by S. E. Law
“Yeah, and she’s staying local, which makes me happy. I signed her up for a prep course this summer to help her prepare for the fall. I don’t think Renee has studied a day in her life, so she needs to get used to it,” Colt laughs.
“Oh…great,” I say blandly.
No matter how hard I try to sound happy for Renee, my voice remains the same: tired and emotionless.
“Give her a call later. I’m sure she’d love to hear your words of encouragement. I’m just her father; she doesn’t like listening to me,” Colt laughs. “But she trusts your opinion.”
“Okay, I’ll do that.”
After I hang up with Colt, I throw the phone across the room and grunt my frustration. How the fuck am I going to get through this? I’m not only going to have to distance myself from Renee, but from Colt too if I want her to live a normal life and move on.
Or maybe it’s just me who can’t move on. Part of the reason for my pushing Renee away was for her to be able to live a normal young adult life, but the thought of her getting over me and dating someone else rips me apart inside.
21
Renee
My suitcase sits on the floor as I think about what else I need to bring for this stupid college prep course Daddy signed me up for. I’ll be staying in New York City for a week, and I’m hoping the time away from Tarrytown will give me clarity. I need to work out a plan to tell my father about the baby.
There is no way I’m giving my child up. I figure I can make up a story about some boy in New York who knocked me up and doesn’t want anything to do with me or the baby. That way, Kane doesn’t have to be burdened, and I won’t ruin his friendship with my father.
Sitting down on my bed, I bring my knees up to my chest. I just want to cry. I’ve had to hide all of my emotions over the past couple of weeks, and it’s been incredibly difficult. Luckily, Dad has been working so much that during the day, I can cry my eyes out about my broken heart.
Not to mention the despair I’m feeling over the fact that I’m going to be a single mother. I know my father won’t abandon me when I need him the most, but he doesn’t have time to help me raise a baby. It will be just my son or daughter and me, trying to get through this together. The thought terrifies me, but at the same time, I’m excited to be a mother.
Even in a situation like this, I can’t imagine giving up my child, and that makes me all the more disgusted with my own mother for walking out on me when I was a baby. I can’t imagine what my father must have gone through, dealing with his own heartbreak while having to raise me.
Kane hasn’t called me or my father. Dad suspects Kane’s distance has to do with a new woman in his life. The thought of Kane avoiding me is way better than the idea of him with someone else. I can’t deal with that possibility right now.
The doorbell rings; I figure it’s Chastity. She’s been doing her best to cheer me up and get me to be social. Usually, things are the other way around. It’s always been me coaxing Chastity to go to parties or to the beach, but now that summer is here and her college plans are set, she’s been more carefree. Plus, I think she’s forcing herself to be more of a social butterfly in order to help me get out of my funk. Her plan is failing miserably, but I appreciate her efforts.
As I head downstairs, the doorbell rings again.
“Hold on,” I call out, jogging over to the door and opening it.
Kane is standing on my doorstep. It takes me a moment to process that it’s really him. He looks like he hasn’t shaved in weeks, or slept either, for that matter. He looks gaunt and sickly, which makes a flood of worry rush through me.
“Hey, Renee. Can I come in?”
“Y-yeah. Are you okay?” I ask as he walks through the door and I close it behind him.
Kane just shakes his head and stares at me with his weary blue eyes. I’m scared; I’m not used to seeing him so out of sorts.
“I’m sorry,” he sighs. “I wanted to leave you alone. To make life better for you… but I needed to see you,” he swallows. “I miss you desperately, Rey.”
Tears well up in my eyes, and I rush into his arms, hugging him tightly. Kane’s arms wrap around me, and I relish in the feeling of his strong embrace.
“Can you and Dad stop deciding what’s best for me, please?” I ask through my tears. “You’re what’s best for me, Kane. I want to be with you, and I don’t care what the risk is.”
Kane’s lips touch my shoulder, the scruffiness of his new beard tickling me. He pulls away from me and looks into my eyes.
“I want to be with you too, but…”
I don’t let Kane get another word out. I kiss him longingly, giggling halfway through.
“Can you lose this thing?” I ask. “I’m too ticklish.”
Kane chuckles and raises his eyebrows. “Everywhere?”
“I guess we’ll find out.”
We kiss again, making our way to the couch in the living room. Sitting on top of Kane, I wrap my arms around his neck as he smiles at me.
“I’ve missed this so much. Just sitting here with you in my arms.”
I smile. “I have too. You have no idea what I’ve been going through.”
“Oh, I do. Trust me, I do,” Kane says, brushing my hair off my shoulder and kissing my lips sweetly.
I don’t dare tell him that I’ve also been dealing with the news that I’m carrying his baby. I have no idea how he’ll react, not knowing if he even wants kids, especially now at forty-five.
“Your father tells me you’re staying local for college.”
I shrug my shoulders. “With my grades and late admission, I didn’t have many options. Besides, all of these colleges feel the same. I might as well stay close to home… to be near Dad… and I’ll admit, I didn’t want to be too far away from you either.”
“Aw, Rey,” Kane sighs. “We’re crazy idiots, you know that?”
I laugh. “I’m okay with that.”
We start kissing again, and Kane’s hands roam my body, making me hot all over. His lips trail down my neck to the top of my breasts as his erection presses against my thigh.
Kane removes my top but doesn’t bother fussing with my bra. He licks my nipples through the thin silky material, causing me to moan out his name. He flips me onto my back and unbuttons my shorts.
I wiggle my hips to help him pull them down, and like he did with my bra, Kane licks me through my panties.
“My sweet baby Rey,” he grins up at me, sticking his tongue out and licking up the length of me.
I shiver and squirm, especially once his beard rubs against my thighs.
“Don’t tease me,” I say through heavy breathing. “I need my candy Kane.”
With all of our role-playing, we’ve developed sexy nicknames for each other. Kane’s blue eyes cloud over with lust as he pulls his mouth away from me and releases his beautiful cock from his pants.
I quickly pull my panties off and grab his throbbing erection, guiding it to my pussy. Kane slowly sinks into me, and we both sigh happily. Neither one of us moves, simply enjoying being connected for a few moments.
Kane lies his body on top of me and kisses me passionately. His tongue mingling with mine makes my pussy even wetter than it already is. Kane starts thrusting gently; the small movements are delicious torture.
I wrap my legs around his ass, pushing him deeper into me, and Kane groans out his approval. My pussy pulses around him, and he takes that as a cue to pound into me.
A series of long, loud moans escape my mouth as I orgasm. Kane smiles down at me as my nails dig into his forearms.
“I’m pretty sure the neighbors heard you,” he winks as he continues to thrust into me.
“Nope, just me,” a voice says loudly.
Kane and I both turn to see Daddy standing in the doorway of the living room. Holy shit. This is so fucking bad! To have your father walk in on you while you’re having sex is bad enough, but when he walks in to see his best friend’s dick inside of you, it might as well be suicide.
“Get the fuck off my daughter!” he yells, looking away from us before he screams out profanities to himself.
Kane pulls out of me and quickly stuffs his hard, wet dick into his jeans. He hands me my top as I put my panties on. The look on his face is a mixture of fear and concern.
I’ve never been so terrified of my father in my life. This isn’t like cutting class, drinking, or smoking pot. Hell, this isn’t simply my father finding out I’m sexually active. This is him literally seeing his little girl being fucked by his best friend—my godfather. Kane was so right. Daddy can’t handle this!
22
Kane
Once Renee is dressed, she rushes over to Colt, and I try to grab onto her arm to hold her back. I’m not sure what Colt is capable of right now. I can’t imagine how furious he is. I quickly follow her, feeling a need to protect her, even if it’s from her own father.
“Dad, I’m so sorry you had to see that,” she apologizes, trying to sound as sincere as possible.
Colt looks past Renee, though. He stares at me with a taut jaw and rage in his eyes.
“You fucking disgusting bastard!” he shouts as he shoves me so hard I hit the wall.
“Colt, I’m not going to fight you,” I tell him, holding my hands up in defeat.
“I trusted you with her! She’s your goddaughter, for fuck’s sake!” He shoves me again.
“Colt, can we talk—”
My words are interrupted by a punch to my jaw. Shit, he packs a hard punch. We’d gotten into a few bar fights in college together, but back then, we were always on the same side. I adjust my jaw as a throbbing pain takes over my face. Renee screams and runs over, throwing herself between Colt’s fist and me.
Colt doesn’t drop his fist, though. The rage in his eyes can’t be calmed.
“Renee, get out of the way!” He grits his teeth as he tries to push her aside.
“Rey…” I say, not wanting her to protect me and afraid she’ll get hurt trying.
My interference falls on deaf ears, though. Renee holds firm in her spot between us as she tries to reason with her father, who is not capable of reason at this moment.
“I love him, Daddy!” Renee cries out.
Her proclamation surprises me, but it does nothing to calm down the storm brewing inside of Colt.
“Move, Renee!” He tries to shove her, but she grabs onto his arms.
“I’m pregnant!”
Renee once again surprises me, but I’m afraid this news will push Colt over the edge. Maybe Renee is claiming to be pregnant because she thinks it will get Colt to back away from me. Or maybe it’s true. Either way, I don’t feel safe about Renee standing in front of her furious father.
I know Colt would never really hurt Renee, no matter what she does, but I also know he is pushed too far off the edge right now to have any reason left in his brain.
Immediately, I pull Renee backward into my protective arms.
“Colt, we’ll sort this out later,” I snarl at him as he stands there still ready to pounce. “Just leave it alone for now.”
“Leave it alone?” Colt yells. “Who the fuck do you think you are?”
Renee is sobbing softly into my chest, and all I know is that I need to get her out of the house. We need to talk, and obviously, we won’t be able to do that with Colt around.
“Renee will be at my place. You can talk to her once you calm down,” I say as calmly as possible.
He looks at me like I’ve lost my mind as I walk Renee toward the door.
“I’m sorry, Daddy,” she whispers, looking over her shoulder at him.
“Renee, you leave this house, and you’re never coming back!” Colt yells. “As for you and me, Kane—you’re dead to me!”
I swallow the lump in my throat. Renee is now shaking in my arms.
“I’m sorry, man.” I look back at Colt before opening the door.
Once we’re in the car, Renee curls away from me as she cries. I want to comfort her, but I figure it’s best to let her cry it out. I reach over and squeeze her hand. She holds on to me the rest of the way to my house.
The ride to my place has me still wondering if Renee declared she was pregnant to save me from Colt’s fist or not. Her declaration of love for me had sounded sincere, though. I know she wants to be with me, but I don’t want her to give up her future for me, and I need her to know that.
23
Renee
Kane hands me a cup of herbal tea as I sit on his couch with puffy eyes. He’s being incredibly calm and comforting, which surprises me. How come he’s not freaking out that I’m pregnant? Or that my father has probably disowned me and hates him?
His hand rubs my back as he sits down next to me.
“Better?” he asks after I take a sip of the tea.
I nod, setting the tea down and leaning back against the couch.
“Kane, I know you didn’t want this. Any of it. For my father to find out… for me to…” I stop myself and sigh. “The baby is yours…” I say, hoping he realizes that.
His eyebrows lift up and he chuckles.
“I would hope so! Unless there’s someone else?”
“No! There’s only you,” I giggle. “I know this wasn’t in your plan… having kids. I’m sorry. I should have gone on birth control or something, but…”
Kane put his hand up to stop me and shakes his head.
“I didn’t exactly do anything to prevent this from happening,” he smiles slyly. “I never said kids weren’t in my plan. I just never had anyone I wanted to have them with before.”
He puts his hand on my thigh and looks at me with tears in his eyes.
“Having a baby with you will be a dream come true. I know you’ll make a wonderful mother, Rey.”
I’m overwhelmed by Kane’s words as I put my hand on top of his and squeeze it in response.
“I love you, baby. So much.”
Letting out the breath it seems I’ve been holding in, I wrap my arms around him.
“I love you, Kane.”
He squeezes me against his strong body.
“We’re in this together,” he assures me just before we kiss passionately.
I press my forehead to his and look into his eyes lovingly.
“I can’t believe you’re saying all of this. I was so worried you wouldn’t want us,” I say, nodding down to my belly.
“Oh, Rey. There’s nobody I’ve wanted more. You’re giving me a family… That makes me ecstatic,” he grins before it fades into concern. “But I’m worried about you. What about school?”
I laugh and give him a sideways look.
“You know I don’t give a damn about school. I was just going to make Dad happy.”
Kane lets out a sigh. “I don’t want to crush all of his dreams for you in one swoop.”
I pout and look back into Kane’s eyes.
“I’ll think about it,” I say, snuggling into him. “Do you think Dad will ever forgive us?”
“You, yes,” Kane says confidently. “Me, I don’t think so, Rey.”
I look up at Kane’s face. When he sees me looking, he puts on a fake smile. Sitting up, I kiss him softly.
“I never wanted to come between you two.”
“Don’t blame yourself, okay? Sometimes, things are out of our control.”
“And you think this was one of those things?” I laugh at him.
“You can’t control who you fall in love with, right?” Kane winks.
I jump on him and kiss him, wanting to pick up where we left off before Daddy walked in on us.
24
Kane
A month has passed since I found out I was going to be a father. My entire life changed that day. I no longer work for my own personal success. Instead, I work harder and faster because when my baby comes, I want to be there for him or her, and I want to be there for Renee.
She’s been nesting over the past couple of weeks, and I love seeing her motherly side come out. Every day when I come home,
she’s done research on the best car seats or on breastfeeding techniques. The girl who hates to study has been working hard to prepare for the arrival of our child.
The best part of it all is that Renee and I no longer have to hide our relationship. We go out to romantic dinners and kiss in public. Sure, sometimes people stare or occasionally think I’m her father, but we just laugh it off.
I couldn’t be happier… well, one thing would make it better— Colt’s forgiveness. But I’m not holding my breath on that one.
After work, I head home. To my surprise, in the driveway is Renee’s Nissan that Colt and I got her for graduation. I walk through the door and call out to Renee.
“Baby, how’d your car get here?” I call out as I walk into the living room to see Chastity sitting down with Renee.
A few suitcases are lying in the middle of the floor. A sudden panic washes over me. Is Renee leaving?
“What’s going on? Hey, Chastity,” I wave to her.
“Hi, Kane,” she waves back.
“Chastity brought my car and a bunch of my stuff over,” Renee explains. “Dad asked her to.”
I raise an eyebrow. “Seriously?”
Chastity smiles. “He asked me how Renee is doing, and I told him that I have never seen her happier. He actually smiled about that. He told me he wants her to have her car because she can’t drive the baby around in Kane’s pick-up or Mustang.”
Renee laughs, and I catch her wiping tears from her eyes. I know how much this one small gesture means to her. It means the world to me as well.
“That’s really good of him, but then again, I’m not surprised. Colt has always been the level-headed one of us two,” I sigh.
“He’ll come around,” Chastity says, rubbing Renee’s shoulder. “I check on him whenever I can. I know he misses you both.”
“You want to stay for dinner?” I ask.
“Thanks, but I have plans,” Chastity stands up, and Renee follows suit.