrug—“win-win for the both of us.”

  The three of us were all still standing there silent and slack-jawed, transfixed by the girl’s spell. I thought it was just me at first, but the way they were watching her, both wide-eyed and ashen again, I was terrified to ask her name.

  I didn’t have to.

  “I’m being rude. My name is Honoré Montgomery.” Her delicate hand hung outstretched in the air while I picked my bottom lip up off the ground. She made a tiny noise that snapped me out of it.

  “Oh, right.” I slipped my hand in hers. Shit. “Nice to meet you.”

  It seemed The Feed was already being secured, and I’d have to wait to find Emily’s video.

  CHAPTER SIX

  XANDER

  The common room was empty other than one of the Harding sisters in the corner watching YouTube on full blast on her phone. I’d come for the quiet, to lie back on the couch and kick up my feet in peace. I cracked my neck and blew out a frustrated breath as I read the same paragraph for the fifth time. Finally, I slammed the book shut and stretched my legs out in front of me.

  “Can you not?” Penelope sucked her teeth and rolled her eyes.

  She turned her back on me.

  What the fuck is going on in this place?

  A flash of anger settled in the pit of my stomach and I jolted upright. It seemed everyone was confused about who ruled this school. “Leave,” I demanded. She glanced over at me, but there was no playfulness in my tone.

  “Seriously, Xander?”

  I felt my eyebrows lower and pinch together as I stalked over to her. Just standing there, I saw exactly what I needed to see. The tendons in her neck stood out, ragged pulse visible. Her eyes went wide and her body tensed as I gently wrapped my fingers around her throat.

  “What was that you were saying?”

  I relished the fear in her bright eyes as I tightened my grip, lifting her chin up, so she was forced to meet my gaze. The sight of her gasping for breath, clawing at my hands, begging for my forgiveness, it calmed me.

  I closed my eyes for a second and let her agony soothe me.

  I imagined Penny retracing her steps, reconfiguring her flawed reasoning, trying to remember when she got so comfortable. The sensation of things moving too quickly to process—time running out.

  “Maybe you don’t want to be a Raven anymore. Maybe you’re jealous and you want the attention that comes with being The Feed, huh? I see the way you watch Marshall.”

  Penny shook her head and tears welled in her bulging, reddened eyes. She gasped and I felt the lump in her throat move as she swallowed. She was shaking beneath the weight of my hand. I loosened my fingers. She was panting, gulping in as much air as she could, her chest heaving.

  When she spoke again, her voice was a thick, hoarse whisper. “I’m sorry.”

  “What was that?”

  “I said,” she sobbed, “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to defy you.”

  A cool sensation of relief washed over me as I removed my hand from her throat and adjusted her collar to cover my fingerprints.

  “Have I made myself clear?”

  She got to her feet and moved toward the door, but as I turned, she stopped. Her eyes widened as she stumbled back a few steps.

  “Dining on twins might be a new and highly sought-after delicacy.” My voice was even, but it was bolstered and ricocheted off the walls. The warning in my tone unmistakable.

  The room fell silent.

  I walked over to the window to look out over the west lawn. Light glowed from the stables, but I couldn’t go there. The horses would know—sense the venom coursing through my veins. Still, I stared out longingly, missing the ease and comfort of being with a creature that shared an intuitive bond. No words necessary.

  Spotting a silhouette moving toward me in the reflection, I heard heels clicking on the wooden floor. The shadow bathed in light revealed perfect posture, shoulders back, exposed neck, chin high.

  An unkindness.

  I remained silent, watching her in the glare.

  “Ask and you shall receive,” Honoré murmured.

  I pivoted to her and studied her expression. It radiated superiority. Direct, probing eye contact. The beginnings of a smirk toying with her lips.

  She moved a step closer, one arm crossed over her chest and the elbow of the other propped on it. “What?” she asked coquettishly, rubbing her pinky finger over her bottom lip.

  “I can always count on you, can’t I?”

  “Absolutely.” Then she huffed and rolled back on her heels, fidgeting with her necklace. “I saw Penny on the way in here. Did you have to do her like that?”

  “‘Uneasy lies the head that wears the crown.’ It’s high time we reminded everyone who runs this wasteland, and that includes any Raven bold enough to defy The Crows.” I raked my hand through my hair and stared blankly at Honoré. I moved within inches, taking a wide stance, and looking down my nose at her. “Will Izabelle be at my party, or do I have to do everything myself?”

  She didn’t hesitate this time, but doubt bled through my faith in her. “I need a few days to work on her, but I’m sure she’ll be there.”

  “Good. I wouldn’t want to have to switch up The Feed.”

  CHAPTER SEVEN

  IZZY

  By Wednesday, I’d gotten good at dodging Crows and Ravens, except for Honoré, who made herself a mainstay of my morning routine before I slinked out of the room. Thanks to a few scenic side roads through the library and billiards hall between periods, and a strategic lunchtime disappearing act into the English lecture hall, the week was eerily uneventful. I got to eat mustard-soaked ham sandwiches in a dark room, safe and unbothered—the perfect place to watch a video no one wanted me to see.

  I typed “Emily Sutton Desert Badlands death” into the search field.

  The screen lit up with articles and images of what I assumed was her pre-Feed status face. The first one was her school picture. She was beautiful, w
ith light brown hair pulled back with a gold and burgundy headband, warm honey eyes, and a full pout. She looked innocent and nice, which was saying a lot about anyone at this school. Every article included a quote from a friend or family member saying how she was an angel, funny, easy to talk to, and an all-around good person who they couldn’t fathom ever taking her own life.

  The headlines were blinding.

  17-year-old Desert Badlands Girl Commits Suicide After Being Bullied

  Girl Found Dead in Dorm at Desert Badlands

  Nevada Girl, 17, Commits Suicide; Police Investigating Whether Bullying to Blame

  Desert Badlands Academy Student Commits Suicide After Being Publicly Shamed by Boyfriend

  Girl Kills Herself Because of Cyberbullying After Sex Tape Leaked

  I wanted to stop. I was sick to my stomach. I didn’t even know this girl and my eyes were filled with tears. What happened? Whoever did this to her, was it worth taking someone’s life? She was someone’s friend, someone’s daughter... My mind snagged on that thought, and I shoved away the anger and the agony and kept digging.

  I didn’t know whether to be sad for this girl, or mad at her.

  For the people who loved her. The ones she left behind to mourn and beat themselves up for not doing more, for not seeing the signs. People who sat around waiting for something to happen while they tallied the hurtful things they’d said or done. They panicked over every loved one left behind to make sure it didn’t happen again. It was a double-edged sword, with two parties to blame. I wanted her to tell someone too. Let people know she was hurting. Give them a chance to help save her—figure out what they did wrong.

  My brain was boiling as I cursed under my breath. I was mad at her and every damn one of the people who did nothing to help her.

  I wanted Emily to reach out. I wanted her friends to know to look beyond the picture-perfect smile for the signs. I wanted the people doing the hurting to just stop.

  “Shit.”

  Tears burned freely down my cheeks as I searched and finally, on some site which required me to confirm my age, I found the video. I swiped my tears away and pressed play.