“You’re pathetic. I hope she makes you fall in love with her and then stomps all over your heart.”
“Get out of my face,” I warn.
“What are you going to do? Nothing.” She squeezes my face and I grip her wrist.
“Don’t fucking touch me.”
“That’s not what you said a few weeks ago.”
“Things change.” I shove her away.
Jackie starts laughing till she cries. “Wow. You’re already in love with her.”
I grab the bottle I was drinking from and throw it at the wall next to her head. “Stay away from me and stay away from Liri.”
“Maybe I will. Maybe I won’t. That’s the thing about us crazy bitches, you never know when we might snap.” She laughs again and rushes up the steps of the basement.
I lay my head back and stare at the broken shards of glass as they glitter under the black lights. If Jackie thinks I feel bad because she went and got herself in a bad situation, she’s wrong. I gave her the money to take care of her problem. She’s nothing but a slut who gives it up to anyone who is there at the moment to give her some attention. If Ben was smart, he would stay the fuck away from her. Woodrow wised up. She’s all the time trying to get me to fuck her. I slept with her once and she gave me head twice. But you’d think by her account that we dated and fucked like rabbits. The bitch is obsessed with me.
And I am fucking obsessed with Liri fucking Hart and her stupid god damn tights.
I keep remembering how damn sexy she looked in the shower early this morning in nothing but her bra and panties. Even covered in puke she was gorgeous. Her nipples were poking through her bra and her nails dug into my back as she held an arm around my waist for support. I can still feel the scratches as if they were fresh on my skin. I can still feel her slick body pressing into mine.
There must be something seriously wrong with me.
Liri Hart is the devil incarnate.
Hayley and Liam come down the stairs. They are so perfect together it makes me want to puke. They make me sick too. Always touching and kissing like they can’t live without the other.
If Liam wasn’t with Hayley, I never would have met Liri.
She fucking puked all in my bed. I cleaned her up and tucked her into my bed with clean sheets.
“I washed her hair.”
“You did what?” Hayley says as her and Liam take up the loveseat.
“I washed Liri’s fucking hair. I must be sick.”
“I think you’re in love.” Liam chuckles and I flip him off.
He’s got it all wrong. I am in serious hate with that girl.
Love is just another four-letter word. It holds no meaning. No more than the word fuck.
Chapter 19
Liri
Hayley took my car to go spend the night with Liam. I wanted to be a chicken and beg her to stay with me while Hunter came over to talk, but I know I need to suck it up and tell him. I’m not ready to date a guy like him. I’ve been running lines in my head all evening, going over what I will say to him. I have our conversation perfected in my head, but I know nothing ever goes to plan. I don’t want to hurt him. He’s a nice guy, and I know I should stick with him, but I can’t. He doesn’t make me feel the way that Killian does. That boy is in my heart and in my head.
I hear the knob rattle then the door opens, and I figure it must be Hayley. She probably forgot her birth control pills or something. “What did you forget?”
I look up and it’s not Hayley it’s Killian.
There’s a bandage wrapped around his knuckles that is stained with old blood from earlier today. His eyes are glossy, and my pulse is drumming in my ears. I smell his cologne and my body hums with awareness of him.
We stare each other down in a tense silence. Neither of us not wanting nor willing to make the first move.
I break first. “What are you doing here?”
He shoves his hands in his jean pockets. “I wanted to see you.”
“Why?” I demand.
“I just wanted to.”
“Well you’ve seen me.”
“Do you want me to go?”
I arch my brow at him. We are going in circles. I feel like I am on a merry-go-round and Killian is the only one who can make it stop spinning. “Do you want to stay?”
“I don’t know. I had all this shit I thought I wanted to say to you, but I forgot my speech.” He pulls a lighter from his pocket and flips the top open. He repeats the motion, and I remember what he said to me about lighting the match. Is that why he is here?
I shake my head. “You prepared a speech for me? Are you drunk?”
“A little but now that I’m here I think I lost my buzz and my nerve.”
“So…let me get this straight. You needed to get drunk to talk to me?” Annoyance rains down on me, and I start to tell him to just go if he’s going to keep talking around himself.
“Yes. Err…no. Maybe.”
“Killian.”
“Liri,” he mocks.
“Spit it out.”
He shoves the lighter back in his pocket. “I don’t date.”
“We’ve established that.”
“But you don’t fuck.”
Heat spreads through me. “If this is your attempt to persuade me you are doing a shit job.”
“That came out wrong.”
“You sure about that?”
He cups the back of his neck and his face softens. “Look. I meet girls, take them for a ride in my car, and make them feel special…then I fuck them, and never call them again. But you’re not like that. I don’t want to fuck you.”
“You don’t?” My brows draw inward, and I close my eyes. He is giving me a headache.
“Well eventually. I don’t want to screw this up with you. You’re different than the other girls.”
“I am.”
“You are. I want to get to know you. I want to know what your favorite color is and why you love those stupid fucking tights. I want to be your friend. Your best fucking friend and if you let me kiss you and touch your boobs on occasion that could be enough for me until I don’t want to be your friend anymore—until I’m ready to fuck you or you’re ready to fuck me. Do I make sense?” he moves toward me.
“Kind of. I think maybe. You made my brain hurt. But I also think you are a lot more drunk than you realize, and tomorrow when I see you this will all be a blur, and you will go back to being an asshole.”
He stabs a finger at his chest angrily. “I’m an asshole that’s who I am.”
“But it isn’t all that you are, or you wouldn’t have taken such good care of me last night. Why can’t you just admit that you want to date me.” I push him knowing it will blow up in my face.
“Don’t use that word, Liri. It’s against the rules.”
“What rules? I think you might be fucking crazy!” I snap and jump up.
Killian crosses the room to where I stand. “Shh.” His finger moves to silence me. “I’m going to kiss you. Then I’m going to pass out on Hayley’s bed because if I lay next to you, I will have another terrible case of blue balls all night, and I can’t suffer that again.”
That makes me laugh but he cuts me off when his lips come down on mine with a bruising force. For someone who doesn’t want to fuck me he sure is making love to my mouth. His breath tastes of grape bubblegum and liquor. Memories of the night before flash in my mind. Killian down on his knees in the shower washing me. He looked up at me like he worshipped me, and I grabbed him by the hair, and he pressed his face against my panties. He didn’t move to touch me even though I wanted him to.
He said, “If I did, you’d hate me for it tomorrow.” I couldn’t tell if it was the water from the shower spraying down him or if he actually had tears in his eyes when he told me no.
I pull away. “I was horrible to you last night. I’m sorry.”
“Nothing to be sorry for. You tortured me and loved it. We’re a lot more alike than you know, Liri. I think I see parts
of myself in you and that scares me too. Because you have no idea how easily you can destroy me if I let you. You loved knowing that I wanted you…it made you hot. Made you feel powerful.”
Killian kisses me again, and I don’t want him to stop. I didn’t want him to deny me last night. What would he do if I told him that I want him right now? Would he tell me no?
A text sounds on my phone and Killian grabs it off my bed. “Who is texting you this late?” he looks at the screen. His eyes darken. “Hunter’s downstairs.”
“Killian, he’s here so I can tell him I made a mistake and never should have agreed to go out with him because I’m–I want be your friend too.”
“Good. You don’t need to see him though. I can type the message for you.”
“He’s my friend, and I won’t be mean to him.”
“But you’ll torture me by making me sit here while you go see him. Don’t you hear how fucked up that sounds, Liri?”
“He’s still my friend, Killian. Not like you but… don’t be difficult. Not tonight.”
“Then I’m coming with you.”
He’s jealous.
“Okay but you had better be nice and let me do the talking.”
“I can’t fucking believe I am going with you to break up with someone.”
“I can’t breakup with someone I wasn’t dating.”
“Then why do you need to talk to him at all?” His question comes out in a heated shout.
“Why are you being like this? Where is all this coming from? He interns for my Uncle. I don’t want things to be weird and you are making this way more complicated than it needs to be.”
“I’m a complicated guy.”
“Yes, you are. I’m going down to the lobby to tell him that I can’t go out with him on dates anymore.”
“Does that mean you’ll still be seeing him as friends?”
“You can’t tell me who to talk to or who to be friends with.”
“Fine.”
“Fine.” I start toward the door.
“Don’t go out that door, Liri.”
“And if I do? What are you going to do? Tell me you take everything you just said to me back? Tell me you no longer want to see me? Because we both know the moment you don’t get your way that’s exactly what you will do. You’re like a spoiled child.”
“I was going to say don’t go out that door without me, but you interrupted me”
“Oh.”
“Oh.”
My phone goes off again.
Hunter: Did you fall asleep?
Killian snatches my phone again. His fingers fly across the keyboard in a flurry. He hands me my phone with a proud grin. “All taken care of.”
I look down at my screen.
Liri: I’m sorry. I can’t come down now or any day. I’m busy with Killian.
“You did not just send him that?!”
“I did.”
“Why are you acting like a jealous asshole? You told me you don’t want to date me, and I tell you that I am going to break things off with him and you’re still mad.” I can’t win with his crazy ass.
“I don’t share, Liri, and I won’t share you with other guys.”
“It’s not your choice who I hang out with.”
“Shut up and kiss me,” he demands, and I laugh.
“I think you are certifiable. You know that?” I shake my head and he grabs my face.
He nods and claims my mouth again. I don’t know what we are doing but nothing feels as right as when I am with Killian. His hand moves to my boob, and I moan into his mouth. He makes me feel crazy, but he feels so damn good when he touches me. I don’t know if I will ever get him out of my system, but I am going to enjoy trying. He backs me up until my knees hit the back of my bed. My phone buzzes again but Killian takes it from me and throws it across the room.
“Hey,” I protest when I hear it connect with Hayley’s mirror.
“Hush,” he shushes me and pushes me down gently by my shoulder. “I’m in charge,” he growls. “I have the power.”
I nip at his lip and repay the favor of him biting me, reminding him that I hold the power too. His hand moves up and down my thigh. “These feel smooth like butter.”
“Why do you think I like them so much.”
“I bet you feel better,” he teases. His breath is hot on my neck before he starts sucking on the delicate skin of my collarbone. Killian is controlling and demanding, but I find I like it when he dominates me. “Fuck, Liri.” He pulls away from me.
“What’s wrong now?”
“Nothing. I need to cool down.” He pinches his t-shirt between his fingers and fans himself. I move around him to get off the bed. “Where are you going?”
“To brush my teeth.”
I’m at the sink washing my face and going through my routine when Killian comes into the bathroom. I left the door open. He didn’t barge in on me.
“Which one is yours?” he points to the two brushes in the holder.
“Which do you think it is?”
“Hmm.” He stares at the pink and the yellow one. “The yellow one is yours.”
“Correct. Why did you want to know which one mine was?” He doesn’t answer. He takes my toothbrush and squeezes toothpaste on it and uses it. “That’s not sanitary,” I tell him.
He spits and rinses. “Baby, there are places on your body I am going to stick my tongue that will be far more intimate than me using your toothbrush.”
His words make me blush and he smirks as he brushes his tongue.
I’m in trouble.
I love this sweet and playful side of Killian but there are things about his broody side I admire too.
Chapter 20
Liri
“I thought you said you were sleeping in Hayley’s bed?” I giggle as Killian plants sweet kisses along my jaw.
“That was before you took those leggings off and put this frock on. I can’t resist it.”
His hand snakes up the back of my oversized night shirt and he pinches my butt. I yelp and he growls.
“How am I supposed to sleep with you touching me all night?” I complain.
“Who needs sleep?”
“Me. I do. I need sleep. I have class early tomorrow.”
“Fine.” He pouts and turns onto his other side away from me.
I slip my hand under his shirt and skip my fingers across his abs. He has a six pack. I move my fingers lower. “Don’t be a baby.”
He grabs my hand. “Stop teasing me, Liri.”
“How am I teasing you, enlighten me, please.”
“Rubbing on my stomach like that. You make me hard.”
“Really?”
“You can breathe, and it’d make me hard,” he jokes.
“Stop it. You’re just a horndog.”
“No one talks like that.” He laughs.
“Go to sleep, horndog.”
“Only if you promise to stop calling me that.” He rolls to his back, and I move over him, straddling him.
My palms rest on his chest and I stare into those dark eyes.
“This definitely isn’t helping.” He grabs my hips, and I feel his erection twitch beneath me.
“Does this help?” I bend down and bite him on the nipple. I know I am playing with fire, but maybe I want to get burned.
“Ow. No that doesn’t help. Get off me you tyrant.”
“Maybe I want to sleep on your chest.” I wink at him then peck his lips with mine.
“Stop squirming or I’m going to be really embarrassed when I nut in my pants.”
His words only egg me on. “You mean don’t do this.” I rock my hips back and forth as he tries to still them.
“Liri,” he warns. My name comes out like a prayer and I smile. “Thought you said you were a virgin.” He eyes me with suspicion.
“I am, but it doesn’t mean I’ve never been curious, or that I have never thought about sex or touched myself.” I rub my finger over his lips and grind my body against his.
“Mhmm.” I moan and he sucks one of my fingers into his mouth.
“You’re going to be the death of me.”
I laugh and roll off him to snuggle down into the covers.
“I take back everything I said. I am back to hating you.” His hand moves to his crotch.
“Goodnight, Killian,” I singsong.
He groans. “You’re evil.”
“I never claimed to be an angel.”
“No, you most certainly did not. That will teach me to assume anything about you in the future.”
“That would be wise.” I smirk to myself and his arm drapes over my side as he spoons me.
**
I wake up sweaty and uncomfortable, but when I look over and see Killian half hanging off my bed I smile. This stupid jerk makes me happy and feels right in my world. I go to crawl over him, but the process doesn’t work how I intended and we both end up in the floor. Well Killian lands in the floor, and I end up with my lower half on the bed and my face down in his crotch.
“This is not how I imagined getting your mouth on my dick.” He lets out a groan, and I do my best to move without squishing his privates.
“Sorry. I gotta get moving. I have class in an hour. I don’t know your schedule so you can go back to sleep or whatever.” I am trying really hard to hold it together and not act overly excited that he is still here, and he isn’t being a jerk yet.
“Well that’s not going to happen. I just had your face in my crotch. I have all these ideas playing out in my head.” He winks at me and gets up off the floor. “Do you want breakfast?”
“No but thanks. I won’t have time.”
“So skip your shower and come have breakfast with me.”
When he looks at me like he is right now I can’t tell him no. I need to be stronger but he’s so cute when he’s being nice.
“Okay.” I move to the closet and start flipping through my leggings. I pull out my pinks ones with hearts on them.
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