A Love Like Ours

by Christine L'Amour

  Not going down the road about Corinne.

  I find it easier that way to remind her that she has her own goals.

  “I know, the best part though is that I’m not doing this alone.” She takes my hand in hers and holds it lightly.

  The electricity between us can’t be denied. I feel my heart beating rapidly just from her touching me whether it’s hugging me, intimacy or just holding my hand.

  If I don’t feel this way with Corinne, then I know it’s not going to work. The feeling that I feel right this second is the one that I’ve been looking for.

  I don’t even realize that I’m still staring until her eyes move away from mine and she slides her hand away from mine.

  “Sorry.” I whisper to her.

  “For what?” She asks me.

  “I don’t know.” I laugh, shaking my head.

  “It’s okay to like me. It’s okay to want to be with me. That look in your eyes is telling me that’s exactly what you want to do. I can’t read your mind, but I don’t have to. That shine that’s in your eyes right now. That’s undeniable.” She shocks me.

  Not that it should.

  Since the second I met Vicky she’s always been the one to tell it like it is. I can’t deny that, I can’t argue her point because that would mean that I’m lying not only to her but to myself as well and that’s something that I don’t want to do.

  If she had asked me to turn back again in this moment I would. I was one word away from turning back toward home and forgetting all about this.

  “I’m going to take a shower.” She tells me, giving me a wink and getting up from the table.

  I watch her as she gets some clothes out of the luggage that she’s brought. I don’t know what she’s wearing this morning, I can’t wait to find out though.

  I hear the door shut, hear the shower turn on and find myself looking into the future. The laughter and the sadness.

  I look at my cellphone and see that I have a connection again, but there are no messages from Corinne. There are no missed calls from her either.

  My messages have gone through from her and my heart is pounding so loudly I can feel it pounding in my chest.

  I’m scaring myself thinking that she knows what’s going on. She can’t, but that’s not the point. We have nothing right now. Chats is what we have. Video calls, we know each other’s voices. We don’t know each other in the personal aspect of the pain that we feel.

  Chapter Six

  The snow is stopping outside, and it looks like it’s clearing up. I can’t be sure that we’re going to be here tomorrow or not.

  The more I think about it the more anxious I am.

  I don’t know why Corinne hasn’t asked to see what’s taking me so long. She might’ve seen it on the news, watching it and making sure that she keeps up to date on the flights. She knows that I’m coming, I just wish that she would message me, even call me.

  “She doesn’t care about you, you know.” I hear Vicky’s voice as she comes out of the bathroom. As blunt as ever.

  I don’t say anything.

  “If she did you wouldn’t be looking at your phone all the time. You wouldn’t have to wonder why she’s not talking as much as she used to, am I right?” She asks me.

  I nod my head, but I don’t say anything. I can’t even cry about it. Why? I’ve already messed up in my own head.

  “All people want to do is hurt us, cause us pain. I have always moved forward in my life because of the experiences that have happened to me.” She whispers, her words aren’t as harsh anymore.

  “Do you want to get something to eat?” I know she’s only asking because she wants to fill the silence in the room

  The silence rings the truth and I can’t think about eating right now.

  “If you’re going down can you get me something? I’m not really hungry right now and I have to make a few calls anyways.” I turn away from the window.

  “I can.” She gives me a small smile.

  She’s wearing a white pair of jeans and a black shirt. Black high tops. I think they look good on her. She knows about fashion that’s for sure.

  “Great, I will take a shower and do what I need to.” I grin at her.

  She gives me a sad look and heads out the door. The door locks behind her and that’s when I wonder if she’s brought the keycard with her. Without it I will have to listen for the door, which is fine but that’s what runs through my head.

  I know that Vicky’s right. At least on that part. Even if Corinne just wanted to see me as a friend she knew about this trip. She knew that I was taking it and when I was leaving. I sent pictures of my ticket when I got it weeks in advance so that it would be cheaper. She was just as thrilled as I was.

  I’m not hurt and that’s the sad thing. Maybe that should be the sign, but I am hopeful. I have to believe that everything is going to be okay.

  Getting into the shower I bring my phone into the bathroom just in case I get a call. I don’t, but it would just be like me to miss it because I don’t have it.

  “What are you going to do when you meet her?” I ask myself.

  There are no ties yet. I can start with a clean slate with Corinne as if this never happened. I am hopeful that Vicky and I can remain friends.

  I’m not willing to explain that to her now, only because we need each other. She needs my help with her father. I need her help to get through this altogether, I’m not going to tell her that.

  What if Vicky’s right and Corinne’s not who I think she is?

  When I get out of the shower and wrap the towel around myself, I go out into the kitchen for another coffee and I hear my phone ringing.

  I make a run for the bathroom and feel a smile come to my face. It’s Corinne.

  “Hey.” I pick up the phone and put it to my ear.

  “Hey, I’ve been busy. Sorry that I haven’t checked on you. I will say that it looks like things are clearing up on the weather for you. I’ve been watching for updates at night.” Her voice is soft and sweet. She sounds happy to hear from me.

  “That’s great, I’ve been looking out the window here. I thought that you didn’t care about meeting. I mean if you don’t, I can turn back around.” I tell her, giving her a chance to back out.

  “No, of course I want to meet. Life happens you know, but I do want to meet up with you. I want to get to know you. I think that this will be a good opportunity for the both of us.” She giggles into the phone and I feel a smile come to my face.

  “So, what have you been doing?” I ask her.

  “Working. Not like you have to. But it’s hard work.” She jokes with me.

  I suck in my breath. There is one thing that no one knows about me and I hope that no one ever will. I can’t say no one. The only one who knows is Corinne and she makes jokes all the time which I don’t like.

  “I work. I just like my job a lot. Do you have friends that you hang out with?” I ask her.

  “Yeah. I go to the movies, I have dinners, any of my free time is with friends.” Corinne’s voice sounds dreamy.

  “Are you thinking of me?” I whisper, giggling after.

  “You know that I am. I have a friend that I want you to meet too. Her name is Hillary.” She states.

  It’s the first time that I’ve ever heard that name. Why hasn’t she told me about her friend before?

  “How long have you known her?” I ask lightly.

  “Years. We’re best friends.” She tells me calmly.

  Why hasn’t she told me about her? I can’t go crazy on her. It doesn’t matter. Once I get there, we can pretend that whatever has happened her end, my end. We can just let it all go.

  “You’re going to get to know a lot about her when you get here. She’s really fun to be around, she’s always cracking jokes.” Corinne laughs.

  The more she talks about Hillary it makes me feel like an outsider. As if I’ve given too much of myself without even meeting Corinne yet.

  “Hey, I have to go get ready
for work. I will call you tonight.” Corinne’s voice is fast, the only time she talks fast is when she’s nervous or when she’s hurried.

  “All right. Talk to you later.” I quickly tell her hoping that she’s heard me before she hung up.

  Putting the phone down I can’t believe that I’m a little jealous. I’m not the only one hiding things, if I look at it from my point of view.

  Coming out of the bathroom I hear the knock at the door and open it. It wouldn’t matter if Vicky had the key or not. Her hands are full and there’d be no way that she could be able to use it.

  Still in my towel I help her with the food and bring it to the table.

  “Tomorrow we will be on our flight. Six in the morning.” She claps her hands.

  She’s more excited than what I thought she would be.

  “She called.” I tell her, not wanting to keep anything from her.

  “What did she say?” Vicky asks me softly, the smile coming off her face.

  “Talked about how sorry she was that she hasn’t called me. She’s been staying up to date and then…” I don’t know how to say the rest of it.

  “Did she tell you that she loved you?” Vicky rolls her eyes automatically.

  “No, neither of us have said that to one another.” I tell her.

  “Then what?” Her face relaxes. I see that’s a big thing for her too.

  “All she did was talk about what she does. How she has a life. Then her best friend. She went on and on about her and then told me she had to get ready for work.” I clear my throat, pushing a strand of hair behind my ear.

  Looking at the food I’m still not hungry.

  Vicky doesn’t say anything to me.

  “Say something.” I tell her, feeling as if her bluntness has carried onto me.

  “I don’t know what to say. I mean if she wants this to work out why would she talk about her friend more than just talking to you? I would be the one on the other end of the line wondering when you were going to be there. Telling you how I can’t wait to meet you for the first time. You know, all that stuff.” Vicky shrugs her shoulders at me.

  I sit down on the edge of the bed.

  Come this time tomorrow we won’t even be here. The hotel room will be for someone else at full charge and our memories won’t even matter to this room.

  “We can go back if you want. It’s not too late.” Vicky whispers to me.

  I shake my head no.

  “I have to do this. I have to see her in person.” I feel the tears sliding out of my eyes. I’m not sure if it’s because she’s hurt me or the guilt that I feel inside.

  “You do know that you’ve done nothing wrong, right? I mean come on she’s rattling on about her friend. She hasn’t called you until today.” She comes over to me and sits beside me.

  I nod my head and wipe the tears.

  I don’t cry in front of people.

  She holds me in her arms, and I lean my head against her shoulder. Feeling like I’m losing myself just a little.

  “It’s going to be okay it’s going to work out.” She tells me.

  I know that it’s not something that she would just say to make me feel better. Vicky’s not that type.

  She’s straight and to the point.

  The more she talks to me softly the more tears I shed. Wondering if this was how it was supposed to be all along.

  “Don’t give up hope. Deep down I don’t.” Vicky assures me.

  Hearing her voice calms me, I close my eyes and she’s rocking me back and forth in her arms. It’s when I feel her whispering voice at my ear. That’s when my body starts to come alive again.

  “You know what I do to make myself feel better?” She murmurs.

  “Smoke?” I laugh a little.

  “No.” She responds softly, tickling my ear with her hot breath as I feel her hand slowly unwrapping the towel that’s around me.

  Her hand is so soft when she cups my breast. The way she rubs the palm of her hand across my nipple and makes it grow.

  “Is that what you do?” I gasp.

  “Sometimes. With the ones that I’m interested in.” She moans against my ear and I feel her tongue slowly dipping in and out of it.

  I whimper for her as she continues to please me.

  “Lay back.” She instructs me softly and I do.

  My legs are off the bed and my feet are flat on the floor. I let her open the towel completely showing her my exposed body.

  The only thing I’m thinking about is her soft touch. Her hands massaging my breasts, her palms spending a little extra time on my nipples before she lets her hands run down and under them. She holds them in her hands, and I feel her tongue licking at them.

  Chapter Seven

  I hear her telling me to just relax and the more she tells me this the more my body listens to her. I know that I’ve never felt this good before.

  I feel her mouth on mine and let her kiss me softly, she doesn’t try to thrust her tongue into my mouth like I’m hoping she does.

  Instead she kisses down my body. Kissing every inch of it to show me just how special I am in the moment.

  I don’t want it to be just in the moment though. I want someone that’s going to want me all the time.

  Making me wonder if I’m doing the right thing at all by being in this hotel room. Wanting to meet Corinne.

  “Don’t stop.” I plead with her softly.

  “Don’t worry.” She giggles at me and I slowly bring my hands to the bottom of her shirt. I lift it up over her and she slides her arms out as she continues to show me just how special I am.

  I watch her as she takes off her jeans and the smile on her face is that of nothing but pure happiness. I love how comfortable she can be with me.

  “This maybe the last time that we can do this. It’s something that helps me a lot, and I hope that it does you too.” She whispers as she lays on her side on her side of the bed.

  I face her on my side of the bed and press my mouth against hers. I can’t take any more of the soft touch, the teasing she gives to me.

  Vicky tugs my hair, grabbing a good chunk of it as she holds it tightly in her hand.

  The harder I thrust my tongue into her mouth I can’t tell if it’s her that’s moaning or if it’s me. Maybe it’s the both of us together.

  The words ring in my mind.

  It may be the last time.

  I close my eyes tightly and push her down onto her back. I straddle her and thrust against her as I continue to press my mouth against hers.

  She’s moaning for me, breathing heavily as I continue to thrust against her honey pot with mine. I love how it feels, the sensation that’s running through my body. Knowing that I’m pleasing her makes me happy.

  I can please at least someone and that makes me feel good.

  I feel the wetness between us as I slide my hole against hers pressing down harder each time I run up and down hers with mine.

  “God!” She cries out when she pulls her face away from mine.

  “Am I hurting you?” The words come out as a gasp.

  “No, don’t stop!” She screams at me, shaking her head back and forth, gripping my hair tighter and tighter in hand.

  With those words I continue to mash my body against hers. Our nipples teasing each other more and more. I can’t stop wanting her.

  She’s breathing so heavily that her chest is moving up and down faster and I love how she closes her eyes, the way her mouth parts just right.

  I pull away from her and drive my tongue between her legs. I thrust it in and out of her wetness and am shocked that she can be so wet for me.

  “Yes!” She hollers, nodding her head up and down.

  I continue to lick and push my tongue further inside of her. My heart racing, my body starting to sweat with each moan of pleasure that escapes her mouth.

  “God, I’m going to miss you. You have no idea how much I’m going to miss you.” She gasps and whimpers, spreading her legs wider for me.

 
I don’t want to think about that now, I just want to have her juices in my mouth. I flick my tongue across her hole, dipping it into her and then slamming it into her so that my nose hits her clit between her lips.

  The smell of her is making me dizzy. I don’t want to stop eating her until she comes for me. I feel almost high. A part of myself that I’ve never found before as I stare into her eyes.

  She’s biting down on her lip, whimpering and nodding her head as she grinds against my tongue, making me slip further inside of her.

  I love how it feels when she does this, how she grinds her clit against my nose so that she’s the only thing that I can smell.

  It’s then that she comes for me without any warning coming from her mouth. She just releases and I drink her down as fast as I can.

  I don’t want her to stop filling my mouth. Her attitude is tough, but her juices are sweet and it’s such a good combination.

  “My turn, give it to me.” She whines at me.

  I giggle at her and shake my head.

  “Come on, don’t be like that.” She gasps, wiping the sweat from her forehead.

  I tease her just a little as I bring my vagina up her body and it’s when I feel her hot breath tickling me that I sit on her face and press my hands against the wall.

  Vicky wastes no time in pleasing me. The second she’s in tongue reach she shows me how much she enjoyed me teasing her. Making her body feel different and now she’s returning the favor!

  I thrust my hips back and forth. Pressing down just a little harder and watching my labia spread wide as she rubs her nose against my clit.

  Running it back and forth and driving me crazy.

  “Yes, keep going. Just like that. I love it.” I whisper to her, sucking in my breath and letting out slowly trying to control myself.

  I want to make it last. I want to go longer than I had the first time.

  “Yes, this is what I want, this is what I’m talking about. Right here.” I giggle and then moan as she brings her hands to my ass cheeks.

  Vicky spanks me hard just like I had done to her last night. She makes my ass cheeks sting, but I don’t want her to stop.

  “Harder!” I cry out for her.