Madness

I never wanted to fall in love. I lived a life tainted by mental illness and the stigma that came with it. That illness almost claimed my life once and I had a promise to keep­­, a promise that I would live, no matter how much it hurt. All I craved in life was marginal happiness, a little success, and an unfractured mind. I longed for the normalcy that the rest of the world thrived on while fearing the intimacy that could snap the thin thread with which I held onto sanity. I may not have had it all, but I was close...until he crashed into my world. He turned everything upside down and shifted the scales of my balanced world. He was charming and charismatic with a healthy dash of trouble and volatility rolled in. He was completely and perfectly damaged. I tumbled hard and fast. I fell in love with Rory O’Neill and our world was little more than madness....and it was fucking beautiful.